Shadow Slave: Regret Name

My name... I can remember...

my past? I do not know...

My family, my friends, myself...everything is blank.

I cannot recall a thing.

I lie wide awake on an hospital bed in a sort of basement. Next to me is a government agent assigned to take care of me for the time being, tough, right now he is slicking off. Napping.

I raise from the bed and sit up as I take in the scenery. The place is... gloom. The world is dark... pale. I cannot remember what happened.

The government agent has finally woke up, waking up from a sweet dream as he watches me sitting on the bed.

"#&○£♤□>÷&*^"

The officer speaks in a language I do not recognize. However, shortly after I feel a headache as if my mind

was invaded.

The Spell is deciphering the officer's language.

"You finally woke up." He said with a gentle and calm voice. As if his worries were lifted the moment he saw me.

"I am Master Kale. I was task to keep eye on you as you undergo the first nightmare." Master Kale said. His gentle young face could make a man relaxed and be at ease, as if his job was of a guardian angel. Makes you feel secure under his gaze.

Snapping out of my daze, I tried to speak... but I... don't remember how. The spell can translate the language to make an understanding but same cannot work the other way around if I don't even remember any language.

"Anyways, you've been out for almost a month now. You must be confused, dazed, shocked even. So I'll give you some time to refresh. You can go wash your face." And with that, he leaves me in the room.

I raise on my feet. At least my muscle memories still working. I walk around a bit before entering the bathroom. I take a handful amount of water and splashes on my face.

I raise my face and view the mirror. Finally view my own face.

I touch my face with my own hand. The skin is smooth to the touch, the eyes are dark shade, close to black but hold a faint color of red. My hair... it's grown out, covers a good amount of my face and dyed black.

I start to panic, my breaths grow heavy and heavier, my heartbeat is raising. I.... I don't know... I don't know the person in the mirror!

Just... who am I?!

I slowly crouch and sit on the floor, trying to relax myself with slow calming motions. Trying to think, remember in something! When finally something happened.

Runes appeared before me...

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Name: --

True Name: Regretful Pathology

Rank: Dreamer

Attributes: [Gifted Present], [Abandonment of Trust], [Faint of Nothing]

Aspect: [Wasteful Regrets]

Aspect Description: [Living in regrets was proven to be in vain, thus instead of being sorry for past mistake you shall make them your strength]

Flaw: [A New Page]

Memories: [Oblivious Cravings], [Prideful Sin].

Echoes: --

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I sat on the cold floor with eyes fixed on the runes before...

'Are those... mine?'

It seems that I don't have a name... but a true name.

Is it normal? No... it's nothing like Kale's name... unless he hid his actual name. But with such odd name I doubt no one would suspect.

So it's not the same kind of name after all...

So how am I suppose to go by?

'... well realistically I won't be able to introduce myself even if I wanted to, so I think I can put it away for now.'

The rest of the runes showed memories, attributes, aspect and flaw.

For some reason, the flaw makes me concerned.

Flaw Description: [You Have No Past]

The answer appeared right when I got curious and that might have answered the biggest question I

had up until now.

It seems that I lost every faint memory or evident of my past... including my name.

My breathing sustained after getting an answer to my very own existence...

It seems that my Aspect and True Name are derived from Regrets yet my past is removed so it lefts me with none... that's ironic..

Well with that over with, I can now check my aspect.

Aspect: [Wasteful Regrets]

Aspect Rank: Sacred

Aspect Description: [Living in regret was proven to be in vain, thus instead of being sorry for past mistake you shall make them your strength]

Innate Ability: [Pangs of Shattered Memories: [Oblivious Cravings], [Prideful Sin].

Ability Description: [Regrets exist to burden the soul. With each burden, your soul will grow heavier.]

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Unbeknownst to me, a sacred aspect is a very worthy aspect. But the innate ability seems to give me a disadvantage. As I live in purpose to carry burdens or sins... do I really deserve it?

Without much delay, I kept inspecting the runes.

Aspect Ability: [The Price of Freedom]

Ability Description: [Each person has regrets. One must face them in order to overcome their inner demons. Bring forth those demons and use them as your own strength instead.]

I cannot really understand what this is all about... but either way I should check it more thoroughly later. Next, I should see those attributes of mine.

[Gifted Present: you are a human, made from desire, yet you're aware. The nothingness won't hunt you for you are aware of something.]

[Abandonment of Trust: a world beyond is revealed before you. Not a realm but the spirits of regrets and sorrows. Those who could not find comfort, look for solace. and yet, you're their messiah.]

[Faint of Nothing: A fragment of a previous world, yet live in another. Your impact has stained the livings ,and yet, you do not belong among them.]

Each one of the attributes had the mystical air around it, as if they reached a realm beyond my understanding... for now.

I also checked the memories. The armor, [Prideful Sin], surprisingly, was awakened of the 6th tier, but [Oblivious Cravings] was an awakened long sword of the second tier. They both hold the attributes related to mind attacks.

[Oblivious Cravings: a creature lives behind the dimension you or perceive fell in battle by the hands of a distant echo. The creature was a sign of bad omen and known for colliding with the mark of Shadow God].

[Prideful Sin: once there was a wanderer who travelled across the realm. After years of facing death with every corner and turn the wanderer became proud to be the first reach the highest of mountains. Alas, such arrogance brought his demise]

The sword could inflict a minor damage to the soul why the armor held resistances to physical, mind and soul attacks. All of them were quite formidable.

The sword was grey, shrouded by an invisible aura... like a bad omen. The design itself was quite plane but a person could clearly tell there's something off with the blade. The sword had another enchantment, one I could not tell... but I feel like it's related to the aura surrounding its blade.

Lastly, the armor. It was a coat... made of blue-ish grey silk. It was mesmerizing... as if a mist of grey condensed within the silk and materialized in a form of the clothing. It could easily cover my entire body.

Those were my runes. Quite long time has passed and I need to give Kale some answers... but I cannot

speak the language yet.

Leaving the bathroom, Officer Kale gave a warm smile, waiting for me while sitting on his chair.

"So, you regained your composure?"

With a gentle and calming tone, his word resounded around the room.

"You can return to your family, go back to your old life, join the government or you can join the academy. Both the government and the academy will take care for your basic needs of course. They will also teach and prepare you for the upcoming winter solstice where you'll be sent into the Dreamrealm."

An academy... would be my best chance. I don't have anywhere else to go and no one to take care of me. Or maybe I do but simply forgot due to my flaw.

The academy could also teach me other basic knowledge I am lacking.

Helplessly staring at Master Kale, I simply think of how to communicate when suddenly I noticed

something... some blur raises above him.

It looks disfigured and unrecognizable but also strangely resembled... him.

The blur approaches me, but it does not seem hostile... I can almost... no, certainly can feel its intentions.

The intention is not intending to attack but... deeper than that. I can tell it craves to see someone... his daughter.

Thinking back, it's probably the result of my [Abandonment of Trust].

[Abandonment of Trust: a world beyond is revealed before you. Not a realm but the spirits of regrets and sorrows. Those who could not find comfort, look for solace. and yet, you're their messiah.]

So this "world" is occupied by spirits like this one, Quite like emotions. With me being a "Messiah" I can probably be sort of like a medium between them.

'If so then, maybe I can...'

I stretch my arm towards the spirit, trying to touch the disfigured face. I... can feel it.

The spirit startled and backed away a bit... but so did Kale. His relaxing and gentle face tensed up as his eyes widened up in surprise.

After a moment of silent, Kale covered his expression with an awkward cough

"S-sorry. I did not expect that... so is that your aspect?"

I nodded.

"Well. It's quite interesting. I don't know how but it seems that I already know your answer..."

I glared at him, mesmerized, because his spirit seems to reflect the same emotions. shock and surprise. The spirit just reflected his deepest emotions at the moment.

Shortly after Kale regained his calm composure so did his spirit return slowly go the same agony it felt before.

"So you pick the academy. That's good. We honestly couldn't find any record on your past but that's not for you to worry about... just a bit of a mess on our part."

It seems as if my past truly abandoned me.

With that, Kale arranged a PTV for me. After the smooth ride I got dropped off before the giant gates of the academy, with face forward, I took the first step of my future without a past to turn back to.