I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

Chapter 106 My wife (18)

Saying the phrase “a little bit like” is more like giving people some room for improvement than expressing their intentions, but Xu Jiao doesn’t want to be more shaken, so she changes her feelings during this period of time. Thoughts, and those real emotions that are unwilling to speak, are replaced by such invitations.

Zheng Zhiyu raised his brows.

The pale face made her facial features more delicate, and even the dark, ink-like eyes that looked like a Wang Youtan looked particularly eye-catching under the moonlight in the middle of the night, so she stared at Xu Jiao quietly, and waited for two The silence between people had been brewing long enough before she asked aloud:

“Jiaojiao, can I use your words as an invitation?”

Xu Jiao didn’t have too much expression on her face, as if this way she could suppress the eagerness in her blood and the passion that had been engraved in her bones in sweat. She still held Zheng Zhiyu’s wrist, but slightly turned it away. Turning his head, it seemed as if he could not bear the cold and hot gaze of the other party.

After no longer looking at each other, as if resisting, he still held the opponent’s hand but took the next step——

She put Zheng Zhiyu’s wrist on her neckline.

“You didn’t seem to have so much nonsense before?”

Today, Xu Jiao is wearing a black and white plaid shirt. The first button on the neckline was not buttoned when it was designed. Therefore, in the V-shaped part that is slightly exposed, the direction of the clavicle on both sides can be clearly seen. This is the middle of the night. The moonlight became very bright, and even a circle of moon halos hung in the sky. The light fell, shining Xu Jiao’s soul into a translucent appearance, and the collarbone became whiter and dazzling.

Obviously being seduced by the sweet and sweet soul of the other party, Zheng Zhiyu still had to pretend on the face. Hearing Xu Jiao’s words, he smiled and gently pulled her into his arms, almost moving. Without much effort, as if just a flick, this person as light as the wind came to her.

Zheng Zhiyu wrapped her hands around Xu Jiao’s waist, and her lips were close to Xu Jiao’s pale red lips, as if she was about to open her mouth to swallow this man’s soul in the next moment, exuding an unspeakable sense of strength and possession, but she He just stopped moving, and then, his lips moved down a little bit.

The faint cold breath fell from Xu Jiao’s lips to her chin, and then to her neck.

Xu Jiao involuntarily tightened the strings in her mind.

Although she doesn’t know the difference between herself in the soul state and when she had a body, her instinctive reaction to the closeness from Zheng Zhiyu seems to be the same——

Just want to escape.

It was a fear that was unclear.

Not from pain, but from the fear of “out of control” itself.

The senses sink, and the senses completely dominate all of one’s own, and all the responses of the senses come from the other party, as if they are dominated. I don’t know what will happen in the next second, and how much the threshold of happiness will be raised.

In fact, Xu Jiao herself is a very insecure type. She has analyzed herself many times from the inside, and even thought about why she fell in love with the neighbor’s sister back then. One of the answers to this kind of psychology Yes:

She is insecure, unwilling to pin her soul and feelings on a real person, afraid of disappointment and being disappointed, very

It’s difficult to give up trust easily, so I miss someone who doesn’t exist anymore. I know that the other person is very kind and has helped myself a lot. As long as I don’t touch, all impressions of the other person will stay in the best. Moment will never change.

For her, that person is a benefactor, a teacher, and a spiritual support who can talk about comfort when she later experiences setbacks in life.

Xu Jiao defined it this way.

So she doesn’t like one thing to escape her control, and she never wants to find any real love——

until now.

All the reason and all the past experience in her mind are telling her that the person in front of her who loves her is still suspicious and is not completely trustworthy. If she really decides to transfer her emotions to Zheng Zhiyu, the most Fortunately, all things about the other party have been explored without leaving any ambiguity.

Even if it’s just a little bit of liking.

In an instant, those sane voices turned into tens of millions of blocking hands. In Xu Jiao’s mind, she was constantly pushing her in the opposite direction to Zheng Zhiyu, some of them were persuasion, some were unpleasant vigilances:

“You still don’t know the real reason for being selected by the system this time, and you don’t know her true identity. How dare you just entrust your emotions to someone who you don’t know or understand at all?”

“When emotions overwhelm your reason, you will make stupid decisions. You have seen too many people like this, and there have been too many in your writing, right?”

“Have you ever thought about it, maybe the more you make her ask for it, the more she will think about it, once you let her get it, maybe she won’t be so rare?”

“Don’t become the kind of person you look down on most.”

Xu Jiao closed her eyes, and those voices appeared in her ears intricately, loud and small, as if she didn’t want to miss any opportunity to pull her back from the cliff.

She was quiet for a while, and heard the emotional voice in the corner of her inner world:

“Why must it be deceived?”

“Why do you fall in love with a liar who lied to the essence, a **** who plays with people’s hearts by any means, a criminal who has been loved by others but does not know how to cherish it, and is always pursuing nothing-a bitch, or a deep mind type?”

“You know human nature, you know where your bottom line is, and you will always stick to your principles and bottom line. Even if you find that you have misunderstood the person for a moment, one day you discover the truth, will you continue to make mistakes? ”

“Be mentally prepared to be able to withstand the wrong results, don’t be hampered by sunk costs, and always be prepared to be self-reliant. Under this premise, what’s wrong with boldly liking someone you like?”

Xu Jiao stood there and didn’t move.

Zheng Zhiyu didn’t know why she suddenly closed her eyes, raised her hand to touch the corner of her eye, and said in an ambiguous, low-lying voice, as if it could turn into an entity to entangle her whole person:

“Why can’t you wait so much today?”

Xu Jiao had made a decision in her heart. When she opened her eyes, her expression was already firmer. She raised the corner of her lips slightly. Because Zheng Zhiyu was slightly bent at this moment, from the point of view, Xu Jiao was right to her. A little condescending looking down.

This makes Xu Jiao feel that she is always in control of the initiative.

feel.

She likes this.

Hearing Zheng Zhiyu’s words, she provoked unhurriedly: “I always do things vigorously and resolutely, no matter if I refuse or agree, it has always been like this, but you–”

“Before I was always eager to try and want to get close to me, now I invite you, and you are holding back, could it be…”

“You can’t do it?”

Zheng Zhiyu: “!”

It doesn’t matter what the attacker is said, but you just can’t hear the word “no”!

Right now, Zheng Zhiyu doesn’t care what Xu Jiao’s psychological activity was just now. He only holds the fluttering soul of the other party, and ascends to a high place, as if to take Xu Jiao to pick the stars and moon that day. , The silver brilliance has become more and more dazzling.

…

The cold wind is slow, the lonely moon hangs in the sky, and at night, he insists on being the brightest light in the world.

I don’t know how many lost people get fingerprints, and there are occasional sounds from the forest into the sky, sometimes it is the roar of unknown animals, sometimes it is the sound of birds that come out to hunt in the middle of the night.

Xu Jiao was really taken too high by Zheng Zhiyu. Those movements sounded too far away, and she was a little confused.

The experience today is really incredible–

She was taken to the cloud by Zheng Zhiyu.

The vast sea of ​​clouds that I had seen through the window while sitting in the plane thought that only Xiuxian or the mythical world could touch them, but Xu Jiao didn’t expect that these clouds in the spirit state would be completely different from when he had a body.

The clouds formed by countless water droplets now feel like soft cotton candy. The first time the fingertips touch them, there is actually nothing too obvious to feel, waiting for the coldness of the droplets to pass. In my mind, I suddenly realized that I had encountered a cloud.

But Xu Jiao raised her hand and looked carefully, only to find that there was nothing in her hand.

No ice or water was touched.

Only the feeling truly remains.

I don’t know if she is too light, or she suddenly walked to the Lingyi Channel’s world view to be unreasonable. She was able to stay above the clouds with Zheng Zhiyu, looking at the high moon, as if she could reach it with her hand.

The silver light dazzled her eyes a little too brightly.

It’s Yue Hao that took her eyes out of it.

Thinking of this, Xu Jiao raised her arm to block her eyes, but the light in front of her eyes and the shards of light had not dissipated. There were two invisible sounds from her mouth, leaking from her throat. , Such as soft language, like yin.

She only then realized afterwards–

The halo is not because of being too close to the moon, but because of…

She was shaken too hard.

Xu Jiao thought vaguely, it must be because her soul is too light and the wind in the sky is too big, that’s why Zheng Zhiyu swayed like a boat in Zheng Zhiyu’s movements. If she didn’t pay attention, she would fall from the top of the cloud. Go down.

Originally, the two of them were still in the middle of the cloud that was out of sight, but Xu Jiao hid and reached the edge of the cloud. She herself didn’t have any fear of heights, but now there are stars in front of her, and the whole world is full of stars. Regardless of the difference, it seemed that they were all spinning in her mind, and Xu Jiao naturally wanted to grasp something instinctively. .

But this cloud bed…it looks like a water bed.

Five fingers spread out, there

She scratched on the cool, smooth surface, and she couldn’t leave any traces except wetness. On the contrary, because she wanted to grasp something too strong, when she was empty, the sense of panic in her heart would aggravate in an instant.

For a while, it really seemed like she was afraid of heights.

Going back is to allow Zheng Zhiyu behind him to understand herself more deeply. Going forward, she can fall into the clouds. Xu Jiao is stuck in this dilemma. She hasn’t waited for her to clear out anything from the chaotic mind. Zheng Zhiyu’s choices and thoughts are getting closer.

The coolness fell on the back of her neck. At first, Xu Jiao thought she was being kissed by the other party. When the starlight in her mind receded, her whole body suddenly tightened and relaxed, and then she felt the pain in hindsight.

I was bitten.

This sentence came out slowly in my mind.

Xu Jiao didn’t react, her eyes were a little open and she looked in the direction of the moon ahead, her fingers tightened, as if pulling the edge of the clouds and refusing to let go, she let out a heavy breath, as if she was too agitated before. It caused this breath to be stuffy in the chest for a long time, and now I can really breathe.

Zheng Zhiyu stroked her hair, pressed it to kiss her profile, and watched Xu Jiao’s eyes slowly recover from the chaos, just when the traces of passion and desire were about to disappear in large quantities—

She saw Xu Jiao’s eyes widening suddenly.

Zheng Zhiyu laughed lowly.

The tone was full of joy.

As naive as a kid who succeeded in a prank.

Xu Jiao’s breath paused, and then her whole body trembled uncontrollably. Zheng Zhiyu noticed her trembling, lowered her head to bit her ear, and asked her unhurriedly:

“Didn’t you just say that I can’t do it?”

“I’m not starting to prove myself? Why are you so surprised?”

The soul that Xu Jiao was talking about was throbbing, as if it were going to turn into water in the next moment, she could only flow gurglingly, and then she would not be human. The words of forgiveness have reached the tip of the tongue, but out of a certain bone, she insisted Forbearance.

It’s a pity that by the time I said it, I was fragmented and couldn’t hear the original appearance.

“No, I want…”

“enough……”

“stop……”

There were also more difficult-to-speak content that rushed to her lips. Xu Jiao didn’t know how much perseverance she took to swallow the shameful content back into her stomach, and only utterly refused.

She couldn’t catch any more clouds.

For a while, it seemed that the sky was full of the moon, and it was like the sky and the ground were full of stars, and there was dazzling light everywhere. Xu Jiao kept shaking her head. Now that she has changed to a more sensitive state of the spirit body, she realized that it was the most terrifying thing to make herself cry until she couldn’t cry.

People in the soul state are not so easy to shed tears.

But some stimuli wash out the senses even more.

Xu Jiao bit her lip, shaking her hands and feet and pushing Zheng Zhiyu with the ground. Because of her extreme patience and depression, the words that came up were all one by one. Zheng Zhiyu noticed her patience, and kissed with some distress. Her lips.

He said casually:

“Shhh.”

“Look there.”

Xu Jiao was transferred by her

Attention, I felt that she moved a lot slower, so she obediently moved her eyes to see where Zheng Zhiyu signaled, and found several rows of birds flying by and away.

It’s an unknown bird.

At first Xu Jiao couldn’t find out if they were the same group, until they found that they were flying up and down, coming and going several times, seeming to focus on the two of them.

Xu Jiao’s image right now is not the one that can meet people–

The buttons on the hem of the shirt were loosened, not to mention further down, it was obviously just the innocent look of the animal, but it made her feel a great sense of shame in an instant.

She raised her hand and waved. She had never been so embarrassed before, trying to drive away the birds:

“Go away…”

“do not look……”

Don’t look at it.

It’s very embarrassing.

Even if the bird doesn’t even know who she is.

She waved her hand in a mess. At first the bird was really frightened and fluttered its wings for a long distance, but then, out of curiosity, it fluttered the flapping wings not far and near.

Xu Jiao couldn’t drive away these birds, she could only cover her face. This time she really cried and scolded:

“Asshole.”

Zheng Zhiyu saw that she was really frightened, the originally constricted Yin Qi dispersed, and drove the birds away from a long distance, and some even fled and stumbled away.

After chasing off the onlookers who want to watch action movies for free without paying, Zheng Zhiyu kindly promised Jiao’s words:

“Well, I’m asshole.”

“Hey, they just came, really, you kiss me, huh?”

Xu Jiao refused to put her hand down, and Zheng Zhiyu deliberately used even heavier force to fiddle with her.

Until Xu Jiao really cried, it was the stimulation of the sense organs that reached the limit, and the whole person couldn’t bear it, she could cry in the state of the spirit body.

She closed her eyes, letting the tears fall from the corner of her eyes–

at the same time.

The large cloud that carried the movements of the two of them swayed slightly from side to side in the sky, and rain water dropped steadily, bathing in the forest dribblingly, splashing a little green leaves with this moist trace.

At first this movement was not very obvious.

However, this cloud is not small, it is almost the largest one hanging on the nearby mountains, so after the first drop of water that cannot bear it falls, it seems to open a valve, and thousands of drops of water follow. After that, it started to rain in the sky.

After Xu Jiao reacted from the brief lack of consciousness, there was a rustle of rain in her ears.

Zheng Zhiyu held her in his arms, lay on this raining cloud, and whispered to her:

“It’s raining.”

Xu Jiao faintly replied, “En.”

Zheng Zhiyu said again: “The ground is wet.”

Xu Jiao didn’t pick her up.

So Zheng Zhiyu went down by himself: “I was also wet.”

Just now, Xu Jiao was immersed in the hard-to-return experience. Now that she heard Zheng Zhiyu’s words, she didn’t respond at first, until her ears took this sentence into her mind, and she turned a few times before she became nervous. react–

She lazily opened her eyelids to look at the man in red next to her.

People lying on the clouds can get wet if they can’t get the rain?

The two looked at each other for several seconds, and then, Xu Jiao violently bit towards each other’s shoulder, with a lot of effort, Zheng Zhiyu didn’t know whether it was painful or not, and could only hear her. laughter.

This time there is a sense of satisfaction in the pleasure.

Xu Jiao became more angry as she listened.

What was originally a normal natural phenomenon, now described by Zheng Zhiyu, is like her reaction…that caused such an unprovoked rain on the ground.

Even the silent rainwater that moistened things would be soiled by this sentence.

The speaker is really hateful.

Xu Jiao didn’t have the energy to scold this cheeky guy, she just gritted her teeth in silence.

Zheng Zhiyu gently touched her cheek with his fingertips, as if teasing and pitying, Xu Jiao bit herself for a long time before faintly reminded her:

“Are you the first person to dare to bite a ghost?”

Hearing this, Xu Jiao stopped for a few seconds.

Then she silently let go of her mouth, turned over, straightened the corners of her wrinkled shirt, and slowly buttoned up the button, facing Zheng Zhiyu with her back, and emphasized:

“I don’t eat game either.”

Zheng Zhiyu: “…”

She couldn’t laugh or cry, and she didn’t argue with Xu Jiao about this strange classification. She just hugged the person and brought it down from the cloud again.

The body is still on the roof, although the soul is out of the body, but if the head freezes all night outside the house, when Xu Jiao goes back, it is probably not a bad cold, and she can’t escape top-heavy.

…

When Xu Jiao was put back into her body, she was already sleepy and tired. When Zheng Zhiyu hugged her back to the house, she fell asleep completely.

The next day, she was awakened by a neighbor.

Xu Jiao changed her clothes at random, only to find out about the situation when she went out.

It turned out that Xu Dashu went out this morning with a pole, and when he saw people he said he wanted to kill ghosts. The neighbor was frightened, and he was sent to the hospital in the town. He wanted to inform the rest of the family, but he came in and found that Xu’s mother had fainted. The hall, so another one was sent.

At this moment, seeing Xu Jiao yawning out as if she was okay, the neighbors’ eyes looked a little bit wrong with her.

Someone tentatively asked:

“A Jiao, your father and your mother seemed to hit a ghost last night, did you see it?”

Xu Jiao put down her hand and took away the sleepiness and tiredness in her eyes. Then she answered politely: “No, Uncle Liu, I fell asleep when I got home yesterday. You saw it, and I woke up at this point. .”

After a pause, she said again: “Is there any ghosts? Uncle Six, don’t scare yourself. I think they should have done something wrong in the middle of the night. They can’t get through the conscience. You scared yourself. .”

Onlookers: “…”

Don’t know why, they vaguely made up a scene from this subtle mockery.

For example, two couples wanted to kill their unfilial daughter in the middle of the night, but they didn’t know what scene they saw, and they frightened themselves.

Or Xu Jiao secretly beat the two of them, and directly defeated one of them, and the other was stupid.

Combined with Xu Jiao’s sturdy one-to-three when she first came home, the villagers felt that the latter one might be a great possibility.

One

Time, everyone sees her expression is very complicated.

Xu Jiao only glanced at it and guessed what they were thinking. Seeing everyone eager to try to call the police to clean up the unfilial descendants of the old Xu family, she took the initiative:

“But I think this is a bit strange.”

“I have to ask the police-chat to see what the **** is going on? If you don’t clarify this, you might think people are scared of me. I can’t do this kind of thing.”

People are not really scared by her.

Zheng Zhiyu did it all.

Xu Jiao nodded in her heart, calmly preparing to call the police for self-examination, making a call with one hand and rubbing her forehead with the other. Perhaps it was because the body was still blowing for too long last night, and now she always feels a little headache.

Of course, it may also be due to being awakened early in the morning.

She dialed the phone, and she didn’t say a word, suddenly the whole person was spinning around–

The people around looked at her dumbfounded, and it took a long while to help her.

“Oh! This baby is so hot! This is a fever!”

“Gosh!”

Hearing this, Zheng Zhiyu, who originally wanted to help out from the house, stared at the foot he stepped out, wondering whether it was better to advance or retreat.