NOVEL NEXT Everyone’s break: Lucina
Lucina POV
I stare at the ceiling in my room. I bring my hand to my lips. FUCK! NO! ARGH! DAMNIT! This isn’t right. Her suddenly kissing me doesn’t surprise me for some reason. I already knew that she does whatever she wants and there’s nothing anyone can do about it. I know that and I’m already used to it but what I can’t accept. What I can’t FUCKING accept is how I FUCKING liked it!? What the fuck!? Why did it feel good!? WHY!? This isn’t how it’s supposed to be. This isn’t how I am supposed to be.
“FUCK!”
I cover my mouth as I shouted. Luckily, most of the others are already gone so I don’t really need to worry about them. But still, fucking bitch motherfucker. Why did I like it? It’s not supposed to be that way! I hate nobles. They were the ones who killed my parents. I knew that. It took a lot for me to move on from that. At one point, I just wanted to go crazy and kill every single noble that I can until I died. I considered that but the old man stopped me. But now what? This place is crawling with them. Fucking crawling with them like bugs.
“Damnit. ARGH! I can’t stand it!”
I shout with all my might. Why was I even worried? Nobody is here anyway. Fucking piece of shit. I already gave up on avenging them. I just wanted to move on but that motherfucking girl keeps fucking with me. I’m already at my limit dealing with the prince. I can at least tolerate him. He is a good guy. Not like that shitstain. Just thinking about her makes my blood boil. Seriously, why doesn’t she just fucking disappear? ARGH!
“Shit, my room is a mess.”
I pick up some of my broken things from the ground. I don’t really have anything important with me anyway so it’s fine to break some of them. But I just wasted some of my money. The money is from the school but its still a waste just destroying all of my stuff.
“But, what do I do now?”
Like, seriously. My mind is a mess. I don’t even know what to do with myself. I can at least be happy that she’s not around. Juliet just went to my door a few days ago and shouted about it then left. What is Juliet doing anyway? She probably doesn’t have anywhere else to go since she lives near here.
“The longer I stay here the longer is messes with my mind.”
I could tolerate it in the beginning but I made a mistake in telling her that name back then. It irritates me that I feel happy that she hasn’t told it to anyone else but it just makes me mad knowing SHE’S the one who knows. Fuck! Why did I say it to her!? ARGH!
“Deep breathes. Calm down.”
Gah. The longer I think about her the angrier I get. I really should just leave but where will I go anyway? The only reason why I’m here is because I didn’t really want to stay at home and I did get some allowance since I had the highest grade at the beginning of the year. Should I become a mercenary? Nah. I heard that some other country has a adventurer’s guild but where in the hell would I even get the money to go there? No way in hell am I gonna join some bandit group. I don’t wanna get involved in whatever kind of bullshit they would do like that time a few months ago. Gah, the more I think about it. The less ideas that I have.
“But, I really should at least leave this place a bit.”
Again, where will I go? There really is only one place I can go.
“Should I? Can I really go?”
I really hesitate. Its like there’s something inside me telling me not to go. But like, why? Which is more annoying? Staying here and being reminder of that fucker or going home and dealing with all of those old geezers? For some reason, something in me is telling me to stay.
“Well, fuck you whatever you are!”
Gah. The more I feel like I shouldn’t go, the more I want to go.
“You know what? Fine, I’ll go. Fuck it. Whatever happens, happens.”
As I decide that, I immediately pack whatever stuff I can get. I don’t really need a lot. I can just use whatever I find on the way home. I already walked from home to here so going from here to home shouldn’t be that hard.
“Alright. Let’s go. I’ll clean you up when I get back.”
I ignore the mess in my room and open the door. I stand in surprise as someone was standing in front of me.
“You finally came out! Wait, what’s with all of those? Are you going somewhere?”
I scratch my head as I answer.
“Yeah. Just didn’t feel like staying.”
“Oh. Where are you going?”
“Gonna go home. I don’t really got anything to do so I figured going home would be a good waste of time.”
“Ohhhhh. Can I go?”
“Huh? Why?”
“Dunno, seems fun to travel with you for a bit.”
“Nah. Smells like trouble.”
“Please?”
“No.”
“Pplleeaassee??”
“I said no.
“Pppllleeeaaassseee???”
“I already told you no.”
“Pppplllleeeeaaaasssseeee????”
“For the last time, no.”
“Pppppllllleeeeeaaaaassssseeeee?????”
“Argh, fine.”
“Yay! So, when you plan on going?”
“Now.”
“Right now?”
“Yeah. Just decided so going right now.”
“What about your room? Looks like a mess.”
“Meh. I’ll take care of it when I get back.”
“No!”
“Huh?”
“Don’t worry about it. I’ll help you. Then, we can go on our adventure!”
“Nah. Don’t feel like it.”
Juliet ignores me and goes inside. She starts cleaning the room. I consider if I can just leave her behind and go. I look outside then back at her. I put down my bag and sigh.
“Fine. Let’s just hurry this up.”
“Okay!”
