NOVEL NEXT chapter 53
53 – open (3)
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“want to do.”
No answer comes back.
Sylvia-san just stared at me with her eyes wide open without a word.
Are you surprised or bewildered?
Having kissed and caressed like that just a moment ago, I wonder if I hadn’t even thought about the things beyond that.
I got anxious.
I felt like I had done something very wrong.
I wasn’t sure if she loved me, but at least I was sure she wanted me.
It must have been arrogance.
what was the problem
Because it’s too fast?
there was a possibility
We haven’t even known each other for two months.
Could it be that all of this was my misunderstanding?
I thought maybe we were sharing love, or at least intense s*xual urges and desires.
But maybe Sylvia was just petting me like a pet.
Of course, her kisses and physical contact were distinctly different from petting a dog or cat.
Maybe I was just a cute pet to her, a convenient housemate who did housework, and a doll to soothe her loneliness by hugging from time to time.
Silvia-san was looking at me with a hard expression for a long time.
I don’t know what the hell you’re thinking.
It didn’t seem… a good idea.
Even if it’s me, I’d feel very strange if my pet lusted after me.
Suddenly, your face heats up.
A violent shame, distinct from shyness or shyness, seemed to forcefully press my head down, so I lowered my head and avoided her strange gaze.
I closed my eyes tightly.
A second passes as slowly as a year.
Shame runs through my whole body.
It was all the more embarrassing because she was not even wearing a single thread.
Unlike my neck, the part of my body that exposed my desires still didn’t bow, so I felt more, more, more, more embarrassed.
It’s hot up to the ears.
I was so ashamed I wanted to die.
how much time has passed
She got up slowly, picked up some clothes that were far away, and walked to the cabin.
In the meantime, she didn’t say anything, and for some reason she took my clothes and left at once.
She must have been embarrassed too.
I muttered in a painful voice.
“…I committed it.”
Apparently I made a big mistake.
I still couldn’t figure out what was wrong, as I had never experienced a woman before, but I was very solemn.
I slightly raised my head.
Sylvia-san was walking slowly and slowly, but she was already far away.
At that moment, a chill ran down my spine and a cold sweat broke out.
Goosebumps ran down his spine and he began to tingle under his shoulders.
“OMG,”
I know this feeling.
It was the fear she felt all day until Mr. Sylvia returned today.
The darkness that suddenly filled the whole world seemed to choke me.
“Ah… ah… ah!”
I jumped up with a strange noise and ran, scattering sand.
It was so frightening to see my already vulnerable body exposed without any protection.
It was fine until a while ago…
Oh, Mr. Sylvia.
It’s because Sylvia-san is gone.
“Sylvia!”
I screamed and ran toward Mr. Sylvia.
Sylvia turned around blankly, saw me, and approached me in surprise.
He lightly tapped my trembling shoulders and stroked my hair once.
Then he grabbed my trembling hand and didn’t let go until we reached the cabin.
All the while, she still didn’t say a word.
But once she held my hand, my trembling stopped.
Maybe if I had a tail, every time she held my hand, I wouldn’t have waved like a watchdog.
It felt reassuring just to have her by my side.
Now I can’t even go out without her.
To be able to leave the cabin only after taking it for a walk,
It’s like a real pet.
I have grasped my subject once again.
At the same time, I was worried about how to look at Silvia-san from now on.
After passing through the completely destroyed entrance of the cabin, Mr. Sylvia threw the clothes of the two of us on the table and went straight into her room.
Then, her strong hand, which did not let go of my wrist, led me into her room as well.
“Sylvia… Mr.?”
bang!
As she slammed the door shut, I felt the tightness of her grip as if it were about to crush my wrist, and I frowned.
“Oh, it hurts. Sylvie…”
“ash.”
Her voice was very disturbing.
only two letters. I just called my name, but the pitch was twisted arbitrarily.
Her face was obscured by her hair, but an inexplicable fear filled the room.
“…ash.”
“…yes yes?”
“Nini… n… nini… nini nini… nini,”
“…Sylvia-san?”
She let out a grotesque voice like a broken music box.
I could see her whole body vibrating little by little, not wearing a single thread like mine.
…Maybe I was angry because I said something presumptuous.
I tried to apologize to her.
But all that came out of my mouth was an inaudible scream.
I felt like my wrist would break.
Sylvia-san suddenly grabbed my wrist and yanked my body against the wall.
Then, as if to block the escape route, the other arm hit the side of my face hard.
I could feel the hut made of thick logs swaying slightly.
“you…”
“Sin… Sin, sorry…”
She covered my lips with the palm of her hand.
I blinked my eyes in amazement and looked at her.
Dark emotions overflowed in her red eyes.
She spat out slowly, letter by letter, in an unstable voice that fluctuated like crazy.
“You asked me to do it.”
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surprised.
I was so surprised that I couldn’t even speak.
I never imagined that those words would come out of your mouth.
Yeah, I knew Ash was a man.
That’s right… How could you not know when you’re pushing the manly part like that?
To be honest, I got wet in the river earlier.
It’s not because of the river, it’s because of Ash.
Because the way she wanted me and clung to my body was really cute enough to make me go crazy.
It was cute how you hugged my back with all your might, and even your trivial strength, which says that strength like this is all you can, is so lovely.
Why are you so good at kissing on such a subject?
No, I’m not really good at it.
To be more precise, I don’t know what kind of kiss I’m good at, but I’m not really good at kissing like this where the area around my mouth is covered in saliva.
but there is ash.
your kisses are so sweet
Dangerously sweet.
It’s so f*cking sweet, it’s like tearing my brain out.
It’s like ripping open between the folds of the brain and then pouring chocolate into it.
okay?
Every time I kiss you I feel like dying
And I love kissing you enough to die for.
It’s not just kissing.
When I hold you tight, it feels like every muscle in my body is drinking sugar.
If you stick your nose in my throat, it smells like a poison apple, very dangerously sweet.
Every time I kiss your chest and the nape of your neck and leave marks, every time I carve my teeth marks on your skin, my desire for conquest and satisfaction is met with an unbelievable level of satisfaction.
right?
I can tell instinctively.
That this is a dangerous pleasure.
That this is not a pleasure to be granted to a hero who has sworn to sacrifice for humanity.
Because it’s so sweet, thrilling, and happy.
Because I know very well that this kind of happiness cannot be given to me.
Maybe this hedonistic pleasure is the result of my guilt for the wrong I did to you working like a spice.
I want to ‘I shouldn’t be like this’, but that’s why I want to do it even more.
Ash there.
This is what we’ve done so far, but what about more than that?
Do you really think I’ve never thought of that?
It’s been every day since the first time we slept together.
really every day
is it true?
After I went hunting, there was a time when I secretly comforted myself alone in the grass.
Because I thought it couldn’t be allowed.
I thought there was no way Ash would allow it, and there was no way something as happy as this would ever happen to me?
So I really, really really wanted to put it in, shake it, and squeeze it out right away, but I just barely held it in.
know?
But, what if you say something like that?
you want to do it?
Ha, you want to?
Ash… with me?
want to have s*x
Do you want to do as much as me?
really?
Ash, have you been as patient as I am?
Since when?
From the time we rolled on the sand and kissed?
Or from when we were snuggling in the river?
Or, waiting for me alone in the cabin?
maybe last night? Wasn’t it before that?
Tell me, why didn’t you tell me?
If I had told you, I wouldn’t have to do such a terrible thing.
no no.
Do not misunderstand.
I’m not blaming Ash.
I don’t get anything bad
Ash did nothing wrong.
But… I’m not blaming you, but I’m a little disappointed.
The time I’ve spent so far is too precious.
If Ash had shown off a little sooner, we would have been hotly mingling by now.
aaa
oh, how good it feels
I can’t even guess, I can’t even imagine.
Could I really die?
Isn’t this f*cking curse carved by the damn lizard and I’m going to die?
I hope so.
kill me ash.
kill me in a good mood please.
In the bed, in the hut, in the river, in the sand.
I love how Ash wants me.
I was really enjoying your gestures of wanting me with my whole body.
I like that anxious look you make when I stop kissing you.
I like the strength of those trivial fingertips holding my waist and back.
I love those cursed red eyes that literally took mine out.
I like hair black as night.
I like Ash’s soft cheeks.
I like the protruding collarbone.
I like breasts where hard bones can be touched.
I like the ribs that you can feel when you stroke them with your fingers.
And below that, further down.
Right now, even at this moment, it makes me excited as if I’m expecting something, I’m really curious about it, so I love it.
Hey. ash.
isn’t it strange
Isn’t this obviously weird?
I’m not your favorite person, can you be like that?
I don’t like it, can I kiss you?
I don’t like it, but can I hear that painful breathing?
Are you a male prostitute?
it’s not
that means you like me
Right?
ash.
family.
Did you want to be a family with me too?
Did you just say no because you were shy?
yes?
Right?
Say yes. right now.
Say you want to be a family with me right now.
Or Ash.
Is it because you’re just lonely?
Because it is lonely, because it is difficult, because it is painful, because it is afraid, because it is scary, because it is painful, because it wants to forget.
So you just want to use my body?
under.
I’m not angry.
That’s okay.
really, sincerely
I don’t care if you use me like that.
Rather welcome
i love it.
I want to be used by Ash.
I really miss seeing Ash feel better with my body.
Think about it, Ash.
isn’t it strange
You still don’t know that I know
You are Maria’s sister.
my colleague.
He’s a colleague like my life and the younger brother of my best friend I met at the academy.
Honestly, does this make sense?
Does it really make sense that Ash is Maria’s younger brother?
Actually, I thought about it while returning from the river earlier.
Ash knew my name before I came to the cabin.
You knew about the existence of a hero named Sylvia.
Of course you would have known
Because it’s my precious older sister’s colleague.
Because he is a hero who died after defeating the Demon King with his sister.
Well, that’s it.
I mean you didn’t partly tell me about Maria.
You didn’t say a word to me even though you knew I was Maria’s colleague.
You must have been wondering what happened to your sister, but it means that you partly held back and hid it.
Why did you do that?
why didn’t you tell me anything
I’ve been thinking about it.
Doesn’t Ash know about his sister at first? I thought so, but it didn’t seem like it again.
Because you knew Maria was dead.
Anyway, I just figured it out after thinking about it for a long time.
ah,
Ash is considerate of me
He partly hid it because he feared that I would suffer if he found out that he was Maria’s sister.
I could tell right away
Ash is a good kid.
It’s so nice, so special and pretty.
Oh, look at this.
wet again
Hey. ash.
At first, I felt so guilty because you were Maria’s younger brother.
I am so sorry that I want to die.
But, not anymore.
This feeling grew bigger than guilt.
I don’t want to apologize to you.
I want to give you that crazy love that burns and melts completely.
Maria was my best friend.
And, of course, you are her brother.
there is I call it like this
It’s called ‘destiny’.
I think Ash was the man of my destiny.
yeah, don’t you think so too?
So we
we really now.
Let’s be a family.
I’ll make you pretty
I’ll make you feel better.
I’ll accept all of Ash’s hard things.
And now, honestly, I know you want it too.
To be clear, I stayed still.
however,
“You asked me to do it.”
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