I Became the Maid of the Lout Prince

I felt considerable confusion at Ethan’s touch as he suddenly grabbed my arm, threw me onto the bed, and his hand darted under my skirt.

Until now, I had let him touch my chest a few times, but Ethan’s hand had never reached my lower regions.

“W-Wait a moment, Young Master Ethan!”

“Be quiet, Lilith. Isabel is sleeping.”

“That’s not the issue right now… mmph?!”

Ethan glanced sideways at the servants’ room where Isabel was staying, then completely covered my mouth with one hand. This time, my heart started pounding with considerable alarm, thinking that he might not be joking.

‘I clearly said I needed this power until I dealt with Machart!’

I couldn’t understand Ethan’s actions as he suddenly rushed at me with the intention of taking my chastity, even though he must have heard that explanation. Naturally, I had no choice but to struggle in this sudden crisis of losing my virginity.

Of course, it was nearly impossible to push Ethan’s body away, which had already mounted me, with pure strength alone, so it was rather meaningless to resist.

Both my legs were fixed in place by Ethan’s lower body on top of me, and my left hand was caught by Ethan’s right hand, immobilized. [Only on Galaxy Translations! / Axiomatic]

With his other hand completely covering my mouth, making it impossible to even call for help, he completely subdued my limbs and mouth in an instant.

Squeeze.

“……”

Thump, thump!

“……”

I tried to push Ethan’s body away with my somewhat free right hand, but it didn’t budge at all, and even after punching his side a few times, his body didn’t move an inch.

I only hit his side because I felt a bit sorry to hit his head or face. I also refrained from using magic to resist in this situation because it seemed a bit dangerous.

“Lilith.”

“……”

Nod.

Since my mouth was covered, I just nodded in response for now. I thought it would be better to resolve this through conversation if possible, rather than resisting needlessly in this situation.

Fortunately, it seemed Ethan didn’t intend to pounce on me recklessly, as he was quietly looking at me with a rather serious gaze, conveying his confession.

“Lilith, actually, for a very long time, every time I saw you, I always thought…”

“Mmph…?”

“That you, who are within my reach just by stretching out my hand like this now, might someday leave my side at any moment.”

“Mm, umph…”

“Still, I tried to hold back until now. Because you were always on my side in any situation. Always… well, not always, but in most important matters, you prioritized my opinion over yours, and thanks to the occasional proofs of love you showed me, I was somehow able to endure.”

“……”

It was a rather bland answer for someone who had suddenly thrown me onto the bed. I thought he might take my chastity in an instant, but Ethan was just conveying what he needed to say while keeping my mouth covered.

Looking at it this way, he didn’t really seem like someone trying to rape me. At least, I couldn’t feel the kind of spirit from Ethan now that I felt from that Machart fellow who tried to pounce on me a month ago.

That’s not to say there was no such sensation at all; I could feel that it looked like he was struggling hard between instinct and reason.

“Do you know how angry I was when I heard that you were almost captured by that bastard Machart recently?”

“……”

“I couldn’t sleep properly for days after that. Afraid that one day I might wake up and suddenly find you gone from my side.”

“……”

“And while I still have the anger to tear that damned bastard to pieces, what I was most angry about at that time was myself. I was haunted by the thought that I couldn’t protect you and save you in that situation…”

“……” [Only on Galaxy Translations! / Axiomatic]

“I even thought that if I was going to lose you so miserably to someone else, I’d rather make you mine like this, Lilith.”

“…Eek?!”

I couldn’t help but let out another confused voice at the somewhat shocking confession coming from Ethan’s mouth.

I was a bit grateful that Ethan was honestly telling me his true feelings without holding back, but in other words, it was essentially the same as confessing that he could have pounced on me at any time.

It was inevitable that memories of up until now flashed through my mind at this completely different side of Ethan from what I had thought so far.

“Of course, I tried to hold back. Actually, I’ve been holding back until now. I thought that rather than gaining everything else without winning your heart, it was more important to someday win just your heart even if I lost everything else.”

“Mmph… Umph…”

“But if you keep making me conflicted like this, Lilith, I don’t know what to do. It feels like not only your heart, but now even your body is drifting away from me.”

“……”

“Lilith, you said it yourself. That the worst kind of man is one with a pig-like physique who can’t even manage himself, doesn’t keep basic manners, and sexually harasses at every opportunity.”

Nod.

“After hearing what you said, I learned swordsmanship from my father and lost weight, and I took etiquette lessons three times a week for four hours a day until right before entering the academy. And even though you kept tempting me as if testing me, I never crossed that line you set, not even once.”

…Nod.

“But now you’re saying you’ll join that perverted Hero’s party? The party of that guy who puts his hands on even the Saint and the elf, playing around with women? After talking with him a few times, has that Hero become more precious to you than me now?”

Shake, shake. Shake, shake.

I hurriedly rolled my eyes left and right to deny Ethan’s misunderstanding, as I absolutely couldn’t agree with his last statement.

…Yes, I admit it. I could fully understand that my actions had caused Ethan to misunderstand, and as a result, made him this obsessed with me.

Anyway, it might have been my mistake to decide that I might join the Hero’s party without telling Ethan. I had about a day’s leeway before deciding whether to become a Saint or not, so it probably would have been the right choice to talk to Ethan first and accept his proposal.

Of course, I can’t know whether Ethan would have reacted the same way as now, absolutely refusing, or if he would have nodded and said it couldn’t be helped since I told him honestly.

Anyway, instead of this situation happening, we might have been able to resolve it a bit better.

“Lilith, please.”

“……”

“I really don’t want to do anything that you would dislike. I’m always more afraid of you disliking me than of me hating you. I’m afraid that your eyes might change to a cold and unpleasant gaze like when you looked at me in my younger days.” [Only on Galaxy Translations! / Axiomatic]

“……”

“So please, convince me. Convince me that if I try hard enough, I can win your heart someday. If you can’t tell me that, I might make a terrible choice regarding you, Lilith—the choice of wanting your body if I can’t have your heart forever.”

…What should I do?

Suddenly being told to convince him, there was no way I could give an answer. I had lived a life far from psychology in both my previous life and this one.

But Ethan, unaware of my dilemma, was quietly removing his hand from my lips, so my mouth, though free, opened and closed hesitantly, unable to find words.

“……”

“……”

Ethan was quietly sending his gaze as if waiting for my answer, having pinned me down on the bed, and his expression and eyes were so burdensome that I couldn’t look at them directly.

For some reason, I felt a sensation of heat rising to my face. It was like the day I first realized Ethan liked me after receiving a confession from him.

If the emotion I felt from Ethan then was simply affection towards me, the emotion I felt from him this time was obsession and desire. It was a burning feeling of obsession and desire directed at me.

There was no way I could properly convey words that could convince Ethan while directly facing that passionate emotion.

“Um, Young Master Ethan…”

“Yes.”

“First, could you let go of my hand?”

“Why? Are you going to run away to the Hero this time if I let go?”

“N-No, it’s just… I-I can’t organize my thoughts at all when you thrust your face so close and ask… I-I was wondering if you could move away for a moment…”

“It’s okay. I can wait long enough. If you want, I can wait like this until tomorrow morning.”

“……”

It was obvious that my mental strength wouldn’t be able to endure fully if we stayed like this until tomorrow morning.

But in this situation, I couldn’t think of words that could convince Ethan while being conscious of his gaze.

If I wanted to escape this situation even for a moment and think clearly…

‘That’s right, the spirits.’

In that moment, I remembered the existence of the allies I had momentarily forgotten and sent a rescue signal directly to Sei, the wind spirit, in my mind. I asked her to separate me and Ethan even for a moment in this situation.

‘Sei, Sei!’

[Yes… Lilith…]

‘Please use your magic to separate Ethan and me for just a moment! Just for a moment!’

[Mmm… Can’t do it…]

‘No! You can do it! Like when I fought Agnes in the evaluation duel before, you gently pushed my body with wind magic…’

[But… I made a contract… with you, Lilith…]

‘Yes! Of course you should fulfill my request because you contracted with me—’

[So… can’t do it… What you dislike…]

‘……………Pardon?’

Just as I was feeling confused about what on earth she was saying, Sally, who had been listening to my conversation with Sei, suddenly intruded.

{That’s right, Lilith. We have a contract with you, so we can’t do anything you dislike.}

‘W-What are you saying?! I just asked you to separate Ethan…’

{That’s why we’re saying we can’t help with that. Because you dislike that.}

‘What on earth are you…’

This won’t do. Seeing them spout nonsense since earlier, it seemed these spirits wouldn’t be of any help in this situation. [Only on Galaxy Translations! / Axiomatic]

I just asked them to separate me from Ethan for a moment, but they’re saying I dislike that? What kind of nonsense is that?

As I was feeling the misery of conversing with these spirits who weren’t making any sense, Ethan, who was making eye contact with me, called my name once again.

“What are you rolling your eyes so hard for, Lilith.”

“……!!”

“Were you perhaps talking with the spirits? Asking them to separate me from you?”

“T-There’s no way that’s the case, Young Master Ethan. I-I just got lost in thought for a moment, so it took some time to organize my thoughts.”

“I see. Then tell me now. Convince me that I can someday have your heart, Lilith, please.”

“……”

Well, there’s no way something like that exists.

How could I spout such nonsensical, presumptuous words to Ethan, like telling him to behave well because he might make me fall for him depending on what he does?

I had learned enough etiquette as a maid thanks to Isabel and the head maid, but I had never properly learned the kind of etiquette needed to speak such persuasive words coherently.

…I have no choice. Here, instead of long-winded words, I’ll have to use the most definitive method.

As a former man, I knew best how a woman could show their trust to a man, so I put into action the method that first came to mind.

“…Young Master Ethan.”

“Yes.”

“…I have something to tell you quietly, could you bring your face a little closer?”

“Okay.”

As Ethan quietly lowered his head towards me, thinking I might whisper something, at the moment when his face and mine became so close that there wasn’t even a hand’s width between them…

…Smooch.

…the softest flesh on two people’s faces met once.

T/N

Hello! Axiomatic here.

R-19 chapters 224-226 dropping shortly! I’ll be posting them at the same time.