Chapter 83:
the other side.
Riding a horse and running aimlessly for half an hour, Yong Ye took off the saddle of the horse at a seaside where Kabane was not found.
"...cough... I wish you... in this cruel world...cough...cough...successfully live..."
Gently patted the tame horse, he just let it go.
Then Yong Ye sat alone on the beach, looking at the distant sea horizon and admiring the place where the sea and the sky meet.
To be honest, after leaving the Iron City, he didn't know where his destination was, so he just chose this place with no Kabane and good scenery.
Then all that needs to be done is to wait quietly for death to come.
Although it would be very angry to leave Wuming without authorization, it is better than dying on the Iron City, at least he thought so.
He knew that if he had listened to Wuming's words and hadn't gone to King Kong Guo, he wouldn't be in this embarrassment now. Instead, he would have been able to live well in other fortresses by force, and he didn't need to endure the pain as he is now. waiting to die.
but…
Sure enough.
He can't do such a thing by leaving the child who deeply trusts him and living alone.
It's better to sway your blood and fight to the death instead of living like a corpse.
Although he ended up like this now, it was his own decision.
He didn't regret his choice, or when he went to King Kong Guo, he had a hunch. Since he wanted to use his own hands to protect the necessary existence, he naturally had already prepared the consciousness to face death.
He can kill others, and others can kill him as well. This kind of awareness he had when he first killed.
Yong Ye is not used to showing the pain in his heart to others, because he is comforted by others and does not want to be pitied. He prefers the pride of the strong and being looked up to than the talk and cry of the weak.
So, like now, he dragged his severely injured body and came to this unknown place, admiring the beautiful scenery in front of him, feeling the loss of vitality, and died quietly.
Gradually, the cough gradually increased, and the pain in the heart continued to accumulate every time he coughed. Along with the pain, the consciousness gradually disappeared. When the consciousness completely disappeared, he did not know what would happen.
This is probably death, right?
Life is passing by and disappearing little by little, and Yong Ye himself feels that he has done something stupid. Obviously, at the beginning, it was because he could give up everything that he could live until now.
He clearly understands that if there is something he cares about, it will be easy to die, but he has it accidentally, which... it really makes him a little unable to laugh.
Yong Ye casually wiped his mouth with his cuff and wiped away the blood stains from the corner of his mouth. His face was pale, and he was panting heavily.
He laughed at himself for his miserable state caused by the change in his mentality. He wanted to laugh, but there was no hopeful smile on his face.
Instead, there was only unease and despair welling up in his chest.
Everything you've done in this world - what's your own doing? What is the meaning of his existence? Has he done it?
I don't know... I don't know at all, and I lost my life.
"...But...cough...the results now...cough...not bad...cough..."
In fact, although he doesn't regret it, he still has some regrets. In the end, he still didn't realize the child's dream, but I believe it will be realized in the near future, right?
The smell of blood, the pain, the sight, the hearing, one by one, disappeared, couldn't see, couldn't hear, couldn't feel.
Life is drying up, the blood from the corners of the mouth can't be restrained, and in the crack of the inner heart, life is just like the sand in the hourglass.
Disappear, end, end, everything will come to an end, and the mind is frozen.
On an unknown beach, a man sitting on the sand falls, and the next second, this life will be gone.
But... the next second, it was frozen.
[Pass the first trial, grant the necessary rewards, and then... your existence cannot die. 】【One of my infinite possibilities. 】
[I can't die until I kill me, who has been lost at the end of time. 】【I've had enough of staying here without memory, without tomorrow, without hope, without future, without the void of end. ] [Death in the trial, allowing new possibilities to continue the trial, or killing me to be liberated, you only have these two options. 】Time has been frozen, and no one can hear the voice echoing in the sky.
That is beyond time, space and any concept of existence, that is tired of eternal existence.
He reversed the time, made the world return to twenty minutes ago, made the blood on the ground return to Yong Ye's body like a rewind, and then... disappeared on the beach.
Of course, not just disappearing on this beach, but silently disappearing from this world.
…
Yong Ye's name is as full of malice as he said at the beginning.
Never-ending night, no tomorrow, no hope, no future.
Death is the end, and the end creates new possibilities.
Of course, the new one may be a new person, or some other creature, which has absolutely nothing to do with Yongye.
No, there may still be a point in the relationship, that is, it is one of the possibilities of existence, but as far as Eternal Night is concerned, it is a complete end.
Tired of the eternal creator at the end of time, hoping to die, but unable to kill the eternal self, so the existence of the eternal night was born.
Eternal Night is part of him, of course, that's just part of the infinite possibilities.
If it is the power of instillation, then there will never be a chance to kill him, so what is given is only knowledge, and knowledge is given little by little. , replace him, become the new eternity, in the endless void, experience the torment of eternity.
Of course... even if the end is torture, the risk of getting there is enormous.
But this is not important, the possibilities are infinite. Although the trial is cruel, it will not be a pity for Yongye to die, because there are countless possibilities to be created. He is eternal, and he will wait. He can wait until there is a new possibility of his own, strong enough to kill himself.
Although, this hopes to be infinitely close to zero.
However, the possibility is not completely absent. After all, it is his own possibility. Since those possibilities are all his own, then this possibility must exist, but all kinds of possibilities need to be tried, and all kinds of forces make all kinds of possibilities Try to create the strongest possibility to control the peak of a certain department.
Eternal Night is the possibility for him to become a Juggernaut himself.
A possible death will change the new possibility to another inheritance to continue the eternal trial, let his possibility, let his own possibility break this never-ending night for him one day, and replace him as there is no tomorrow, no Hope, a new eternity with no future.
Of course... During this period, it is necessary to consume countless possibilities of himself, that is, let him die countless times, but as long as he can find the possibility of killing himself, it is worthwhile.
…
"Well…"
Yong Ye, who thought he should die, suddenly reopened his eyes, his consciousness was awakened, and a moan leaked from his lips, and something new was stuffed into his brain, but an inexplicable sense of despair poured into his heart for some unknown reason. .
As if being abandoned at the end of time and experiencing an endless prison, this extremely uncomfortable sense of despair made him unable to resist the urge to commit suicide.
Fortunately, the emotion was only fleeting, so he couldn't hold back.