being in denial of his feelings
“How far will that go?”
“Huh? What did you say, Baek Do-jun?”
“Nothing.”
Baek Do-jun could be sure. In the not-too-distant future, even Yoo Yi-seo will eventually acknowledge his own heart and flounder in the same whirlwind of emotions as other alphas.
‘By that time, we could fight amongst ourselves.’
Now Yoo Yi-seo’s maintaining the sloppy union form that he’s been frozen in, but he thought that if all the alphas realized his mind, they might struggle to push each other away.
The thought that Chan-young would be very happy if such a day came crossed Baek Do-jun’s mind.
Because Sung Chan-young doesn’t love them.
Like how he doesn’t know how to properly care for himself.
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No one touched me, considering I came out with a lot of fear.
“I thought Yoo Yi-seo would hear something when I came out because he was guarding the door, but it didn’t turn out to be the case.”
It was good to happily water the vegetables that came out as big as fingers in the garden, but I was on edge like cacti the whole time.
I hated friction between people. The best thing after comeing down to the countryside was that I was given plenty of time alone.
Loneliness was tolerable because it was an emotion that I got used to while staying in the hospital room when I was sick. I hated it the most when people clashed in the aftermath of unnecessary negative emotions.
‘But why did I hate this……?’
I didn’t even have many friends, but it was strange. I don’t think I’ve ever had a big argument with anyone else in my life. I didn’t remember why I didn’t like it as if I was blocked by a wall.
‘Rather, wasn’t it because they came here to have an argument?’
I know my personality isn’t just nice. I was vaguely aware that I was good at swearing, sensitive, and had to say everything I had to say, but I realized that it was really like that only after transmigrating here.
Joo Tae-kang, Chae Yoon-chan, and Baek Do-jun, who were choosing the land to build an orchard from afar, looked at me, but they did not stop me.
‘Was it Yoo Yi0-seo’s actions? I heard Joo Tae-kang ordered him.’
No. Did he come to me with an excuse of Joo Tae-kang because he had his pride?
‘No, that doesn’t make any sense. What good would Yoo Yi-seo get after bothering me?’
That’s all I could think about. It was because I was paying too much attention to the gongs, who were the actual guests of the house while I was the owner of the house.
“Let’s not be scared. I came down to the countryside to live as I wanted, didn’t I?”
It will take some time to kick out the gongs, but I was hopeful that I would be able to drive them all out someday.
‘If it doesn’t work, I’ll call Chairman Seong and ask him to clean them up.’
With the help of Chairman Seong, no matter how persistent they are, they cannot help but go home. One could easily know this by watching the dinner with Chairman Seong. The gongs were helpless in front of the alpha called Chairman Seong.
Since he is not my real grandfather, it felt difficult to ask Chairman Seong for something, but I changed my mind when I saw him seriously worried when I collapsed due to nightmares.
‘Wouldn’t it be good to rely on him a little bit?’
I also had some greedy thoughts wanting to ask for assistance. But right now, I had allowed the alphas to stay in exchange for labor, so I couldn’t ask.
However, if their stay is prolonged, I will contact Chairman Seong immediately and clean them up by any means.
I felt relieved to organize my thoughts like that. I could now focus on farming again because I thought they were people who could clean up at any time I wanted.
“Ack, I haven’t planted any common beans yet.”
I remembered that I had forgotten the last time I had composted the field and ground it with a tractor. When I wore boots and gloves and went to the field, the compost was moistly permeated on the ground.
“Okay. We can make a big pile and dig a place to plant the beans.”
I was going to bring plastic and cover it at the end like I planted strawberries, but then I heard a voice next to me.
“How can I help you?”
“Woah, you scared me!”
I was surprised by the voice I heard while I was so immersed that I threw out my fist this time. It was a fist that was half intentionally and half reflexively put out in case it was one of the gongs.
Halt
. My blow was interrupted by the hand of the person who whispered help very lightly.
“Seo Eun-soo ssi?”
“Your fist is quite strong, Chan-young ssi. I don’t have to worry about you getting hit anywhere.”
Seo Eun-soo, who was fully prepared to farm from his attire, smiled kindly. He shone more brilliantly under the sun.
I was embarrassed and said anything that came upon my mind.
“Well, as you know, I hit someone, but I’m not the type to get hit, right?”
“That’s true, though. Still, I’m worried because you’re with the alphas over there.”
“You don’t have to worry about me. You’re working lightly, ignoring the fact that those alphas tried to lock me up in the room earlier to rest.”
I showed off my arm with only small muscles by rolling up my sleeves. Even if it’s not the muscles I’ve grown, it was reliable.
“Look, I’m not a weak beta. Everyone is overreacting, but you don’t have to do that.”
“I suppose so. Then as a part-timer, can you give me a job so that I don’t play and eat too much?”
I alternately looked at the beans and Seo Eun-soo in the black plastic bag I was holding.
“Are you going to do it together?”
“I’m embarrassed to do nothing. This is why I’m embarrassed to go under the name of a part-timer.”
‘It’s okay…….’
In the first place, the high salary was set to compensate even a little more for the selfishness of bringing Seo Eun-soo as a human shield and the real Seong Chan-young’s harassment.
I was moved by the good main shou’s attempt to find a job that fits the price, even though he might not like it because he said he was taking advantage of the empty money.
“Then will Seo Eun-soo pile up the soil? To about 5 to 6cm.”
“Like this?”
Seo Eun-soo piled up soil in a round shape like making a toad house during childhood. I nodded and drilled a hole over it to plant the beans.
“This hole is enough for about two to three centimeters. You can plant two or three beans here. After you put it a little deep, cover it with soil and that’s it. Don’t forget to press it hard, too.”
“It’s not difficult.”
“Right? When the planted beans grow, I will be able to cook delicious bean rice.”
I didn’t know much about farming; I was just an amateur, but it was fun to open my mouth to teach someone.
Seo Eun-soo might not find this interesting, but he listened carefully while making eye contact with me without showing any boredom.
“When you’re done planting, cover it with plastic and make a hole for the seeds to come out. So that they can come out when they sprout.”
“It’s worth the effort.”
“Seo Eun-soo will be able to adapt quickly.”
Was it because I was so happy? Because as soon as I stopped chattering, I realized that I was closer to Seo Eun-soo than I thought.
“Yes.”
I felt Seo Eun-soo’s alpha pheromone in the spring breeze. It smells like a festival of fresh flower scents, which is not much different from when he was an omega.
At a very close distance, there was a beautiful man who was brighter than a flower within breath, and his cheeks were flushed brightly.
‘Huh? What? Did I? Have I turned crazy at last?’
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