time at hogwarts

My name is Severus Slip, I am the Potions Professor at Hogwarts, and I am the Head of Slytherin.

The weather was bad today, and my mood was even worse. Of course, I didn't feel like I was in a good mood.The new wizards who have just started school are completely clueless and don’t understand anything. Those pure-blooded little wizards think they have a good family background, but in fact they are all idiots who don’t understand anything. Those wizards from mixed-blood and Muggle families only know everything from books. He is absolutely useless outside, and cannot even make the most basic water of life and death. But although I hate fools, I hate Gryffindor even more!I deducted another 20 points from them today because they made all the potions wrong. Although Slytherin was also wrong, I just wanted to deduct their points because I hate Gryffindor!

Finally, there is no class in the afternoon. I don't want to stay in the academy anymore. Maybe I should go to the Leaky Cauldron for a drink in the afternoon, although I don't think that is a good idea.

I regretted it after I arrived. The weather was bad today and I thought there would be no one there. Unexpectedly, it was full of people. The empty table I was looking for was quickly filled up. Although I was very dissatisfied, I didn’t say anything. Can control one's emotions easily.

I don't like drinking, whether it's hard liquor or fruit wine, it makes my brain confused, and I hate that feeling.As always, I ordered a large glass of sherbet.After a few sips, I saw a young wizard wearing Muggle clothes come in. He looked like he was not even 11 years old. I don’t know how he found this place, and he looked very familiar. I overheard someone talking about that. The child, it seems that his parents are Muggles, and he found out here accidentally, but this has nothing to do with me. Everything now makes me feel very bad, and I am not in the mood to think about some inexplicable people.

But soon I realized I was wrong. I felt someone was staring at me and I turned my head.

It was the little wizard just now. When he saw me looking at him, he subconsciously wanted to turn his head, which is normal. But for some unknown reason, he didn't turn around. Instead, he met my gaze and walked towards me.

I didn't know what he wanted to do, and I didn't want to know. I just looked at him calmly. He was very embarrassed, and then he spoke. It turned out that he wanted to ask me a question. It was so funny. He was just another self-righteous Muggle wizard. After reading some books, I feel a little confused, and you still ask me questions!

I didn't want to pay attention to him and turned my head away. The sound of the wizards laughing around me made me very uncomfortable. I didn't know what was so funny about it. Are they so easily infected by emotions?I really don’t know what to say.The dementors will definitely have an appetite after seeing it!

kindness?He actually asked, what did he say?He has actually started trying to make his own potion?Just rely on reading those books?It's really stupid, I really don't know how much herbs this will waste.But this way, he is not like those arrogant people who only know how to talk after reading some books. At least they know how to make potions themselves.

I decided to give him a chance and give him some pointers on the mistakes he made. I didn't speak and waited for him to talk about his production steps. Unexpectedly, he was ready to leave?I had no choice but to speak.

After listening to his steps, I felt that he was lucky that he was not my student yet, otherwise I would have deducted 10 points from him. There were so many mistakes in making such a simple potion, and it was the most common mistake, but he was wrong. The place is indeed not clearly written in the book, which proves that he read the book carefully and tried many times, but even so, I think he is really stupid enough to have tried it so many times without discovering these problems.

However, after so many years, the wizard's textbook is still as simple and ugly as ever. I casually told him his mistake. He seemed very happy and wanted to try it immediately. It seemed that he really liked to do it himself.Then I answered the mistakes in his two potions, but I was already a little impatient. Today I just wanted to go out and walk around, not teach others.

It seems that he noticed this and ended the conversation consciously. When he was about to leave, he actually wished me a happy afternoon?Haha, happy?My life is full of darkness and misfortune, and the word happiness is destined to never come to me. However, seeing that he was serious enough and willing to take action, I stopped him and gave him my address so that he could use it directly in the future. The owl came to me, and after I gave him the note, I thought I must be crazy. I actually did such a thing. The looks from the wizards around me made me a little uncomfortable, but it was nothing. When the little wizard was about to go out, I warned him not to Harassed me too often.

After he left, I returned to my previous state, but I had some

Absentmindedly, for some reason, I began to recall the past. The boy just now reminded me of Lily.

Lily Evans……

She was also born as a Muggle and seemed very curious about everything. I told her about Hogwarts... I can’t think about it anymore, I can’t think about it anymore, close my brain, close my brain...

I am a master of Occlumency. If I want to, I can easily suppress my thoughts and prevent others from prying. Even Dumbledore and the mysterious man don't want to see the other side of me, but I still feel a little unable to suppress it. I can't control my emotions. It seems that memory is the biggest flaw. I drank a big sip of sherbet to try to clear my brain. I'm a little distracted. I can't help but think about the past, the me I used to be, and them! !My hands clenched involuntarily, and anger and humiliation filled my body. I kept using Occlumency to make me feel better.Just thinking about them made me think of her involuntarily...

So uncomfortable, so painful, so hateful, so regretful, so powerless...

I don’t know how long I was lost in these emotions. People around me didn’t and wouldn’t notice at all. I only knew that the little wizard returned to the bar. It seemed that he had bought what he wanted. I looked He turned back at a glance, and I felt him look at me, but I ignored him. He didn't come over to talk anymore and left directly. I watched him walk out of the bar with my peripheral vision.

It's time for me to leave. I used Floo powder to return to Hogwarts from the fireplace in the bar. I already felt something was wrong. I rarely have so many thoughts, especially when I saw a strange little wizard. memories.

I returned to my underground office at Hogwarts and locked the door with the Door Lock Charm.I felt worse and worse, especially when I came back and saw the heavy rain falling, which reminded me of the night Lily was killed.

"Ah!" I curled up on the chair holding my head. Occlumency had no effect. I kept recalling the past. I thought of Lily. She didn't know Hogwarts at that time, she was just innocent. She used her talent to play pranks. She was so cute at that time, and I had such a good relationship with her at that time, but why did she end up like that? Why did she like that idiot James.

James, that mediocre, arrogant, trouble-making egomaniac, what good is he?Why would Lily choose him?

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Lily, I didn't mean to call you a mudblood, I didn't mean to, really! Please forgive me..." I folded my arms and muttered to myself in pain.

Then I thought about being knocked down to the ground by James, Klein, Lupine and others and being laughed at. Why, why were they targeting me? What did I do wrong?Don't you hate me?Why did you save me then? Why didn't you let me die?

I don’t know why I am alive, I don’t know what the meaning of my life is, why I haven’t died yet, no, I can’t die yet, I haven’t avenged Lily yet, I promised Dumbledore.

I subconsciously took out my wand.

Expecto ? Patromum !(Calling God to Protect)

A silver light lit up in the dark basement, and a bright silver deer appeared from my wand. I hugged her like Lily. I'm sorry that I couldn't protect you. I really Miss you...Lily.

I am now as helpless as an abandoned baby, with regret for my whistle-blowing. This is a punishment, a punishment for me. I will live in such a world forever, without light, without Laughter, no emotion, no love, no... friends... I live like an inferi until... that day... comes!

I don't know how long I lasted in this state. I suppressed these memories in my heart again and released Occlumency to the maximum extent. When I raised my head, I had completely suppressed all my thoughts.

I opened the door and strode out of the office. No one would know what happened, and I wouldn't let anyone know. It will accompany me...to the grave.

I am Severus Slip, my mother is a wizard and my father is a Muggle.

I am a half-blood prince!