The Main Heroines are Trying to Kill Me

“Umm…”

Roswyn, who had been researching all day, sipped on an energy drink while sitting in front of the computer.

“But, what kind of work should I create?”

She mumbled with a perplexed expression, lowering her head.

“There are so many types of works…”

As a novice creator, she had many options before her.

“What kind of work would become popular?”

Standing in front of those choices and contemplating for a long time, she finally mumbled with a glint in her eye.

“…Indie game.”

It can be produced with relatively low costs, usually by individuals or small groups…

“If it’s this, I might be able to do it too…”

After all, wasn’t the work that sustained their world until now a game called Dark Tale Fantasy’?

Although she hadn’t understood the concept for long, it seemed like there was nothing better to excite many people.

“Yes, I can do it.”

And Roswyn had confidence.

“After all, I am GM Mademoiselle!”

Hadn’t she already made a big splash with ‘coding’ and served the game in another dimension?

Moreover, she received praise from the community people for such actions after a long time.

Although everything was erased… The fact that she received praise remains unchanged.

“Alright, I’ve decided! I’m going to make a game!”

She said to herself with a slightly excited expression.

Due to depression that had worsened for several months, her self-talk had increased drastically, and it had become much more severe since she was confined in this space.

Now, she couldn’t stand it if she didn’t talk to herself for even a moment.

“But, um… how do I make it…?”

Still, Roswyn, who had a positive expression for the first time in a while, soon started to sweat and mumbled in confusion.

- Tap, tap…

Then, with a timid expression, she began searching.

“Unaty… making-RPG… Fake Engine…”

A little later, Roswyn, whose expression had turned pale, mumbled in a low voice.

“…Isn’t there any way to do it without coding?”

And so, time began to pass.

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“Hehe… Hehehe…”

A few weeks after she first decided to develop a game.

“Finally… Finally, it’s all done…”

Roswyn, with dark circles under her eyes, looked at the title of the game she had created with an expectant expression.

The Story of the Hero

• Created by Roswyn

“I’m sure it will become incredibly famous!”

The content of the game was simple.

A hero resembling Frey goes on an adventure to catch the boss, the Eye Ghost.

Although she couldn’t use complicated techniques, she managed to create a plausible work using a program called ‘Making-RPG.’

“Well, it’s fun even when I play it… There’s no way it won’t become famous…!”

It was a game that even Roswyn had played and cleared several times, and by her standards, it was quite thrilling and fun.

With this, there was a chance of success.

Surely, it could become as famous as the Dark Tale Fantasy Series.

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“…”

It seemed like just yesterday that she thought so.

“No way…”

Roswyn, who had posted her game on the Blue Star Dimension’s game-sharing community, confirmed the disastrous results with cold sweat.

“No way… this can’t be happening…”

Several days had passed since she uploaded the game, but the views were terrible, and the few ratings it received were the worst.

And the saddest fact was that the only like was from Roswyn herself.

“Ugh…”

With a dark expression, she scrolled down and soon began to tremble.

Sjegdhsi23: Did you make this trash and call it a game?

That lone comment felt like it was digging into her chest and tearing it apart.

- Click…!

“I’m, I’m sorry… I’ll do better…”

Trembling with pale fear for a while, she quickly clicked the delete button and lowered her head.

“Haa, haa…”

Receiving harsh criticism had become a trauma for her.

And the thoughtless comment thrown at the novice developer, who posted the game with expectations and hope, was enough to awaken that trauma.

“…”

She lay on the desk for a long time.

“…Yes, I was too arrogant.”

She mumbled with hollow eyes.

“It was too presumptuous… Creating a game… haha…”

It wasn’t something she could succeed in just because she had bragged a bit about her little knowledge of coding.

After all, what she had done in the Academy Siege back then was simply input basic commands into a running program or discovered an already-made game and maintain it.

Creating a game itself, especially one to replace Dark Tale Fantasy, was a very arrogant and foolish idea.

“Yes… I’m stupid to begin with…”

Roswyn, recalling that she still couldn’t get the hang of Korean and had to use the Empire Language - Korean translation function embedded in the goddess’s computer, mumbled dejectedly.

“I don’t have unlimited time… So, I’ll give up on the game…”

Even though time passed differently in this place, it would take decades in the real world to raise her skills enough to create a game with her intelligence.

By then Frey would die.

No, her lifespan would run out before that.

The flower she had was limited.

“Then… what should I create…?”

Thinking she had wasted precious time, Roswyn bit her lips and mumbled.

“Wait…”

After contemplating for a long time and doodling on the paper on her desk, she stopped and looked down.

“How about drawing, drawing might work!”

Her eyes began to sparkle again.

“With this, I can definitely do it!”

Wondering why she hadn’t thought of this before, she slapped her knee and quickly spread paper on the desk.

“I’ll create a story that captivates everyone!”

And so, time began to pass again.

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“Finally finished chapter 1…”

After another long period, Roswyn, with disheveled hair, mumbled in a tired voice.

“Drawing isn’t easy either…”

Behind her, a mountain of evidence of her efforts piled up.

“But, still… this should be enough, right?”

She had moved past simply drawing a series of scenes to create a somewhat structured story.

After learning about ‘comics’ and ‘webtoons’ during her research, the structure started to form.

And the culmination of her efforts, the first Chapter of the world she created.

The story was similar to the game she made before but more entertaining and mainstream.

Even she found it genuinely interesting.

Chronicles of the Poor Hero - Chapter 1

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It seemed others thought so too. The views were more than ten times higher than before.

“Finally… Are people starting to notice me…..”

With a faint glimmer of hope in her expression, Roswyn, who had been refreshing the page for hours without entering the post, felt her heart lift slightly.

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> Are you a school kid?

> Please stop bringing such low-quality stuff

> Get lost

“Ah…”

Before she could muster the courage to enter her post, she witnessed the unchanged cold reactions.

“U, ugh….”

Tears welled up as she quickly moved the cursor to the delete button, but she gritted her teeth and stopped her hand.

> The story and direction are really good… but the drawing style is beyond polarizing. You need to study drawing more.

> If you’re an aspiring creator, consider finding a drawing artist.

Unlike last time, there were some helpful comments.

So, to move forward and avoid failure, she had to read all the comments…

> What’s your address? I’ll come and kill you.

- Click…

But the moment she made that resolution, she instinctively closed the internet window at an over-the-line comment.

“Haa, haa…”

With an even worse complexion than before, she panted and grabbed a pen with trembling hands, placing it on the paper.

To draw the second chapter for the community.

“…”

But for some reason, her hand wouldn’t move.

“Ugh, ugh…”

The comments from the first chapter kept replaying in her mind.

She tried to remember the advice, but all that lingered were the personal attacks and criticisms.

As a result, she felt increasingly nauseous until she nearly felt like vomiting.

- Clack…

Eventually, she dropped the pen and hung her head helplessly.

“What should I do…..?”

After a long time with her head hanging low in despair, she quietly started to move.

“…Cough, cough.”

Roswyn’s health, already fragile, began to deteriorate noticeably due to the added stress.

She had already used up a significant number of flowers.

In such a situation, could she start a new work and have any hope?

Could she create a masterpiece that would replace Dark Tale Fantasy?

Did she even have the ability to do so in the first place?

“…This is.”

As she sank into the depths of despair, Roswyn’s eyes fell on the scattered papers around her.

• Storyboards for Chapter 1

• Ideas for Chapter 2

• Comic Background Settings

• Future Plots

• Conceptual Endings…

These were the notes she had enthusiastically written before drawing the comics.

“…Ah.”

Roswyn, staring blankly at the now useless scraps of paper, turned her gaze to her desk.

“Why didn’t I think of this?”

Looking at the records she had meticulously kept until now, she laughed hollowly and mumbled.

“There was a simpler, more effective method all along.”

Something that even talentless Roswyn, or anyone else, could attempt without any practice.

The most primitive yet effective creation, forming the basis or an inseparable part of all other works.

It was writing.

“Now, there’s no other way…”

Upon reaching this thought, Roswyn, forcing her completely broken body to stand up, sat in front of the computer.

“This time, I will succeed no matter what…”

Her last spark of determination was burning brightly.

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To avoid repeating past failures, Roswyn conducted thorough preliminary research before starting her new project.

“Web novel…”

She mumbled, carefully reading the definition of a web novel.

“This type of ‘writing’ seems the best choice…”

With past experiences, she had a clear understanding of her strengths and weaknesses.

A work that could maximize her strengths, was easier to get into than her previous attempts, and had a high potential to gain popularity.

A web novel met all those conditions.

“Alright, then…”

From that day on, Roswyn began frantically writing the manuscript.

Living as a Villain

#Academy #Fantasy #Romance

The title of her first written work was such.

“I, I’m nervous…”

The content was simple.

A boy resembling Frey, who had to live as a villain, and the experiences he had.

It was a story she had put a lot of thought into, but…

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Surprisingly, no one paid any attention.

“…I can’t give up here.”

However, Roswyn thought it fortunate that there were no comments and began planning new content.

Giving up here would mean the end.

All dimensions would perish, and naturally, Frey, Ruby, and the other heroines would disappear too.

No matter what, she couldn’t stand by and watch that happen.

Diary from the Future

#Fantasy #LightNovel

With that resolve, she released her next novel.

The concept was simple.

A kind young boy is visited one day by a woman from the future who looks just like Roswyn.

She leaves behind a diary and disappears, and the boy acts as a villain to change the doomed future written in the diary.

How does that sound?

Wasn’t it a very attractive setting?

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But no one showed any interest.

Even after refreshing the page multiple times and deleting and re-uploading the work several times, the result was the same.

“Then… How about this…”

But Roswyn didn’t give up.

No, she couldn’t give up.

The Princess is Streaming

#Streaming #FemaleLead #Fantasy #Romance

In her third novel, she tried something different.

A princess from the cruelest ancestry of the Sunrise Empire falls to the Blue Star Earth, endures hardships, lives a miserable life, and eventually settles down after meeting an internet streamer.

A calm yet delightful and heart-throbbing story.

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[Likes: 7] [Dislikes: 0]

> What is this? Haha

> (Emoji)

And whether it was due to the new attempt, there was some improvement.

In terms of reactions, it was better than any novel she had uploaded so far.

“…Oh, no.”

But that was it.

“I missed the timing…”

Perhaps the mistake was continuing to write despite her worsening health and losing consciousness for a while.

The cost of not uploading the next chapter for several days was too high.

The interest in Roswyn’s novel, which had slightly increased, cooled off.

Moreover, it was impossible to write a novel based on the internet broadcasting world, which she had only researched a few times.

“After all, it was an experimental work… Haha… ha…”

Mischief at the Academy

#Academy #Fantasy #Dark #LightNovel

Muttering to herself while suffering from regret for several days, she finally made up her mind and wrote her fourth novel, encompassing all her experiences so far.

“…”

Looking at the first comment on the novel, Roswyn reached out to the mouse with a soulless expression.

Snake’s Heart: Was this written by a kid? The writing is so bad lol

“Yes… I thought so too…”

In fact, she also knew.

That she had no talent.

Her coding was superficial, her drawing skills were terrible, and despite writing thousands of pages as a guild member and chronicler, she was terrible at writing too.

“If only I could write well…”

She had failed so many times that she didn’t even want to count anymore.

She was used to the hateful comments that once made her breathless, and the excitement of writing had long turned into suffering.

“I’m sorry, Frey…”

Moving the mouse cursor to delete the work, Roswyn mumbled tearfully, unable to hold back her tears any longer.

“I wanted to save you…”

Initially, it was for Frey, but now everyone who had been smiling around him came to mind.

“I wanted to help you all…”

Once the tears started, they wouldn’t stop, and she cried, her shoulders shaking in her weakened state.

“Because I’m so incompetent…”

- Ding~♪

“…Ah?”

At that moment, Roswyn looked up with wide eyes at the notification sound from the site.

“…”

And a long silence followed.

Kim Eun-ha: This is really fun, author!

“…Fun? My work?”

Staring blankly at the first praise left below the hated comments, she mumbled.

“I’m… a author?”

Roswyn, as if possessed, mumbled in a daze.

“Ehehe…”

Then, she hugged the monitor with the precious positive comment.

“Thank you…..”

Crying tears of a different kind, she urgently placed her hands on the keyboard.

- Tap, tap, tap…

And with eyes burning with rekindled determination, Roswyn began to write the manuscript.

“It’s still too early to give up…”

And so, time began to flow for her once again.

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A few months later.

Kim Eun-ha: author, I’m sorry. I don’t think I can read your novel for a while.

“…”

Kim Eun-ha: Actually, I’m undergoing treatment right now, and my condition has worsened a bit, so I need to focus on my treatment… I wanted to let you know in advance in case you worry.

With her eyes closed, Roswyn recalled the reader’s comment she had read several times.

Kim Eun-ha: As my last piece of advice, have you considered changing your publication platform?

Kim Eun-ha: A new web novel platform has recently been launched. This place doesn’t suit your work, but I’m sure you will succeed if you move there!

Eventually, a quiet smile formed on her lips.

Kim Eun-ha: Don’t forget me when you succeed, okay, author?

“Of course.”

Mumbling as she opened her eyes, Roswyn looked at the monitor in front of her.

Register New Novel

She saw the registration section of a new platform recommended by her loyal reader, who had followed her work to the end.

“Let’s see, author’s pen name? For the pen name…”

Cracking her knuckles, she placed her hands on the keyboard reverently.

“The most common surname in the country where this novel will be serviced is ‘Kim.’ Both ‘Kim Han-byeol’ and ‘Kim Eun-ha’…” ¹

Mumbling to herself, now all too familiar, she typed on the keyboard.

“So, the surname will be Kim… and the name… hmm… my nickname Mademoiselle. So, Kim Mademoiselle? No, that’s too long… I’ll shorten it to three syllables… Then it would be…”

Kim Mamo.

Having decided on a pen name, she turned her gaze below it.

Title:…

“Uh…”

Staring at the blank space, she smiled softly and mumbled.

“After thinking about it all day, I think this is the most fitting.”

Roswyn had already made her decision.

Instead of arbitrarily creating a story as she had done until now, she decided to write down the story and the process that everyone, including herself, had gone through so far.

To ensure that the process everyone had experienced wasn’t in vain and that no one’s efforts were wasted.

The ‘process’ everyone had gone through would become the story that saved everyone.

However, she resolved to approach it with a ruthless mindset.

To attract as much interest as possible in the beginning.

To maximize engagement and clicks.

Even if it made people frown a bit, to let the world know that this world existed.

Initially out of curiosity, but in the end, everyone would acknowledge it with laughter and tears.

For our story.

- Tap, tap…

And the title of that story was already decided.

A title that would pique curiosity.

A title that encapsulated the core of all this tragedy.

A tribute to the protagonist, Frey, and the other protagonist, Ruby.

The title that encompassed everything was…

The Main Heroines are Trying to Kill Me

The novel has been uploaded.

Footnotes

1. 1. Just in case you didn’t realize, Kim Eun-ha is Han-byeol's sister.

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