Chapter 35 - if it is possible
If it was said that Chi Cheng had talked to his mother under his own emotions, then the moment he entered the grandmother’s room, he could no longer restrain the acidity of the tip of his nose, his mouth narrowed and he cried “Wow”.
Chi Cheng’s voice choked, and he shouted intermittently as he walked to the bed, “Maternal … wife …”
Mother Chi was leaning on the bedside and reading the evening paper. She heard her voice and raised her head. She saw Chi Cheng walking to the room in a grievous manner. She had a big pillow in her body and her eyes were full of tears. Can’t help feeling terrified and nervous.
Chi Cheng almost never cry, let alone cry like this.
As she gets older, Chi’s voice is a little hoarse and trembling: “Chengcheng baby? What’s wrong with you? Who bullied you?”
At this moment, the grandmother’s gentle and gentle tone was more like a tear gas, and the tear glands became more and more sour.
Chi Cheng cried even more heartbreaking, “Maternal … wife … wow … mom … mom … no … want … I … have … wow …”
While crying, Chi Cheng rubbed his eyes with a small fat hand and squeezed the pillow tightly into his arms with the other hand.
The steps under his feet were a bit unstable, but he had worked very hard to speed up, climbed onto Grandma’s bed, and stuffed himself into the quilt completely.
Chi Ying was anxious, and quickly got up and got out of bed. She followed behind Chi Cheng and pushed open the door of Chi’s mother. Wearing silk pajamas with messy hair, his tone was panic and helpless like never before.
“Chengcheng, Chengcheng?”
When Chi Cheng heard Chi Ying’s voice, he suddenly closed his voice, sobbing tightly in the quilt, sobbing low, it was a posture that would rather die than look up.
Chi Chi knew that the mother and son had lost their tempers, saw Chi Cheng’s stubborn appearance, raised her hand, and signaled Chi Ying to go back first.
Then she patted her small body in the quilt.
“Mum won’t want Chengcheng, you see, Chengcheng comes out of her mother’s room, and the mother is so anxious to find you.”
“Chengcheng told grandma, what happened?”
Chi Cheng shrank into the quilt, his voice was dull:
“Woo … she’s not my mother, my mother is dead … wow …”
“What do you say, baby?”
“Mum just said to Uncle Gu that she is my godmother.”
“Does grandma know what a godmother is? Just, Chengcheng didn’t come out of her stomach …”
Chi Cheng doesn’t know why he cares so much about whether he came out of his stomach.
It seemed that when I heard my mother say that, her chest was hollow and a little painful. The eyes were sore, and tears wanted to flow outward.
Chi Weiwei: “Uncle Gu?”
Chi Cheng said, “A tall uncle.”
“Mom knows him well?”
“Well, mom said they were friends.”
Chi mother was a little hesitant, but still quickly understood what happened.
It should be that when Chi Ying took Chi Cheng to buy clothes, she met an acquaintance. In order to prevent others from discovering the presence of Chi Cheng, Chi Yingxin spoke insincerely.
But children do not understand this, they will believe what they hear.
Just like many parents said to them, “You popped out of the stone gap”, “You were picked up by your mother from the trash can.”
Adults feel indifferent, but children will remember their entire childhood until they really understand the matter.
“My mother lied to Uncle Gu. My mother was not Cheng Cheng’s godmother, but Cheng Cheng’s mother.” Chi mother imitated Chi Cheng’s tone and said to him, “Does Cheng Cheng know what a mother is? Just, Cheng Cheng came out of her belly. And she loves you very much. “
Chi Cheng poked his head out of the quilt and stubbornly said, “I don’t believe it. Lying nose will become long, and mother’s nose will not become long.”
“I heard what my mother said, and my mother won’t lie to me.”
Chi Chi took out a clean handkerchief from the drawer of the bedside table, and said, while wiping Chi Cheng’s teary face, “Cheng Cheng, listen to Grandma’s story, my mother cheated Uncle Gu to protect Cheng Cheng.”
“Why did you lie to Uncle Gu to protect Chengcheng? Uncle Gu is not a bad guy, and his mother won’t be friends with bad guys.”
Could Uncle Gu hurt him, how could it be. Chi Cheng sucked his nose. “Grandma, don’t lie to me.”
Chi Cheng is the smartest and most likable. But thinking is more active and sensitive than ordinary children. In a few words, I can’t hold back.
Chi mother also has patience, because this is not a bad thing, the truth is clear, such children tend to be more sensible.
“Mom is really wrong to say this, but Chengcheng also needs to understand her.”
Chi Cheng turned around dullly.
“Does Chengcheng know what mom’s job is?”
“actor.”
“What does the actor do, Cheng Cheng know?”
Chi Cheng fell into silence.
He knew his mother was an actor, but couldn’t clearly understand what the actor did.
However, Chi Ying often mentioned it with him, and Chi Cheng naturally came up with a noun: “acting.”
“Yes, acting.”
“Mom plays and shows to others. After Cheng Cheng, she will also see her on TV.”
“A lot of people love to watch TV. Cheng Cheng also watches TV, right?”
“Does Cheng Cheng like the host sister of the animal world?”
“like.”
“Since then, mothers have also appeared on TV, knowing that there will be many mothers.”
“There will be many people who like moms, and at the same time, many people will hate moms.”
Chi Cheng sang.
“People who like moms want to see moms in their lives. Those who hate moms don’t want moms to live well.”
“Why mother should wear glasses when going out, because mother is afraid of being recognized by others.”
“Cheng Cheng is the same. If everyone knows that Cheng Cheng is a mother’s child, many people will like Cheng Cheng.”
“Cheng Cheng goes to the zoo in the future … People who like Cheng Cheng will surround Cheng Cheng, they all want to play with Cheng Cheng-“
“Cheng Cheng can’t see the animals.”
Chi Cheng seemed to understand, “Is that so …”
“But in fact, they can watch animals with Chengcheng. We can be good friends.”
“Cheng Cheng wants to be a good friend with Uncle Gu.”
“Because everyone in this world is not as good as Cheng Cheng, some people may want to hurt you.”
“So, although mother said something that made Cheng Cheng sad, but in the original intention, she wanted to protect you.”
“Chengcheng, let’s understand Mom, OK?”
Grandma’s tone was serious, not like lying.
Chi Cheng held his breath.
“Grandma, I have another question.” He said, “What is ‘death’?”
“Dead … is leaving this world.”
“Where are they going?”
“Go to … our memories.”
“Then my dad is dead too? I have never met him.”
“Mom told you something about Dad?”
Chi Cheng shook his head. “I haven’t asked my mother. The teacher said that mom and dad are the best friends. Mom must be sad without mom.
“Grandma doesn’t know the answer either. Let’s wait for Mom to tell us all right?”
Crying for too long, Chi Cheng felt tired, and the whole little head was dizzy.
In the warm orange light, Chi Cheng reached out his hand and smoothed the grandmother’s wrinkles. Then she just fell asleep in her arms.
Chi mother sighed and turned off the lamp, and the room sank into darkness and silence.
==
The moment she met Gu Dao, Chi Ying panicked.
She never expected what she would do if someone discovered Chi Cheng’s existence.
The brain was blank, Venus flickered, and the coldness of the bones spread from the soles of the feet to the whole body.
Even on the stage of 10,000 people, Chi Ying has never been nervous to this extent.
She almost subconsciously rejected her relationship with Chi Cheng.
However, her approach made Chi Cheng sad.
It was her always strong and brave Cheng Cheng, but she cried heartbreakingly.
Chi Ying had lost loved ones, suffered from illness, and after life and death, she thought that her mental strength was indestructible.
Chi Cheng’s tears, however, allowed her heart pain to match those of the three.
It’s like tearing.
I don’t know when, Chi Cheng and her had a more intimate relationship than blood dissolved in water.
Chi Cheng became the most important being in her life and gave her the courage to fight against fate.
The moment Chi Cheng ran out of her room.
Chi Ying only felt that the world was dark, and there was a loud noise in her chest.
She walked slowly, her bones calmly, all disappeared.
She’s busy and exhausted every day. But up to now, I have no idea where the threats in this world are, with no signs or clues.
She didn’t even know which one in her life would be her and Cheng Cheng’s biggest villain.
Chi Cheng will die when he is seven years old, and time is quietly approaching.
She’s not afraid of death, but she’s afraid she can’t even protect a child.
The layers of pressure are cascading like flood beasts.
A deep sense of powerlessness and the fear of being dominated by fate, frantically twitched in his chest.
Forgive her cowardice, there is really no courage to imagine a world without Chi Cheng.
The heart was uncomfortable and tight, so she had no sleep all night, and was full of hope.
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In the early morning of the next day, the mild sunshine falls, which is the Mid-Autumn Festival.
Because I remember Chi Cheng, Chi Ying couldn’t rest. At six o’clock, she raised Wu Qing’s eyes and got up to make breakfast for Chi Cheng.
Chi Ma sleeps very lightly and wakes up due to Chi Sakura’s movements.
The little guy beside him slept peacefully, with a light frown, even breathing, and a good smell of milk.
The tears in her eyes had been tried by her before going to bed.
Chi mother frowned into the kitchen, “Sakura Sakura, insomnia?”
“Um.” Chi Ying was in a low mood, her voice very low.
“The body matters, so grown up is like a child.”
Chi Yingzhen asked, “Mom, Chengcheng … how’s it going?”
“Cheng Cheng is a sensitive child. If you say such things to his face, he will naturally be sad. Go back and apologize to him.”
“Chengcheng has no father, and Chiyu has been unable to accept him because of his origin, let alone your grandpa …”
When it comes to these, Chi’s eyes dim.
“Sakura Sakura, you have to remember that you are almost all of Chi Cheng. Next time you encounter this situation, first find a way to support him.”
“mom……”
“Who is that Uncle Gu that Chi Cheng said?”
“It’s the director.”
“Who is Chi Cheng’s father? After all these years, can’t you say?”
Chi Ying was silent.
This topic is heavy and distant.
Strict family training, then Chi Ying desperately–
He almost broke his knees.
At this point, Chi’s distress to her daughter covered her anger far away.
“Cheng Cheng is a sensible child. Just say it and he will understand you.”
“You are in a difficult situation, and it is not easy for you. Don’t be tired yourself.”
Chi Ying lowered her eyes in silence.
She will go to apologize.
However, she had already made a choice, and what should she exchange for Chi Cheng’s forgiveness.
if it is possible.
She wanted to return him a father.