The Academy’s Health Teacher Wants to Take a Break

Episode 29. That is why I deny the world and affirm the world.

I do not affirm the afterlife.

Ironically, it started with a sense of skepticism about life.

“A person becomes nothing when he dies, so he doesn’t have to live hard…….”

For that reason.

“That kind of thought may end up as a one-time misfortune, but I still think of it occasionally as I go through life in one way or another. Why am I living, and if I’m going to disappear into dust anyway, is there any meaning to living?”

Reality is pathetic and stuffy.

When you can’t even afford to breathe, you feel hope in the fact that there is nothing at the end of the vague future.

“And, there must be many people who are suffering from the same troubles as we are. It’s not strange at all to think that way.”

Yes, haven’t many people lived with such nihilism until now?

Around the 18th century, when the theory of the uselessness of religion was circulating, there was a philosopher who clearly propagated such an idea, a writer who dealt with the desperate struggle between the old and the old, and a novelist I like.

Remembering that person makes me curious about your new work.

Will the bird that drinks poison come out by now?

“But, as a result, they all live by finding their own answers.”

That, too, is a story from a previous life. As I burst into laughter thinking about it, I felt the strength slowly drain from the arm holding my waist.

As if he felt something while watching me take over his troubles.

“You too… ….”

Are there still lingering feelings?

There was a slight amount of strength in the fingertips holding the hem of my clothes.

“Seine-san, are you living your life looking for the answer?”

Anyway, you must be trying to understand me somehow.

She wants to embrace many things as a saint of the church, because she has learned more than normal people.

But no matter how mature she is, isn’t she still a girl who can’t be seen as an adult?

In this world, there are concepts that can only be reached through experience. It would be impossible for her troubles to be resolved with just a few words.

“Mr. Sepin, if I could teach you one thing as a doctor.”

But now I’m alive.

For her now, she has time to learn what she doesn’t know.

“The human body is made up of surprisingly small beings that move together.”

And I take pride in being a teacher.

What I need to do at this moment is to awaken my ignorance to the best of my knowledge.

“When you say parts, do you mean organs?”

“Anything smaller than that.”

“Small thing… ….”

“It’s such a small concept that we can’t see it with our own eyes.”

She stares at me as if questioning her.

It looks as if he has encountered something unexpected, but there is no lie in what I say.

“When compared to the continent we live on, that part is as small as a single person living on it. Such beings repeatedly appear and disappear from our bodies countless times.”

Cells.

In addition to the organs that make up a human being, it is a concept that is far smaller than the muscles that cover the outside or the skeleton that is the support.

Scholars finally define what they are made of innumerable things as living things.

“Right now, the ingredients that make up the blood that flows through our bodies are created over 120 days and then die over and over again. The parts that make up the muscles and bones also become completely different from the existing ones after a few months or years.”

“Is that true?”

“It’s just that there’s no awareness, it’s all happening. It’s just that it’s changed so secretly that we don’t know about it.”

Yes, even at the moment of conversation like this.

The components that make up our body are naturally reviving and dying repeatedly.

Flesh, blood, bones, and muscles.

And also the nerve cells that make up the brain.

“And that is true of what we believe to be the soul.”

To be precise, brain cells do not go through the process of reconstruction after being created to a certain level, but as time passes, only destruction is repeated, leading to an act of oblivion.

If it is repeated, and if it is repeated, at some point even the humanity that has been built up all along will disappear.

“Yes, in the end everything that exists is changing.”

If you really call it the heart and soul.

In the process of moving toward death, it can be said that we live a life that is no different from gradually destroying our souls.

“If you change like that, at some point you will see yourself completely different from what you were before. In fact, it is safe to say that the components that make up the body when you were young and when you are old are completely different.”

Such thesis is ironically in line with the metaphysical thesis of Theseus’ ship.

If you want to repair an old ship, replace the old boards, and eventually replace all the boards with new ones…….

Could it be said that what was built at the end was really the same boat as the previous one?

“If even a person’s body changes gradually, one by one… …. Do grown-up people have the awareness that they are different from their childhood selves?”

“That… ….”

“I don’t think so. Because he changed without realizing it.”

Yes, I don’t know the result.

Everyone who observes the process until it is completed will regard the ship as the same being.

And the world is a series of present progressives without consequences.

We who build ships forever will not be aware that the world we live in is changing.

Even if you realize it, not right now, but in the distant future.

After going through a hectic life, it will be time to look back on the path we have passed.

“Yes, after all, everything that exists is always changing. The human body and the values we believe are not wrong.”

As I was talking like that, I realized that I had arrived at a familiar hill area at some point.

“And the world we live in.”

“World, too?”

“I see you are arriving soon.”

At last, when I reached the top of the hill, I signaled a stop to the child carrying me by snapping the reins.

Standing like that.

“Now, we have arrived, saintess. This is Maris Academy.”

With the horse’s body turned sideways, I share the view ahead with the person sitting behind me.

Underneath it is the academy…….

It was a vast city that stretched beyond the horizon around it.

A wall separating a building that embraces mountains and fields.

Innumerable buildings located outside are surrounded by walls, radiating light from everywhere as if to welcome those who set foot here.

The gigantic towers and magnificent buildings that can be seen between them are inconsistent and each have a different style.

A city so huge and expansive that even it could be seen as a single fragment, it would be safe to say that it is a miniature version of the continent itself.

“This is… …. Maris?”

The saintess just looked at such a scene.

As if she didn’t know it was such a place when she had only heard about it, she just watched the scene blankly, holding her breath.

“Originally, it wasn’t such a large place. I had only heard about it, but they said that it started as just a small school.”

In fact, in the early days, it was just a place with a school located in the center.

Still, there is one reason why the size of this place has grown. It was because the things left by the people who settled here or who passed by were left intact here.

You don’t have to worry about war here.

No matter what the power is or what the past is like, only here, which is designated as an extraterritorial territory, everyone can enjoy equality transcending national borders and cultures.

“The will of the people who want to maintain this place, there are many people who wish for an era of peace, so this place was able to revive like this.”

“… ….”

The saintess is still staring at the city.

No, should I say a little girl for now?

“…Mr. Sepin.”

I spoke next to the girl, looking down at the city as well.

“You were worried that if the afterlife didn’t exist, you might disgrace those who sacrificed their lives in affirming its existence. But even so, people were able to do everything they could to protect what they wanted to protect. By sacrificing themselves like that, they have kept what they wanted to protect, and succeeded in leaving something behind in this world, regardless of whether or not the afterlife exists.”

Even now, when the era of peace has finally arrived, this is what older sisters have been thinking about.

No matter how beautifully packaged it is, the basis of this world is cruel.

The law of the law of the jungle, which started from the ecosystem, is revealed even in the safety cage of society, and that is why conflicts in this world do not cease.

In such a circumstance, if the church called Hyder hadn’t given them hope.

If death had not been given rest and the importance of life had not been highlighted by emphasizing death, this world might have been tainted even more ugly.

In the end, if you think everything is meaningless, even your life becomes meaningless.

No one wants to leave something behind in this world.

“You… …. Do you think the efforts of the people who passed through this city are meaningless?”

Something exists even after death.

“Do you think that even the sacrifices that bequeathed this city to future generations are meaningless?”

Believe that in itself.

For those who have lost the will to live, it gives hope to live on its own.

“…No.”

And she is a devout believer.

With a more altruistic character than anyone else, she would have realized just by looking at this city.

Even if you don’t know the existence of the afterlife, the deaths of those who believed in it and sacrificed are by no means meaningless.

The means to soothe the emptiness you feel while empathizing with the skepticism of those you serve is not just digging out the truth through your own death.

“Mr. Sepin.”

Of course, now she feels…

Moreover, according to the resignation of the underworld god who understood death over thousands of years.

“Consistent with your concerns, some will say that this moment we are living in is the age when God is dying.”

A society that no longer depends on God may come.

Like Heide has always been aware of and hoped for.

Only that direction was originally made in the world I lived in, so I had a vague idea of what kind of ending such a change would lead to.

But someone who lived at that time said this.

‘God is dead. We killed them.’

‘Then how can we, the murderers of murderers, console ourselves?’

Is it only emptiness that denies the existence of gods and remains in a place where even the world where their existence is established disappears?

No, the world still moves.

It is the same human beings who exist in a place where there is no god, and even if only emptiness is left at the end of life, what remains is definitely to exist.

“Nevertheless, you have just joined a place that has emerged as a symbol of peace in those times.”

So people always have to think.

Even though the end may be futile, there are things left in the process.

Everyone leaves something behind in this world, that this world can become so beautiful and magnificent.

“And me too.”

That’s why I deny the afterlife.

So I affirm that this world exists.

“I was only a little faster than you, but I too have just joined the group that will lead this era.”

And that’s why.

For this life that will one day disappear, I long for my existence to remain in this world.

“It is said that it started for my own purpose, but I will humbly accept the ideology of this region for that purpose.”

That means I know that I am an outsider excluded from this world.

The moment I left, I knew that I would never return to this world, so it was a desire that couldn’t help but grow stronger.

“For you who are about to enter this city, are you ready?”

That’s why I hope that this chance meeting, which I encountered at the end of this life, will lead to a relationship.

I entered this world later than I did.

So I hope this young girl, who has more future ahead of me, will embrace that idea.

“… I do not know.”

Even in front of me who wished for it, an empty girl who still keeps her eyes on the city.

I don’t know how that feeling has changed through the current conversation, but I thought that was enough for now.

“But, if you didn’t save me today…. I bet you didn’t know that these things were here, right?”

Even though it may not have touched you yet.

That, too, is a matter of taking the time to learn.

“There will be more to learn in the future. This is a place for learning.”

With that kind of heart in her, as she tightened her reins, she and her horse, carrying her, began to make their way across her hill toward her city.

The sound of horse hooves echoing vigorously.

But what I felt more clearly was the heartbeat of the girl hugging my back.

Thump, pound. And

That might also be an illusion, but I proceeded indifferently.

Her warmth, which had been cold all along.

Because it felt a little warmer at this moment.