The Absolute Beings Obsessed with My Defeat Addiction

I suddenly looked at the commander of the knights who had come out of nowhere with an unexpected request.

Commander of the Empire’s First Knight Order, the Iron-Blooded Knight, Yuris.

She was an incredibly famous woman.

Her record on the battlefield was 99 battles, 99 victories, and 0 defeats.

The fact that she was an undefeated knight was well-known, so I won’t elaborate further.

However, the reason she was called the Iron-Blooded Knight was not simply because of her undefeated record.

She had a blunt and sharp personality.

She tolerated not a single mistake from her subordinates and seemed to dedicate everything solely to victory.

Yes.

The Iron-Blooded Knight Yuris, who pursued victory above all else.

She was speaking to me now.

“You want to experience failure in a mission?”

I must have misheard.

A knight who has lived only for victory wanting to experience failure?

“Yes.”

I heard her correctly.

“I heard you are an illusion mage. I was told that illusion mages do not inflict physical damage. Moreover, if you are showing a desired scene, I thought it would be impossible to feel the experience of failure without any harm. Am I wrong?”

“That’s right. You are correct, but…”

I stroked my chin while looking at her.

“Why do you want to experience failure so badly?”

“It’s simple. I want to know the experience and memory of failing a mission.”

“…So why exactly?”

I couldn’t understand.

Failure and defeat are essentially negative emotions.

Isn’t the despair that comes with them indescribably terrible?

The few failures I experienced while creating this had pushed me to the brink.

And she wants to experience that?

“Hmm, was my explanation insufficient?”

“Please explain in detail. It will help when creating the video.”

She, who had been looking down at me, calmly opened her mouth.

“Alright. The reason is simple. By experiencing failure, I can reflect on it and strive to avoid experiencing failure and defeat in the future. I have never lost even once. Therefore, a single failure could come as a great shock to me. I thought that experiencing it in advance would help me prepare for the shock of future failures.”

“Is that so?”

“Yes. So, I have taken on increasingly difficult missions recently, but I concluded that if I were to fail in such a situation, it would greatly impact not only me but also the knight order.”

I see.

She wants to experience defeat in advance to prepare for it.

I wanted to tell her that it wasn’t something you could prepare for.

‘But I can’t just send away my first customer.’

If I chased away my first customer, it could lead to bad rumors.

They came all this way only to see nothing.

If such rumors spread, the illusion magic I worked hard to create might never be revealed to the world.

Moreover, there was another reason I hesitated.

I had told others that I would sell illusions that showed their desires, but in reality, the videos shown by the illusion magic circle here were essentially adult content.

Experiential adult content.

In other words, it was for personal use.

Should I tell her this?

Yuris, who was watching me ponder, narrowed her eyes.

“Is it impossible?”

It seemed she thought it wouldn’t work out.

“That’s not it.”

“Then is there something else you need?”

“That’s not it either. It’s just…”

“Just what?”

“Since we are showing desires, it can be quite explicit.”

“Explicit, huh? That’s fine. I can endure any pain.”

Sigh, that’s not the issue.

But I couldn’t bring myself to say it.

Well, since she said she was fine with it.

‘If something goes wrong, I can just stop it right away.’

The first customer is precious.

“Understood. Then I will prepare a few preliminary questions before using the illusion magic. Please follow me.”

“Got it. Oh, and…”

Yuris sniffed and pinched her nose, frowning.

“I would appreciate it if you cleaned a bit. There is a somewhat unpleasant smell here.”

“Oh. I apologize.”

It’s a natural phenomenon.

The smell that mixed with the sweat and the essence I released while watching the demonstration video just now couldn’t be dealt with immediately.

Of course, I didn’t have the courage to tell her that.

“Now, what kind of enemy would you like?”

“From there?”

“It’s an important task.”

“If possible, I would prefer bandits. The weaker the opponent, the less damage the defeat will cause.”

Hmm, losing to a weak enemy would likely be more shocking.

But I didn’t point that out.

She must have her own plan.

“Understood. Then let’s create a story about a mission against bandits that ends in failure.”

I began to sketch out the outline of the desire Yuris wanted while conducting the preliminary survey.

***

The Iron-Blooded Knight Yuris had a dilemma.

“I won again.”

The undefeated knight who never loses.

The knights who followed her, as well as the citizens of the Empire, mercenaries, and soldiers who met her, always looked at her with respect upon hearing her name.

“Thanks to her, the Empire is safe today.”

“Thanks to the commander, I was able to fight monsters!”

Even the empress who rules the Empire and the heroes who work to save the world praised her victories.

Was that all?

Those who saw her face always said to her.

“Congratulations on your victory, Iron-Blooded Knight!”

“You’re truly strong!”

“You’ll win again today, right?”

From the moment she stepped into battle, the anticipatory gazes of victory weighed heavily on her.

Even her enemies, overwhelmed by Yuris’s reputation, collapsed without even being able to resist properly.

They didn’t know how burdensome that was.

Having never lost meant that when she did lose, the backlash would be that much greater, and she knew that better than anyone.

“I don’t want to disappoint anyone.”

“I must never lose.”

“Because I am a knight who protects the Empire.”

The more she won, the more burdens she had to bear on her shoulders.

From the moment she realized she was not just a simple commander, Yuris was always weighed down by a heavy sense of responsibility.

Even if she wanted to cast off that burden, it was impossible.

At that time, she heard that an illusion mage had created some new invention.

“I am creating a magic that allows you to experience your desired desires in any way. I will soon open a shop on the outskirts, so please come visit.”

From what she heard while the mages were talking, he was said to be an absurdly genius mage.

But he was researching something useless, it seemed.

At that moment, she thought.

If it’s illusion magic, wouldn’t it be possible to experience the scene of defeat without any aftereffects?

So she went to visit right on the day the shop opened.

It was a strange shop.

There were no windows, and the only opening was a single door.

You could only enter and exit through that door, and there were no other means of ventilation.

She thought it might be designed for illusion magic as she entered, and saw numerous magic circles lined up inside the shop.

It felt a bit eerie, but she couldn’t imagine what this man would do to her.

Her strength was only enough to subdue a mage.

She was someone who could easily overpower him if she used any means necessary.

That was her confidence.

The confidence of never losing to anyone.

Though she said it was burdensome, the confidence wrapped around her like armor.

After finishing the tedious preliminary survey in the room that smelled strange.

“Are we starting now?”

“Yes. I have calculated and set up all the situations you desire.”

“Good. Then how long can I experience this?”

“You can set the desired time frame. Currently, it is possible for a maximum of 3 hours.”

“Is the actual time different from the experience time?”

“Yes. It is 3 hours based on actual time, and depending on the production and situation, you can experience up to 3 days in the illusion.”

“I see.”

Not knowing much about magic, I pretended to understand it roughly.

Then, since this was the first start.

“I’ll go with 3 hours.”

“Understood. Please stand in the center of the magic circle.”

“Alright.”

“From now on, your desires will be projected, Yuris. I will emphasize once again that the world you see from now on is all an illusion. It is not real, so please keep that in mind.”

“What do you take me for? I know that much.”

At her words, the illusion mage Max smiled.

“Then, have a pleasant time.”

He snapped his fingers.

Snap!

In that moment, the surrounding world changed.

The dark and magic circle-filled surroundings transformed into a forest with a cool breeze blowing.

It was a familiar forest that seemed like she had seen it somewhere before.

“It’s Mangor Mountain.”

Just by looking at the shape of the forest, she could tell.

Mangor Mountain.

A rugged mountain located in the eastern part of the Empire, where bandits often gathered.

No matter how many times they were hunted down, the bandits continued to gather and periodically carried out explorations and hunts.

“A classic background. I like it.”

Silence enveloped the area.

Aside from the sounds of birds, the wind, and insects, nothing else could be heard.

“Am I alone right now?”

She examined her attire.

It was the same armor as usual.

Her half-plate armor that protected her body.

When deployed for such missions, she prioritized mobility, so aside from the pauldrons and breastplate, she was fully equipped with leather armor.

“They reflected what I said accurately.”

She had only mentioned a mission to hunt bandits, yet they managed to match her equipment in such detail.

Indeed, the illusion mage was skilled.

“Now, the bandits should start appearing soon.”

Though she said she was watching the illusion to experience defeat, she would do her best to win.

Winning was her duty.

She had no intention of taking it lightly.

If she couldn’t be defeated, it would mean the mage’s skills were lacking.

Swish.

She drew her sword and climbed the mountain, keeping an eye out for any threats.

Then it happened.

“Who are you?”

Rugged-looking bandits stood in front of her.

They had finally appeared.

“My name is Yuris. Drop your weapons and surrender immediately.”

“What? Who does this bitch think she is?”

“There’s no business these days, so I’m dying here.”

“But hey, this bitch isn’t half bad. Don’t take her away, alright?”

Yuris clicked her tongue at the bandits’ crude remarks.

There was no need for it to be this realistic.

“First, I guess a beating will change your mind.”

Against such scum, a beating was the best remedy.

As she approached them with her sword drawn.

“Huh?”

At that moment, she felt a taut force from her feet, and she sensed the world flipping upside down.

“Ha! Got you good, huh?”

Damn it.

That was an uncharacteristic mistake.

How could she make such a blunder?

But it was fine.

She could just cut the rope now.

She twisted her body to summon her aura to cut the rope.

No, she tried to.

But there was no aura, not even a hint of strength.

This couldn’t be happening.

Normally, she would have skillfully cut the rope and subdued the enemy, but now she was just flailing in the air with one leg still tied to the rope.

“Huh?”

With a dull pain, she felt the world turning pitch black. 

This couldn’t be happening, could it?