Spirit of Reversal against the World

POV of Shiori:

After saying goodnight to Aurelio, I went into the room to sleep. Lately, I haven't been sleeping very well, I feel a bit tired and indisposed, but I don't want to worry the others, so I decide to ignore it and not tell anyone.

Even though lately the only people who cheer me up and who I trust the most are Kotori and Aurelio, I'm afraid of worrying them with my problems. I think this problem is probably because I haven't gotten used to this body yet.

I lie down on the bed to try to sleep, and after a few minutes, I start to hear a sound.

"Aurelio-kun, are you still awake?" I continue to hear sounds and try to focus on them.

"Ahh hmm"

"...? That sound..." I decide to try to sleep, but the sound continues, sounding like a moan. I get up from the bed to go knock on Aurelio's door to ask about it.

I walk slowly to Aurelio's door, trying not to make any noise, and the sound seems to be getting louder.

"...Kotori?" The sound reminds me of Kotori's voice.

"...No... it can't be, why would she be in Aurelio's room..." I reach the door, but I feel tempted not to knock.

"...Just... a little peek won't hurt..." My curiosity wins. I approach the doorknob carefully and slightly turn the handle, opening just a small crack so I can observe.

Now that it's open a bit, I put my face in front of it to see.

"A-Aurelio, g-go easy aaahh..."

"..." I hear a voice while seeing the scene.

"..."

"..."

"...Kotori..." I can't fully process the scene I'm seeing and can only murmur my sister's name.

"Hahaha you say that, but look how your pussy is holding my dick, not wanting it to come out" Aurelio's voice says, which only further clouds my judgment.

"Aaahh haar haaar s-so deep..." Kotori's voice, using a tone I never imagined my sister would use.

"...T-This... can only be a dream... there's no way my little sister..." I deny the reality in front of me. Even though I'm seeing Aurelio connected with my sister. I see the thrusting motion as Kotori has an expression as if she's savoring every movement.

"Y-Yes... it can't be real..." My attempt to deny reality is frustrated by Kotori's next sentence.

"A-Aurelio... I-I'm Aurelio's slut, please make me cum"

"...My sister... begging?... and to my best friend..." This scene causes me a slight pain, although I don't know who it's directed at, it's... suffocating, as if an enormous weight were on my body.

Kotori continues to speak, which only worsens the situation in my head.

"A-And I want you... to make me cum all night long like last time" Kotori's voice has a sensual and pleading tone.

"...Last... time?... s-so... they've done this before?" My mind is now a whirlwind of emotions, I feel very confused about what to feel.

But Kotori doesn't even give me time to compose myself and continues to speak.

"A-And... I'd rather spend my time with Aurelio... instead of Shiori"

"...T-That... hurts..." I feel as if I've been stabbed in the heart, hearing this from my sister is like her saying she doesn't like the time she spends with me.

"P-Please... say it's a lie... and... all this time... she was just pretending?" The pain in my heart is bad, but it gets much worse when I hear Kotori's next sentence.

"W-Wait... th-the... Shiori is just an annoying bitch who interferes with our time"

"..."

"..."

"..."

"...Hick" I feel the tears streaming down my face, I hold my chest as I breathe with difficulty. I feel like there are needles in my throat, stabbing my heart without stopping.

I can't even pay attention to what the two in the room are doing. Kotori was one of the people I trusted the most. Seeing that she only sees me as an annoying bitch tears my heart to pieces.

I can only sob quietly, although this has happened, my mind can only blame Kotori, at no point did Aurelio agree with Kotori or say anything bad about me.

I know Aurelio is just my friend, so if he has a relationship, it's not something I should interfere with, but my sister talking about me that way was the biggest betrayal I could have in my life.

My tears flow, I feel like screaming, but I don't have the strength to do it, I can barely say anything, the pain I feel is indescribable, I feel more pain from what Kotori said than from the scene in front of me.

I put my hands on my head, the pain of betrayal causes me terrible pain, it feels like they're cultivating my brain with needles, I don't have the courage to open this door, nor do I have the strength to leave, all I can do is stay here crying, watching this.

I feel like banging my head on the floor to relieve the pain I feel, I trusted Kotori so much that I would throw my life away for her, I can only feel an immeasurable betrayal.

After a while, Aurelio starts having anal sex with Kotori, all I do is observe, but this act doesn't help, all it does is worsen the pain I feel. I feel pain, sadness, and betrayed.

I don't feel pain only from the betrayal, but also feel pain seeing how Aurelio does this with Kotori, she seems so happy.

"...Hick... sniffle...sniff"

"...D-Do I... like Aurelio?" I don't understand why I feel pain seeing how Aurelio provides this happiness to Kotori, I feel like I've lost something when I see him with her. The feeling of betrayal and loss join, forming a distorted cacophony.

But I've never fallen in love before, so I don't really know what I'm feeling, I can only deduce that I've fallen for him by seeing how I feel in relation to what I see and feel seeing the scene.

"Am I... in love with him?" I try to think about it, and the only answer I can get is that I like Aurelio.

"B-But... I-I... I was a man..." I feel even more hopeless with this, the fact that I like him also means that I couldn't even have a chance in a relationship with him, after all, he knows that I was a man before.

My tears flow, my mind is blurred and slow, just observing the act of the two, at all times I can only think.

'If... I was in Kotori's place... would I look as happy as her?' I only feel pain and sadness while Kotori seems so happy.

But my mind can only go back to the fact that I have no chance of being with Aurelio, now that I know I like him, I don't even know how I can face him without thinking of strange things.

The pain in my head only gets worse, I feel like it's cracking.

'I wish I hadn't come to see this... at least I would have remained in ignorance, not knowing the truth...' This reminds me of the saying "Ignorance is bliss" how I wish I had remained ignorant of my feelings and this painful sight.

Hours have passed, all I've done is watch the two while I ponder what's in front of me, I get to the point of imagining myself in Kotori's place, which excites me.

The pain of betrayal still running through my heart, mixed with lust, forms a strange combination, I feel tempted to touch my body, exchanging the pain for pleasure.

"I-If I... do this... can I get rid of this pain?..." I start to move my hand towards my pussy. I've never done this before, so I'm not sure what to do.

I start to touch myself a bit clumsily, I put my hand inside my panties, feel something warm and wet as my hand continues. I continue my movements while observing the scene.

I feel a slight twinge of pleasure with the act as my love juices flow, wetting my panties and skirt.

"Hmm" even though my face is a mess from the tears, I don't care and continue masturbating.

Letting out low moans of pleasure, in the end, all I'm doing is trying to replace the pain in my heart with pleasure, no different from people who drown themselves in alcohol to forget their pains.

"Hmm," I start to imagine what it would be like if it were Aurelio touching me, which increases the pleasure I feel. My clumsy movements start to slowly improve as I move instinctively to where I feel the most pleasure.

"Hmm, haar" I breathe heavily as the pleasure spreads through my body, now my panties are soaked, dripping slightly.

"Cumming" I say softly as I feel a pleasure that blanks out my mind, I feel a pleasure that temporarily relieves the pain in my heart, but I don't stop, I continue moving my hand on my now sensitive pussy, I don't want to go back to feeling that pain, so I don't stop the act.

I continue sinking into lust as I observe the two, at the moment I don't even see Kotori, I just imagine myself in her place, being fucked by Aurelio, although I should find the thought of being fucked unpleasant, I can't bring myself to care, I just want Aurelio to do that to me.

But I know this is simply unrealistic, Aurelio sees me only as a friend, he knows who I was before, and so my mind only reaches the conclusion of him rejecting me if I said I liked him.

But I don't care about that right now, I just want to throw myself into the swamp of lust so I can forget my pain and sadness, if it's Aurelio, I wouldn't mind letting him be on top of me.

Now that I know I like him, I wouldn't mind making him the most important person in my life, the one for whom I would do anything, even if it was considered evil.

I feel like I'm cumming again, I hold back my moans as I watch. Hours have passed with me watching the scene, but for my mind clouded by pain, sadness and lust, it was only a few minutes.

Aurelio has a stamina that could be called abnormal, no normal person should be able to endure for so long, but here he is, fucking Kotori all night long, the pleasure she feels has made her faint several times.

'I wish I could be in her place... no matter what kind of thing Aurelio did to me... if he accepted to be with me, that would be enough...' Now that I know how Kotori sees me, I'm not sure how to treat her, I just feel jealous of her for being a woman from the beginning and being able to be with Aurelio.

"Kotori... our time is up, a shame, but the others will wake up soon" I hear Aurelio warn as I see him stop moving.

"!!!" I realize I've been here crying and masturbating all night, so I start running quickly to the bathroom, I feel tired and, although the pain in my heart has diminished a bit, it's still there, as if something in my heart had broken beyond repair.

End of POV:

After cleaning up the room, I went to take a shower. After finishing, I went to the living room. Shiori is not in the kitchen making breakfast, so I decide to do it myself.

I start preparing everything while Tohka and the Yamai sisters come down to the living room.

"Question= Aurelio-san is cooking today?" Yuzuru asks.

"Hmm? Yes, as I'm a guest, I thought that, to pay my respects to Shiori for inviting me, I could cook something for everyone" an obvious lie, I'm only cooking because Shiori clearly shouldn't be in a condition to cook.

"What's that? The smell is wonderful" Tohka says with shining eyes of excitement.

"Well... I had a lot of ingredients, so I don't know what each of you likes, so I cooked a bunch of things, there's..."

"Pancakes with maple syrup, chia pudding with fruits and nuts, arepas with cheese, turkey and cheese sandwich, banana smoothie with oats, yogurt with honey and berries, French bread with cream cheese, grilled bread with butter, scrambled eggs with bacon, croissant with jam, waffles with fruits and cream, muesli with milk and dried fruits, bagel with cream cheese and salmon, and also..."

"WHOA, WHOA" Kaguya speaks hurriedly.

"Any problem?" I ask, having been interrupted.

"You were talking too fast, we don't even know half of what you said" Kaguya says in a playful tone.

"Hmm I see, well for breakfast just try whatever you want, the last dish is almost ready, it's a lasagna" Most of the dishes I made I learned when I went to the United States in my previous life, so I guess they haven't tried them yet. I also have various dishes from different countries.

They go to the table, which is now full of food. Soon Kotori comes down with Yoshino.

"Wow, Shiori really went all out this time, is there some celebration happening?" Yoshinon says, the puppet's mouth open as if showing surprise.

"I cooked today, Yoshinon and Yoshino, I hope you enjoy it" I say to Yoshino, who has shining eyes.

"You?... you can cook?" Kotori asks with slight disbelief.

"That way I'll think you want to insult me..." I say jokingly as the two come down the stairs, soon after Shiori comes, but her face doesn't look too good.

"Are you okay, Shiori?" She has dark circles under her eyes, her movements are wavering as if she's tired, and her gaze is slightly red, as if she had cried all night.

"H-Haha... I-I'm... fine" she gives a nervous little laugh while barely answering me and goes down the stairs.

"Incredible..." Shiori says as she looks at the table, there are more dishes than I mentioned, since Kaguya interrupted me.

"I made breakfast as a way to show my gratitude for you inviting me" I say to her with a smile. Everyone questions Shiori's appearance, but she just says she's fine, making no one else ask.

We all sit at the table and give thanks. I notice that the whole time, Shiori has a strange look on her face. When she looks at Kotori, I can see anger, disappointment and betrayal, as well as a bit of disgust and envy, but when she looks at me, she blushes and has a confused look.

"This is amazing" Tohka says with a mouthful of arepas with cheese. Soon everyone agrees with her.

"Well, I'm glad it pleased everyone's palate" I thank them for the compliment as I cut a slice of lasagna to put on my plate. The breakfast has various balanced meals, so there's no problem with just eating a lot.

"... the same" I mutter to myself. No matter how well I cook, I've never really liked eating something I made myself, I prefer something made by others.

"Any problem, Aurelio-kun? You look like you ate a lemon" The puppet says in a playful tone, making everyone look at me.

"... it's nothing serious..." Now everyone is in doubt as Tohka tries the lasagna to see why I didn't like it.

"It's wonderful, why didn't you like it?" Tohka asks.

"... Yes, I know it must be great... it's just... I don't like eating things I made myself" I've never understood the reason for this, it just doesn't seem good to me, that's why I prefer to eat something made by others or eat at a restaurant.

"Really, what's the reason?" Tohka asks with genuine curiosity.

"I don't know, maybe some past trauma?" I say it as a question since I don't have an answer. However, my question left implications that weighed on the atmosphere, Kotori looks at me strangely while Shiori looks at me sadly.

"Well, well, let's enjoy breakfast, everyone, it's nothing serious" I say, putting a spoonful of yogurt in my mouth, soon everyone returns to their meal and the atmosphere becomes lively again.