Chapter 57
An Open DoorI messed up. Let’s date, us.It was a confession filled with a lifetime’s resolution. Eyes widen as if not expecting to hear such words. Fluttering, fluttering, fluttering. The gaze coming from those eyes created a huge impact in Jung Yiyeon’s heart.In a moment that felt like eternity, finally, the delicate pink lips parted.“Hey, Jung Yiyeon.”It was the face he missed so much during the time they didn’t contact, a face he even dreamed of. Jung Yiyeon thought he knew how that face smiled, how it felt, how it cried. He prided himself on knowing even the most indifferent expressions.But.“What should I do? I have no intention of doing that with you at all.”A voice as cold as ice, eyes as dry as a desert revealing no emotion. Everything felt so unfamiliar. When Jung Yiyeon froze in surprise as if facing a different person than he knew.Thud. The door closed mercilessly in front of him.The door, closed.***In the nearly 30-year-old apartment building that had been completed, there was no underground parking. Parking was scarce even in broad daylight, so the parking shortage after work hours was beyond words. Thanks to this, except for a narrow space barely allowing one car to pass through in the late night, every corner was packed with cars. It was frustrating to circle around the apartment complex several times before finding a spot to park, as cars were parked in double or triple rows.However, when he got out of the car and breathed in the night air, his annoyance slightly diminished. While difficult parking was certainly a disadvantage, the wide distance between the apartments was an advantage. So, by simply lifting his head a little from the packed ground, he felt a refreshing sensation as his sight cleared.Looking at the light flowing from the windows of the giant darkened building, Jung Yiyeon stopped and counted the floors. Lights seeping from the small windows lining the long corridor. However, the thought that Lee Nan would have turned on the light in his small room soon dissipated, and Jung Yiyeon gave up searching for Lee Nan’s house and moved his steps to the entrance of the apartment.As he waited for the elevator, Jung Yiyeon clenched and released his fist repeatedly. It had been quite a while since he had removed the cast, and there was no pain at all. Recalling the series of events that led to his getting the fracture, he couldn’t help but laugh at what he considered an honorable wound.Taking the elevator up and turning the corner, there was a long corridor lined with entrance doors. Like typical corridor-style apartments, it was a structure vulnerable to security and noise. Thinking once again how inappropriate it was for two men to have a fight in such a place, Jung Yiyeon moved his steps towards the end of the corridor.Stopping in front of the now familiar entrance door, he pressed the doorbell. It would have been nice if the doorbell and intercom were fixed, reflecting the landlords’ careless nature, but they remained in their old, unchanged state.After a faint noise was heard from behind the entrance door, it soon opened.“You here?”Light poured in through the open door. Despite the backlighting, the face in the shadow seemed to glitter. The situation was indeed severe. Jung Yiyeon chuckled lightly and stepped inside without much enthusiasm.“Dinner?”“Ate. Have you?”“Oh, uh, yes, I did. Thought you’d be expecting it.”“Haha, was it that awkward?”“Yeah, seeing my brother all high and mighty like that was enough to make me uncomfortable. Here, take your coat. I’ll hang it up.”As Jung Yiyeon handed over the coat, Lee Nan opened the door to the small room right next to the entrance. It was a small room used as a closet in the house with two rooms and one living room. Jung Yiyeon stood between the doors, watching Lee Nan hang up the coat in the closet. There were noticeably more empty spaces on the hangers compared to when he had come before, making the overall atmosphere seem emptier.However, the living room looked almost the same. In the space not separated from the kitchen, there were consoles and a TV like an ordinary living room, but instead of a sofa where it should be, there was a bed. In the house with two attached rooms, Lee Nan used the living room like a studio apartment.Jung Yiyeon tilted his head for a moment.Today was the day Lee Nan’s elder brother, Lee Ion, was moving out. Since they had already unpacked Lee Won’s belongings, wouldn’t it make sense for Lee Nan to move into Lee Won’s old room?“You didn’t move into the bed?”“Well, why bother?”“Can I see your brother’s room?”“Sure.”Come to think of it, Jung Yiyeon had never once toured Lee Won’s room. What’s there to see in Lee Won’s room? It felt quite awkward to face Lee Won, and he couldn’t recall the last time he had properly set foot in this house. Upon reflection, it seemed like it had been three months since he was forgiven and allowed to enter this house in September. Isn’t that a day to remember more vividly than expected?“But it’s just an empty room. The bed and desk have been discarded for too long…”It was exactly as described. The room was completely empty. Only vague traces of furniture remained on the worn-out floorboards and wallpaper. The room was so empty that the sound of voices echoed.“Doesn’t your brother sometimes come over to sleep and leave?”“No way? Even if I had a fight with Hyung, would I really come over to my younger brother’s house to sleep and leave? I wouldn’t want that.”“Your brother doesn’t hold back, huh?”It wouldn’t be a bad idea to leave it as a guest room. However, he soon realized it was just a futile thought. Lee Nan was that kind of person. He could mesmerize people with charm but never let them into his own space. Even if his brother left and he lived alone, it meant that no one would come to sleep over at his house.The only one who broke the taboo was Jung Yiyeon.“So, are we just leaving it empty?”“I’m thinking of redoing the wallpaper and floorboards and getting a desk… Or should I just bring the bed in?”“If you’re making it a study, I’ll buy the desk. If you’re using it as a bedroom, I’ll buy a sofa for the living room. As a housewarming gift.”“What kind of housewarming is this?”Lee Nan laughed as if he found it ridiculous. His youthful laughter was pleasant to see, so Jung Yiyeon couldn’t help but smile.“Shall we use Hyung’s room tonight?”Pfft! Lee Nan burst into laughter. It would be awkward to treat seriously the offer to buy furniture as a housewarming gift and the suggestion to use his brother’s room. When Jung Yiyeon sent him a meaningful glance with a slight raise of his eyebrows, Lee Nan nudged his chest.“Hurry up and shower.”At that, Jung Yiyeon immediately loosened his tie.And so, it wasn’t in the empty room that the two engaged. Lee Nan declined. To him, the room was just an empty space, and he didn’t think it was appropriate to do such things in the room his brother used. It wasn’t about the room being empty; it was just unnecessary to do it on the floor when there was a soft bed available. If they did it normally, his back would ache, and if they did it doggy style, wouldn’t his knees hurt?The two men tangled their bodies on Lee Nan’s bed. It had been quite a while since Jung Yiyeon stayed at Lee Nan’s house for a few days before Lee Won left, and they spent time together because Lee Nan wanted to. Even though it was only a few days, it felt much longer for Jung Yiyeon.Especially, it had been quite a while since the last time they had sex on Lee Nan’s bed. The last time was in this house’s foyer… three months ago…“But wouldn’t it be better if the bed went into the room?”Jung Yiyeon whispered as he embraced Lee Nan’s bare waist. Lee Nan chuckled as Jung Yiyeon’s lips brushed against his sweaty neck.“What about a complete remodeling? Turn the main bedroom into a bedroom, decorate the living room as a living room. Redo the kitchen and the closet too…”“Do we have to? I’m comfortable living like this.”“…Hmm. Then whatever.”…Of course, all these decisions were Lee Nan’s responsibility. After all, this was Lee Nan’s house. Jung Yiyeon nodded indifferently and pulled Lee Nan into his arms a little tighter.Yeah, what did the structure of the house matter? Just being with Lee Nan like this was enough.“Stop assigning strange meanings and saying you want to do it in Hyung’s room. It’s just an empty room. Don’t overthink it.”“I’m not doing that? If we’re going to be so specific, do we assign meaning every time we have sex in the living room?”“Ugh, shut up. You’re annoying.”“Wow, telling me to leave when you’re done? Lee Nan, seriously…”“You agreed to meet without knowing all this. Let’s go. I need to look for furniture and then get some sleep.”“….”As Jung Yiyeon and Lee Nan exchanged lighthearted banter, Jung Yiyeon suddenly clenched his jaw. His mouth shut involuntarily. Amidst the playful conversation, the abrupt command to leave felt strangely sincere.After he blurted out those words, and Jung Yiyeon didn’t respond, Lee Nan turned his head. When Lee Nan saw Jung Yiyeon’s subtly tensed face, he pulled away from Jung Yiyeon’s embrace and got up.“Uh… should I go to sleep?”“….”What’s with this question? Was the earlier hospitality genuine? Feeling somewhat bewildered, Jung Yiyeon stood up following Lee Nan.The body that had been burning with heat moments ago was now cooling down. Even though he had vented his libido quite vigorously, he really intended to send him home? Of course, even when Lee Nan spent time at Jung Yiyeon’s house, he always tried to go back home before the carriages stopped running. Unless it was the weekend, he rarely stayed over at Jung Yiyeon’s house. Even then, he felt disappointed, but today was quite excessive.“Tomorrow’s work… oh, it’s Saturday.”“Do I only stay over if it’s the weekend?”“No… I just thought Jung Yiyeon might feel uncomfortable. The place is small.”He knew how to say hurtful things without realizing it. If it were the Lee Nan who ardently loved him before, just saying that Jung Yiyeon would stay over would have brought tears of gratitude. Although he blamed himself for casting aside that Lee Nan, he couldn’t help but feel disappointed.“What’s wrong with it being small?”“Here, Jung Yiyeon doesn’t even have clothes…”“Because I like it, I want to be close to you.”Expressing his affection by spending time together whenever they could find time was not enough for Lee Nan. He wanted to stick together all weekend long, even to the point of spending the entire night clinging to each other. When Jung Yiyeon boldly confessed his feelings, Lee Nan seemed tongue-tied. Seeing his ears turn red, Jung Yiyeon felt a bit less disappointed. Though he often made a pouty face, the current Lee Nan, who didn’t hide his emotions, sometimes showed signs of weakness to Jung Yiyeon’s affectionate advances. The sight of his ears turning red was incredibly cute and lovely… he thought.“I didn’t know Jung Yiyeon liked my place that much.”With a teasing remark, Jung Yiyeon was at a loss for words. It’s too much to tease someone who’s confessing their love.“That’s mean.”If the problem is that his heart easily melts at the sight of a face that’s smiling despite grumbling, then it’s a problem. Jung Yiyeon stared intently at the face of the five-year-old boy who teased him repeatedly without giving in, and eventually, he couldn’t help but chuckle.“Don’t kick me out. It’s been three months since I’ve laid on your bed.”“Ah… has it already been like this?”Lee Nan’s face showed surprise anew. It was early September when they agreed to meet again after the chaos. With Chuseok gone and Lee Won’s moving delayed until November, it was suddenly December. This meant that Jung Yiyeon and he had been in a proper relationship for three months.Three months. From Lee Nan’s experience, this period was always precarious. For both him and his partner.“…Alright, let’s shower and have a beer.”“You go first.”“Let’s shower together.”Lee Nan reached out to Jung Yiyeon. As their fingers intertwined, Jung Yiyeon inadvertently tensed his body. Not only was his gaze lazy, but his touch was also subtle.“I’ll wash you.”“…!”Jung Yiyeon stood up abruptly. Now it was he who was leading Lee Nan to the bathroom. Lee Nan being led along emitted a chuckle that tickled his ears.Steam began to fill the bathroom. Jung Yiyeon caressed Lee Nan’s body and kissed him incessantly. And when Lee Nan knelt before him and parted his lips, Jung Yiyeon let go of all the lingering bitterness, even the smallest remnants, along with the water pouring from the shower.***What woke Jung Yiyeon from his brief sleep was the dazzling morning sunlight. The apartment faced southeast, so the light flooded into the living room perfectly. The side where Jung Yiyeon lay had already been bathed in light for a while. Turning his head, he saw Lee Nan, who had fallen asleep with his back to him, at the foot of the bed.Somehow, it felt empty without him.With a dry mouth, Jung Yiyeon got up. Wearing the training pants Lee Nan had given him as pajamas, he circled the bed and headed to the kitchen’s refrigerator. After drinking a glass of water, using the bathroom, and washing his hands, he returned and sat at the table. It was the spot where he could see Lee Nan lying sound asleep with his face buried.The white face peacefully asleep, with pink lips tightly shut. Looking at that serene face, he wondered if it was the same person who had knelt before him in the bathroom last night.Jung Yiyeon’s lips, swollen and tinged red from being bitten for a while, and the slender, red tongue darting between them… Even the haggard breaths, wheezing with a feverish flush, were skillful. Just the thought of it made the area below his waist feel pleasantly warm and relaxed.The sleeping face was simply pretty, handsome, neat, and intellectual… How could a person change so swiftly, as if someone had flipped a switch? Even now, he was not lacking, but if Jung Yiyeon had met Lee Nan in his more vigorous twenties, they might have spent the whole day having sex until they were both exhausted. Not being able to share that time together was somewhat regrettable. There was also a hint of unavoidable jealousy towards those who had known him in the past.Jung Yiyeon pondered for a moment. It didn’t seem like he would fall back asleep like this. Should he go out for a walk around the neighborhood or do some exercise? However, he wanted to be with Lee Nan when he woke up in the morning. The solution to the discomfort Lee Nan momentarily hinted at regarding Jung Yiyeon going to sleep was simply to get used to it through repetition. Moreover, since they were spending the weekend together, it might be better to exercise together. Although Jung Yiyeon had visited this neighborhood many times, being newly guided by Lee Nan would also be enjoyable. But was the weather too cold for that?Perhaps he should just go out alone now and buy some convenience store lunch? While contemplating, Jung Yiyeon opened the refrigerator. Although Lee Nan had said they almost always ate out, there was still quite a bit of food in the fridge. Since there were eggs, he could make fried eggs and have them with the side dishes for breakfast. The problem was when Lee Nan would wake up.“…What are you doing?”A drowsy voice echoed. Jung Yiyeon closed the refrigerator and turned to Lee Nan.“Are you up?”“Uh… What time is it?”“It’s a little past eight.”“Why are you up so early…”His eyes couldn’t open properly, and his voice was slightly hoarse. Although he was only five years younger than Jung Yiyeon, why did this man nearing thirty seem so cute?Instead of answering, Jung Yiyeon climbed onto the bed. Leaning against the window where the light was coming in, he lay down sideways and pulled Lee Nan’s waist towards him. As Lee Nan turned his body and nestled in Jung Yiyeon’s embrace, it was a posture that gave Jung Yiyeon a great sense of satisfaction, unlike when he slept on his back earlier.“Did you sleep late?”He thought they had slept similarly, and Jung Yiyeon even thought he had slept deeply, but Lee Nan seemed to be in a daze, as if he hadn’t slept for hours. Patting his back gently, Jung Yiyeon murmured.“I was looking for some self-decoration ideas on my phone…”“Self-decoration? Doing it alone?”“Anyway, it’s just one room, and I’ve already cleared out all the stuff. So I thought I’d just give it a try myself.”“It might be troublesome. Why not just hire a company?”“Um… I’m considering it.”It seemed like there was no intention of waking up, as his words became increasingly vague. How did people who slept so much cope with lack of sleep when working as secretaries? Pondering this anew, Jung Yiyeon murmured softly into Lee Nan’s ear.“Do you want to sleep more?”“Um… Um…”“Then should I go work out? I’ll take the card key from the wallet.”“Um…”Suddenly, a deja vu from some time ago flashed in Jung Yiyeon’s mind, and he chuckled to himself. It was like the time when a subordinate suddenly took sick leave, came to his house without warning claiming to be sick, and ended up mixing with someone and having breakfast in a strange place.And Lee Nan seemed to recall something similar, too, and suddenly furrowed his brow as he spoke.“…There’s food at home…”“What?”“Don’t buy convenience store lunch.”The pronunciation, now much clearer as if it was the worst, made Jung Yiyeon burst into laughter again.When Jung Yiyeon woke up again from the tossing and turning in his embrace, it was just before ten o’clock. He had thought about going to exercise alone, but in the end, he fell asleep again. Thinking about the chilly morning air of December, he lost all motivation to go out for a workout. Besides, the warmth in his arms was so comforting that he couldn’t bring himself to get up.Moreover, if he were to go for a workout, he would have to borrow everything from Lee Nan. Since the weather was cold, he would have to wear a slightly small training suit and a padded jacket, and he only had dress shoes for footwear. Although there was quite a bit of space in the closet, he ended up falling asleep again while contemplating whether he should go home and get some clothes.“Are you awake?”“Hmm…”Though he woke up, there was still a hint of wanting to sleep more. Jung Yiyeon kissed Lee Nan’s forehead. In response, their lips met subtly, brushing against each other. Seemingly annoyed by the small kisses, Lee Nan shifted away, avoiding his lips.“Do you want to sleep more?”The voice whispering back was incredibly affectionate. It was as soft as the hands caressing his body, almost too sticky. Leaning against Lee Nan’s side, Jung Yiyeon gently touched his chin and looked down at his face, his hand slipping under the shirt. Slowly, his hand that had been gently caressing the abdomen slid down beneath the underwear, teasing the area above the thigh.“You have quite the energy. You’re wearing boxers, huh?”Jung Yiyeon whispered again, running his fingers slowly but sensually along the inside of Lee Nan’s thigh, revealing the warmth that was building up. Lee Nan chuckled in amazement. His eyes felt heavy, and he didn’t want to wake up. He didn’t want to maintain a difficult posture while still groggy from lack of sleep. However, this heat surging through his body needed to be addressed promptly.And the rising tension in his lower body was mutual for Jung Yiyeon.“Y-yeah…”Jung Yiyeon breathed hotly into Lee Nan’s ear, trailing his fingers along the waistband of his boxers, pulling them down to his thighs. Though not particularly plump, his buttocks felt incredibly good to the touch, and his fingers wandered down the curve of his buttocks. With his other hand, he picked up the gel from the bedside and coated his fingers with it. Moving his fingers back between Lee Nan’s buttocks, he teased the entrance before gradually sliding inside.“Uhh…”Lee Nan let out a low moan at the sensation of penetration. Having anal sex two days in a row was indeed a bit much. However, the slow buildup of sensuality without any sudden intrusion felt quite pleasant… The moment when Lee Nan writhed in response to the stimulating sensation.“Ah…!”It seemed like his fingers could find the sensitive spot even with his eyes closed, as Lee Nan let out a gasp as Jung Yiyeon’s fingers prodded inside. The sensation of tingling pleasure made his body instinctively twist.“Haah… Hnng, uh…”Jung Yiyeon slipped one arm under Lee Nan’s side, pulling him close by the waist and continued to explore below with his fingers. Thanks to the sex they had the day before, Lee Nan’s entrance still felt soft and accepting of his fingers. It seemed like the mucous membranes clung stickily to the fingers, as he pushed the gel as far inside as possible.Occasionally, when Lee Nan couldn’t bear the pleasure and squirmed below, Jung Yiyeon felt a surge of anticipation. He felt a dryness in his mouth, imagining how much better it would feel with his member instead of his fingers. He wanted to insert it quickly. Jung Yiyeon tasted him again, pressing his lips against Lee Nan’s neck. Sometimes his teeth grazed harshly against his skin.However, Jung Yiyeon exercised a certain level of patience. He didn’t want to hurt him, and he hoped Lee Nan would respond more actively after waking up a bit more. So, he intentionally stimulated him only with his fingers. Though he could feel Lee Nan twitching as if anticipating penetration, Jung Yiyeon continued to tease him, whispering his name into his ear.Yet, Lee Nan still didn’t open his eyes. Despite trembling and squirming, his forehead only creased slightly, and his closed eyes remained unchanged. What could he do? As Jung Yiyeon, he decided to stimulate him deeper and a little more forcefully with his fingers.“Oh…!”When his fingers widened the entrance and pressed a little deeper, Lee Nan’s lips, which had been moaning continuously, parted like a burst peach pit, letting out a sigh-like groan.“Quickly…”“Huh?”“Hurry…”Whether he was still half-asleep or in a feverish state, Lee Nan’s voice sounded unclear. Was the command to do it quickly meant to insert it soon, or was it a request to finish quickly? The meaning was ambiguous, but his attitude was clear. He wanted Jung Yiyeon to serve him well in whichever way he pleased.Finally understanding his inner desires, Jung Yiyeon chuckled and stroked his own member a few times. It was already half-erect, and with a few strokes, it quickly became fully firm. Jung Yiyeon lifted one of Lee Nan’s thighs, hooking his arm under his buttocks. Thanks to this, the firm glans found its place between the spread legs.“Oh, ah…! Uh…!”Jung Yiyeon thrust his member into Lee Nan in one breath. The fleshy walls seemed to press and squeeze his member from all sides. They enveloped and tightened around it, so wet and sticky with mucous that it felt like being swallowed. It was hot and dizzying. Jung Yiyeon exhaled deeply, thrusting his hips. With each withdrawal and thrust, pleasure surged through his entire body.“Haah… Lee Nan.”