Root Maker: Tree Cultivation

Hello everyone. 

First, I'd like to apologize for being gone for so long. I know this might sound like I am being a dick, but I just wish to explain myself to you.

First of all, every other chapter will now be free. I know you will probably feel cheated out of your money, so I apologize. You can unsubscribe as you like. 

Second, my reasons for not posting as regularly are the following: 

For those who do not know, I suffer from depression and I am suicidal. And, I am ashamed to confess that I did try to commit suicide again. As you're reading this, it didn't work. 

Second, apparently, trauma and depression can give you some memory lapses. I forgot, for 3 months, some things, and I am returning now because I fully remembered not only that I had made a Patreon at all but also most of my passwords and email. 

Third, I feel like I am gatekeeping the chapters for everyone else who reads this novel. For that, I apologize to everyone. 

Also, I apologize for not writing at all, and I must say that now that I have been out of suicidal watch for a long tim now, seeing a therapist for some time now, and I finally have the courage to write this and apologize because I just feel embarrassed for causing problems to my family again and failing you for not writing this novel. 

I will not say why I am suicidal because I do not wish to think about it, but I will apologize once more for making you all wait for new chapters that I don't know if I will ever get the urge to write again. I really love this novel, but I have forgotten where I wanted to take it, how to write it in a way that I would love again, and how to just... Write this novel in general. 

I have taken to writing fanfiction because that was all that could keep me from losing myself again, and I feel like I'm failing this novel.

I'm so sorry. 

If you're reading this, I am still alive. And I don't know how long I will be.