Chapter 195
Chapter 191: 191
“Teacher.” Qin Yinong was taken away, and Tang Ruoyao sat in the same position as Qin Yinong, with a respectful expression.
As soon as the teacher changed his politeness with Qin Yinong, he looked at Tang Ruoyao with a vague disapproval.
The teacher sighed and asked, “Do you know her?”
Tang Ruoyao did not hesitate: “Of course.”
The teacher’s eyes changed again, it was a kind of melancholy and helpless watching his favorite juniors walk on the road of no return.
She changed her questioning method and said, “She said you were together not long after you were in college?”
“Yes.”
“How old were you then?”
“nineteen.”
The teacher repeated the number again and looked at her calmly without speaking.
Tang Ruoyao understood what she meant, and calmly replied: “I am nineteen years old. It doesn’t mean that I don’t have the ability to recognize people. The teacher has taken me for four years and praised me more than once that my mind is far superior to my peers, doesn’t it?”
“I did.” The teacher said unhurriedly, “but these are two different things.”
“Also ask the teacher for advice.”
“Her reputation is very bad, haven’t you heard of it? It’s groundless, there must be a reason for it.”
“Teacher, you also said that you have heard it. You can’t take it seriously. Even seeing it is not necessarily true, let alone hearing it.” Tang Ruoyao was neither humble nor overbearing, but a stubbornness was faintly revealed.
The teacher shook his head secretly and said, “This is what I said, you are too young to be easily deceived by her. How much she has experienced in society, you are so many, you are trapped in a cage by her before you leave school, how much can you know? Opportunities from outside?”
“You are prejudiced.”
“Are all the things that disagree with you are prejudices? I’m also a half circle insider. If she is really innocent, I won’t be able to hear it at all?”
“That’s because everyone misunderstood her.”
“You mean the whole world misunderstands her?”
Tang Ruoyao unswervingly said: “Yes.”
Still saying that you haven’t been blinded by love?
The teacher expressed deep disappointment.
She looked at her with such eyes for the first time.
Tang Ruoyao ignored the dull pain of the sinking heart, his waist was straight, and he looked back steadily: “Teacher, I am the student you taught me. You should trust me.”
She insists on this, the teacher has nothing to say.
“As a teacher, I can only leave you with one piece of advice. Regarding this relationship, I hope you can calm down and reconsider again.”
Tang Ruoyao clenched his fists tightly and kept silent.
The teacher thought she had listened, and added: “It’s not too late to know when you’re lost.”
Because of the last sentence, Tang Ruoyao almost quarreled with her teacher.
What is “lost”? Why did everyone around her think that Qin Yinong was not a beloved person, except for the underage Tang Fei, they were no different from the people in the world, and they all looked at her wearing colored glasses.
She is getting married, and none of her relatives or friends sincerely wished them this relationship, and no one felt that Qin Yinong was worthy of entrusting her for life.
She didn’t necessarily want these icing on the cake, she just felt wronged for Qin Yinong.
Why?
They don’t know how much Qin Yinong has paid for themselves, and they don’t understand what kind of person she is. Why should they criticize her and say that she is “lost” so that she will know how to return soon?
…
Tang Ruoyao was not very interested all the way, and Qin Yinong could probably guess what it was for. Most of it was her teacher who said something that was not optimistic about the relationship between the two of them. Not only her, but also her roommate, who sent her her own scandal article in the middle of the night.
Qin Yinong knew everything.
She is not afraid of being misunderstood or wronged, but she is afraid that Tang Ruoyao will be sad because of her wronged.
This is already the case.
She really shouldn’t have gone to see her teacher.
When he arrived home and returned to the familiar environment, Tang Ruoyao’s mood was slightly brighter. She took Qin Yinong’s hand to get out of the car and entered the house. Tang Fei held a basketball in his hand, practicing dazzling skills.
The rapidly spinning basketball stopped at his fingertips, Tang Fei held the basketball in his arms with one hand, smiled with white teeth, and said, “Sister, brother-in-law, you are back.”
Qin Jianing, who was quietly practicing calligraphy, said, “Mom, Mommy.”
Tang Ruoyao suddenly thought: That’s pretty good. They don’t need outsiders to understand their feelings, as long as their family members understand. In this home, she is always comfortable and free.
This is actually a very dangerous idea, which means that she took the initiative to shrink the circle and confine herself. She has formed a kind of childlike almost stubborn paranoia about Qin Yinong. You don’t like her, well, then I don’t like you anymore. If things go on like this, sooner or later it will affect her social circle, unless she always hides Qin Yinong from outsiders, but that is impossible.
She couldn’t wait to advertise her relationship with Qin Yinong. This meeting with the teacher was also facilitated by Tang Ruoyao. She thought it would be a good opportunity to bring Qin Yinong into her circle gradually, but she didn’t expect things to go against her wish.
With all these intertwined, her thoughts became more and more paranoid.
Qin Yinong didn’t know that she had thought about so much at first, but before going to bed at night, Tang Ruoyao said in a puff: “We are not invited to our wedding, except for my roommate.”
Qin Yinong asked in surprise: “Why?”
She had made a lot of lists before, and there were teachers and friends, so she almost joined the table.
Tang Ruoyao buried her face in her arms, and said: “I just don’t want to ask.” She didn’t want to say the reason, so she pretended to be a child.
Qin Yinong looked down at her, only to see a dark top of hair. She stepped aside and saw Tang Ruoyao’s thin lips tightly. She understood half of it right away: “Are you worried that they don’t like me?” ”
Tang Ruoyao said heartily: What is worry, they just don’t like you.
Tang Ruoyao said indifferently: “No, I just don’t think it is necessary, and the anti-orthogonal sentiment is not so deep.”
Qin Yinong raised his eyebrows, and said leisurely, “Is the teacher who went to visit the doctor today also has a deep friendship?” When the friendship is not strong, he went to the hospital to visit the doctor on the third day of the new year, and he even took himself with him?
Tang Ruoyao raised his eyes, and there was a faint red circle around his eyes.
Qin Yinong kissed her eyes distressedly, and coaxed: “Hey, I know all about it, don’t have to fight the injustices for me.”
“How do you do that!” Tang Ruoyao retorted, “We are all getting married, do you want me to be indifferent when she says bad things about you?”
Sure enough, she said bad things, she was angry with her little baby.
Qin Yinong stretched out his hand to touch Tang Ruoyao’s face, and asked, “What did she say?”
Tang Ruoyao didn’t get angry after thinking about it, her eye circles became redder, she calmed down a little bit, and said, “She said you have a bad reputation, so let me think about my relationship with you, so that I will get lost early.”
Qin Yinong: “…” Her eyes were subtle, “That’s it?” It was far worse than she heard before, and rounding up was praise.
Tang Ruoyao bulged his cheeks: “Yes.”
Qin Yinong said softly “Ah”, and couldn’t help but say, “Your teacher is worthy of being an educator.”
Tang Ruoyao said angrily: “Qin Yinong!”
She can still laugh? !
Qin Yinong cleared his throat and said, “Stop smiling.” The corners of her mouth curled, “Is this kind of reaction okay?”
Tang Ruoyao was amused by her: “Why are you so annoying.”
Qin Yinong continued to curl his lips: “It doesn’t matter if your teacher doesn’t like me, you also hate me.”
Tang Ruoyao knew that she was acting, and she was still very unwilling to perform, but she still couldn’t bear to listen to this, so she hurriedly softened her voice and said, “It’s too late for me to like you.”
Qin Yinong stretched out his eyebrows, smiled at the corners of his mouth, and said, “Me too.”
Tang Ruoyao finally said what he had been holding back for a day, not so heavy, and Qin Yinong took the opportunity to relieve her and said, “From another angle, they also care about you.”
Tang Ruoyao said dullly: “I know.”
The more this kind of “good for you” sincerely coerced, the more difficult it was for her to accept it, even to blame.
Qin Yinong continued: “At first, didn’t you think I was what I said outside?”
Tang Ruoyao hadn’t been soft when he was dark, and immediately said, “I have eyes and no beads, and I don’t know gold inlaid jade. If I can cross back, I will fan myself a big-eared melon seed first.”
Qin Yinong patted her head lightly, and said with a smile: “Don’t grab me. I mean, you learned about me later and changed your mind. How can you ask your friends to accept me in the first place? ?”
“I know what you said makes sense, but I’m just very angry. Doesn’t it conflict?”
“Of course there is no conflict, so you have to let me see them, so that I will never have a chance to change them.” Qin Yinong said gently.
“But…” Tang Ruoyao whispered.
“Afraid of me being wronged?”
Tang Ruoyao lowered his eyes and hummed softly.
“Hmm.” Qin Yinong said, “but I don’t think it is wronged. This kind of thing depends on personal feelings.”
Tang Ruoyao looked up.
Qin Yinong looked at her with gentle eyes: “I feel very happy to do anything for you.”
Tang Ruoyao was a little moved, and her eyes gradually became hot. She opened her arms, stepped forward and hugged the woman tightly, and said, “Are you shaking M?”
The word Tang Ruoyao explained to her, it means cute.
So Qin Yinong replied very honestly and lovely: “Yes.”
Tang Ruoyao lowered his head and kissed her hard.
There was a loud sound.
Haha.
One bite, another bite.
Her angle and strength are a bit tricky. Qin Yinong was tickled by her kiss and couldn’t stop laughing. Gradually, her feeling changed. Qin Yinong took a breath, and the slender cold white knuckles curled up and scratched. On the sheets.
…
The wedding date is set in March, and wedding invitations are usually sent out half a month to a month in advance so that guests can arrange their itineraries. They sent it out more than a month in advance, just at the time of the New Year’s Day.
At first, the two arranged only two tables, but with Han Yuping’s supplement, it became three tables. He regards Qin Yinong as his own. The marriage of Qin Yinong is the equivalent of welcoming his daughter-in-law into the door.
The final list of attendance is: Han Yuping and his wife, Lin Guoan and his wife, Jiang Lao and his son, Han Yuping’s other two very close friends, Lin Ruohan, Qin Yinong’s other circle friends, Guan Han and so on.
Tang Ruoyao is the people she originally planned. Some people don’t know about the relationship between her and Qin Yinong. After receiving the wedding invitation, they called to inquire. Tang Ruoyao explained the past one by one. Everyone finally said they would. Attend on time.
Hanging up the phone, Tang Ruoyao dropped one hand beside him, looking at the night outside the window from the study.
Qin Yinong dropped the last line on the calligraphy book and stood up.
Tang Ruoyao thought so intently that he didn’t notice Qin Yinong quietly walking around behind her.
“What are you thinking about?” the woman suddenly said.
Tang Ruoyao was taken aback and said, “It’s nothing.” She naturally took Qin Yinong’s hand, half-wrapped her waist, and smiled, “I just think time flies.”
The year is over in the blink of an eye.
“It’s very fast.” The more Qin Yinong didn’t want to mention something, the more he couldn’t help but jump into his mind. She tightened the hand held by the two and asked, “Has the luggage been checked? Have you brought everything together?”
“Yeah.” Tang Ruoyao said concisely and didn’t want to say a word about parting, as if this would make time go a little bit slower.
“It didn’t take long. You will be back in a month.” Qin Yinong tried hard to make herself laugh, comfort her, and comfort herself.
Please return to Beijing for two days off to get married, and then leave, four months later.
Tang Ruoyao stared at her for a long while, pulled her into his arms, and kissed heavily.
The gradually rising temperature dispelled the melancholy lingering in my heart, and the hormones among the lovers were on fire.
From the study to the bedroom, the sofa to the carpet, they all left proof of their love.
In the end, there was only one hour left before dawn, and the two of them didn’t sleep anymore. They hugged and chatted together. Under a dim wall lamp, they opened their eyes and counted each other’s eyelashes.
The alarm clock rang, Qin Yinong’s lips stiffened, and the number he was reading was gone.
She put on a nightgown and got up, her mind blank, and she stood with her back to Tang Ruoyao for a while, and Fang said slowly, “I… I’ll check your luggage again.”
Tang Ruoyao agreed and got up to wash.
It was still winter. Tang Ruoyao would wear long-sleeved trousers and a thick coat. Tang Ruoyao raised his hand and slightly opened the collar of his nightgown. The snow-white skin was covered with scars, and Qin Yinong was the same as her.
They tried their best to make each other’s traces exist for a while.
The crew is still being set up. In the past, it was mainly to hold script seminars. Don’t be so in a hurry. I bought the 11 am flight. Tang Ruoyao was able to stay at home for breakfast. Ning Ning knew that she was going to be away from home for a long time at this time, and immediately began to cry.
Tang Ruoyao hurriedly looked at Qin Yinong. It was not a big deal for the children to cry, but Qin Yinong had been extremely silent since getting up this morning, because a string was stretched to support her. She was afraid that Ningning would accidentally touch her and break her string.
But no, Qin Yinong put down the spoon of porridge, his emotions did not fluctuate at all, and he said to Ning Ning very calmly: “Mommy is going to work. You can video with her when she is free. And after a while, she Will go home to see us, right?”
In the last sentence, she looked at Tang Ruoyao.
Tang Ruoyao made a sudden heart attack, and said hurriedly, “Yes.”
Qin Yinong picked up the bowl again, and said quietly, “Let’s eat.”
Tang Ruoyao took a paper towel and gently wiped away the tears on Ning Ning’s face, and looked at Qin Yinong anxiously.
Qin Yinong did not respond to her eyes. She took the lead in finishing breakfast first, wiped her mouth slowly, got up and left: “I’ll get out of the car.”
Tang Ruoyao: “Where is Guan Han?”
Qin Yinong didn’t look back: “She will come over later, I will drive the car out first.”
After Qin Yinong left, Tang Ruoyao’s ominous premonition became more and more serious.
Ningning held her small spoon, frowning her eyebrows, and whispered: “Mom seems weird.”
Tang Ruoyao became more and more eloquent, and turned his eyes on a child for help, and asked, “Where is she?”
The kid also relied on his instincts, and of course he couldn’t answer. The milk voice said in a **** voice: “It’s just weird. You are not your mother’s wife, don’t you know?”
The adult world is so troublesome.
Qin Jianing continued to drink porridge.
Tang Ruoyao drank the porridge without knowing the taste, and looked up, Guan Han followed Qin Yinong in together. The two of them were still talking in a low voice. Tang Ruoyao approached and heard Qin Yinong talking about the company. .
Qin Yinong noticed her coming, glanced at her calmly, and said to Guan Han, “We will go back to the company directly after sending her.”
she? Has your name become a personal pronoun?
Tang Ruoyao was keenly aware of her changed name and alienated tone, as if he was no longer her fiancée, but a stranger. The heart was grasped by a big hand, and there was a dull pain.
Tang Ruoyao subconsciously took Qin Yinong’s hand.
It was cold to the bone.
She was so cold that there was an excitement all over her.
Qin Yi’s body cold is an acquired condition. The doctor said it was caused by years of fatigue and bad habits such as alcoholism. Although it cannot be restored as before, it can be slowly nourished.
During the six months she was recuperating at home, she had a regular schedule and a happy body and mind. Ji Shulan changed her way to stew nourishing soups and various medicated diets for a long time. She has a strong body and is already much better than before.
Especially when the heating is still on in the house, why is she so cold?
Tang Ruoyao held her hand to her lips, and kept warming her hands with warm air.
Guan Han wanted to take a sip of CP, but seeing Qin Yinong’s eyes indifferent, she couldn’t get up anymore. She watched her nose and nose, her heart swelled, her small head was greatly confused.
“What time is it?” Qin Yinong asked.
“Eight o’clock.” Guan Han replied.
“It’s time to set off.” Qin Yinong withdrew the hand that was held in the warm palm by the young woman, and said lightly.
To Tang Ruoyao’s stunned eyes, Qin Yinong’s heart flashed unbearable, his eyes softened, and softly said: “There may be traffic jams on the road, so we have to leave early.”
Tang Ruoyao pursed his lips and said nothing.
The luggage was put into the trunk by Qin Yinong in advance, and the two of them sat in the back seat one after the other, Guan Han started the car, and drove out of the iron gate.
Qin Yinong tilted his head and looked out the window. The community was densely covered with vegetation, and the shadows of tall trees were cast down through the car windows. Half of the woman’s face was cast into the shadows, her expression indistinct.
Silence spreads like a silent blade.
Tang Ruoyao raised a hand and placed it on the back of Qin Yinong’s hand.
Tang Ruoyao could feel the sudden stiffness of her knuckles, which was not as gentle and submissive as before.
The blue veins on Qin Yinong’s forehead jumped.
She exhaled without a trace, and slowly turned her palm over, using the five fingers that suddenly became dull, she found Tang Ruoyao’s fingers, leaned in and held it.
She tried hard to be exactly the same as before, without revealing any flaws. But her proud acting skills have become clumsy and blunt acting skills, for fear that Tang Ruoyao will not see her abnormality.
Tang Ruoyao squeezed her hand in this position and said softly: “Baby.”
Qin Yinong bit his lower lip.
Tang Ruoyao sat down a little closer to her, shoulders next to her shoulders, and continued to ask in a considerate and gentle tone: “What’s wrong with you?”
The more tolerant and patient she was, the more ashamed Qin Yinong was, and the hatred of her own thoughts.
Her lips were bitten white by the tips of her teeth, and the heating in the carriage could not stop the temperature loss of her fingertips.
Tang Ruoyao seemed to be holding a piece of ice.
Guan Han drove the car steadily and glanced back in the rearview mirror.
The two are in a stalemate.
Tang Ruoyao kept whispering something, Qin Yinong responded to her with silence.
Tang Ruoyao was anxious, and she hoped that the road could be longer and she would have more time. But today is neither a holiday nor a weekend. The road to the airport is unimpeded and stopped at the place agreed with Xin Qian.
Tang Ruoyao’s assistant Xin Qian had already seen the car and waved.
The back seat was quiet enough to be heard.
Qin Yinong lowered his head and said nothing.
“Do you want me to worry about death?” Tang Ruoyao said.
She had no choice but to use the sword to slant forward, using this method of aiming at her.
Qin Yinong’s long eyelashes trembled lightly.
Tang Ruoyao put both hands on the woman’s shoulders, and said softly: “What the **** is going on? You tell me, OK? Are we not the closest people to each other? You can say anything to me, is it OK? good?”
Qin Yi’s white fingertips were pinched into his palm, his teeth clenched.
Tang Ruoyao looked at her lowered eyelashes again, and her voice trembled slightly: “Baby, you will make me suspicious that I can’t come back this time. You…” After a pause for half a second, she choked. “Do you want me anymore?”
Qin Yinong’s pupils shrank suddenly, and Huo Ran raised his eyes: “I am not…”
Why would she not want her?
She wanted her because she wanted her so much that she had to control her greed and not break her wings for her own benefit.
Tang Ruoyao’s eyes are reddish: “Then why don’t you talk to me all the way?”
Qin Yinong smiled bitterly: “I don’t know what to say.”
Say you don’t want to go? What’s the point of knowing that it can’t be true? It will only add a burden to Tang Ruoyao. Although what I am doing now is nothing better than saying “Don’t go”, it’s worse.
She has been rehearsing in her mind every day for the past few days. On the day she sent Tang Ruoyao to the airport, she had to be very calm, there was no difference in peace. It was just an ordinary temporary separation, maybe Tang Ruoyao would cry, and she thought about words to comfort Tang Ruoyao.
Unexpectedly, it was himself who behaved in a mess.
Her desires grew wildly. Last night, she thought, she simply made Tang Ruoyao unable to afford it, so she could just miss today’s flight and she could stay for one more day. Then day after day, she stayed with her forever, broke her, imprisoned her, and was not allowed to leave in sight.
Tang Ruoyao said on New Year’s Eve that she would not be allowed to go out in a cheongsam, and he also seriously reflected on whether he had excessive control desires. Qin Yinong thought at that time: The lover in front of her probably didn’t know that her desire to control was a thousand times or ten thousand times stronger than hers, but the behemoth that swallowed hung in the dark and would not easily reveal its true colors. , Or wrap it in a beautiful coat.
She was not worried about letting Tang Ruoyao run around in the circle alone, so she asked Han Yuping to help her. Han Yuping knew her well, everyone Tang Ruoyao contacted and everything that happened was under her nose. . She can fly, but she has to be in the sky that she can see.
She wants to strive for the improvement of Tang Ruoyao’s friends and teachers. She wants to appear in front of each other in an upright manner with her, get their heartfelt blessings, and let everyone around her know who she is.
She wants to put her surname before Tang Ruoyao’s name, wants her to own everything from body to heart, and wants her to have nowhere to go except by her side.
This is paranoia, and Qin Yinong knows it well. Her love for Tang Ruoyao is more obsessive than ordinary people, living together and dying together, not just talking about it.
But she can’t change. She has received such ardent love, how can she be willing to let her disappear from her side? Even if it’s a minute and a second.
She has been working hard to adjust to make this love healthy, at least it looks perfect, but she doesn’t have much time. Negative emotions broke out suddenly when the alarm clock rang this morning.
She has only one thought in her mind: keep her, no matter what method is used.
She knew that as long as she spoke, Tang Ruoyao would definitely agree, even if she breached the contract and stopped making a movie, even if she was unwilling in her heart, she would reluctantly stay because of her.
So she can’t speak, it will ruin their love.
Qin Yi took a deep breath and looked at the young woman in front of him: “It’s getting late, you should go in.”
Tang Ruoyao bit his lower lip, worried.
Qin Yinong leaned over, resting his hands on the young woman’s back waist, touching her forehead, and said softly, “I won’t want you, be good, give me a call after the security check.”
The two hugged quietly for a while, then let go.
Tang Ruoyao’s cold hair slowly flicked over Qin Yinong’s fingertips. Qin Yinong closed his eyes, concealing his crazy thoughts without a trace, maintaining a gentle decent, one hand over her and pressing the door handle , Said: “It’s set off.”
Tang Ruoyao didn’t move, and said, “I can’t bear you.”
“Me too.” Qin Yinong kissed her lips with a touch of water, looked into her eyes and said, “When you come back, we will get married.”
Tang Ruoyao showed a bright smile now.
She nodded vigorously, turned around and pushed the door to get off, merged with Xin Qian, and strode towards the terminal building.
Qin Yinong’s face was hidden in the car window again, and for a moment, the car drove away from the airport.
On the first night of separation, Qin Yinong woke up from his nightmare, dripping with cold sweat.
The author has something to say:
Today is Qin·Bingjiao·1 Concentration
“Wait for you to come back, we will get married.” Does this sentence look like a flag hahaha, let me emphasize it again, sweet article author, Mo Fang
On the day Yaoyao came back, eight hundred and sixty-four cups of water were useless, about eight hundred and sixty-four cups. Yaoyao died of dehydration.