Chapter 1: The Abyss and the Light
I awoke in the void.
A suffocating nothingness stretched endlessly in all directions. There was no sky, no ground—just a profound silence that clung to me like a shroud. Time held no meaning here. There was no future, no past, only the cold, oppressive present.
But even in this despair, there was a certainty.
I had been here before.
This darkness—this abyss—was no stranger to me. It had tried to break me once, a long time ago, but I had conquered it. And now, it could do nothing but serve as a backdrop to my strength.
I didn't fear it. I never had.
For years, I had been tested by every form of suffering this world had to offer. I had known hunger, loneliness, and despair. The cold streets of the city, the brutal battles, the isolation—each of them had been a lesson. I had learned to survive. To thrive. I had been forged in the fires of a cruel world, a world that had abandoned me.
But it wasn't this world that had truly made me who I was. No. That honor belonged to one man: Hans Vasiliev.
I remember the first time I met him—an old man, rugged and scarred, yet there was something in his eyes that I had never seen before: purpose. I had been nothing but a ragged street urchin, lost in the snow, my stomach gnawing at me, desperate for anything.
And Hans? He had seen something in me.
He took me in. Taught me what it meant to fight—not just physically, but mentally. He didn't pity me. He didn't coddle me. Instead, he beat the weakness out of me, molding me into someone who would never bend. He showed me the value of strength, not just of the body but of the spirit.
Every lesson was hard, every word a challenge. "Life doesn't care about your feelings," he would say. "It will crush you underfoot if you let it. But if you stand tall, if you rise with the certainty that nothing can break you, then you will never lose."
I had clung to those words.
It was Hans who taught me the meaning of unyielding will, the art of never surrendering, no matter the odds. He had given me purpose when I had only emptiness. And through it all, he had instilled a belief in me: I was unbreakable.
A glimmer of light broke through the endless black, distant at first, but steadily growing stronger. The light pulsed with energy, but I felt no fear. The abyss could swallow me, the light could blind me, but neither would defeat me.
The light formed into a figure, luminous and otherworldly, yet I felt no awe. I had faced worse than this.
It spoke. "What do you desire?"
I did not hesitate. "I desire nothing."
The figure seemed to consider my words. "You seek to escape, then?"
"Escape? No. I seek only to dominate."
There was a brief pause, and the light flickered as though amused. "Such confidence... but confidence alone will not protect you here."
I met its gaze, unwavering. "It's not confidence. It's certainty. And I am certain of one thing: I will never break. Not by you. Not by anyone."
The light seemed to hesitate, as though it had encountered something it couldn't quite understand. It studied me, and in its silence.
"Take my soul, if you must," I said, my voice steady. "But know this: you will not defeat me. I have been forged by fire, by blood, and by the unyielding will of a man who showed me that the only thing that can break me… is my own will to fight."
The figure's light flickered, wavering as if it recognized something in me—something it could not challenge.
It could not break me. Nothing could,
And so, I stood there, in the heart of the abyss, unbowed, unbroken.
Hans had never promised me an easy life. He had never promised me safety. But he had promised one thing: that if I held fast to my resolve, nothing would defeat me.
And now, here, in this place, that resolve was my shield. The abyss might try to crush me, the light might try to blind me—but I would stand.
As I floated through the endless abyss,
long-forgotten memories began to stir—whispers that grew into haunting echoes of a long-forgotten memories of a life I had forgotten,reminding me of who I was and how far I had come."