Chapter 17 - r18
Chapter 17
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Geum-bi Noona’s body was burning hot.
Humans are warm-blooded, so their body temperature should be constant, and since we were hugging, our temperatures should have become similar.
But why did Noona’s body keep getting hotter? …The reason wasn’t hard to guess.
“Ji-gu.”
“Yes, Noona.”
“…No, it’s nothing.”
“…Okay.”
Geum-bi Noona softly called my name, then took her words back as if nothing had happened.
She repeated this several times. Now, the sound of my pounding heart was louder than the ticking clock.
Despite this, the situation surrounding us showed no signs of changing.
‘Noona’s body… It’s not cooling down at all. She’s going to melt away at this rate.’
Had we been hugging in the dark living room for too long?
My mind drifted, filled with all sorts of strange thoughts.
Worries like, what if time stopped right here?
Concerns that we might become stiff and paralyzed while still embraced.
Anxieties like, what if we couldn’t find the right moment to separate and ended up hugging like this until morning?
Funny enough, in every imagined scenario, Geum-bi Noona and I never let go of each other.
Just like our heartbeats, which showed no intention of calming down.
Like my lower half, which showed no signs of subsiding.
‘No, get a grip. Calmly, I need to calm this down first… calm it down… Ugh.’
The reason Geum-bi Noona had become stiff as a stone.
I tried to subdue the culprit that had rendered us speechless.
But if it were that easy, it wouldn’t be called instinct.
On the contrary, the clearer my mind became, the more sensitive my senses grew, and the touch and warmth only further emboldened my groin.
‘That’s not it, now’s not the time. Please, ugh….’
I squeezed my eyes shut and bit my lip.
I had never, not even once, had such thoughts about Geum-bi Noona, yet I wondered why this thing wouldn’t listen to its owner.
“…Ji-gu.”
“Mm, Noona.”
“Your body, it’s trembling so much.”
“Ah, sorry.”
“Down there too, it’s trembling a lot.”
“Uh…! S-Sorry…”
Having missed the chance to defend myself, I couldn’t avoid Geum-bi Noona’s subsequent questioning.
As if she had no reason to rush after waiting so long, Geum-bi Noona slowly pulled away from me.
Her eyes, holding my shoulders, seemed to say… it’s late, but I’m not letting this go easily.
“I waited quite a while, didn’t I?”
“Mm, Noona.”
“So this, it wasn’t an accident, a mistake, or a misunderstanding, right?”
“Mm… Noona.”
“So, Ji-gu, you’re noticeably aroused in front of me right now, aren’t you?”
“Th-That… Yes, Noona.”
Every word she uttered pierced my heart.
Since I admitted it myself, the situation became crystal clear. Geum-bi Noona lowered her eyes slightly, then let out a soft moan, “Uh.”
“That thing down there, it’s been energetic for quite a while.”
“Well… considering the situation.”
“So it got bigger because I’m here?”
“Th-That’s not what I meant. It’s just… difficult to calm down right now, for various reasons.”
“Ah, mm. I see, I understand.”
I denied Noona’s words, but not completely.
I didn’t say it wasn’t because of her presence, but because I was holding her… Neither was a good explanation.
In fact, as soon as Geum-bi Noona heard my words, she removed her hands from my shoulders.
I also slowly removed my hands from Geum-bi Noona, and only a small space, close enough to feel each other’s breath, remained between us.
“…….”
“…….”
Although we could breathe freely, an ironically suffocating scene unfolded.
Contrary to my expectation that a reprimand would follow the confirmation, Geum-bi Noona remained silent for a while, lost in thought.
‘Is she thinking about how to scold me? Or… is she trying to come up with a specific penalty?’
Whatever it was, I was prepared to accept it.
Geum-bi Noona had been warning me about this kind of thing, and recently, Su-jeong Noona had said similar things, but in the end, I had succumbed to my desires.
‘I can’t say it couldn’t be helped because I’m a man. Even considering that, I was the one who was confident nothing would happen.’
I wished I hadn’t boasted so confidently.
I wanted to sew my lips shut from the past and wondered if I could pull out the arrow piercing my chest and use it as a needle.
“Hey, Ji-gu.”
“Ah, yes. Noona…!”
As if telling me to stop my absurd thoughts, Geum-bi Noona looked at me.
I gulped at her gaze, which felt as sharp as our close proximity, and she slowly reached out her hand as she watched me.
Her hand came close to my face, almost touching my cheek, and I closed my eyes tightly.
It seemed Geum-bi Noona had decided on a stinging slap rather than words or restraints, and I resolved to endure a few slaps like a man.
Then, a soft palm gently touched my cheek.
“Huh? N-Noona?”
“You’ve… been having a hard time, haven’t you?”
“Huh? Uh, uh?”
Her reaction was so unexpected that I couldn’t speak properly.
But as if she had anticipated my reaction, Geum-bi Noona stroked my cheek and whispered softly.
“I can tell by your expression. That you didn’t develop these strange feelings for me or Su-jeong Unnie, and that’s why this happened.”
“Uh. That’s, Noona….”
“Hey, I’m twenty-five, you know? Even if I’m a woman, I know there are times when a man can’t help himself.”
“No, that’s… But….”
“I could feel how much you were trying to control yourself while we were hugging. …And I felt everything, even how you couldn’t control it.”
“……Noona.”
Every word from Geum-bi Noona pierced my heart, but in a different way than before.
I wasn’t the only one who was struggling while we were hugging, and I wasn’t the only one who was overwhelmed by the shared warmth and trembling.
Geum-bi Noona understood me much better than I thought.
“Still… I’m sorry, Noona.”
“Don’t apologize for this. I told you I understand. If you apologize after I’ve said that, it’s like I’m nitpicking about something you couldn’t help.”
“Ugh, then… what should I say?”
“Well. Since I was quite conflicted, how about ‘Thanks for worrying about it’? Or maybe just ‘Thank you’?”
“Then… I’ll go with thank you.”
“Heheh, okay. It must have been hard for you, so thank you for enduring it.”
The awkward sibling incident ended with us comforting each other.
Since neither of us was at fault, apologies were meaningless. It was a heartwarming scene with only words of gratitude exchanged.
…If it weren’t for Geum-bi Noona’s following remark.
“But what are you going to do now?”
“Huh? What?”
“Unnie is sleeping in your room. You’re not going to… finish it there, are you?”
“Huh? Uh? What? Noona, what are you talking about?”
“Well… I understand it can’t be helped, but still, it’s not right to do it right next to Unnie. I understand the arousal as a physiological reaction, but anything beyond that is a no-no. That’s really crossing the line.”
“Wait, wait, hold on. I don’t understand what you’re saying. Geum-bi Noona, what are you really talking about?”
I thought that since the hug and the confirmation were over, all that was left was for us to return to our respective rooms.
But Geum-bi Noona, with a puzzled expression, continued to talk as if something more remained, and as if it was deeply related to my lower half.
“But, that’s how men are, right? Once they get a physical signal, there needs to be a physical release for it to subside…”
“No, no, no! Time out! Geum-bi Noona, are you saying that in your right mind… Mmmph?”
“Shh, quiet. Even if we’re on the first floor, you’re being too loud. The kids are sleeping upstairs, and Su-jeong Unnie is right next door.”
“Mmmph, mph, mmmph?”
“Okay, let’s talk in my room. I’ll listen to the rest there.”
“Mmph? Wait, Noona… Ow.”
Somehow, I ended up being dragged to Geum-bi Noona’s room.
The fact that she first questioned me on the open sofa and now took me to her room on the second floor probably meant she trusted me more, but…
-Click.
I couldn’t be happy about the door closing and the doorknob locking.
Since Geum-bi Noona had grabbed my wrist and made me sit at the edge of her bed, I hesitated even more about how to start talking.
“Now, tell me here. What do you want to say?”
“Well, um. I think you have a big misunderstanding about men’s bodies, Noona….”
“Misunderstanding? What misunderstanding do I have?”
“You see, well… Ugh.”
She said she was twenty-five and knew everything.
But she didn’t know anything about the important part, did she, Noona?
‘So, Geum-bi Noona thinks this way, right? That once a man gets an erection, he has to get rid of it somehow?’
She got everything else right, so why was she so off the mark about this?
Didn’t she pay attention in health class? I’m sure the teacher taught us in detail… or not. Our school glossed over the details too.
If I just recited the textbook, it said that men sometimes get erections involuntarily.
And I remember that under that line, it said that an erect penis returns to its normal size after ejaculation.
Nowhere else did it say that it shrinks back to normal size over time without ejaculation.
Right, why would they waste a page on that? It’s common sense for men, and women don’t need to know.
‘But I’m here because of that, right? Ugh, this is driving me crazy….’
Unable to speak, I just frowned and groaned.
Geum-bi Noona, seeing me like this, held my hand with a worried look.
“Are you okay, Ji-gu? Are you… in a lot of pain because you’ve been holding it in for too long?”
Why did this Noona only have fragmented knowledge of common sense?
If she hadn’t known anything in the first place, I could have hidden it or glossed over it.
“Geum-bi Noona.”
“Mm, what is it? It’s okay, tell me.”
“What if, say…”
“Yes.”
“Noona, have you never dated a man?”
“Huh…? Uh uh? Ehh?!”
It was a good thing we moved from the living room to her room.
Geum-bi Noona’s startled expression and scream would have woken someone up if we were outside.
“Wh-What are you talking about! No, I haven’t! Absolutely not! Never!”
Someone once said,
A strong denial is one form of a strong affirmation.
Even without using that saying as a basis, there was evidence of her flustered state right in front of me.
Geum-bi Noona fanned her reddened face, her eyes darting around.
“Ugh, really, what’s with the sudden question… Why are you asking me that?”
This was the crossroads.
Whether to end tonight’s events as a single happening.
Or to impart the correct common sense to Geum-bi Noona, even now.
My deliberation wasn’t long.
Unlike her busy hands fanning her face, I gently wrapped my hand around hers, which was resting on the back of mine.
Meeting her wandering gaze, I spoke without hesitation.
“Geum-bi Noona, calm down and listen. I’m going to teach you about men’s bodies.”
“Huh? Uh uh……?”
Hmm, did I speak too directly?
I should have thought a little more before saying it, idiot.
I regretted it a moment too late, but there was no turning back.
Geum-bi Noona’s lips parted and remained open, and her right hand, enveloped in mine, vibrated violently as if an alarm clock had gone off.
As if someone had grabbed it tightly, preventing her from escaping.
Geum-bi Noona’s trembling gaze glanced towards the door.
As if despairing at the doorknob she had locked herself, a silent scream formed tears in her eyes.
This was the moment to correct the misunderstanding.
As soon as I opened my mouth slightly, Geum-bi Noona pulled my arm with her captured hand, making me lose my balance, and at the same time, pushed my chest with her other hand, knocking me onto the bed.
“Ugh?!”
“S-Stay still. Don’t move…!”
As if she had learned self-defense, Geum-bi Noona skillfully pinned me down on the mattress.
Straddling me in a mount position, Geum-bi Noona, with a fierce but faintly tearful expression, warned me.
“If you don’t stay still… I don’t know what I’ll do to you.”
What would happen to me, pinned under Noona tonight?
Looking up at Geum-bi Noona, who had pounced on me, I let out a deep sigh, having missed the timing to say anything.
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