chapter 11
From the moment she got corned at the cinema, Yerin was aware of the existence of the tail.
Although I didn’t know who was chasing me, it was obvious when I saw what they were doing.
Im Chae-yeon and Yoon So-hee. Thinking that the two of them came to her, Yerin revealed herself.
“Stop following me.”
Looking straight ahead, I see the silhouette of a woman under the street lamp. Black hair like the night sky. A well-groomed body. The opponent was Chaeyeon with a lot of messy hair.
‘I can’t see Sohee.’
Did you go home first? Or did he find himself who ran away and take a different path? Yerin tilted her head at the unexpected situation.
‘Well, that’s fine. Lim Chaeyeon and I needed to talk with him.’
Yerin stepped forward and hugged the teddy bear and said.
“Sihyeon can’t be persuaded. Do you think you came to negotiate with me this time?”
Without answering the question, Chaeyeon stared at the teddy bear in Yerin’s arms.
She has been receiving various accessories and cosmetics from Si-hyeon, but why does she feel more envious of that?
Chaeyeon, who watched what the two of them were doing in the arcade, frowned and brushed her hair. And he asked directly what he was curious about.
“Yerin, are you interested in Sihyun?”
“What?”
A question that is out of the blue, but close to the core.
Yerin replied with a snort.
“What if?”
“That’s right. I’m here for that.”
At Chaeyeon’s unhesitating affirmation, Yerin’s eyes narrowed.
“Well… I don’t know why I have to listen to you. You and Shihyeon don’t have anything to do with each other anymore.”
Yerin smiled and continued.
“Anyway, why do you keep trying to interfere with the subject of an ex-girlfriend?”
Yerin’s voice mixed with laughter. Besides, at the provocative words and actions of being an ex-girlfriend, Chaeyeon clenched her fists so tightly that her palms hurt.
After biting her lower lip and being silent for a while, she opened her mouth only after she regained her composure.
“I don’t intend to end it like this with Sihyun. We’ll be reconciled and reunited soon, so I’d like to get rid of it without fussing.”
Chaeyeon’s tone became more direct and harsh.
Far from being crushed by that momentum. Yerin became even more averse to Chaeyeon, who was trying to connect with Sihyeon again.
“I can’t speak because I’m absurd.. What is the symbol of holding on to one topic late?”
“Whatever symbol I have, you don’t need to know.”
“Yeah, you don’t have to tell me. No matter what your thoughts are, I’ll stop you unconditionally.”
Seeing Sihyeon in agony while dating, Yerin watched closely.
Thinking about how to deal with anger.
I’m thinking about what I should do to like it.
If he made even the slightest mistake during a date, Si-hyeon was depressed all day.
Yerin didn’t want to see him in pain again.
“It’s better for me to date someone than to hand over Sihyun to a kid like you. Unlike you, I’ll show affection more often, and I won’t make it difficult for him.”
A declaration to take away Yerin’s vision.
In Chaeyeon’s mind when she heard that, the sweet scenes she saw today flashed past.
The two almost kissed at the cinema.
The friendly atmosphere seen in the arcade.
Even the teddy bear that he gave us as a present.
At the behavior of the two, who were no different than lovers, Chaeyeon grabbed her chest that had become worn out.
‘You can’t leave me alone…’
I didn’t know if I would lose Shihyeon as Sohee said if I went on like this.
Chaeyeon, who felt a sense of crisis belatedly, said while pretending to be calm and forcing a smile.
“Stop it. I won’t look at Anne Sihyun like you.”
“Of course you don’t see me. He only sees me as an ordinary girlfriend.”
Yerin showed a sad smile.
“But it doesn’t matter if you don’t see it. You just have to make it look at me from now on.”
“Do you think that would be possible?”
“Of course. There’s no way I can’t do it with a person with a personality disorder like you.”
Yerin petted the teddy bear and continued.
“Yeah, I said I was good to you from the start. Then there would be no parting, and I wouldn’t have interfered with you guys.”
Sihyeon’s love for Chaeyeon was sincere.
What if Chaeyeon had shown a little affection for him, who acted as if he would give it all away with his liver and gallbladder?
The two would never have broken up like this.
Chaeyeon knew that too, but…
“No. Whether it’s Shihyeon or another man, the moment you take care of him and depend on him, he will definitely leave you.”
For her, that was impossible.
“What kind of bullshit is that?”
Yerin, unable to understand the meaning, closed her eyes for a while.
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But anyway, Chaeyeon continued her speech.
“When a woman begins to give her love, men take it for granted and want more. Then, in the end, they abandon their partner because they are tired of it..!”
There was deep emotion in Chaeyeon’s calm tone.
Her face doesn’t look like a joke at all. She seemed to take her words as truth.
‘Hey, what…’
Yerin realized that Chaeyeon’s thoughts were somehow twisted.
I don’t know what happened in the past, but the conversation I’m having right now is probably close to her rebellion.
The moment when Yerin wanted to dig deeper into this.
Chaeyeon shook her head with a shallow sigh.
“..Okay. Even if I tell you any more, you’ll never understand if you haven’t been through it.”
It was very uncomfortable for Yerin to just say what she had to say and cut off the conversation at will.
So, looking at her with irritated eyes, Chaeyeon crossed her arms and said.
“Let’s work hard once in a while. If it’s like that in the future, no matter what you do, Shihyeon will come back to me.”
“Ha. It’s disgusting and sassy.”
Yerin, who decided that it was not worth talking about it any more, moved on, leaving Chaeyeon still.
A back view of her striding home. Chaeyeon was staring at it with cold eyes.
***
When I got home, I put the teddy bear I received as a gift and put it on the bed.
‘looks good..’
The atmosphere in the room, which had never been so gloomy, had changed significantly with only one doll left.
It feels like something in your heart is being fulfilled.
Every time I saw it, it put a smile on my face.
tock. tock.
After pricking the doll’s nose, I started taking a bath after a while.
Soak your body up to your mouth in the bathtub, and as you exhale, bubbles rise.
Chaeyeon’s confident remarks were revolving in my head, which was frowned upon.
‘Stop it. Because Anne Sihyun like you won’t even look at me.’
It’s a really bad feeling, but I can’t deny it.
Hearing what he felt most deeply, through the mouths of others, he felt very dirty.
“Oh my. How good is the loss..”
In the past, she may have monopolized Si-hyeon’s love by herself, but now she seems to be just a bad-tempered enemy.
There’s no such thing as no chance for each other, so he didn’t have the right to belittle me.
‘Because it’s an annoying year anyway.’
I didn’t like Chaeyeon from the beginning.
I couldn’t get the love no matter how hard I tried, because she did nothing.
‘What the hell am I lacking compared to Lim Chaeyeon?’
when viewed very objectively. She wasn’t pushed by her looks or her body. I tried to imitate Chaeyeon’s hairstyle and fashion just in case, but it only got a little bit of interest. I couldn’t capture Sihyun’s heart.
‘Kim Si-hyun, you idiot..’
If you had dated me from the beginning, you wouldn’t have had any trouble, but why are you clinging to someone like that?
I, who had resented Shihyeon, shook my head after a while.
‘No, let’s stop blaming others. I didn’t even confess in the first place, how could Sihyun know my heart?’
It has been almost 10 years since I fell in love with Sihyun, but I have been hiding this feeling.
‘Because I knew it wouldn’t go on anyway.’
In the days when I didn’t know anything, I also worked hard in various ways to win Sihyeon’s liking.
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But after two and three years of that act, I realized it.
It’s true that Shihyeon likes me, but that’s just a crush on an old friend, not the opposite s*x.
‘Since I found out, I’ve been busy maintaining the relationship as friends.’
It was because I was afraid of failing to confess and keeping my distance.
So, rather than a relationship close to gambling like a lover, they settled into a familiar relationship of best friends. Then, I was relieved that one day Si-hyeon would understand my heart.
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By the way..
‘Yerin, I finally made it! Chaeyeon says she’ll date me!’
When I heard this from Si-hyeon on the phone, my legs lost strength and I collapsed in place.
Confessions over the Chapter 5. Si-hyeon kicked her hard four times, and after working hard until the end, she won love.
Quite the opposite for me.
Unlike me, who was complacent with reality, Si-hyeon, who had courage, thought that she had the right to connect with the woman she loved.
to let u know that i been through a lot then i been going non stop with this practice for nothing
No.. At least I did not confess that I wanted to date him, but I had no right to interfere with his love.
..that’s why I sent it away quietly. Si-hyeon’s happiness is my happiness, and I forcefully cast self-rationalization.
I thought that with time, I would be able to organize this mind as well, but…
After Sihyeon and Chaeyeon started dating. The aftermath was beyond imagination.
Si-hyeon, who was next to me every time I listened to a lecture, suddenly sat next to Chae-yeon.
Due to Chaeyeon’s request, Shihyeon minimized her contact with other women, including myself.
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Besides, every time I made a phone call, I was on the phone, so I gradually ran out of place to stand, and I became very resentful of my past self.
‘If I had had the courage then. If I had confessed to myself that I would be a child, I might have been dating myself!’
The same regrets were repeated countless times every day.
I stayed up all night looking at Shihyeon’s photos, and when the photos of the two were posted on social media, I was depressed all day.
Stress naturally led to binge eating, and he repeatedly ate the food delivered to the limit and spit it out.
“Whew..”
Is it because I remember things in the past? Or is it because I’ve been in the bathroom for a long time?
I felt dizzy with a tingling sensation in my chest. After wiping off the moisture from my body, I headed straight to my room.
‘I want to hear Shihyeon’s voice…’
A sudden phone call. Even though I know that this is not possible now, I worry that I may be on the phone again.
[hello?]
“Yeah, Sihyun-ah, I walked into the house to see if I had a good time.”
Fortunately, I was contacted. With a sigh of relief, I hugged the teddy bear and listened.
[Oh, I called too.]
“really?”
It’s just a minor coincidence, but why am I so glad that the two of you thought the same thing?
It’s been a long time since I’ve even talked on the phone at night, so my heart keeps pounding.
[ah. Then I forgot to send the money. wait a minute.]
“No. I pulled out a doll with a lot of effort, but that’s about it…”
[That is that and this is this. You paid the popcorn fee and entertainment fee, but if it goes like this, I’m sorry.]
Also Sihyun. From the old days, the dislike of debt was still there.
‘Because he’s a really sincere kid.’
After smiling quietly so as not to be heard by the speaker, he made a careful suggestion.
“Then I don’t have to give you money, so buy me a meal next time.”
[What? That’s a bit…]
“What is it? What’s the reaction?”
[The next time we meet, I want to break 100,000 won.]
“Woo-san. When is it that eating a lot looks good?”
Should I reduce the amount I eat?
What if I don’t want to meet because food costs are too high?
While I was anxious inside, Shihyeon’s friendly voice continued.
[It’s a joke. Instead, let’s eat all-you-can-eat meat at home. Are you fine?]
“Sure!”
to let u know that i been through a lot then i been going non stop with this practice for nothing
Naturally, I succeeded in making an appointment.
‘I can meet you next time with this..’
Cheering inside, he grabbed the pillow and hugged him.
And when I was rolling over in bed.
[I had a nice time today. It was nice to play together after a long time.]
Shihyeon’s heavy voice echoed in her ears.
As expected.. It was good to hear it in person, but it was a different taste to listen through the speaker.
“Yeah. I liked it too..”
Except for talking with Chaeyeon on the way home.
A woman who came at the end of a pleasant day and ruined it.
Looking back, I suddenly remembered what he had said.
‘Whether the other person is Si-hyeon or another man, the moment you take care of him and depend on him, he will surely leave you.’
It was an idea I could never understand. The moment you treat me well, she leaves me. Is it possible that Chaeyeon is acting coldly because of her twisted ideology?
If it’s a male Shi-hyeon, would you be able to empathize with this statement? Concerned, I asked indirectly.
“Sihyun-ah, the reason you broke up with Chaeyeon. It’s because you’re tired of being overpowered, isn’t it?”
[yes? If you have to ask, yes.]
“Then, if Chaeyeon had shown affection for you often and treated you well, would they never have broken up?”
[Yeah, of course… Why are you asking such a question?]
“..nothing. I was just curious.”
I can’t talk about what happened today.
If Chaeyeon’s arrogant personality is due to her twisted thoughts. And what if you don’t know why?
Due to Shihyeon’s personality, it was obvious that she would ask about the situation and give her a hug.
Since the two of them broke up, I didn’t want to make a reunion card for me, since the opportunity came to me as well.
‘I was a very rude kid..’
While feeling selfish with selfishness. Si-hyeon, who knew nothing, continued the story.
[Did you see more than that? Our classmates MT schedule was scheduled.]
“really?”
[yes. He said he would go in 2 weeks. The place seems to be the East Sea, are you going?]
“Well. If you go, you go, if you don’t, you don’t.”
[Where is that? Whether I go or not, you have to go.]
“I don’t know. If you don’t go, I won’t go either.”
[..I will go too. It’s a bit like having Chaeyeon and Sohee, but I don’t want to miss MT.]
“okay..?”
You’re going to the sea with Sihyun.. After the call, I’ll have to look for a pretty swimsuit..
after.
During this MT, I was thinking about how to convince Si-hyeon, and when I fell in love with the conversation with Si-hyeon, an hour passed in an instant.
The conversation that seemed to last forever began to show an end unfortunately, and I did not want to end it like this, so I gathered up my courage.
“Hey Sihyeon! I can’t sleep these days, so can I call you every night?”
[What do you need permission for? Anytime is fine, so just walk whenever you want.]
“yes!”
With this, I got back one of the routines that Chaeyeon had lost.
If I confess my confession with the same courage as I just did, will I be able to become Si-hyeon’s lover too?
Friendships are boring now. As soon as possible.. Yes, even using MT this time, I wanted to convey my heart to Sihyun.
I love you more than anyone in this world.