chapter 4
#4
The first semester of the second year of middle school has come to an end.
The weather was getting hotter, and as the sun grew stronger, the students began to wear thin clothes. He threw away his old white embroidered gold uniform and wore only a light shirt.
Whether the expensive admission fee included the summer cooling fee, the inside of the academy was pleasant and cool as if cut off from the outside world.
Instead, the moment you step out of bounds, you want to make an extreme choice.
“Aren’t they tired?”
“Oh, look at you sweating… ”
“Hey, hey, is he laughing? Isn’t Jude in the next class?”
“… … Wow.”
Most of the female students didn’t seem to understand the male students who dared to go out to the playground and kick the ball through this murderous heat.
They shook their heads and chatted endlessly in the spacious lecture hall.
As soon as the exam is over, most of the curriculum changes to free time masquerading as self-study.
Students who liked to play ran to the playground, and sincere students practiced swordsmanship or unlearned magic in the student-only gymnasium.
From the 1st regular exam to the 2nd regular exam.
Of course, I also took those tests, which are abbreviated as the midterm and final.
Most practical subjects, including swordsmanship, are evaluated based on practical skills rather than writing.
The ratio is about 2:8.
Swordsmanship theory and practical swordsmanship.
In fact, the general swordsmanship course divided into these two did not require a very high level.
This is because students who had already demonstrated their talents in the first year would have entered the swordsmanship club separately, and those who did not had to use only swordsmanship to protect themselves.
Then you can
… … It’s not even new anymore.
I couldn’t.
All you have to do is transfer the image drawn in your head to your body. It’s really that simple.
I couldn’t do that simple thing.
There were some things that I lacked in ability, but because I read the swordsmanship manual and the amount of information I had before was so vast, there were many cases where I had to collide with the knowledge I had when I had to draw a fixed sword path, and there were a lot of twists and turns.
That’s unusual. In front of his friends and professors, he displayed skills that cannot be described in words. Even if you intentionally follow it, you can’t do it.
The fact that he was not shaking his hands while holding a heavy sword could be seen as a development of the generals.
In the end, Practical got a failing point.
… … Well, it was roughly like this.
As I said before, most of the practical subjects are practical. The evaluation ratio was not much different from that of swordsmanship.
In other words, except for liberal arts and some history subjects, I was told that all of them were near the failing point.
I can’t even say that I got a perfect score on my writing.
I’m not the only one who studied hard. It was quite a prestigious academy, and the students were generally excellent.
Let’s take a look at the scores we got.
28th out of 30 in our class.
The overall ranking was 471th out of 480.
… … It was fortunate that the last one was avoided.
The two behind me are the ones I slept with as soon as I started the written exam.
I guess he only came to pick up his academy diploma.
Maybe it was because he was the son of a wealthy aristocrat after all, and could live happily without having to work.
I decided not to care any more about grades.
It was a vaguely expected result, and in fact, I had to look further away than the grades in front of me.
Today I went to the library.
#5
The period from early summer to midsummer.
A little before the vacation started, a small change occurred in my daily life.
First of all, since I was given free time after the test was over, I almost stuck to the library.
Except for fields that require innate talent, they searched for jobs that could achieve satisfactory results if they consistently invest time and effort.
There was also a way to borrow the wisdom of an adult.
… So I tried it with my homeroom professor.
Excluding all physical work, I received an answer that it would be better to learn a science based on a well-informed theory.
However, the professor’s words were already in mind. It wasn’t very helpful, but I remember leaving the lab with a thank you.
I’m not in a position to choose between cold and hot food, but… … I didn’t want to be like those liberal arts professors called human sleeping pills at the academy.
It was good to see it as a modest greed. Not a year has passed yet. If I could find my hidden talent until I graduated from secondary school, that would be it.
However, if you still can’t find it… … I decided to think about that later.
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Druck. widely.
The inside of the library was quiet.
Because everyone is busy playing.
Perhaps because of that, the sound of the chair being pulled out resounded clearly.
Shh.
It was popular from a very close distance.
“… … ”
You can tell without turning your head.
A fresh body odor came from someone who naturally sat next to me from a certain moment.
palak. palak.
Unlike me, who opened a book on magic theory written by a prominent professor, she was reading an ordinary book of literature.
She didn’t touch me directly.
He stared at me at the desk, grabbed a book to read when he had nothing to do, and sat down next to me.
She turned her wavy hair behind her ears, turning the pages without bubbling from the suspicious gazes around her.
… Druck.
On the other hand, I felt like I was sitting on a cushion of thorns, so I got up quietly and moved to a nook.
She looked at me slowly, closed the book and followed me.
“… … ”
The gazes on us grew stronger, so we decided to just sit still next time.
It’s been a week since I couldn’t concentrate more than usual.
One day, I picked up a novel to take a break.
I used to like books, and I liked the author who wrote this book even more.
The story of a man and a woman who live in a ruined world. It was famous among readers for its lingering, deep ending. This was the fourth time I was reading this.
So I sat at the table and immersed myself in the novel for a while.
“… Uh, I like that book too.”
Suddenly, she, who was sitting next to me, spoke as if tossing it.
“… … ?”
I reflexively turned my head.
blink.
I met her smile that had been waiting in advance.
… … That was the beginning.
After the full-fledged vacation was declared, she started talking to me first, both inside and outside the library.
At lunchtime, he followed me on the stairs in the backyard, chatting nonstop, and after school in the library, he jotted down a pen on a piece of paper and passed out information he didn’t want to know.
After answering in a dry way a few times, conversations took place occasionally, and the frequency gradually increased.
It was already too late by the time he realized he was caught up in her pace.
Relationships gradually built up.
At first, it was a story about a favorite author or a book that I have recently been interested in.
At the end of the day, I had to go home and arrange things to do.
From midday noon until the sun goes down.
We kept our voices low so as not to be a nuisance to those around us, and we talked as if whispering to each other.
Seeing that
I found out even if I didn’t want to know about her.
It was a natural flow, like water seeping into the fabric.
Turns out, he was quite a celebrity among freshmen.
Aside from having a pretty face, like my childhood friend, I was born into a commoner family and was scouted with a full scholarship.
In fact, there were rumors that she was the dean’s granddaughter, but she denied it. It was said that his grandfather was plowing a field in the outskirts of the estate.
He is also known for his unusual personality.
Simply put, geek.
Perhaps because everything in the world reverted to self-centered thinking, he sometimes said and did things that were incomprehensible. That’s why my friends around me don’t come close.
He also denied this, but in my opinion, it didn’t seem like a false rumor.
The black hair color is his father’s.
The purple eye color is inherited from the mother.
When I was young, I had a chronic disease, so I couldn’t go out very well, so my skin is pure white.
I like mostly mystery novels and romance novels. I don’t read theory books because I’m bored.
There is a small dot on the left side of the neck.
Takes the heat well.
The reason I entered the library was to apply for new books I wanted to read.
live in a dormitory It is said that his roommate snored a lot while sleeping and blocked it with tongs, and then they had a big fight.
It looks like he will go to the swordsmanship club in his second year, but he really hates to use his body. It is better to have a drink and read a book in a cool and quiet place like a library.
Since the beginning of admission, I have been consistently receiving confessions.
It was almost a regular event.
Among them, it was difficult because there was a male swordsman who persisted in confessing even if he refused.
After hearing the details, I thought it might be similar to what he is doing to me now, but it turns out that he was secretly stalking me… … Well, it’s really no different.
Anyway, this was the way to shake off that old man.
duel.
I threw a challenge at that senior, and put a condition on it.
If you win, don’t fuss forward and get out.
Instead, if you lose, I will date you as you wish. like this.
Her seniors’ friends barely caught her, who was about to slash her sword and trample her heart, and dried her.
After that dizzying incident, the number of confessions from not only male seniors but also from those around him has decreased overall.
I hate unruly cats.
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Dogs, on the other hand, are obedient and love them.
Like her, she had a very ruthless taste.
Contrary to me, I have no confidence in writing. The brain doesn’t look bad, but it seems like he just doesn’t like studying.
Professors say that she is a talented person who will become the sword of the empire in the future, but her dream was to be an unemployed white beast disguised as the current wife.
I met a capable husband and wanted to live comfortably without worrying about money.
So, he told me to try harder, looking at me.
The meeting continued even after the vacation was over.
At some point, the backyard stairs, which had been my only place, became a place where she and I had lunch together.
Not only did they meet at the library, but they also occasionally met on benches around the dormitory where there were few people.
Originally, I was the one in charge of the desk every day, but on busy days there were few opportunities to talk to me, so I started rotating one member of the staff.
When I met him on the stairs of the main building, he would wave his hand and say hello, so he often ran away in a hurry.
When the juniors who were with her looked at me with strange eyes, they naturally avoided it.
After repeating the same situation several times, I got nervous and stopped talking to him first.
In the end, I politely greeted her first, and she smiled softly, as if she had ever been crooked, and became more talkative than before.
From summer to autumn when the leaves turn.
And soon winter is coming.
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Despite the fact that she had vowed not to make any gaps, she made a small contribution to my daily life, gradually expanding the space and erecting a pillar.
Now, the moment she disappears, a part of me will fall apart, but I still couldn’t accept her confession.
A friend with whom you can talk openly.
Maybe it wasn’t that much.
In fact, except for her, there was no one inside the academy who could be called a friend. So she was special, but nothing more.
Because to me, there was always only one person who was more than special.
She must have been vaguely aware of that fact.
Just as she told me a lot, I also told her a lot.
I feel a vague sense of gratitude. If she hadn’t been by my side, I thought that maybe I would have collapsed by now.
That’s why I loved her, who was nothing but a benefactor, more than anyone.
didn’t love
the first snow falls
One winter day, soft snowflakes were falling.
I saw a childhood friend with someone.
Wearing a navy blue robe that reveals that he was a student of the Ministry of Magic, he had a pure face that had not changed from that of a year ago.
The tip of his nose and cheeks were slightly red, probably on the way home from an outdoor class.
Light pink hair, eyes set on top of the crown.
“It was buried in my head.”
“ah… thank you Seniors.”
Even that warm smile that thanked him for brushing it away with his hands was still there.
It just wasn’t directed at me.
“… … ”
The reason I went to the annex of the Ministry of Magic was because of the errand of my homeroom professor. It was a job that had to be delivered by simply delivering the goods, so I thought that I would never run into it.
What has already happened cannot be undone.
a fleeting moment.
There was a faint surprise in the eyes that met by chance.
crisp.
Throwing the box, he turned his back and ran away.
A small voice could be heard from afar, but it did not stop. Running through the slowly falling snow, he ran away until snowflakes were sticking all over his body.
stupid and ugly But I couldn’t help it. I didn’t think I would be able to keep my sanity if I stayed there longer.
I thought I barely forgot… … All of them came back to life like a lie in one accidental encounter with no meaning in trying.
Snow melts when it comes into contact with the skin. So it becomes water and flows. But the snow should have been cold, but for some reason the melted water was only hot.
It was worthwhile to work hard.
If it had been before, I would have collapsed from exhaustion earlier.
I ran so far that I didn’t even know where I came from.
Then it fell off somewhere.
“… … ”
It didn’t hurt or hurt thanks to the snow piled up.
soft and nice I rubbed the back of my sore nose and just turned around and lay down.
White snow falls on the sky dyed white.
I might not have followed.
I look up with fear, not with expectation.
… … Only snow-covered trees lined up thickly, and no one was beneath them.
What.
Come to think of it, I didn’t know.
No matter who my childhood friend was dating, there was no reason for me to stop worrying about it. It would be nice to see you don’t deserve it.
My heart, which had been pounding like it was about to explode before, calmly subsided.
I thought I would have to control my mind for quite a long time, but surprisingly, it calmed down quickly. That’s good.
When the opposite s*x came back, I suddenly felt ashamed.
not a novel.
what are you doing now, me
I smiled and got up from my seat and wiped the eyes off my uniform.
“I’m also buried here, senpai.”
“Uh, okay? thanks… … ”
The moment he stopped talking and the moment he turned his back was almost the same.
“… … you.”
“I’m sorry. When I see a senior, it has become a habit to follow me secretly… Hehe.”
She covered her whole body with snowflakes as much as me.
He was wearing a beige scarf over his uniform and blowing cold breaths.
… When I asked why you were here, did you stalk again?
It’s a really bad habit.
“Anyway, it’s really cold. Whoa. I think it’s the coldest day these days.”
What do you want to say?
Mouth did not open.
“uh… senior?”
she asked with her eyes wide open.
“… … Are you crying?”
Soon the corners of the eyes soften down.
“… Do not cry. I think I did something bad.”
Stalking is a bad thing.
and don’t cry
Only the voice doesn’t come out.
“Uh, uh, uh… … ”
She hesitated in front of me for a while.
“… I think this is a chance. right? I’m not the only one who thinks so, am I? … Er, I don’t know. Eight.”
He said something to himself and grabbed me.
no strength in the body
She is stronger than me in the first place.
I feel the warmth of her slender arms wrapped around my back as she is embracing her, who is just a little shorter than my height.
cold but warm
From a distance that could not be closer than now, a soft voice gently taps my ear.
“… … There you are, old man.”
“… … ”
“… … I waited very patiently. But I never saw a chance. Do you know that your eyes are really high?”
“… … ”
“… … Anyway, I understand. It must be because of her sister. I’m sorry, but I’ll admit it.”
The snow is gradually accumulating.
There is no snow on her left shoulder or mine. Instead, each other’s hair on top of it meets their eyes.
Her snowy hair tickled my cheeks.
A unique lime scent is mixed with the familiar body odor.
wave waves.
Suddenly, I felt her body trembling as she hugged me tightly.
Was it because it was cold?
Maybe it was.
“… I haven’t even been able to hold a senior’s hand yet. I hugged I will die of shame.”
Then slowly let go
“… Still, your body is warm, so it feels good. I want to keep doing this. really.”
Then he gave me more strength in the arm that embraced me.
I was about to hit the tab because it was frustrating.
… Rather, it is comfortable.
“… senior.”
“… … ”
“… I know this is absolutely bad. It’s only then that I feel like a bad b*tch who just takes advantage of a lonely person’s heart… … ”
You can hear him say something funny or suffocating.
“I don’t think it will be this time.”
“… … ”
“If you need me… … I can always be your strength. like now.”
“… … ”
“… Do you know that I still like you? Even better than before. It just increased every day. I don’t even know why I’m doing this… First of all, I don’t think it’s my fault.”
“… … ”
“So… I’ll tell you just this one time.”
Now I know. That’s a lie.
She wanted to get what she wanted somehow. Do what you want to do, and don’t do what you don’t want to do.
So no matter what I answered here, I would never stop.
“… … Would you like to date me?”
If that’s the case anyway.
You won’t even need to work harder.
I sensed defeat and closed my eyes.
The end of the second semester of the second year of middle school.
It was one winter day when I became a lover with Mew, which has become my bitterest memory.