MHA being a hero is very hard but I'm still standing.

"another long vacation with the hospital bed" I sighed. I was out of the world for 2 days, so I missed the second-year and third-year festivals and missed who were the big 3. In addition, I missed 2 days of vacation, a real vacation. I kept walking home until I saw the grocery store. After hitting the grocery, I looked at my broken phone, especially at the 10 million yen that came to my account; I wondered if that was his way of saying I'm taking care of you or something. I threw this thought to the end of my mind and dedicated it to analyse.

Meanwhile in my home. Akira and Kayama were talking, "So he is coming?" Akira asked and Kayama nodded. Akira was like a little child jumping in her place, and Kayama kept watching her. "Calm down. He hasn't confessed yet," Akira stopped after hearing that "Stop bothering me", she cried. "come on. If you don't tell him how is he going to know" Kayama added "But he is the boy he should say it" Akira shouted "That was part of the past and better early" Kayama advised her and blinked "But I can't" Akira sat and pulled her legs to her face "look Akira boys nowadays are afraid to say their feelings or confess or even approach girls; they are afraid of being called creeps and freaks so if you don't do it, he won't." Kayama illustrated, "I know, but it's hard. You know" Akira replied.

They stayed silent for some moments. "I always feel that I'm losing him." Akira said, "he doesn't see me as a woman or a girl," she added, "he is always there yet so far." She sighed "he is always so far." Kayama said, "The books he reads, the notes he writes, the danger he puts himself in, the speed he grows, the vibes he gives, the past he has lived. Far from anyone; he lives in a different world, a black world that he must bring colours to" She kept talking mostly to herself "I want to tell him that this world is full of colours already, that he doesn't have to carry that burden over his shoulders, that he's not-". "alone" Akira interrupted Kayama, both looked at each other. Akira looked at her wrapped hand "you can't start fixing others when you are broken" Kayama said with concern. Akira nodded to her.

I was standing outside. I took a deep breath and opened the door "I'm home." I said loudly "Izuku!" Akira shouted and ran to me. I opened my arms and she jumped in them. I held her tightly. "I missed you too," I said me. "I didn't say that" She blushed and buried her face in my shoulder. I moved my hand through her body to her butt and gripped it; she chuckled at my hand at first, but a sudden moan escaped her lips, and she looked at me "To hold you better", I reasoned. I took off my shoes and walked in, holding her. "hi Kayama," I raised the other hand that had the grocery. "ohhhh~. What a lovely couple," she said sarcastically. "thank you", I replied smiling. I walked to the couch, put her, and went to the kitchen. "hungry?" I asked "Yes, we are starving", Kayama answered. Akira's eyes didn't let go of me all the way.

I took out the golden rice, eggs, onions, ketchup, tomatoes, and some other stuff and started. In the salon, "Did you notice that?" Akira asked "Yes, he considered you a girl and gripped your ass", Kayama replied. Akira blushed "Not that idiot," she said. "I noticed, and I think he can hear us", Kayama said. Both stayed silent.

I finished everything, yet something was missing; I held the ketchup and completed the plats. I held their plats and went to the dining room "Tell me about my penmanship," I said and put the plats in front of them. I went to the kitchen again while they were reading "Thanks for being in my life". I brought my plate, put it on, sat, and started eating. we ate in silence; everyone had a smile on his face. None was said and none was needed.

After finishing the food, I looked at the time and it was 7p.m "I think Mrs. Kanata won't be happy if you come late" I stood and wore my shoes before her. She was stunned 'My mom won't be bothered,' she thought. She stood too, and wore her shoes, and followed me. Her mind went wild, "so you are coming with me?" she asked seeing me walking with her. "Yes, I have something to say".

we walked for a while until they reached a park near Akira's house. My face was black all the way something was wrong, and she felt it, but she didn't want to believe it. we sat on a pinch. "Akira, I can't accept your feelings", I said firmly. "wait, what?" she thought, her ears tricked her. "I'm sorry for anything I did, but I can't accept your feelings and put you in danger." I opened the hell's gates on her "That kind of shit again", She stood and started to shout at me; Anger was her only escape. "I'm not a child Izuku." She stopped and looked down. "I know, and that's why I said it early. I can't under any condition love you or be related to you," I stood "Get out of your dreams", I added. I walked away with all that was left, but two hands hugged me from behind, stopping me from committing it. "Why?" she whispered; her mind couldn't accept what she had heard. "I'm a hero," I said and moved her hand off and walked.

My heart was at pieces as it was always. The more they fixed it, the more broken I made it. I kept walking but I heard footsteps from my back. I looked and found some old man walking. "it's a street, idiot. Someone will always be walking," I said sarcastically. I entered my home to see Kayama with exciting eyes that rapidly died when she saw me. Looking like a piece of garbage with an empty face. "what happened?" she asked "What should have happened" I answered and went to my room "Midoriya, come here and tell me what happened!" she ordered "I broke her heart and came home" I replied with a grave tone and closed the door. Kayama didn't waste a moment and called Akira, I heard them talking through the walls.

I threw myself at the desk and started working. I heard knocking at the door but I didn't reply. The knock came back again, but nothing again. The third time she opened the door. "Midoriya… You did break her heart nevertheless she will forgive you if you apologise" Midnight said, she sat on my bed "I know but I can't" I replied "No, you can and being a hero doesn't stripe you from love"

"It does because the moment you fail means you are dead. Nobody deserves to feel that kind of loss," I explained "So don't fail", a whisper in my ear. "I want, the same way I wanted my mom not to die", I said. "then do", "I kept doing, yet I lost again", I replied. "then learn" "We kept learning to repeat the same mistakes". Kayama was looking at me talking to myself; she didn't utter a word.

"Midoriya, are you afraid?" Kayama asked with a concerned tone. "I have been all my life" I replied. The pen stopped moving on the paper from the moment she got in. "and what about the words you wrote?" she asked again "They are the truth". "then show me that in action", she exclaimed in anger 'what the fuck with his mind?'. "I did" I said with indifference, 'with all of me… I did'. "no, you didn't. All you did was break her heart, not protect her," she tried to change my mind "Midoriya. what you did harm more than benefited,". She took a deep breath "She loves you more than you know," my fist tightened 'I know' "She even chose to heal her hand and let go for you. She wants to fix you as she wants to be with you" the pen broke in my hand "but if-" I tried to put my reasons "Midoriya we can't live by if." But she interrupted loudly breaking my walls "the regret will be another-". "cup of my sea" I interrupted her this time but as weak as I was.

The silence settled down like a fog. She tried hard and brainstormed anything that could change my stubborn mind. "would your mom be happy with what you did?" she asked in a soft tone. My eyes widened, and I was speechless. "you already know the answer," she continued "You told Endeavor's son that you survived because your flames burnt brighter." I looked at her. "If you truly believe what you said, if you truly love your mom, then you know how to fix it and if not, I will be on the couch watching the TV". She walked out of the room and left me alone.

I looked at the two words, the only two words I wrote from the moment I held the pen to the moment I broke it: "Stop lying". "another lie. Who's truly in control?" I wondered. No one answered me.

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I had another novel I started to download today you could go check if you want

WHAT DO I CRAFT NEXT the novel not the fanfic with ace

Another small thing I hope I made clear through this chapter is that the rapid change in Midriya's actions isn't a writing mistake. It's my evil plan to trick you all into the mislead of being stupid while the one that thought that was stupid. Burn in hell