Marriage First, True Love Later Novel



241 Visiting a patient at the hospital

She didn’t know if it was because of her emotions or because she had just hit her forehead, but Lin Li only felt that her whole head was dizzy. Her body and mind were a little exhausted. She lay on the bed and fell asleep not long after, but she didn’t sleep very well.

Although her eyes were closed, Lin Li kept dreaming. She dreamed of the time when she was together with Chengxiang, and even dreamed of her wedding with Chengxiang. The scenes were like a movie playing in her mind, over and over again. Finally, she dreamed of Chengxiang’s mother kneeling at the elevator entrance in the afternoon, begging her to go to the hospital to see Chengxiang.

It was like a movie reel, repeating her crying and begging over and over again.

The extreme uneasiness and frustration in her heart made Lin Li open her eyes abruptly, her breathing somewhat rapid.

“What’s wrong?” A low voice sounded beside her. Lin Li turned her head and saw Zhou han sitting by the bed, holding a cotton swab in his hand. There was safflower oil on the bedside table, and the strong smell of the medicinal oil was a little pungent. Lin Li couldn’t help but frown.

“Did you have a nightmare?” Zhou han asked, but his hands didn’t stop. He dipped a cotton swab in the safflower oil and reached for her forehead.

Lin Li couldn’t stand the smell and turned her head to avoid it, refusing, ” “I don’t want to apply this.”

“This one can reduce swelling quickly, promote blood circulation, and remove blood clots.” As he spoke, he reached out and turned her face around gently.

Although Lin Li wasn’t very willing, she didn’t reject him again. However, her tightly knitted brows were so tight that they could crush a fly.

Zhou han finished applying it for her and put the things aside.

Lin Li said thank you in a low voice, then turned to lie inside and closed her eyes again.

Zhou han looked at her and didn’t leave immediately. He said, ” “Get up and eat something.”

“I’m not hungry.” Lin Li didn’t turn around.

“I heard from assistant Xu that he met you at the elevator.” Zhou han said slowly. His tone was so calm that no emotions could be heard.

Lin Li, who had her back to him, opened her eyes but didn’t say anything. After a while, she closed them again.

Zhou han didn’t speak again. He sat by the bed for a while, then got up and left with his things.

Lin Li was in a daze for the entire night. She didn’t know if she had slept or not, but her dreams didn’t stop the entire night. Rather than calling it a dream, it was more accurate to say that it was the past and memories between her and Chengxiang.

The images and memories that kept appearing gave her a headache. She forced herself not to think about it, but she couldn’t stop those images from jumping out of her mind.

He woke up before six in the morning. He lay on the bed and stared at the ceiling for a long time before he got up.

The frustration in her heart had persisted since yesterday and had not dissipated at all. Instead, it seemed to have intensified.

She turned on the tap in the bathroom and splashed some cold water on her face. The cold sensation stimulated her senses, but it did not wash away the frustration in her heart at all.

Looking at the water-stained face in the mirror, Lin Li only felt a little powerless.

Zhou han was still looking at the person outside the door through the open office door. Lin Li had been too quiet these two days, so quiet that she seemed to be in a daze all the time.

He went to the security room and checked the surveillance camera at the elevator door on the first floor. From the surveillance camera, he recognized that the person who assistant Xu said came to find Lin Li was the mother of Cheng Xiang, the person he and Lin Li had met at the airport.

His heart felt a little uncomfortable because of her reaction. He didn’t know what this meant, or was it that she still hadn’t let go of that man in her heart, so she was unwilling to accept his feelings?

He didn’t know that some things were starting to become uncertain.

However, one thing was for sure. He had been secretly observing her over the past two days, more than when she was handling the work at hand.

Even he himself was surprised by this, but he didn’t know if it was a good or bad thing.

Just as he was thinking about it, there was a knock on the office door. He looked up and saw Lin Li standing at the door, looking at him.

As their eyes met, Zhou Han’s lips twitched and he said, ” “Come in.”

Lin Li walked in and stood in front of him. She said, ” “I want to ask for leave.”

Zhou han stared into her eyes and asked, ” “The reason.”

“There’s something.” Lin Li’s words were as concise as his.

“What’s the matter?” Zhou han asked. He had a premonition that it must be related to that man, and this premonition made his originally impetuous heart even more agitated.

Lin Li bit her lip and turned her head away. I don’t want to say it.

Zhou han didn’t ask any more questions. He stared at her for a while and nodded in agreement.

Lin Li stood outside the ward, but she didn’t knock on the door.

When she just arrived at the hospital, Chengxiang’s mother was downstairs talking to her for a long time. Seeing her today, she seemed to be a lot more Haggard than two days ago, and most of her hair seemed to have turned white in the past few days.

Cheng Xiang’s mother told her that Cheng Xiang’s illness couldn’t be delayed any longer. Because he didn’t cooperate with the treatment, the cancer cells spread very quickly. If he didn’t amputate it, his life would be in danger.

Lin Li turned around and leaned her back against the wall next to the door. Her palms were wet with cold sweat because of her nervousness.

She didn’t know how much time had passed with her eyes closed. Although she still couldn’t forget the past, and the memories of the past two days had even forced her to remember them more, she knew that Chengxiang’s heart was like this. She knew that his life was in danger, but she couldn’t just ignore it.

He opened his eyes again, turned around, and took a deep breath. Without any hesitation, he raised his hand and gently knocked on the door. He directly turned the doorknob and opened the door.

In the room, Chengxiang was sitting on the bed with his head facing the window. He didn’t turn his head and directly said, ” “Get out. I want to be alone for a while.”

Lin Li didn’t go out, but just looked at him.

He seemed to have lost a lot of weight. Both sides of his cheeks were sunken, and his face had become particularly pale and bloodless because of his illness. Looking at him like this, Lin Li found it difficult to connect him with the Cheng Xiang from back then. They were practically two different people.

As if he didn’t hear the sound of the door closing behind him, Chengxiang didn’t turn his head and spoke again, ” “I don’t know how to perform surgery. I’d rather die than lose a leg.” Although his voice was not loud, his tone was firm and unquestionable.

Lin Li bit her lip. Her nose was so sour that she felt like crying. She slowly walked over to him.

He didn’t hear any response from behind him for a long time, and he seemed to have felt someone walking toward him. Chengxiang turned his head and was about to speak, but he suddenly froze. He met Lin Li’s eyes and was somewhat surprised and in disbelief!

“Lin, Lin Li …”

Lin Li nodded and was somewhat speechless. She reached out to cover her hand and forced back the tears in her eyes.

Chengxiang’s eyes were fixed on Lin Li, and he shook his head, as if he thought that this was just an illusion.

In the end, Lin Li still turned her back to him. She found it difficult to accept his current appearance. After calming down, she turned around and bitterly smiled.”Hi,” he said.

really? it’s you?! Looking at the person he had been thinking about day and night, Chengxiang was afraid that this was all an illusion, a dream. After the dream passed, when he woke up again, everything would return to how it was before.

Lin Li nodded, and her eyes turned red again.

Chengxiang looked at her and then smiled. This was the first smile he had in a few days, or rather, it could be said that it was the only smile he could truly smile since the wedding more than half a year ago.

However, the smile on his face didn’t last for long. As if he had thought of something, Chengxiang turned his head abruptly, somewhat unwilling to look at her, and said,”You, you get out, get out.”

Chengxiang … Lin Li didn’t know why he was suddenly like this and was at a loss. what’s wrong with you? ”

Chengxiang lowered his head, the hand on the blanket tightly clenched, and said with some pain, Get out, I don’t want you to see me like this … as he said that, he hammered his thigh.

Lin Li was a little worried. She bent down and reached out to pull him. don’t be like this.

Chengxiang raised his head to look at her, his eyes greedily looking at her face. It was as if he wanted to look at her all at once, as if he would never be able to do it again if he didn’t do so.

Lin Li didn’t know what she could say. She felt so bad that she only wanted to cry.

“I’m sorry,” she said.

Lin Li looked at him and reached out to wipe the tears that couldn’t help but flow down her face. She only shook her head and said, ” “Let’s not talk about this.” The most important thing now was his condition.

I’m sorry, Lin Li. I’m really sorry. Chengxiang looked at her as he spoke, his expression pained.

Lin Li turned her head and raised her head to look at the ceiling, forcing back the tears in her eyes. She then turned her head and said to him, ” “Chengxiang, let’s start the operation.”

Chengxiang looked at her and shook his head. if I have to lose a leg, I’d rather die.

“Nothing is more important than life!” If losing a leg could save one’s life, it was worth it. There was only hope if one was alive.

“I don’t want to become a cripple!” Chengxiang turned his head and bitterly laughed at himself,”What can I do with one leg?”

you can only do what you want to do if you’re alive. You’re so cowardly! Lin Li still wanted to persuade him, but he interrupted her.

“Stop talking. I won’t agree to the surgery. I can’t accept losing a leg.” As Chengxiang spoke, he turned to look at her and sneered,”Perhaps this is my retribution.” It was her retribution for hurting her so deeply.

Lin Li looked at him and stared at him. She didn’t even say anything for a long time.

Chengxiang didn’t dare to meet her eyes, so he turned his head away and said softly, ” “Thank you for coming to see me. Go back.”

After an unknown amount of time, Lin Li finally opened her mouth slowly. Chengxiang.

Chengxiang’s entire body trembled, but he didn’t turn around.

“You’re a coward!” Lin Li’s emotions suddenly became a little agitated. you’re simply a selfish person. You’ve never loved anyone else, let alone me!

Hearing this, Chengxiang suddenly turned his head, looked at her, and urgently said, ” No, I love you. I really love you!

no, you don’t love me. You never loved me, because the one you love the most is yourself!

I … Cheng Xiang wanted to explain, but Lin Li didn’t give him the chance.

you’re weak, so you always run away when something happens. You only love yourself, so when Xiaoxiao left, you used me as a substitute and agreed to date her. Then, you lied to me again and again because Xiaoxiao came back. What right do you have to say that you love me?! Lin Li looked at him in a daze. you said that you didn’t want to have surgery and you didn’t want to lose a leg. You only cared about your own feelings and thought that you wouldn’t be able to face that kind of life in the future. But have you ever thought about others? have you thought about those who love you? do you know how much your family and parents have aged because of your illness? You could say that you would rather die than lose a leg, but have you ever thought about your parents ‘feelings? Have you ever thought about their thoughts? do they want you to lose a leg and continue living, or do they want you to leave them?

What can you do with one leg? have you ever thought about what Cheng Zheng’s parents can do if they lose you? You’re their only son. What will they do after you leave? How could you be so selfish and only think for yourself? you don’t even consider the feelings of those who love you and care about you!

Death isn’t scary, what’s scary is how to face it alive. You chose the easiest way to face it and left the most difficult things to Cheng Zheng’s parents. How can you bear it?”

Chengxiang looked at her. For a moment, he was at a loss for words from the series of questions she threw at him.

Lin Li took a deep breath, stood up, and turned her back to him. She only said, ” “That’s all I want to say. As for whether you want the surgery or not, it’s your choice.” Lin Li didn’t say anything more. After she finished speaking, she picked up her bag and prepared to walk towards the door.

Seeing that she was about to leave, Chengxiang called out to her from behind.

“Lin Li!”

Lin Li stopped in her tracks, but she didn’t turn around. Her eyes and nose were red.

Behind her, Chengxiang stared at her back for a long while before finally asking, ” “If I agree to the surgery, will you forgive me?”