Chapter 69: Jealousy
Adversity reveals true feelings, and misfortune reveals people’s hearts.
Clearly, what Shi Meng experienced wasn’t the former, but the latter.
The conflict between Shi Meng’s parents—who was right and who was wrong—was now unknown. But in the most critical moment, the fact that her parents abandoned her left a deep wound on her heart.
Even if they had just turned back to check on her safety, tried to reach out a helping hand, or even just showed a worried expression, Shi Meng wouldn’t have felt so hurt.
The moment she saw her parents fleeing the disaster without looking back, Shi Meng lost the bond of “familial love” with them.
Perhaps that’s why she didn’t agree to Liu Zhenshan’s invitation at first. Having lost something once and being deeply hurt, she was afraid of being abandoned again.
But Liu Zhenshan used continuous actions to prove her sincerity. So, four years later, Shi Meng finally came to this new home. Changing her surname was probably her way of wanting to completely forget the past.
Shi Hai patted her shoulder comfortingly. “Mengmeng, you don’t have to feel guilty. I was the one who asked too many questions. Don’t dwell on it.”
“It’s fine… being able to talk about these things with you makes me feel a little better too…”
In the past, Shi Meng was unwilling to talk about her past, as if her life before middle school didn’t exist at all. Because Shi Hai was the one asking, she answered truthfully. Otherwise, she wouldn’t want to recall these sad memories.
“I may have been avoiding the past too deliberately… Maybe facing it openly would be better…”
“Right, it’s all in the past now, so just try to let it go.”
“Mm… I’ve also thought seriously about what you said earlier. If I really had the chance to go back to the past, I would try to save them. No matter what, they are still my parents…”
But Shi Meng’s reason for saving them was only this. If she had no choice, she wouldn’t feel guilty about it.
Shi Hai felt his sister was already kind enough.
Her parents had abandoned her and even left her to die, yet she was still willing to lend them a hand. That was already repaying evil with good.
“The fact that you have this thought is enough… You’ve lived…”
Before Shi Hai could finish his sentence, Shi Meng cut him off.
“Righteously, isn’t that it? Hehe.”
Shi Meng’s values largely mirrored Shi Hai’s, with the two siblings sharing about 90% of the same views. She understood her brother’s thoughts well and could calmly and rationally analyze the situation like he did. However, she couldn’t yet view things from the perspective of a “leader” and make decisive judgments like her brother.
That’s why she saw him as the most remarkable person in the world, remembering every word he said and treating them as her own personal mottos.
Shi Hai had once taught her that she didn’t need to become a self-sacrificing “saint”; as long as she could live with a clear conscience, that was enough.
“Haha.”
Shi Hai was momentarily stunned but then laughed out loud. As expected, his reincarnated sister understood him very well.
“Exactly, live righteously.”
“Mm, I understand. I’ve remembered everything you’ve said, big brother.”
Seeing the worship in Shi Meng’s eyes made Shi Hai feel a little embarrassed.
It meant that in the future, he must have nagged her a lot about various things. When he was at home, he often nagged their mother, and after their mother was gone, it was probably his sister who received his lectures instead.
Thinking about it like that, Shi Hai realized he had been a bit too nagging. He figured he should cut back on all the “life lessons,” or else his sister would definitely get tired of it.
Shi Meng immediately knew what her brother was thinking from his expression and quickly clarified.
“I won’t get tired of it! No matter how much you say, I love listening to you!”
“Really? As long as you don’t mind.”
“Of course! So please keep talking to me, okay?”
Hearing her brother’s voice was extremely important to Shi Meng.
Back when Shi Hai had become comatose and lay motionless in bed, she had talked to him for hours, but there was never any response. That was the most terrifying thing of all.
Now, not only did her brother talk to her, but he also hugged and comforted her. Shi Meng already felt immensely happy.
No matter what her brother said, she loved listening to him and wanted to hear more. Even if he scolded her, she’d probably smile and listen. She even thought about turning on her phone and using the recording feature to capture everything he said, so she could listen to it over and over again later…
Let his voice echo in her ears forever…
Suddenly, she thought this was a brilliant idea. Why hadn’t she thought of it before?
She should have done this a long time ago!
Shi Meng decided she’d go buy a high-quality voice recorder to capture her brother’s voice without loss.
Shi Hai, unaware that his sister treated his words like sacred proclamations or even divine decrees, just smiled and agreed.
“Got it. There will be plenty of chances to talk later. But it’s getting late now, so we should probably go to bed.”
“Mm…”
Seeing Shi Meng lower her head in disappointment, looking like she still had more to say, Shi Hai thought for a moment and then said, “Alright, I’ll ask you one last question.”
Shi Meng immediately perked up, beaming with joy.
“Mm! Ask away, big brother!”
“Mengmeng, did you know that Jian Sichun is also a reincarnator?”
“Huh? She’s reincarnated too?”
Judging by her reaction… it seemed Shi Meng didn’t know.
“Yes, and she knows you.”
“I see… No wonder she was trying to get close to me earlier…”
At the time, Shi Meng had felt quite annoyed by Jian Sichun’s overly familiar behavior. Even though they had just met, Jian Sichun acted like they were old friends, which made Shi Meng uncomfortable.
“But if she’s also a reincarnator, she must be from a different future, right?”
“Yes, that’s what I think too. And she doesn’t remember much about the details of her rebirth. Do you think it’s possible that the person who talked to you also sent Jian Sichun back to the past?”
“If that’s the case, why would they send Jian Sichun back too?”
Jian Sichun didn’t remember the details of her reincarnation, but after returning, she immediately sought out Shi Hai and followed him to his home.
Shi Hai felt that Jian Sichun’s “behavior pattern” was quite similar to his sister’s.
“Maybe for the same reason they sent you back…”
“Are you saying Jian Sichun came back to save you too?”
“Mm, in the future she came from, she and I seem to be quite close—close enough that she lived with us.”
“She actually lived with us? But we don’t have any extra rooms for her—Wait! What was your relationship with her? Don’t tell me she was your girlfriend!”
“She hasn’t admitted it yet, but I think so. After all, if you’re living here too, the only one she could have shared a room with would be me.”
“A couple living together… yeah, that’s the most likely…”
As Shi Meng voiced that possibility, she felt an uncomfortable tightness in her chest.
She knew Shi Hai was talking about things that happened in “another future,” but the idea of her brother living with another woman still made her feel very upset.
It was strange… She wasn’t completely against her brother finding a girlfriend, as long as the woman didn’t harm him. That didn’t mean she wanted him to be single forever…
As his sister, she should want him to find a woman who could make him happy for the rest of his life…
But…
Why do I feel like…
My brother should only be mine…?
Shi Meng had never felt this way before.
So she didn’t realize that this emotion was called “jealousy.”
The flames of jealousy were kindled in Shi Meng’s heart.