I’m Not a Hero Like You

??

this is.

It’s not a matter of resisting and trying.

The white wall of flame is as stubborn as the walls of the world.

But should I just be stubborn?

The heat that burns the whole body.

The pain it caused was indescribable.

‘This much!’

However, I couldn’t give in like this.

Just like this!

Much less being dragged along by the oppressor’s compulsion.

I just couldn’t bear it.

El Hermina.

I fully understand what she thinks of me.

However, accepting it is another matter.

I.

I will never accept her coercion.

Do you think you will succumb to this kind of tyranny?

… … .

… … … … .

“stop. It is done.”

The resistance was futile.

Will was infinitely shabby like a candle in front of a rainstorm.

if that is a human

Could the world be so unfair?

cruel.

Cruel.

… However.

“Accept it. This is your destiny.”

From now on.

“Your destiny is mine alone.”

The mind dies, the will crashes.

Determination is shattered, hope is shattered.

Like a doll without a soul.

as it has been from the beginning.

I followed her back to the islands.

However.

… It didn’t mean that I would reunite with my parents.

She knew me very well.

deep inside the imperial palace.

In an unknown place, a room without even a window.

There, I only wait for her to come.

“If it’s hard, don’t think about it.”

Wasn’t it just pain?

she instructed.

I used to ask about his intentions and soothe him.

All of that was done according to her intentions.

But maybe that was the best result for me.

“… why did it turn out like this I want something like this… It wasn’t.”

Seras, whom he hadn’t seen in a while, was in a state of disrepair.

However, I didn’t care.

When I start thinking about it, my head hurts.

I decided not to think.

I’m dead anyway

Let’s close our hearts. let’s lock up

only for meeting her.

Let’s close our minds.

she loves me

save me

If I try to strangle her.

She will accept the result with a smile.

she is like that

… She is my savior.

my savior.

Because I have no more hope or anything.

Except for the moment with her, nothing.

… It was useless for any pair.

“annoying.”

An unknown voice keeps scratching my eardrum.

My chest was stuffy, and I couldn’t breathe at times.

Okay.

Just drink the potion she gave you.

let’s not think

Thinking about it is painful and exhausting.

If you act childish like this, they give you everything you want and want to do.

pluck the lute

Even if you didn’t have to resort to potions, this would be enough.

“Your expression has brightened a lot.”

Is it because I stopped relying on useless things?

My relationship with her is smoother than before.

No, even before that, it was really friendly and kind… Anyway, I can’t say enough… It would have been an ideal relationship.

“Really, are you okay with that?”

Seras asked.

Only she, periodically visiting to clean this large space, would leave.

Other than Elhermina, only Seras visits this place.

I like being alone.

that’s what i wish

She never made this choice because she wished.

This is sincere.

always waiting for her

Only when we stick together, only when we become one.

we become complete

Like the sun and the moon, when they are separated from each other, they are very lonely and forlorn, even painful.

let’s not think

pluck the lute

infinitely.

infinitely.

to forget even myself.

All the way, I spread the tone.

– It’s completely gone.

… … ?

I heard a voice from somewhere

-I can’t do this.

I do not know.

Something seemed important, but I’m not sure.

let’s not recall

it’s tough.

I was tough enough.

I don’t want to work hard anymore.

Even breathing was difficult.

Every time I opened my eyes, I hated that today had come, was afraid, and even suffered.

I was always afraid to fall asleep.

because tomorrow comes

That’s why I tried so hard not to close my eyes.

That made it even more painful.

I can’t hear the words properly.

Why can’t you understand the horse?

come to my senses

Are you kidding me?

Why do you buy it that way?

Aren’t you ashamed to see your parents?

How long are you going to live like that?

After all, there was no way out for me.

let’s pray

let’s pray

Even the time when I was confined to my room and had to pray, now I was at peace.

However, it is better to shut up in a closet and pray.

I couldn’t sleep at night, I couldn’t even eat, I trained, studied, and was called here and there.

Slandered, insulted, scorned, harassed, ridiculed, compared, criticized, nagged, admonished, contemptuous, swearing, slandered, slandered, ridiculed… … … … .

I hated opening my eyes.

I want to close my ears

I’d rather not hear.

If you can’t see your eyes

If you couldn’t feel anything

I wouldn’t have been in pain.

Even the air is frightening, like a needle piercing the lungs.

In fact, maybe the world has ill will towards me.

I wasn’t born to be blessed.

I wasn’t born to be loved.

… to be cursed.

Maybe it was born for that.

“it’s okay.”

Because I am.

Because I am.

Can I just be there?

“… … right.”

if only you

You are enough.

“I wish time would stop like this forever. You are really, the more I look at you, the more beautiful you are. my own L. Kariel. knife.”

Even if the whole world was against me.

Only, as much as she is in this world… .

don’t touch me

● Forget ●●.

Because only ●● is ●● you.

So please do ● as well.

I am like ●●.

Do it.

Will you do it?

Come on, come to Gero.

●, because ●●●● all along.

“… … .”

as the days go by.

A strange voice in my head grew louder and louder.

hallucinations?

Or even a ghost?

-It’s very spectacle. How many months has nothing changed? Even if I’m crazy at this point, I have to admit it.

by the way.

-What about the contract with me? I bet you weren’t such a responsible guy that you forgot about it.

… I can’t hear it.

-Is it autism? driving me crazy. It’s not a big deal that there aren’t any kiddos who can talk, but when toys break like this, it feels really dirty.

… … .

-Even if I broke it, I should have broken it. But isn’t this kid beautiful when he’s not broken? This, no matter how forced the world is, there is something about it.

What are you so lamenting about?

You can hear it, but it’s as if it’s not from this world, but from the other side of the world.

-Or, after all, there were no dreams or hopes in this world. The son of a warrior who said he saved the world is messing around like this… How the hell does a causal structure work like this? Still, the other children seemed fine… .

… I do not know.

I was sleepy, so I just closed my eyes.

I didn’t want to fall asleep that much.

I was so afraid to close my eyes.

These days, I tend to close my eyes casually.

It’s actually hard not to think when you open your eyes.

However, it’s fine as long as you fall asleep.

can forget everything

That I have to forget, that kind of heart and even my will.

In an instant.

… … .

… … … .

-I’ve been watching your brother lately, and it’s quite nice to see.

… … .

– It is said that he truly has a talent from heaven, and his personality is perfect. until merciful. hey what is this… Rueld and Ermina don’t have anything to point out, rather, they’re listening to advice?

how is it? Doesn’t it compare very sharply with you?

“… … .”

– Still no response. He wasn’t given medicine, but there was no response even when the trauma was stimulated.

“… … .”

Turbuck.

Turbuck.

“ah.”

I hear it.

sound of footsteps.

-Eh? Are you reacting there again? It’s not even a pet. If it had a tail, would it have behaved like an owner?

“… … .”

– Well, that’s it. Now I’m going to stop snooping. I don’t know if you can’t see me or if you’re biting me hard and ignoring me.

Anyway, don’t forget

-The contract will hold you by the collar even after you die. without letting go.

In the Demon Realm, which is another name for hell and hell, why did you hang so much on the contract?

-Look around once and then wake up. Right now, while working out to breathe hard, the princess… No, you’ll soon become the empress, but anyway, enjoy yourself by biting, sucking, and rolling around with her.

anyway

It’s just a fleeting life.

-… … Wait a minute. But is this right?

gigg-

A long time ago.

A rustling sound was heard.

So far, I’ve never heard of it.

I inadvertently looked up into the void.

No, not there.

it’s the ceiling

No, not even the ceiling.

deeper than that.

depths.

-Eh? Oh, can you? Was it like that?

okay.

much deeper than that.

someone

this one.

――Since you are watching.

A big finger comes towards me.

yet.

Took.

The world exploded like crazy.

Like.

As if he had touched a small drop of water as a joke and burst it.

—

――――