I’m Not a Hero Like You

9. What’s up with you! (2)

“Greetings, I’m here to give you. Mama.”

“Yes, Alexius. Come on, come here.”

When the empress gave a gentle wink with her dark eyes, the ladies-in-waiting left the bedroom without a sound.

Before long, the empress, Melineos, asked.

“Are you okay?”

“Yes. There is nothing wrong with it.”

“Did you have a lot of pain?”

“… … .”

“What does His Majesty say?”

In response to her question, Alessius was unable to say anything, so he chose silence.

“Even though he has no tact, he is sincere as much as he thinks of you and L.”

“Of course, Soja knows it well.”

“He is insecure.”

unrest?

“We are. Didn’t you go all over the continent to find the holy sword and travel all over the continent for the alliance?”

“Yes. That, I know very well.”

“At that time, do you know what our biggest obstacle is?”

“… I don’t know.”

“Those who became the head of the family and the head of the family without preparation.”

… … ?

“It is not an uncommon historical story that inferior descendants under outstanding ancestors destroy the family.”

However.

“In times of turmoil, whether one became a ruler or a leader, the position had to be solid, but in our time, that is not the case.”

So, indeed, many countries perished, and countless famous families collapsed.

“Empire was no exception.”

“Is that so?”

“And most of them, they walked the path of renegades.”

put us in a trap

They tried to take advantage of us.

“… Thanks to that, we faced countless crises.”

If it hadn’t been for his precognitive dream, let alone the holy sword, he might have died a violent death somewhere.

If it wasn’t for Ermina, I might have lost my life dozens of times, even hundreds of times.

“He wants you to follow him well, even if he disappears anytime. Also, I want you not to be weighed down by your own achievements and weight.”

so that.

“Even when you volunteered to marry Estina’s second daughter, he didn’t criticize you too much.”

Rather, it was peculiar.

“They say they know how to live and find their way.”

“… Are you Obama?”

“Even the lack of praise is because he is afraid that you will become arrogant. When I’m with you, I praise you and L equally.”

“… … .”

Are you Obama?

“I heard that Kariel treated you very badly.”

“that… Because I don’t have enough children… .”

“Wasn’t it scary?”

“… … .”

Were you scared?

It was like that for a while.

However.

“It wasn’t scary.”

“why?”

“… … Compared to when Obama disciplined me, that was about medicine.”

Get used to the pain.

If you don’t conquer the pain, it will eventually break you down.

“… … .”

Although it was not torture, the experience that was close to torture under the guise of training still settled as a trauma inside Alessius.

… However.

Thanks to this, he became more confident, confident, and bold compared to his peers.

The results were even more pronounced when interacting with peers.

‘it serves you right. Wasn’t it nothing?’

Just like Obama himself did once upon a time.

Saying that and stroking his hair, the touch of Obama still left an impression on him.

“Kariel is an extraordinary child, but she always hated fighting and liked to hang out with people. I tried to figure out the inner side of the other person and solve the troubles.”

“… … .”

“I know very well that you resented him because you thought of El.”

“Oh my God… .”

“But that is wrong. If he hadn’t stopped me, I’d been a long time ago… I wanted to tell you not to do that.”

Problems between children must be resolved by themselves.

If an adult steps in and tries to control it, those emotions won’t wash away.

“I was told that sediment remains forever. That’s probably because he’s felt that way.”

By confronting his brothers, overcoming absurd trials, and winning even in unfavorable battles.

Because he was able to become the current heroic emperor.

“Above all, unlike your father at the time, you wouldn’t have to worry about being poisoned, nor would you have been marginalized due to political issues. What made you so impatient?”

Perhaps.

“Did you wish for the throne?”

“Yeah, that can’t be. I… Soja has never thought of such a thing, even in his dreams!”

“That is a lie.”

The empress smiled and said.

“That’s El. Maybe he didn’t want to become emperor.”

“… Are you talking about my sister?”

No way.

No way… ?

“That child was just what I wanted to protect.”

because he’s a sweet kid

“… However, being a smart kid, he knew better than anyone else that no one could replace him.”

Childhood.

Her memories are fuzzy, but Elhermina will save Kariel in front of everyone, and will raise the empire into a strong nation so that they will never notice them again.

I was so committed.

After that, he devoted himself to studying like a lie, learning martial arts and magic, and so on.

I started doing my best in everything I could.

“By the way, that little child… That child, Kariel, achieved the peace we had hoped for, albeit temporarily. I am still more grateful than anyone else for the miracle that child has accomplished. His Majesty, in this respect, must be the same as me. Perhaps he is more grateful to Kariel than I am.”

It’s unbelievable.

How?

But.

It is an undeniable fact.

“… … .”

Kariel.

okay.

At least.

Even when he returned to the Empire.

I.

we are.

… I was ready to greet you as a hero.

Even though you were the son of a hero, you didn’t want to hold a sword.

Even though he showed a particularly weak side in Dalian.

without discrimination of rank or rank.

Even when we tried to treat everyone equally, of course, we considered it bold and righteous.

… I did.

why did you betray

why… .

… … Did he turn away from his sister and give his heart to her?

why… .

without taking any responsibility.

… Did you want to leave the empire?

why.

for what reason?

“… … .”

Alexius couldn’t bear to reveal his true feelings.

After all, even this is a manifestation of one’s intolerance.

Is it embarrassing to come now, or was it stupid back then?

This stuff has no meaning whatsoever.

In a world where results are everything.

in the end we

… It will cross the river of no return.

The guy said it to himself earlier.

So this one also poured out resentment.

by actions, not words.

As a consequence.

Even though my father was especially fond of you, he didn’t tell me to imitate you.

Always, when I was sad, I used to repeat your name.

My sister was willing to do this.

Because I couldn’t

… If this is my fault or weakness.

I have no choice.

I.

From the moment you betrayed your sister.

Because I’ve decided to never forgive you.

“It must be because I am ugly, as always.”

“egg… .”

Before I knew it, like Obama pointed out.

Maybe I took it for granted.

The rest of the rest of the rest of the rest of the rest of the use of power knowingly and unknowingly, knowing that he would die.

drive away

even pushed.

“The union of two families. If that’s what you mean, I’ll be happy to do it too.”

If he wants to reject me because he hates me.

… Like he said, you have to be patient.

I had no intention of getting lost.

But, if there’s one thing that sticks out.

‘Because it’s fate that we can’t live under one sky.’

The words he said keep ringing in my ears.

That was the moment.

“Lungs, Your Majesty! An urgent message is coming!”

A gasping voice came from outside the door.

—-

the sun dies

Even the moon hid behind the clouds.

This is where darkness and silence descend.

I came back to my room and stood by the window.

I raised my nonchalant eyes and looked down at the yard in front of the house.

nothing.

I didn’t feel anything.

At one point, I wonder if I would have played with someone over there.

at one time me too

going to be a warrior

Holding up a tree branch as if it were a holy sword.

Have you ever cried like that?

there’s nothing.

“Is that a reason to stop training?”

I asked towards the air with a tone that seemed to be somewhere far away.

-Because there is no meaning beyond this. Now your body and mind are out of sync. If you don’t raise your body appropriately, it will become a bad thing.

“… … .”

Even if you try harder to grow, it won’t be enough.

do nothing?

Then what’s left of me?

– Whoa.

than expected.

condition was more serious.

I just let it go after I waited for how long it lasted.

Wow, this guy has endured 8 years.

Even this was stopped because she forcibly cut it off, or if it wasn’t for that, I couldn’t even guess when I would have given up.

8 years.

The time when the guy dug into swordsmanship without hesitation.

In real time, it’s only one day.

The time he was caught in the dream was eight years.

and.

Until they sign a full-fledged contract and tell the swordsman.

the guy

A hundred deaths were enough.

Even so, the period was not easy.

‘His fundamentals are beyond imagination, but unfortunately it’s twisted.’

Just like a plant that grows rapidly, it spreads its stems in all directions because it has no suitable place to grow.

As for the ability of humans to adapt, even that is considered a process.

Even if you go crazy and get stronger, how is that different from a disease or illness?

In the true sense of the word, madness is essential if you want to be strong, but be it mentally or physically.

It doesn’t mean you have to be sick or sick.

It will, without exception, lead to a tragedy that escalates into a fatal flaw at the critical moment.

In addition.

Named the Fool’s Sword, it is a product of madness.

It was not such a poor swordsmanship that a single patient, a nabber, could embrace, polish, and reach the ultimate.

‘I suffered because I chose only the opposite of my nature, and what I did was effective in the wrong way.’

Truly.

completely!

‘The taste is gone.’

Despite pouring the sweet silk of revenge.

Not to mention joy, he couldn’t even feel the least sense of satisfaction.

Even when I was fighting against that party or something.

Even when he used his body like a disposable tool to harpoon him.

Even if he felt madness.

Humanity wasn’t in a state of evaporation like it is now.

-It’s none of my business whether you’re broken or not, then you’ll die sooner or later, let alone complete your goal.

“… … .”

-You thought it didn’t matter now, did you? You’re unhappy anyway, even if the contract breaks down, there’s nothing more unfortunate or unfortunate than this, you thought that right now?

“… … .”

That’s the answer.

Shiloh.

… Everything felt pointless.

If not.

without noticing anything.

He wouldn’t have been able to porridge the prince that much.

It’s his own nature, or his personality, so this is close to impossible.

That the impossible was accomplished without any burden.

I guess

Maybe it’s broken?

-You’d like to think so.

It’s not wrong, but it’s not right either.

However, if you have the will.

As long as you’re alive, you can do anything.

Sometimes it even brings miracles.

– Rather, now is the time. Right?

“… … Iknow, right.”

In the midst of this, the situation in which he shut himself up in his room and became quiet is also somewhat absurd.

Originally, it shouldn’t have been like this.

today.

In addition to the shocking news that he has done.

Another road has spread in Jedo.

Right away.

-brother? younger sister? Which one do you think it will be?

“It doesn’t matter.”

Kariel’s own mother.

because she was about to give birth.

There won’t be a lot of fuss in church.

If the signs had been felt at home, there would have been a lot of chaos around here.

Didn’t I say that there are countless people around the church right now to pray for a safe birth?

Kariel, who came all the way here after being guided by her father.

I also heard the news about the prince.

[His Highness Alexius said he was negligent and told me not to blame you.]

Alexius.

You’re still shrewd in that way.

[Hello, I can’t believe it. You, my son… how so… Was he able to commit an unbelievably heinous thing… .]

ha.

A sigh mixed with a sigh.

The two were forced to face each other in the carriage.

Above all, Rueld could not bear to blame even though he should have blamed him.

With only the lips tightly closed, should I ask for the circumstances and comfort them, or should I start by scolding them without distinction.

I couldn’t judge, so I was just restless.

At least go home and have a frank conversation, or cover up the wrongdoing even if it kills half of them.

He must have been determined to do something.

But.

The news of Ermina has arrived.

If it wasn’t for that, Kariel would still be facing Rueld in some form or another.

“Did you say guitar?”

-yes?

“It is an instrument. Etc. Did you say mana guitar? I’ll have a hard time… It’s okay even if you don’t have magical powers, right?”

– What if the kids who settled here made guitars… Maybe you can use it too? Until then, have you played the lute? I will also teach you how to play well.

The demon king laughed silently.

yes this is a good solution

Didn’t he, knowingly and unknowingly, immerse himself in playing an instrument as the only source of comfort?

Instinctively searching for a way to survive.

– And you said that before? I have what I need to deal with the holy sword.

“You mean the magic janggi?”

-okay.

And there’s a guy who’s just right for you.

-Grandeus’ magic weapon. let’s go get it If you’re leaving anyway, you better have a destination, right?

“… … .”

– Are you thinking of leaving?

“It’s fine.”

It must be now or not.

There is no reason to hesitate.

just regret.

“If I leave like this, I feel like I’m committing a crime and running away, so I don’t feel so good.”

No way.

that was the most annoying

Still, I haven’t even done my resentment.

“Anyway, the academy is also taking a leave of absence, so it’s time to stop any tracking… I want to try counting.”

-Aren’t you afraid of the assassin who will kill you to retaliate in private rather than your pursuit?

“If you can learn a lesson from that, you have to persevere.”

I only realized it when I died.

There is nothing free or free in this world.

The more valuable it is, the bigger it is.

Everything, nothing is easily obtained for free.

There is no salvation for those who wait.

Hesitation and patience are not equal.

Hesitation and waiting were never equal.

For a long time, I just sat hesitantly and hesitantly.

So I had to curl up in a cold, dark pit all the time.

-You must be pretty tired. From now on, someone will protect you and you won’t be able to sleep.

“I have to endure it.”

There were many times when I wished for salvation.

finally.

All of that is just a dream.

You have to find out for yourself.

I realized this too late.