I’m Not a Hero Like You

105 – ????

What if.

If only.

Apart from the expectations of someone who has already seen such a future.

What if things take their worst shape?

And.

Considering all those factors.

That he will never die.

Or when it is said that there was a person who believed that his life would never come to an end.

If that trust was betrayed.

What kind of expression will they make?

What kind of thoughts will you have, and how will you intuit the situation?

The bubbles that bloomed seemed to illuminate the past and a completely different world.

A boy who was reborn as a hero while holding a new holy sword.

A girl caught up in a cause and effect who has to kill a hero.

But aside from that.

But he is also the one who tied the two together in some sense.

Saint.

If he had closed his eyes as if he was asleep, he would never wake up.

No, if it worked.

Someone will just watch it.

Are you going to just sit by the sidelines?

… ….

……… ….

The dark-haired boy was lying on the frosty ground as if asleep.

Now, again, it seemed that he was in a position where it would be difficult to open those bright, gloomy eyes, those that would resemble gold.

It’s been a long time since I stopped breathing, my heart stopped long ago, and even the warmth is dissipating.

And.

That sight.

The golden girl was watching as if looking at a distant world.

In fact, the fierce battle between the hero and the demon king did not inspire her at all.

Not interested.

However.

The reality that the child in her eyes will never be able to open her eyes.

Unexpectedly.

Her really unexpectedly seemed to have dealt a serious blow to her as well.

-I don’t peep into the future.

I wonder if it would be good or bad for the Great Demon King to be able to glimpse the future.

To those who are followers and disciples, both hands and subordinates.

He had asked such a question before.

At that time, wouldn’t it be nice if most people could know the future? Expressed a desire to do so.

… Except for herself.

Is the future already decided before I even try anything?

Then what kind of fun are you going to live for?

What will you live for?

A future like that will come even if I don’t wish for it?

Aren’t you obsessed with it because you know it?

Because I know, there are things I can fix and change.

However.

There must be more to lose than that.

Is it for yourself or for others?

The rhythm will be divided depending on the purpose.

On top of that, my worth, passion, happiness, and joy will be extremely rare.

I heard that I can get a glimpse of what Grandeus is.

That’s why he lived every moment in despair.

Even so, he couldn’t let go.

I don’t know what he saw.

But.

In the end, he threw himself into that future.

He gave the vision to his comrade, but it was in an extremely vague form.

As an ordinary human being, even if you grind and polish, there is a limit.

Time limitations.

The limits of diligence and tenacity.

Limits of personality and character.

And.

Desperation and limits of will must have been the biggest problems.

Even given enough time, the realm is at the bottom.

Because of lack of effort.

That effort is to endure the pain of not being able to burn oneself and even splitting, tearing, crushing and crushing one’s soul.

Withstanding extreme boredom.

The absurdity that takes away even one’s own humanity, sensibility, and reason… I had to deal with everything.

Nevertheless, faith and justice must not collapse.

It’s okay even if the definition is a little off.

However, it shouldn’t lean towards evil in the end.

Anyway, it’s a swordsmanship that can’t be learned in general.

If you just look at the posture and movement itself, that is a poor piece of work.

However, by harmonizing the heart, specialty, and characteristics, that is sublimated into a vision that will never exist again.

The fact that she made Kariel kill herself in her dreams and killed him in various ways under the guise of her countless trials.

After all, it was just a shortcut that led him.

All I want is trust.

It was faith.

And Kariel, was it because of her contract or because that was the only one?

Based on her earnestness, she revealed her beliefs to herself.

Will you? Thought? A verbal promise?

I don’t need anything like that.

The only thing you need to show is your actions.

And Kariel responded with action.

That’s why he grew up like that… It’s very natural.

The Demon King thought.

– Did you go before it was ripe?

Isn’t it a lamentable life?

Nevertheless, our contract will be fulfilled as it is.

You won’t be able to be saved even if you die.

The majority of those related to you will experience extreme misery and despair as causality is intertwined from now on.

I didn’t like that, so I didn’t spare any resistance.

In the end, you couldn’t finish the finish.

Where did I go wrong?

The thing you couldn’t get your hands on Elbat?

There must have been a paving stone of its own for Grandeus.

Have you not reached that far?

No matter how you think about it, it’s one step.

That wasn’t enough, she thought.

-… ….

It can’t be helped.

She pushed her face right in front of his cold face.

As if on the surface of the water, looking at himself reflected in the water, Kariel stared intently, staring again and again.

-I will listen to just one thing.

Since you’re not here right now, I can’t bear to see that.

-Consider passing this fact on to those left behind as my own congratulatory message.

She reached out her hand and caressed his cheek.

As if it melted into Kariel’s body.

And after a while.

“… ….”

For some reason, the boy who got up began to turn his body into gold.

No, that wasn’t all.

“Huh?”

The first to feel strange was Ruirin.

For some reason, the ground started to turn gold.

Even the color, as if it had been transferred, ran down her feet and spread all over her body.

In just a few seconds, Ruirin’s whole body began to emit a golden glow. She

She wasn’t alone.

Every area around it began to gradually turn into gold, like paint spreading.

“What is this?”

While Lucy Lee was flustered.

For some reason, Leo couldn’t hide his embarrassment.

At the same time.

The battle was forced to end.

My body doesn’t move.

And that.

“Why… ?!”

Even Mines, who inherited the legacy of the Great Demon King, was no exception.

Sometime soon.

The golden stone pillars begin to fill the surroundings.

It feels as if the world is turning to gold.

However, the sky was stained pure white from the frost storm created by Mines.

Later, even that began to turn bright gold.

At that time.

The golden boy, Kariel said.

“Sing a requiem.”

Screams are fine.

If you scream, even better.

Crying would be fine too.

You may be willing, and you may enjoy it.

“How useless a lifetime of anguish and anguish is. Try it once.”

To those who have never lived their lives yet.

The Demon King of Wisdom.

The Golden Demon King.

Equivalent to tens, hundreds, thousands, and thousands at the same time as eternal death.

Has given a pseudo lifetime.

“What is reality? Even if it’s a dream, if you can actually feel it, is it real or false? Where am I, the real me? If you hit that, you will be freed.”

Who am I when I was an ant?

Who am I when I was a butterfly?

Me when I was a wolf.

Me when I was a fox.

Snakes, toads, fish, birds, worms….

“… ….”

In no time, the ground rose up and a golden throne was erected.

The golden boy who used to sit there and rest his chin.

I waited all day like that without closing my eyes.

The sun rises and sets.

The moment you try to think again.

He has finally arrived.

“… ….”

Perhaps he was determined to hide his identity, he was dressed in a plain gray coat.

You’re dressed really arrogantly to have an audience with the king.

She didn’t blame me.

I was just talking about a reunion.

“My dear. I almost fell asleep waiting for something. Now that it is too late, the sin is grave.”

“… ….”

A golden eye with gray hair.

The first time I saw it, it looked so stupid.

Now I’m just matured.

For some reason, it seemed incomparable to before.

Really.

It’s such a perfect appearance that you might wonder if the sky had good intentions and showed off its aesthetic elements.

If you look at Kariel’s beautiful appearance, it’s possible because she was influenced by that.

In a way, that’s a perfect human being.

“Is this the you I know?”

“Any guess is the worst. It will.”

I am here.

“And you, arrived in front of me again.”

The gold that borrowed Kariel’s body looked somewhat bored.

And Rueld, who faced him, and Patina, who followed him.

He looked very confused, not knowing how to handle this situation.

Of course, when Rueld accepted that he was a golden beast, his body and mind became strong.

The more perfect a hero is, the farther away he becomes from humans.

How much less.

The old demon king who took over his son’s body.

There will be no nightmare like this.

“Did you make my son like this? Did you lead him with friendly words and use him to induce him to become like this? Did you even take over Kariel’s body?”

“First of all, let me point out one thing. I have no desire. In the first place, I don’t prefer things that don’t involve revival or stealing other people’s bodies. So, all of this is not my intention.”

“… Are you saying that now? Someone like you?”

I was in the mood to pull out my sword right away and do something about it.

Even so, that body is a child that is like an alter ego of himself and Ermina.

It was that child’s body.

And with that child’s body.

With that mouth.

That said.

“Why did this guy get to this point? I am here to tell you that. Nothing else. Did you want to kill then kill it then you won’t hear anything And if you hit your son’s neck or heart, it won’t have any effect on me.”

Didn’t you know?

“I am already dead. What is there to regret about me?”

“… Do you think I will be shaken by your words?”

“I will only tell the truth. Whatever you do, you can sign a contract.”

She smirked.

But to Rueld and Patina, it must have looked like Kariel’s smile.

How can it feel so creepy?

More than anything else, the earth and sky stained with gold were inspiring fear to the two of them like never before.

“What did the people here do?”

“Since this child is dead, there is a price to pay. If there is a sin, how much?”

… There is no particular cause of death or anything like that.

If you’re going to do that, you’ll have to punish that reluctant corps commander.

He’s gloomy and stupid, really stupid.

If it hadn’t been for Vargo who hadn’t quietly left this place.

When she took over Kariel’s body, she must have enjoyed a hell without exception.

The territory had already spread to the entire village.

As if it were a golden stone statue.

The whole village changed like that.

Even more terrifying.

All of this is real gold.

Is this mercy or blessing?

Or is it the ultimate curse?

“Okay then, let’s start talking.”

No big deal.

“A story about a great regret that you should bury in your heart for the rest of your life.”

She said the other day that Kariel asked why she couldn’t kill herself, in front of her parents about how she couldn’t make that attempt.

She confided briefly.

Ermina’s ability is overwhelming, so all halfway fatal wounds are useless.

If that’s the case, if she quietly ends her life where she can’t reach out her hand.

Because I couldn’t see them regretting or despairing.

… But if.

I don’t think that’s possible.

What if you show disappointment and contempt at yourself for making such an attempt?

As it stands, it must have been terrible.

It was a disrespectful and disrespectful what-if story that could only be known by imagination.

‘Don’t worry.’

Fortunately, time rots.

So, I’ll be a bystander for a while.

After hearing this story, how will that hero accept it and how will he respond?

Although it was self-evident that he would probably bury the story with his wife.

Nevertheless, someday, it will also enter Ermina’s ears.

Even if Rueld shuts his mouth.

Because that woman next to him, unlike Ruel de, her heart is not firm.

You will be invincible.

That’s Rueld. It’s a story limited to yourself.

“Yes. First… It would be good to start by talking about her reasons for meeting Kariel.”

Sure.

“Your country’s ancestors, those sinful people with only a ghost left, took pity on the child’s situation and led him to me.”

In other words.

“At that time, there was no one around to save him other than me. They must have come to that conclusion after careful consideration. After all, the way to help Kariel is extremely limited for those close to the Earthly Spirit.”

Why did Kariel accept the golden beast when Kariel was her father’s nemesis and an enemy of the continent?

And why….

“Why did I have to resent you so much? Why did she run away from home, and why did that child accept the wishes of the Grand Deus? The reason I couldn’t help but… It’s nothing.”

Golden soon.

For Kariel, her true heart cannot be revealed even after she wakes up from death.

I confessed it as if I were acting.

“Why didn’t you love me? Why didn’t you pay attention to me? I am… I didn’t ask for much.”

Just.

I wanted to be acknowledged by you guys.

I didn’t want to get scolded.

I wanted to be praised.

Like any other child, like a normal parent-child relationship.

To love and be loved.

… I just wanted to live like that.

“When I was really having a hard time, you scolded me. Even though I asked you to believe so much. You didn’t believe it after all. How do you think I was feeling at the time?”

Abandoned from the world.

The world has collapsed.

He was denied his life even by his parents who gave birth to him.

Even they didn’t believe me.

… What is left of me?

“Let’s hold on until her mother gives birth to a younger brother. If my mother is shocked by what I did, she’s a strong person, but she still doesn’t know it, right? So I persevered. It was really hard, painful, painful, but… I said I worked really hard.”

At that time already.

It was difficult, painful, and exhausting just to breathe and meet people.

I was suspicious, ominous, and anxious no matter what anyone said.

Just everything was like that.

Then I suddenly realized.

It’s because it’s a broken bowl.

Because it was broken into pieces, and even that part of it was crushed into powder.

They can hold water longer, too. Can’t contain anything else.

I thought I had become that kind of existence.

… It was sad, and it was hard.

It was too much for me to even think about that.

Really, I didn’t want to recall anything.

I didn’t even want to think about it.

All I want is just that.

… Take a little breath, take it easy.

“When will I be able to become a son you are not ashamed of? In the end, to be recognized by you, to prove that this life is not futile and meaningless. Really, there’s no other answer than defeating you, right?”

It’s not just you.

I wanted to tell the whole world that has been scolding me for seeing you.

I wasn’t wrong.

It’s not a big deal, really, I just wanted to say something cool.

Why do you guys want to cut me?

I am myself.

Are you even going to take that away? Was it refreshing to have that even taken away from me and deprived?

What am I?

Because of the past that I can’t even remember, my incompetent and lethargic self is expected.

Then I was betrayed on my own.

I really like it.

It was nothing.

You can’t handle mana.

My body is not healthy.

Every time I have a chance, I get aching energy and become lethargic. What should I do?

I trained until I vomited blood, and I studied really, really hard until I stayed up all night.

But that didn’t work.

It didn’t work out with just hard work.

So I asked for a solution.

You guys just said why it doesn’t work, and it works if you do it.

… Even for me, it was a question I finally asked after worrying about it for days and days.

Was even that a fool for you?

To the extent that I have to ask myself over and over again about these things, that our relationship had been ruined so long ago.

… It’s probably only you who didn’t know.

“Maybe I was your regret.”

I’m sorry I was born.

And now.

“…… As you can see, this child is dead.”

Kariel, who changed his tone before he knew it, became a golden beast again and snared with an alluring yet high-handed attitude.

“I’ll give you a choice. If you want to hear this far, cut my throat now. Then I will do this without regret.”

“…… Do you still have more to say?”

“Of course.”

Golden laughed.

“Because this was still in my heart before I left Jedo. You still don’t know what happened after that?”

“… ….”

I’m about to lose my mind just listening to it now.

Still, I was curious, and on the other hand, I didn’t want to hear it.

No, I was eager to hear it, but on the other hand, I was afraid.

Earlier, there was nothing terrifying in the world.

For now, even that gold felt like nothing.

Just.

Kariel’s thoughts and feelings.

And the situation and situation that child must have been through.

She gets to know the truth.

For Rueld, that alone was truly frightening.

“… ….”

It seems to be watching Rueld, but Golden is staring at something else.

The child named Patina was already halfway down in his mind.

That kid must mean that he really valued Kariel.

But it was wrong, twisted, and out of line.

‘Is it really their fault?’

I feel uncomfortable again.

Is there something that had to happen that way?

Or did something instigate the intention to do so?

“… ….”

Well, it doesn’t matter now.

I am not an avenger.

Not much less an uninvited guest who takes on someone’s will, conviction, and resentment.

I, who died in the first place, took on something? That’s ridiculous.

That’s why even these actions right now are far-fetched.

Is it because it was infected by Kariel? It’s normal that you shouldn’t even do something like this.

Is it because I don’t have a body? It’s really terribly swayed.

“Yes. Then don’t judge by the story you want to hear more. Then… Okay. After that child left the island… Is that Carrieline over there? She wants to tell her story when she went there.”

To inherit the legacy of St. Cariel.

How did you break up with the relationship you met there?

“That story will be quite exciting.”

The demon king once again claims to be a storyteller.

For a short and long time.

The story continues.

A truly absurd play in which the narrator laughs and the listener only develops frustration and despair.

In it, the demon king whispered a requiem in his heart.

You won’t be able to rest in peace.

Because we had such a contract.

Still, I want you to be a little less tired.

The worst thing in the world is fatigue.

Even the pain is heavy on the stomach in a state of fatigue, and the pain also increases.

Then, in the end, he lost even himself.

Only pain, regret, resentment, and despair.

Eventually, even resignation will be burned down, leaving only desperate attempts.

Nevertheless.

… Those who punish us, without mercy, will continue to torment us.

Atonement.

This is a condemnation.

It’s a punishment.

Because you were wrong.

So you guys are suffering like this.

There is no mercy in this world.

Only ruthless, only on principle.

Only despair and cowardice coexist.

Hello, if you were unfair.

… Resent only what is not ■.

Only that.

You lost unilaterally.

It must be the original sin.