“…”
The incident from earlier in the day suddenly came to mind. Back then, I had defended myself by giving Kyle’s arm a good smack, but… it was already a promised event.
It had really been a long time coming.
“Huu…”
I was so nervous since I had never experienced anything like this before. Kyle’s room, or rather, our room now, had me waiting in silence all alone.
What I was wearing was similar to the wedding dress I had on earlier… pure white lingerie. It wasn’t anything too scandalous, just… expensive underwear.
“…Is this really okay?”
I worried that if I wore something too strange, Kyle might think I was a bigger pervert, so I stuck with… the expensive underwear.
It wasn’t particularly revealing, just a nice white set with some lace.
“Still, I can’t wear something like that on the first night. Right?”
Louise, Elin, and Mom had all said some strange things, but in the end, I chose according to my own desire.
Well… I was a little bit nervous, after all…?
“…This is honestly a bit pervy, isn’t it…?”
It was night. The sun had completely set, and there was nobody in the hallway.
Normally, the servants would be patrolling around, but not today. I mean… no matter how soundproof the room was, they couldn’t interrupt the Duke’s first night.
“What am I going to do…?”
I thought by myself on the bed, considering what would happen shortly, and nearly freaked out.
“How could I even do that with Kyle…?”
The moment that thought crossed my mind, images of little Kyle from when we were kids suddenly flooded my mind.
It was utterly nonsensical. Meeting a little kid at twelve… and now at nineteen…
“Uaaah….”
I pulled a pillow to my chest.
The reason I did that was…
“Mmwaaaaaaaaah!!”
I just wanted to scream. Kyle still hadn’t arrived, yet I felt on the verge of losing my mind.
If he came in now… how much worse would it be…?
“Seriously….”
“Seriously, what?”
“Huh?!”
Was it during my little scream, or when I lay down looking at the ceiling? Kyle had entered the room before I realized it.
He was dressed just in a shirt and pants.
“Uh, I wasn’t doing anything—?”
I stammered, covering myself with the blanket on the bed.
After all, what I was wearing was… just lingerie.
Despite it not being scandalous, showing underwear to someone else… was beyond difficult. And especially if that someone was Kyle… even more so.
“Why are you so nervous?”
“Uh, I’m not…?”
I answered in a state of complete, no, 388,227% tension.
Kyle chuckled at my nervousness and lay down beside me.
I sat on the bed, covered up, turning my eyes toward Kyle.
“…Aren’t we going to do it?”
“How can we do anything when Sophia is this tense?”
“Uh, ah….”
Certainly… no matter what the first night meant, Kyle wouldn’t force anything on me based on his character.
If he were that type, we would have done it a long time ago.
Well… Kyle was stronger than me, taller, and in better shape… so…?
“Relax, just lie down comfortably. You used to sleep just fine in a guy’s bed.”
I couldn’t refute Kyle’s statement. We had spent the night together in his bed… um… a ton of times.
“…Fine.”
So… I lay next to Kyle while still covering myself with the blanket.
It probably looked weird with me being the only one covered, but I couldn’t help it.
After all, I was only wearing lingerie.
Even if it wasn’t scandalous, it was embarrassing beyond belief.
*
Kyle… didn’t treat me as if it was the first night at all and simply passed the time.
He didn’t even touch me, just… conversing casually.
The nervousness I had experienced a few dozen minutes ago seemed utterly pointless.
I was enjoying a comfortably relaxed time.
“So, yesterday the Baron from the eastern territory….”
“….”
As Kyle narrated yesterday’s and today’s events while smiling, I felt a little flutter in my heart.
There was no special reason for it, but just… considering the wedding had just concluded earlier, I felt a mix of emotions.
By the way… did Kyle forget the promise he made before?
The one about spending the first night after the wedding together? Had he just completely forgotten about it?
If it had been me, on the first day of our marriage, I would have just dove right in.
“…”
-Swoosh…
I found myself leaning a little closer to Kyle’s body.
So casually, as if he wouldn’t notice at all.
Just like I usually would with him.
“Oh, and after the ceremony, one of the knights came up to me and….”
Him passionately talking to me was nice.
Because it meant he cared, and who would dislike that?
I pulled the blanket over Kyle’s body too, snuggling up to him closer.
“…?”
Kyle, feeling the contact, stopped his words and looked at me with a puzzled expression.
“…”
What should I say now?
I had no idea.
It was certain though… the tension from earlier had vanished, and I wanted to do those… things with Kyle.
It might have been a bit pervy, but it was something lovers should do, and besides… Kyle had wanted this for a long time.
Of course, having never had that experience, I didn’t know what I was doing; it was an uncharted territory for me.
Just because I had seen it in videos in my past life didn’t mean I’d know how to do it in reality.
Just watching a soccer game doesn’t guarantee you can play well.
“…”
“…”
I stared at Kyle while pressing against him.
Kyle, laid back with his head resting on the pillow, was looking back at me.
What should I say?
Nothing came to mind.
After all, I had never learned how to talk to my husband on our first night; I had only learned how to talk to my employer at the dormitory.
“Kiss….”
So… I decided to start with a kiss.
What would happen after that? I didn’t know, but at least it was something I had done before.
“Chup… chup….”
This kiss, unlike the usual ones where Kyle led, felt different because I was the one leading now.
So it felt awkward while doing it.
With my eyes closed during the kiss, I couldn’t tell how Kyle felt, but…
He was probably just accepting my kiss, so it likely wasn’t a bad thing.
If it were something he disliked, he would have taken control or quit.
“Chup… chup… phew….”
After a brief moment of kissing Kyle, I pulled back.
Was it the kiss that made my heart race, or the anticipation and fear of what might come next? It was beating faster than before.
Not quite to the level of my first kiss with Kyle, but the current atmosphere was driving me to this state.
“Kyle.”
“Yes?”
“I… like you.”
“I like you too.”
We gazed at each other, repeating those light confessions… and then we resumed…
“Chup… uh… phew…?”
We started kissing again. I thought I was the one leading, but this time Kyle took the lead.
Well… it was a fact I couldn’t deny.
Kyle was definitely far better at kissing than I was.
“Uh… easy there….”
“I’m sorry. But you’ve been holding back until now, haven’t you?”
Kyle was right.
One hundred percent.
Kyle had indeed been waiting for this moment for a long time, and today… he had to restrain himself a little because of me.
As a kid, he had to hold back on expressing his feelings for me, and now he had to hold back again…
In fact, he had always been restraining himself whenever he was with me.
“Well, that’s true… thanks.”
“Sophia, just to ask, if you don’t want to….”
He was such a fool.
Back then, I thought he was just a gorgeous guy with a nice personality, body, and face.
But the more I looked, the more I found lots of silly traits in him.
Though, it was those aspects that made me like him even more.
“What a fool.”
“…Huh?”
“If you didn’t want this… why would you wear something like this…?”
I pulled the blanket completely away, speaking to Kyle.
Showing him this was a bit embarrassing, but just like he showed himself to me… I had to show my true self too.
Of course, he was revealing his heart while I was revealing my body.
“…”
“…”
“Uh, say something….”
He was staring at the sight of me in lingerie without saying a word, making me even more embarrassed.
It was nothing but a completely embarrassing feeling!
After all… wearing lingerie was excruciatingly humiliating…!
“You look beautiful.”
“…More than when I wore the dress earlier?”
“….”
Kyle struggled to answer easily.
However… there was one thing I could definitely tell.
Leaning against Kyle and kissing him, feeling my body on top of his, I realized.
No, I couldn’t help but notice.
“…It’s gotten bigger, hasn’t it?”
“….”
Kyle was at a loss for words hearing that.
Well… it wasn’t an unusual reaction.
After all, when a man kisses a woman and is this close to someone like me… it’s only natural for things to get, you know… excited.
“Did you lie when you said you liked my wedding dress?”
“No, it’s not that….”
“But it didn’t get this big then.”
I felt something press against my backside.
Without even thinking, the obvious answer was… that.
“If it gets bigger near there, that’s suicide.”
“Heh heh, that’s right. I can’t miss my amazing husband’s first night like that. Nope.”
I shifted to align my lower abdomen with Kyle’s.
And once again, we intertwined our tongues.
“Chup… chup… chup….”
Kyle, who was lying down completely, slightly raised himself and held my back while keeping the kiss going.
With that position, I could feel Kyle’s… excitement even stronger below.