Chapter 72 - Extra: Time Pei Xing I
Pei Xing discovered the secret about Shi Yi’s body when they were both eight years old.
It was during summer vacation, and Pei Xing had gone to the countryside with Aunt Song once again. He was looking forward to seeing Shi Yi, as Shi Yi was unlike anyone he had met before, which made him genuinely interested.
Only when he grew older, he realized how sad Shi Yi’s situation was.
Although Shi Yi made it seem like he disliked him on the surface, Pei Xing could easily detect the subtle shifts in Shi Yi’s mood. When they played together, the number of smiles on Shi Yi’s face clearly increased.
Shi Yi even squeezed into his bed at night, Pei Xing was aware of Shi Yi’s fear of the dark. At that time, he believed that Shi Yi was too embarrassed to admit it and he didn’t care. Even if Shi Yi confessed, it wouldn’t have made a difference; he probably would laugh a little. A boy, after all, should not be scared of the dark. Because of Shi Yi’s different physique, the rest of his family pitied him but also treated him harshly, they were afraid he might turn into a monster, neither male nor female.
Pei Xing first found out about Shi Yi’s physical difference when they both need to use toilet.
At the time, they were playing outdoors under the bright sun, engaging in rather ordinary activities. Shi Yi took him to climb trees and fish by the river.
As the day progressed, they drank a lot of water, and with no toilets available in the open fields, the two little kids weren’t particularly picky.
They chose a large tree to relief their needs. It was during this moment that Pei Xing looked over and noticed something unusual.
Being young and not possessing any sense of modesty, Pei Xing forgot to pull up his pants after finishing and gazed with curiosity, comparing Shi Yi’s to his own.
His curiosity got the better of him, and he couldn’t help but ask, “Why is your private part different from mine? Why is there no male part below your private part?”
As soon as he finished speaking, he received a punch in the face that sent him falling to the ground.
Shi Yi was so furious and ashamed that he didn’t even have time to pull up his own pants.
Yet, Pei Xing, fearless and careless, was not deterred by the beating and examined further without flinching.
Shi Yi’s anger made his face turn red with tears in his eyes. He threw himself onto Pei Xing, pummeling him with his small fists while loudly cursing and threatening him not to reveal the secret, or else he would refuse to play with him ever again.
Seeing how angry Shi Yi was, Pei Xing felt a sense of anxiety and assured Shi Yi repeatedly that he would keep the secret and not reveal it.
But children were naturally curious and tend to seek answers when encountering something unusual. After agreeing to keep the secret, Pei Xing tried to exert his power, threatening Shi Yi.
“If you show me again, I’ll keep your secret. Otherwise, I won’t keep it.”
Shi Yi was momentarily stunned, his ears reddening with shame, but he was scared his secret would be exposed. Reluctantly, he agreed, standing up and removing his pants to show Pei Xing.
Pei Xing also got up, but he didn’t correct his messy pants. He had sat on the grass with his bare bottom after being knocked down, and the prickly grass stung his skin. He got up, brushing off the bits of grass clinging to his backside.
This time, he lowered his head to observe carefully, compared it to his own, and eventually reached a conclusion.
“You’re only missing two parts, so there’s nothing unusual about it.”
Pei Xing was still quite young at the time, while his family had access to the internet due to their wealth, it was strictly regulated, and he didn’t think it was a significant matter if Shi Yi was different.
Shi Yi, himself, didn’t have much knowledge too. He was still young and had no one to talk about his body, it was shameful to talk about it with others.
Due to his physical condition and his father’s issues, including alcoholism, gambling, and domestic violence, none of the children in the village wanted to interact with Shi Yi. As a result, he didn’t have much contact with kids his age.
He didn’t fully understand the impact of his physical disability and perceived it as something shameful due to the words and stares of his family members. They advised him not to let outsiders discover the secret of his body, even though everyone else in the village was already aware of his condition.
Some boys would laugh at him and call him names in front of him, which made Shi Yi very self-conscious and fearful of others finding out about his physical difference.
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“I don’t think it’s a big deal. I experienced pain for a few months when I was a child, but it didn’t affect me after I recovered,” Shi Yi said, feeling embarrassed as he shared this information.
“Many people in our village and my schoolmates know about it, and they always tease me for being different.”
Children were innocent and softhearted; Pei Xing was smart enough to visualize the situation. He helped Shi Yi pull up his pants and offered comfort: “I won’t tease you, and I won’t tell anyone else. You don’t have to worry.”
After these words, Pei Xing thought of something and offered a suggestion: “How about you touch mine? There is nothing special about it.”
Shi Yi responded. Since the accident occurred when he was very young, he barely remembered it, which piqued his curiosity about what made him strange and what was normal. Someone was willing to let him explore, so he was quite eager even though he felt a little nervous.
The midday sun streamed through the dense leaves, and both of their faces turned red from the heat, with their short sleeves soaked in sweat.
After Shi Yi withdrew his hand, and opened his mouth, “It’s just so-so.”
Pei Xing felt strange, he put on his pants and looked at Shi Yi who was a bit anxious. He understood the boy must be scared to admit their fighting, so he comforted him, “Don’t worry about this. I will tell your aunt that someone else beat me up.”
Shi Yi felt the sun was making him uncomfortable and dizzy. He was a bit stunned and didn’t response.
The two stopped playing and returned home.
Because there was a secret to guard between the two children. Both of them always felt special and close with each other.