I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

Chapter 101 My wife (13)

Xu Jiao silently finished the breakfast she had in her hands. In the first few worlds, she had the aura of the creator, let alone delicacy. Even the stones on the side of the road would come to get close to her. If she finds that she is short of money, maybe on weekdays Even if he walked two steps on the road, he could be dazzled by the hundred-yuan bills.

Exams, work, debut… Everything went smoothly, basically no setbacks were encountered, even if the innocent people were driven out of her, there was basically no retaliation, as if she should be so smooth as long as she enters that world. of.

Until recently……

In the book “Preferences”, first the ultimate **** body is not her, the will of the whole world no longer favors her, and then in this world, Xu Jiao will almost be as miserable as the heroine she once wrote. The terrible life experience seemed to be hers naturally, even Zheng Zhiyu, the only accident in her life, was filled with a taste of conspiracy when he arrived in front of her.

Xu Jiao was not moved by it. After all, in the previous world, Lilith pestered her to do all the things a lover should do. She didn’t have too many inner fluctuations. All the reactions came from physical familiarity. That’s it.

But here.

When she saw Zheng Zhiyu sticking to her body without moving, even when she likes it with solemnity, Xu Jiao rarely didn’t know what to say in her heart.

For a long time, her calmness and reason have been based on Ling Ran outside of the crowd. The way people want to stay calm is simple, that is, never put yourself in the crowd.

Because once a person puts himself in the majority, you will easily follow the surrounding and ear sounds, and finally gradually lose your ability to think, and follow the sound that you want to hear.

Keeping calm is not a very simple thing. First of all, you need enough knowledge to form your own ideas. But in this world where there is a mouthpiece everywhere, a person who loves to socialize or tries to go through the media People who understand things will inevitably bring other people’s ideas into their thinking.

The reason why Xu Jiao can be calm now is inseparable from some of her experiences.

In other words, she actually has some natural advantages in this regard.

just.

This advantage is not conducive to love.

what is love?

From ancient times to the present, the great love praised by people is deeply moving, or tragic like moths into the fire, or long-lasting, long-lasting water.

A person who is too indifferent and does not have much empathy for the feelings of others, who has little pitiful affection, like a shallow pond, how can he hold such deep affection?

Xu Jiao asked herself if she could not bear a relationship.

In other words, she felt that there was no need for love in her life. Since… that person disappeared from her life, she no longer had hope for the feelings between people, she had planned Die alone.

In contrast, falling in love with the people in her book… this kind of thing sounds very difficult, and there are so many thorns and obstacles in it. She asked herself if she wanted to engage in a kind of vigorous love, she felt very tired just thinking about it. Xu Jiao didn’t want to do it.

So even if you like it a little bit, so what?

This little bit, nothing can be changed.

It’s better not to say.

…

Xu Jiao didn’t say a word, and Zheng Zhiyu actually stopped asking. She just quietly watched Xu Jiao finish the breakfast, staring at her plate more than waiting for her answer.

It was the same in the week before the May Day holiday.

Zheng Zhiyu supervised Xu Jiao’s three meals a day at his own pace. Cheng Ri listened to Xu Jiao’s two roommates recommending her a new restaurant nearby. After Xu Jiao’s self-study in the morning or after class, he always cheated her. Go have a meal and show for yourself.

This reluctantly made Xu Jiao fatter by two catties.

On the night before the May Day holiday, there was a little enthusiasm in the dormitory. Xu Jiao didn’t want to cover the thick quilt anymore, so she kicked half of it, revealing her long legs in flat shorts, and even hugged the one next to it to prevent students. Sleeping in the upper bunk is not honestly turning down the iron railing.

At this temperature, the air conditioner is too cold when the fan is turned on, and there is a slight heat when it is not turned on.

Zheng Zhiyu finally found a place where he could shine, hugged Xu Jiao from behind, and got into her bed to cool her down. This time he was not driven out.

Xu Jiao was going to sleep in a daze, remembering something, and whispering:

“Five o’clock tomorrow morning, trouble.”

Zheng Zhiyu asked her: “Why do you get up so early?”

Xu Jiao said casually: “Go home.”

Qian Ai, who was in the opposite shop, was still playing on his mobile phone and didn’t sleep at all. Hearing the rustling movement in the room, he couldn’t help but utter suspiciously, “Xu? Are you asleep?”

Xu Jiao didn’t say a word.

Qian Ai thought of those two mutters that seemed to be self-talking. He illuminated Xu Jiao’s position with his mobile phone, and found that there was not much change, so he said to himself: “Mom, learn to dominate you. This dream talk scares me to death.”

Xu Jiao silently curled her lips, closing her eyes and quickly fell asleep.

…

When I got up, it was still dark.

Xu Jiao’s movements are very light, and there is no big suitcase or the like to pack. After all, she has very few clothes to bring. She brings more underwear and other clothes. Just bring one or two sets of the rest of the clothes. Now, summer is coming soon, these thin clothes are curled up, and a schoolbag is enough to hold them.

She packed her bag easily and sent a message to the two roommates to leave. The schoolbag zipper was not pulled. After closing the door lightly, she went down to check her luggage, and the schoolbag zipper was closed. A loud “wow” sound.

As usual, Zheng Zhiyu melted into her shadow silently, and only asked her ear when she walked out of the dormitory building:

“Should I go for breakfast?”

Xu Jiao shook her head, “No, I’m going to catch the earliest bus to the train station. If I miss breakfast, I won’t be able to make it.”

Zheng Zhiyu immediately reminded: “There is a convenience store on the right side of the school gate. I bought two breads and a bottle of milk and took them to drink on the road.”

Xu Jiao also knows that Zheng Zhiyu always refuses to make concessions on his food through these few days of getting along. She tried to argue with the other party or protested silently before, but in the end Zheng Zhiyu used a more hooligan way. Threatened, now knowing that responding is the easiest way to do so, I quickly responded:

“Ok.”

Zheng Zhiyu was really satisfied and stopped interfering with her.

There were not many passengers on the bus in the morning. After Xu Jiao got on the bus, she always felt that the temperature in the car was lower than outside. There were not many people in the car. They were either sitting in the last row with their heads down, or Sitting by the window, she wore a plush hat to look outside, all dressed very tightly, making Xu Jiao wonder if she hadn’t received any news of cooling down recently.

Her gaze swept across the seat of the bus, and she realized that the chair was a bit strange. The top armrest was actually fluorescent, some orange and some green. After searching for a while from the memory of the original owner, Xu Jiao found out. I don’t seem to have any impression of this.

Is this bus recently reformed?

It’s just two bars of this color. Is it an advertisement that she can’t understand?

Xu Jiao’s expression was calm, but she hesitated in her heart. She paused as she walked backwards, and was always stuck in the position where she had just got on the bus from the front door. The bus ran smoothly, as if no one noticed her just getting on the bus.

Xu Jiao stood there for a while before realizing the strange situation.

The driver turned a blind eye to her, said nothing, saw her blocking the aisle, and didn’t respond, not even the most basic notice to get off the bus at the station, and the radio in the car was silent.

At the same time, Xu Jiao clutched the two one-dollar coins that she had uncovered from her bag, and realized that she hadn’t seen anything like a ticket seller or a slot machine at all.

This bus is too weird.

When she noticed this, Xu Jiao vaguely sensed that the passengers sitting in the back row seemed to be delayed for a long time, and finally realized her existence, moving her head one by one, looking in her direction.

Before Xu Jiao confronted them, Zheng Zhiyu suddenly emerged from her shadow silently. The blood-colored red clothes became the dazzling bright color in this gray and dark space early in the morning. She raised her hand to Xu Jiao’s shoulder. He simply pressed her down on an orange seat, and then stood beside her with one hand on her shoulder.

As if enclosing the space between her and the entire seat.

Xu Jiao raised her eyes and looked at her. Seeing that she lip-synched to say “Don’t Talk” to herself, she didn’t continue to explore this bus. Instead, she put her head against the back of the chair, and she faintly refreshed herself. Up.

As soon as Zheng Zhiyu lowered her head, she could see her appearance, including her beautiful facial features, delicately lined face, thick eyelashes, straight nose and pale lips.

There is a light cyan under the eyelashes.

It seems that her overall popularity is not very good.

Zheng Zhiyu thought of the width of the waist he hugged last night, and his fingertips moved slightly, as if he was making gestures. After a while, he moved his lips and sighed silently:

“Too little…”

not enough.

Xu Jiao feels so much now, the flesh on her body seems to be barely squeezed. Zheng Zhiyu is always afraid that sometimes she will hurt the other party if her strength is weak or heavy, and she has never entangled with Xu Jiao once.

She licked her red lower lip to cut off the sight of other passengers, and only greedily traced the person who belonged to her with her gaze over and over again. It was not until the bus stopped at the train station that she took a picture of Xu Jiao. Shoulders.

Xu Jiao didn’t fall asleep at all. After all, although Zheng Zhiyu doesn’t have the boiling temperature of a living person now, her chilly eyes are staring at the back of the person and tightening. Besides, this car is very weird. No matter how dull she is, she can’t be in such a place. Sleeping heartlessly.

wait until

Getting off the bus, she was again enveloped by the slightly hot air of the whole city. Only when Xu Jiao realized that her body was cold, she walked and looked at the shadow on her side, and said casually:

“What car was that just now?”

Zheng Zhiyu answered her slowly: “The hearse.”

Xu Jiao was silent for a second: “What is that?”

Zheng Zhiyu answered her in a leisurely tone: “In short, the bus after the accident has been repeating the same route, from the driver to the passengers, and occasionally there are people who don’t care much about getting on the bus. , But it’s okay, as long as you stand up and down quietly and don’t yell and affect order, nothing will happen.”

Xu Jiao raised her brows, as if she understood.

She didn’t ask any more, but Zheng Zhiyu sighed: “I haven’t seen anyone who attracts these things like you. Dirty things in a radius of a hundred miles can line up to touch you, your soul… in the end. What’s the matter? Was it the same before?”

Xu Jiao hadn’t read the original owner’s complete memory much before, but now listening to Zheng Zhiyu’s sigh, she couldn’t help but start from this aspect and searched the memory carefully. After a few seconds, her brows slowly frowned.

“Maybe not.”

Zheng Zhiyu was a little unbelievable: “Are you sure?”

Xu Jiao nodded and looked at the life of the original owner who was arbitrarily bullied by her family. Only then did she find some suspicious places, except for the time the original owner was pushed into the water when he was a child and almost drowned. Encountered something very strange and weird.

And those things in the river can’t be remembered because of excessive stimulation.

Xu Jiao shook her head lightly and came up with a definite answer: “I’m sure, I never saw these things when I was a kid.”

In addition to emotional problems, Zheng Zhiyu, who was always willing to communicate with Xu Jiao on everything, was suddenly silent. Xu Jiao wanted to ask her what was wrong, but she just walked to the entrance of the inspection and had to show her own. At the same time, put the salute on the track and go through the security check.

This bus departed at 6:30. After Xu Jiao got up, it took more than ten minutes to wash and clean up. He walked for seven minutes and waited for the bus. It took another fifteen minutes before the bus. Then he walked to the train station, removing the point that closed the ticket gates in advance. In time, she even had to walk to the ticket counter even as soon as she arrived at this station.

Lin Lin always came down, waited hard to get on the train, and it was the cheapest ticket. Xu Jiao sat by the window. It was nothing more than two middle-aged people sitting next to them. The one in the aisle was already used to it. The sitting person pushed the one on the outermost side, pointing to Xu Jiao and said:

“I think that girl is very skinny. You should still be able to sit in this crowded place? Go inside and give me a seat, thank you.”

So the people on the outside squeezed in automatically, and in the end there was only Xu Jiao, the petite youngest, like a can of sardines. She looked like a pitiful little girl. She was clean on her body. She was immediately caught in this carriage when she rushed to a green train. The smell is confusing in it.

Zheng Zhiyu only felt as if she had no place in her shadow.

She lay on Xu Jiao’s ear and whispered: “Jiaojiao, shall I change your soft sleeper?”

Xu Jiao shook her head slightly, hugged her bag and fell asleep. After all, after returning from school, it was not too long to take the train. He arrived in the city in five or six hours.

Cars, motorcycles and the like will be subcontracted later.

Xu Jiao was too lazy to toss, but Zheng Zhiyu was about to make her sit more comfortably in this place.

…

Ten minutes later–

Xu Jiao noticed that the people around her were constantly rubbing her feet, and she even took out a smelly blanket from the green nylon bag under her feet and put it on her body, complaining casually:

“What’s the matter with this car? Why is it so generous today? This air conditioner freezes to death for me.”

This voice attracted the approval of the people in the nearby seats. Opposite a man holding the spicy beef noodles, the instant noodle soup in his mouth came out as he spoke:

“Yeah! I think too! My side has just soaked for five minutes and it’s cold, it’s weird!”

But they just complained, and didn’t take much action, at most they put on their thick clothes and thick quilts.

After another half an hour, someone who couldn’t stand the coldness went to find the flight attendant on the train and wanted to change the position. The one who had eaten the instant noodles before felt too crowded and wanted to buy it for a hard sleeper. It’s a pity…

May Day is originally the peak of travel, and there are not many seats.

What’s more, there are still some people standing around who are ready to move.

Ready to make up the ticket at any time

Xu Jiao felt that Zheng Zhiyu’s small actions were a bit funny. She opened her eyelids and saw Zheng Zhiyu raise her hand expressionlessly to help her block the instant noodle juice sputtered by the man opposite. She originally wanted to say “Forget it.” When it came to my lips, I temporarily changed it to another sentence:

“Buy a soft sleeper when you come back.”

Zheng Zhiyu looked at her with pure black eyes, as if she suddenly changed her mind for some reason, leaned over and put one hand on her neck, stared at her for a few seconds, and quickly said:

“Then it’s settled?”

Xu Jiaozhong closed her eyes again and nodded slightly.

Zheng Zhiyu did not toss these people anymore. After a while, the people in the seats nearby seemed to be rejuvenated, and they were quickly made sultry by the crowded air, causing most of Xu Jiao’s journey to be listening to those in his ears. People complained that the air conditioner on this train was broken.

…

Getting off is the hottest time at noon.

Xu Jiao raised her hand to block the sunlight in front of her, and stood in front of the station, following her memory to find the master chartered car for the price, and carpooling with others towards the village and town in her hometown, the mountain road in the van turned eighteen bends. It took two hours to get to the town, and when the packaged motorcycle returned to the entrance of the village, there were already a few sporadic flashes in the sky.

She walked on the ridges in the countryside, turned on the torch function of her broken mobile phone, and carefully illuminated the road under her feet. Some places were a little wet, and there was mud under her feet. The people in the village had no entertainment at night. They all play their own games at home, occasionally visits, and most of them are playing cards and bragging.

At the moment, there are few people around where she is walking.

Zheng Zhiyu got out at this moment, hugged her up, walked through the surrounding high corn stalks, and headed in the direction Xu Jiao was walking. Xu Jiao was picked up by her and looked at her before changing. Focus on the surrounding environment, so that you can find out if there are people nearby in advance, so that no one who is doing farm work in the middle of the night will find someone floating in the air when you look up.

The effect is amazing.

Zheng Zhiyu didn’t even hear her protest, and teased her in a chill tone: “Why are you so behaved today?”

Xu Jiao lazily replied to her: “In Jue

In the face of the right power, all struggles are useless. ”

Zheng Zhiyu chuckled and kissed the top of her hair, with some compliments in her tone: “I just like how smart you are.”

Xu Jiao let out a “um” and answered casually: “Yes, I also quite like my appearance.”

After finishing this sentence, she patted Zheng Zhiyu on the shoulder and motioned to the other party to put herself down, because through this cornfield, the original owner’s house was in front of her.

Zheng Zhiyu saw that she was obedient recently, and she was in a good mood, but now she is naturally not hesitating to rely on Xu Jiao, letting go of her obediently, and at the same time slipping back into her shadow.

Xu Jiao walked step by step to the door of the earthen house with the light on, stood and watched for a while, then opened the door and walked in.

…

“Which night came and walked… Oh, are you willing to come back?”

Xu Dashu walked out with a cigarette in his mouth. The original tone was a little bit of joy. He thought it was his old friends who came, but when he saw Xu Jiao, his tone immediately fell by eight degrees, and the tone was very disgusting and contemptuous. obvious.

He had this attitude, and Xu Jiao naturally didn’t bother to pay attention to him, and just said: “I promise you to come back, so you don’t think about going to my school in the future to make trouble.”

Xu Dashu knocked on his cigarette-gun-pole and smiled. An overly old face was wrinkled together. He squinted at her and said: “I think you haven’t cleaned it for a long time, and your skin is itchy. Come back. It should be. Don’t mention the things that I have and don’t.”

This is just not wanting to admit it.

Xu Jiao looked at him clearly, and was not surprised by his attitude. Following the memory of the original owner, she prepared to return to her house. She did not prevent that more people in the house heard the movement of Xu Dashu outside, and there was a male voice loudly. The voice of the local accent:

“Father, who are you talking to? My mother called you to come and collect the table.”

“Little **** dare to order your father, the wings are very stiff-Xu Jiao is back, let her take it.”

Xu Dashu stared at Xu Jiao’s back and replied in a loud voice.

The curtain of the main room was lifted. When a tall boy saw Xu Jiao, he looked up and down at her and teased: “Yeah, life at school is going well. You got a big money? Is this? All of them are so fashionable, my sister is so rich, and I spend a little bit on my younger brother?”

“What’s the money? If she wants to have money, she has to give it to me first.” The sound of the original owner’s mother washing the pot with a brush came from the kitchen.

Hearing this sound, the boy rolled his eyes, and while Xu Jiao passed by, he suddenly stretched out his hand to grab Xu Jiao’s schoolbag. Xu Jiao reacted in time and avoided it, but the strap of the schoolbag was still pulled by him.

The next moment, the boy took advantage of his natural strength and suddenly attacked, pulling Xu Jiao’s schoolbag from his shoulder, and said with a smile:

“Sister, dad asks you to clean the table, why don’t you go?”

“You have worked so hard to come back all the way, I will look at this bag for you for a while, don’t be so polite.

Xu Jiao looked at him blankly.

Perceiving her gaze, the one in front of her did not look like her at all. His face was square, the bridge of her nose was a bit collapsed, and the tails of her eyes were falling. The whole picture of someone who didn’t know what it looked like said to her:

“Sister, don’t look at me with this look, I’m so scared.”

Xu Jiao raised the corner of her lower lip slightly.

She walked two steps into the room and glanced at the mess on the table and a pot of pale purple.

Vegetable egg soup, it’s rare to return this sentence:

“Don’t be afraid first.”

The boy turned around and glanced at her–

Just one look.

On the face was a pot of purple and yellow that was braving the heat and rushing towards his face.

With a brush, there was a ticking of soup on his head, and he subconsciously licked it, the salty smell was still there.

It seemed that he didn’t realize what had happened. The tall boy still kept the movement of carrying her bag in one hand, with seaweed and egg flowers on his hair and neck, and the whole figure looked ridiculous.

He heard Xu Jiao raise her chin at him unhurriedly, and said in a notice:

“Now you can start to be scared.”