chapter 98
96. Traces of previous lives
96. Traces of past life
She has since that day. So, yesterday and the day before yesterday, he didn’t come to my house. I knew you would come, of course. It was a completely different move from the summer vacation, where I came and lived almost every day. It certainly wasn’t a bad thing for me. But that behavior change took place. It’s like they didn’t come together, and it’s like they didn’t come. For me, it was not seen outside her that this happened because I had done something very wrong to her.
“……”
After her visit, I thought we should have a serious talk.
***
4 Hours later.
After waiting for a long time, I boarded the plane and finally arrived in Korea.
The place I arrived at was Incheon Airport. Indeed, it was the same as the one I had seen in my previous life. No, not only that, but it was originally beautiful, but I was in awe of it when it was covered with animation correction.
I took a taxi and headed to Seoul. The goal is to achieve it first. If you really wanted to play, you wouldn’t be lacking at all even if you played after that. Well, since I wasn’t here to play in the first place, even if I did, I would only play for half a day.
As I said before, what I wanted to check was the traces of my previous life. From the house I lived in, the school I attended, and the street, I’m trying to find all the traces that would remain in the place where I was.
What remains and what is lost? Or I don’t know if everything will remain, even myself, or if everything will be gone. The only reason I wanted to know him was because I was curious.
If a human being like me, parents like me, and friends like me existed in this world… I think it would be very subtle. I thought so.
“After….”
However, I couldn’t know anything until I saw it myself, so I stopped thinking and focused on the scenery outside.
***
Two hours later.
“I have arrived.”
“… ….”
I looked outside when the taxi driver said that he had arrived.
Indeed, it was the same building I had seen in my previous life.
It was a scene I had seen so many times that I got tired of it… I also felt that I was missing something. But on the other hand, I also felt a sense of alienation. The world has changed, so it must have been inevitable. I was just going to do it.
After admiring it for a while, I paid the fare to the taxi driver and approached the entrance of the building.
“… ….”
Then, I pressed the password to the entrance while carefully retracing my memory.
Weing-
Then the door opened.
…I feel like this is the same as in my previous life.
Feeling strange for a while, I took the elevator to the 11th floor.
Ding-
The door opened wide with the sound of arrival.
I got out of the elevator and stood in front of Room 1102.
Gulp-
This was the house I lived in.
A moment of tension. After swallowing for a moment, I rang the bell.
“… ….”
But no one came out.
As I was about to press the button again in case I didn’t hear it, a voice came from where I had pressed the bell.
“Who are you?”
“… ….”
It was a woman’s voice. But…. It wasn’t the mother’s voice from the previous life. It could be because of the nature of the anime, so I decided to ask her name to confirm.
“May I know what your name is?”
“… ….”
Then she didn’t answer.
Realizing that I had made a mistake, I quickly prepared an excuse.
“Ah, I am not a strange person, Minseok is my friend. I was supposed to meet Minseok at my house, but I was a little confused about the way. That’s why I wanted to ask Minseok if he came to the right place. hahahaha…. I asked for your name because Minseok had accidentally said it before.”
Then, as if the tension was relieved, the voice started to be heard again from inside.
“Ah~ I see. But we only have a daughter in our family. I think I came to the wrong place.”
“… ….”
After all, isn’t it?
“Oh, sorry. I must have been mistaken.”
After confirming her, I handed her her apology, and then I got on her elevator again and came out to the entrance of her building.
And I looked at the building where I lived and thought.
After all, it has changed.
Actually, I was inferring to some extent. That would be the case, because famous politicians and celebrities from previous lives did not exist in this world. In other words, buildings like the 63 Building and Tokyo Tower remain the same, but the people inside them have all changed. So, of course, there was no way for the country to exist.
But… Still, it was what I was looking for, just in case. If your parents or friends remain… A little bit, with a heart that wouldn’t be nice to see you.
“After….”
Since then, I have been looking for other places as well. It was to find even the smallest of the traces I left behind.
However, there were no traces of me anywhere. Maybe it was natural since everyone had changed. In the end, it must mean that the world is the same only in a big context.
“… ….”
And after all, I couldn’t find anything, so I checked the school for the last time and left.
As with other places, the appearance of the school remained the same. The school uniforms of the students coming in and out of the school just in time were the same as the ones I had worn in my previous life. But at the same time, everyone was in the form of Annie and was living like the inside of Annie.
Also.
“… ….”
I was gone.
I was looking at him. I felt an unknown loneliness, as if I was left alone in the world.
And that day, I went right back to the hotel. And as soon as I got back, I immediately fell asleep.
… I wanted to go back to a familiar place as soon as possible. Otherwise, this unknown loneliness would eat away at me endlessly. Because I thought it would make me infinitely depressed. I felt that the people I was close to needed more. And among them, I felt even more desperate for Inazuke, who had grown up with me since childhood and was the only one who understood my way of thinking to some extent.
After….
Really. This feeling of being left alone in the world… It was awful.
***
The next day. Afternoon.
After leaving the hotel at dawn, I arrived in Japan again. And after moving again, I arrived home shortly after.
“… …..”
After looking at the house I had lived in Japan for a while, I entered the house.
It shrunk a bit on the way, but the sense of loss was still there, and the empty house was very lonely.
After….
After lying in bed for a while, I decided to visit Iinazuke as I had planned before leaving the country.
It wasn’t really a need out of a sense of loss. It just seemed like he and I needed to talk, and I just accompanied him.
…But it was partly because of that feeling.
After walking for a while and arriving at her house, I rang the bell in front of the house.
Shortly thereafter, Iinazuke arrived at the front door, opened the door, and asked me.
“What is it, Shujinkoo-kun? Oh, are you already gone?”
“… ….”
Looking at me, her expression hardened for a moment, but she smiled and said. And when I saw her like that, I thought there was something.
“Can I talk to you for a second?”
Then she said, maintaining a smile.
“Okay, come in.”
I didn’t expect you to accept it so readily… It wasn’t anything wrong, so I went inside her house.
“I’ll serve tea, so wait a minute, Shujinkoo-kun.”
She led me to the guest room and went outside. It wasn’t particularly strange since I had been treated like this before.
“After….”
As she took her deep breaths, organizing what to say to her, she finally pulled out of her car and sat down in front of me.
“… ….”
“… ….”
And then there is a moment of silence. After that silence, I told her.
“Maybe… Did something sad or something happen to me?”
Then, at my question, she still smiled and shook her head.
“Eh, there wasn’t one?”
“… ….”
Now that it’s like this, it’s going to be difficult to get an answer right away. I just decided to tell you my honest feelings. Then I hope that one day he will tell me the truth.
“That… To be honest, if it were the other kids, I wouldn’t have asked such questions all the time because of my personality, but you have a degree and are precious to me… I kept asking because I was worried. When I went to Korea and felt lonely, I thought of you. Because I suddenly distanced myself like this… It seemed like there was something going on, so I couldn’t stand it. I guess it’s a different feeling than when I cheated on you before… So, if you feel like talking about it later, tell me. Honestly.”
“… ….”
When I finished talking, she, who had a slightly embarrassed expression, smiled and said.
“Yes, Shujinko!”
“… ….”
However, unlike before, the feeling of sincerity couldn’t be because of my mood.
***
And the next morning.
“… ….”
“Oh, you woke up! I’m here, Shujinko-kun!”
She started visiting my house again. Also at 6 o’clock.
“… ….”
… Well done… Is that right..?
No, it changes so easily? Didn’t we still have a lot left to solve? Are the sad things already resolved? What have I done?
… I was the one who was flooded with regrets.