I Don’t Want to be a Villainess

Have I ever laid my head on a girl’s lap?

Well, when I was very young, it was one thing if it was my mom’s lap, but I’ve never laid my head on another girl’s lap. Honestly, unless you’re dating someone, it probably wouldn’t happen.

In that sense, this experience is a bit refreshing.

To be honest, it’s more uncomfortable than a pillow. No matter how soft a person’s legs are, there are bones and muscles inside that have limits.

Plus, Sohee exercises regularly. At first, I felt it was surprisingly soft, but after lying there for a while, I felt it wasn’t as good as my usual fluffy pillow.

But what is this sensation I’m feeling now?

It’s definitely way more uncomfortable than lying on a bed, yet strangely satisfying.

No, my body feels uncomfortable, but emotionally, I’m very comfortable.

I thought about why that might be.

Is it because of Sohee’s body warmth I can feel from behind my head? They say people perceive anything above their own body temperature as warm. Does that mean Sohee is hotter than her own body?

Sohee’s face, which is a bit blurry beyond my hazy view, seems to be slightly flushed.

“Were you tired studying today?”

Her voice sounded like it could melt my ears.

Did Sohee really have such a voice?

Now that I think about it, Sohee has shown quite a variety of sides to herself. When we first met, I thought she was a rough, delinquent type, but now, in front of me, she has become so much softer, her voice almost gentle. What started as a suffocating and rough hug is now extremely soft and warm.

It’s as if she knows exactly what her body’s strengths are, slowly wrapping me up.

“I think our master thinks too much most of the time.”

Her hand lightly brushed against my right cheek.

“So, when it’s just the two of us like this, you don’t have to think at all. Sometimes you just need to stop thinking and let your body feel the flow of time.”

My eyelids were becoming heavier.

Well, I’ve been pretty tense lately. There’s too much to do now, and on top of that, it’s exam period. It wasn’t something I could just get through without studying, and I ended up having to study things I didn’t even want to.

I thought I’d never need to study again after graduating from university.

“How about we take a deep breath and just sleep like this?”

Is that really okay?

Well, there’s something nice about waking up every morning while being embraced by someone.

Girls smell nice. I’m happy that she likes me so much. Actually, I’ve gotten so used to hugging that if no one embraces me, I can’t even sleep. I’ve become like a little kid who can’t sleep without a proper hugging cushion.

But… here with Sohee, maybe it’s okay.

A cozy nap unbothered by anyone…

Snap out of it!

My mind was jolted awake as I was trying to surrender to the bliss of sleep.

“Hmm?”

When I opened my eyes wide, Sohee tilted her head as if to say, “What’s up?”

“Aren’t you sleepy?”

“Uh, no, it’s just…”

Should I say it was Sara that woke me up?

If you fall asleep now, I’ll wake up! Plus, who knows what might happen next! Keep your head in the game!

…Is that so?

Hmm, maybe.

Sohee, out of the three of us, was the most proactive in getting close to me. No matter what, she wouldn’t do anything too extreme while I was sleeping… but there was a chance of some light touches or kisses.

But, that kind of thing happens every night anyway, right?

Every time I wake up, my clothes are a bit disheveled.

Yikes…!

I guess Sara thinks I’m taking it too lightly.

Sohee’s hugs are dangerous! I almost got caught last time. If you fall asleep here, next thing you know, you’ll wake up, and I’ll fall asleep, then you’ll wake up again, and it’ll be like a back-and-forth endless loop!

No way, right? Sohee isn’t a succubus or anything.

Succubus… nice choice of words. That’s exactly what she is. Or her ancestors must include succubi. Either way, she’s dangerous. She corrupts people.

…It’s a bit extreme, but if Sara is this concerned, I should probably be cautious.

After all, Sohee was the type who would climb on top of me every night even when sleeping in another room. There’s certainly a risk involved.

Sohee continued to look down at me with an innocent expression.

…Now that I think about it, among the blonde tanned delinquent girls, there are often those who tend to be unusually open-minded. Especially when it comes to sexual matters.

So… is Sohee’s appearance a bit cliché then?

If this were a proper 19+ dating sim, I bet this kind of play would definitely be included.

Thinking back, it sent a shiver down my spine.

There was no one to stop me here right now.

“Hmm~”

Seeing my eyes wide open, Sohee pondered for a moment and then hugged me tighter.

With me sitting slightly upright on Sohee’s lap, I looked like a child cuddled up in her embrace.

Since I was slightly lying on Sohee, I still looked a bit smaller than her.

Sohee’s arms were strong enough to support me, but since my position was a bit unsteady, I reached out and clung to her neck without realizing it.

Should I call it a princess hug, or is it more like a mother holding her daughter?

“Uh, Sohee.”

“Hmm?”

Feeling a bit shy as Sohee gazed at me in that position, I looked away and opened my mouth.

“Um, since it’s a one-on-one talk… if there’s anything you want to talk about, I think we should do it now…”

“Something I want to talk about?”

Her voice whispered in my ear.

“My topic is… um~”

Sohee seemed to give it a moment of thought before saying,

“I like you.”

She whispered like that.

It was a voice completely different from what Sohee usually used.

Smack.

And she suddenly kissed my cheek.

“Ha.”

As I turned around in surprise, this time I received a kiss on the lips.

It wasn’t very long. With our lips briefly touching, Sohee pulled back her head.

The look on her face was one of pure satisfaction.

“Um…”

Smack.

Before I could say anything, Sohee kissed my lips once more, this time with more certainty.

Again, it was short.

Rather than an expression of passion, I would say it was more an expression of affection.

In her soft embrace, I even forgot I was cuddled up against her.

“I like you.”

Smack.

Sohee kept whispering to me and kissing, and I had to struggle to keep my wits about me.

*

“…….”

In the end, I came out of the room with my face all red alongside Sohee.

Was I tense or relaxed?

I probably went back and forth between the two. As a result, my walking was all wobbly, like a squid that failed to dry in the sun then got bent by the sea breeze.

“Sara, are you okay?”

The last one, Sua, asked me.

Her expression was genuinely full of concern for me.

“Uh, yeah… I’m fine. The other two did it, so it wouldn’t be fair if we didn’t do it too.”

“Uh, yeah…”

Still unable to refuse, Sua nodded in response to my words.

“Well, let’s go together.”

Sua gently wrapped her hand around my waist and pulled me towards her. Even though she was slightly shorter than me, she held me firm without wobbling a bit.

“……”

Hmm, somehow, I have a feeling this won’t end easily either.
*

“Come this way.”

Sua was also sitting on the bed.

But instead of just sitting on the bed, Sua sat cross-legged on top of it. It was a bit different from how we usually sat side by side.

And instead of the side next to her, she patted the spot in front of her.

I silently climbed onto the bed and sat across from her.

For a while, Sua smiled silently while looking at me.

“……”

Um, this feels a bit awkward.

“Okay.”

Suddenly, Sua reached out both hands toward me.

“Um…”

Seeing her hands, I hesitated, and Sua curled her fingers around and opened them again while saying,

“Hold my hand.”

“Uh, okay.”

I carefully stretched my hand out as she said.

Sua’s hands were soft.

She moved our clasped hands around skillfully, and then intertwined our fingers together.

We ended up sitting facing each other with our hands intertwined.

Well, it was less shy and more like some kind of weird positioning.

While I was contemplating what Sua wanted by doing all this—

“Eek.”

Sua suddenly fell sideways and lay down.

Naturally, since I was holding her hand too, I fell onto my side as well.

Now we were lying down facing each other with our hands still intertwined.

Ah, now this feels a bit embarrassing.

Sua tightened her grip, bending her arms.

It felt like if I resisted that force, it wouldn’t be good, so I followed her hand.

Following, following, and after following a bit more… my face was now so close to Sua’s that it was almost touching.

“……”

“……”

We both stayed silent, just looking at each other for a while.

All that could be heard was our breathing.

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