I Can’t Run Away From the Girl Who Saved Me

7 – red eyes (1)

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Making a tombstone for my sister was not as difficult as I thought.

I had quite a bit of experience handling tools, as my days as a commoner were much longer than the time I was an aristocrat in my life.

It was because a few years ago, I had the experience of making a small doll out of wood for my sister Layla, who had a big age difference.

Of course, I wasn’t very good with my hands, so I usually made four-legged animals with chubby bodies like bears and pigs, but Laila really liked the dolls I made.

To be honest, due to the circumstances of our family, which was only a noble family without a single estate, it was not possible to buy an expensive doll, so Layla, who was satisfied with such a piece of wood, could not be so grateful and pretty.

When I thought of Lila’s bright smile while holding the doll I made, my eyes suddenly became red.

In fact, the current situation of making Layla’s tombstone felt even more unrealistic.

I carved a flat sign out of wood and carefully carved her name with a knife on it while looking up at the sky several times to keep my tears from flowing.

However, the moment she wrote down the date of her death, the tears she had been holding back eventually overflowed.

I cried and cried for a long time.

Maybe because I had something to do, time passed quickly.

I finally completed the tombstone on the third day as promised.

I tried to touch the name of my sister engraved on the board with a dagger with my fingertips.

“I will miss you a lot. Lila.”

That evening, after returning from the hunt, I returned the dagger to Mr. Millwood and announced the completion of the tombstone.

Mr. Millwood laughed with the words ‘I honestly thought I couldn’t do it’ and refused to accept the dagger, saying it was a parting gift.

He said that he could use it himself or sell it and use it as funds.

I jumped up, bowed over and over, and thanked her.

She took me to Lyla’s grave.

After placing a carefully crafted tombstone in front of Laila’s grave, I slowly knelt down and prayed with my hands together.

I sincerely hoped that the Goddess would look down on this poor child and take away his soul safely.

There is a saying somewhere in the tradition that if eaten by a wild animal, the soul will wander the nine heavens, but I had no choice but to hope that wasn’t true.

After praying, I suddenly looked to the side and saw numerous tombstones.

In this tomb, only Laila’s was a tombstone carved from wood, not a tombstone made of stone.

“…under,”

Suddenly, I felt so sorry for Lila.

He had never done the best for Lila in his life.

It’s like giving away a cheap doll you made yourself because you couldn’t buy an expensive toy.

Even at this last moment when she was gone, I could only give Leila a tombstone carved out of wood, not stone.

“…Sorry.”

Nonetheless, I did my best.

Although it is a small cemetery in the ruins, it is definitely a cemetery, and if this is the case, Mr. Millwood will continue to take care of it.

However, the fact that it was so ugly and shabby as a result did not change.

I did my best, but I was so resentful of myself for being able to give only shabby things to Lila until the end.

I slowly got up from my seat.

Mr. Millwood, who had been praying with his hands folded behind me, rose slowly, looked at my face as I turned from the grave, and raised his hand to my face.

She whispered, wiping the tears from my cheeks with her thumb.

“I’ll take care of Layla so she won’t be lonely, don’t worry and let her go now.”

“…yes,”

“Okay, let’s go in now, for it’s our last night.”

“Yes.”

“I have some good wine that has been sitting for quite some time. Would you like a drink?”

“… Yes, Thanks. Mr. Millwood.”

For some reason, my body didn’t have any strength.

Without saying a word, she took my hand and led me to the cabin.

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The woman opened her eyes and jumped up from the bed.

“Ouch, ugh!”

I bit my lips hard enough to draw blood, but a faint scream finally escaped my teeth.

Shaking her head and breathing slowly, her clothes were drenched in cold sweat.

The same goes for the sheet she was lying on.

The wet sheets looked as if they had spilled urine, but there was no doubt as the faint smell of sweat wafting from the sheets and the whole body was so clearly asserting itself.

Besides, it wasn’t the first time.

The woman would often sleep and sweat profusely, causing dehydration.

It was because the terrible nightmares that haunted her were haunting her.

“Ha… Damn it.”

The woman let out a sigh and touched her arm with the palm of her hand.

It was very uncomfortable to see the sleeves wet and clinging to my skin.

She decided to wash herself in the nearby river.

It was still night, but it seemed that I would not be able to go to bed without wiping the sweat from my body, perhaps because of the nightmares that were worse today.

I slowly and quietly left the room.

On the small table were scattered glasses and bottles, as well as bread and meat crumbs.

I saw a man asleep on a bed right next to the door leading out.

The man drank a few drinks at a farewell dinner and fell asleep.

I couldn’t show my face, so I didn’t eat alcohol or food, but for some reason it was quite satisfying just looking at the man who ate it deliciously.

The woman moved carefully so as not to wake the man.

Accustomed to stealthy movements, she was able to get out of the cabin without much difficulty.

She walked slowly towards the river.

“Ugh, the water is still a bit cold,”

After arriving at the riverside, she roughly threw off the clothes clinging to her body and entered the river without hesitation.

Even though it was hot, the river flowing through the forest was cool enough to feel a bit cold.

Her skin, pale enough to feel pure white, seemed to glow even in the dark of the night.

Likewise, her pale blond hair, glistening in the moonlight, was disheveled as if it were unraveling on the surface of the water.

There is only one place on her body that looks pure white from head to toe,

Only her eyes were an ominously muddy red.

“Whoah-”

She slowly cut through the water, creating small ripples in the current of the river.

Her body, not wearing a single thread, showed off her feminine charms despite her strong abs and slightly wide shoulders.

Beautiful breasts that look good in the shape and volume that all men dream of, and a strong waistline that was trained to overflowing with health were sharply bent along the curve of the voluptuous hips.

In the moonlight, her form was a precarious balance between goddess-like beauty and succubus-like lewdness.

However, inside that beautiful shape, on her snow-white skin, numerous scars and traces of terrible wounds were densely engraved.

cuts and stabs and torn wounds,

Traces of being scorched, burst, and cut.

After covering her entire body tightly for several days, her beautiful body and ugly scars were all exposed under the moonlight.

Then she slowly lay down on the surface of the water.

As she relaxed, the upper part of her upper body and her face floated above the water, perhaps thanks to her voluptuous breasts.

She muttered as she looked up at the moon floating in the sky.

“… It seems like it’s been a while.”

Apparently, she often had nightmares.

It seemed to happen at least two or three times a week.

She didn’t really care that she was having nightmares.

I’ve done something like that

You can’t just forget about it and live comfortably, and you shouldn’t even want to.

she thought so

I had to watch as my colleagues who had gradually lost their smiles during the difficult journey died miserably.

Exhausted, I just had to watch, unable to stop my worst enemy from spilling blood, laughing and cursing me with terrible curses.

The curse, which he had not been able to figure out, had to watch as it harmed the villagers in the end.

She had to see all the horrors with her own two eyes while killing everyone with her own hands, from adults to babies.

She has since imprisoned herself in these ruins.

So that the terrible curse that clings to you cannot be passed on to anyone else,

And he took it for granted that he would wake up each night with painful nightmares and waking up to shameful cries and ridiculous screams.

Like an ascetic, he confined himself to this place where no one was around and let the nightmares and gloom consume him.

To live and die until the day the lifespan allowed by heaven ends without meeting anyone like this.

That was her destiny and her duty.

So, what she was really curious about was something else.

Why was I freed from that nightmare for a while?

“… ash,”

She forgot a man’s name.

ash.

A eater came to a small hut located in these ruins after dying in an accident in the woods.

A man with an impression that looks slightly younger than herself, it must have been because he was there.

Although wary at first, he is kind and caring.

He was a man who knew how to be grateful and polite.

Even though his entire family died and he suffered a tragic loss of his younger sister, he was also the type to recover his heart relatively quickly.

At the same time, he was also a person who would sacrifice himself to protect his precious people.

The proof was that he had dragged the messy body and walked to his hut, bleeding.

He was a man with a strong heart.

unlike myself,

I knew I had to get him out quickly.

The longer he stays here, the greater the danger.

Of course it was impossible to hide my face forever.

Because you never know when something might happen.

However, even though I knew all of that, I felt that this time with him was enjoyable.

So he hesitated.

No, it wasn’t just hesitation.

To him, who was trying to make a tombstone for his younger brother, I secretly suggested a tombstone that would take longer.

Insinuating, like a vulgar merchant who can’t even hide his clumsy desire and reveals it.

However, when he shook his head and began to cut the tree, he felt a bit regretful and even pouted a little.

shallowly.

“…tomorrow.”

she murmured slowly.

Ash leaves this place tomorrow.

The first ten days he was asleep, the five days from when he woke up to his recovery, and the three days he tried to make a tombstone for his sister.

During the 18 days she spent with him, her nights were no longer haunted by nightmares.

And, as soon as he realized that he would leave tomorrow after completing the tombstone today, he immediately had a nightmare. It was embarrassing.

Besides, I couldn’t remember the details of the dream, but it was all the more so because it was easy to tell from the amount of sweat shed that it must have been a slightly worse nightmare than usual.

“Ha, it seems that he is regretting it. As I urged,”

Having said that, she felt a sudden flush in her face and plunged her head into the cold river.

It’s stupid, did you forget what kind of situation you were in?

I mean, did you have fun with him?

‘…it was fun. For sure.’

Treating wounds, sharing dishes, having conversations, laughing at jokes, comforting each other’s broken hearts.

It had been a long time since all of that, so he seemed to have enjoyed it too much without realizing it.

The image of Ash smiling at her flashed into her mind.

‘Mr. Millwood!’

The head gets cold.

She slowly lifted her head vigorously above the surface.

The water droplets that fell from her flowing blonde hair caught the moonlight and glistened like jewels.

“…Milwood,”

It was a pseudonym.

The old name of this village that she destroyed with a curse and is now in ruins.

Concealing her name, she took the name of the town as her pseudonym.

It was a warning not to forget one’s sins and a declaration that one would not forget them.

“…Wake.”

It was fun, but it wasn’t.

No, it was definitely fun. Undeniable.

But that’s good.

I will spend the rest of my life atonement in pain.

The memories Ash left behind will become a mirage in the form of an oasis that will help you endure the long pain a little longer.

A mirage that can never be found, but which inspires false hope.

I can still torture myself.

She slowly turned and walked toward the water’s edge.

Since all the sweat has already been washed away by the water, you will be able to go back to sleep.

She stepped on the soil with her slowly cleansed body.

When I picked up the clothes I had taken off, I smelled a musty smell.

“Ah, such an idiot, you should have soaked your clothes in water too,”

I had just washed, and I didn’t want to wear clothes soaked in sweat.

Shall I just rinse it off?

No, the sound of dripping water might wake Ash.

Shall we just walk around naked?

No, if Ash wakes up, he will show his face.

What about covering only the face with clothes?

… Doesn’t it look like a pervert with a very strange castle?

Thinking back and forth, she sighed and slowly put on her clothes.

From tomorrow, the life of covering your face will be over.

She tucked her wet clothes into her wet body and walked slowly toward the cabin.

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As soon as she entered the cabin, she unconsciously looked first at the bed Ash was sleeping on.

Ash was sleeping in a slightly different posture than before, with his face against the wall and his back bent.

She felt a laugh at the sight of a baby crouching down, but she held it in.

color- color-

A light breath…

breath…

“…ash?”

breathing was different.

His breathing is obviously shorter and faster than his normal sleeping breath.

Just like a person who is awake pretends to sleep…

“no way…”

She stared at the sleeping Ash.

With his back turned to himself and facing the wall, his face was red for some reason.

I felt my brain turn white.

“… no…”

“…”

ominous foreboding.

Terrible anticipation.

Endless regret and despair for one’s own carelessness.

I had just washed, and in an instant my back was wet with cold sweat.

“…”

“…,,”

Ash, who was lying down, twitched his cheek,

“That… I’m sorry.”

said.

“…I didn’t mean to see it. I… I didn’t know you were taking a bath… I’m so sorry…”

“…see… did you see…?”

“…”

Ash didn’t answer.

It seemed that he was unaware of the seriousness of the situation.

That’s right, because I never explained it.

He may at most think that I am ashamed of myself as a woman.

But this was not such a problem.

It was a far more serious matter than anything like my shame.

I said no, but…

Disappointment, anger, sadness, and concern erupted in an instant as if the nerves of the whole body would explode.

Only then, as if he sensed something unusual, Ash slowly turned around, got up from the bed, and bent his back.

“really sorry!”

“…saw?”

“…Swing…”

“How far?”

“…that…that is,”

“Tell me quickly!”

She groaned at Ash, who was hesitant.

The sound was too high and sharp to be a scream, and it sounded like a scream.

Ash shuddered and replied.

“That, that… breasts…”

“Other than that, face, did you see my face?”

“…that, yes… I saw…”

“Ha, uh… ah, ah…”

She staggered as if her back had loosened up.

She barely held on to the table behind her to support herself and spoke to Ash, who was hesitant with her head lowered.

“Raise your head…”

“… uh, that’s now-“

“I am not joking. Raise your head right now. porridge,”

before killing it.

I was about to say that.

She barely swallowed the words behind her.

No, maybe I couldn’t bear to speak to the end.

Ash’s eyes, which raised his head, lost their original color and were shining red.

“Ah ah!, ah… no! no!!!”

She screamed as she tore the cloth covering her face.

Ash sighed and sat down on the bed.

She let out a cry like a beast’s cry and slammed the floor like mad.

Ash looked at her with worried eyes.

Ash’s eyes were a muddy, ominous red, just like hers.

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