I Can’t Run Away From the Girl Who Saved Me

208 – A World Where Everyone is Unhappy (3)

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Obviously, I like Sylvia.

Sylvia likes me too.

I was not so stupid as not to know what a blessing it is in this confusing world to have someone I love who loves me.

Sylvia wanted me.

If it were normal, I would have wanted her too.

But, sadly, that wasn’t the case now.

I shook my head and stopped her, even though I was standing in front of my beautiful lover who was putting her trembling hands inside my shirt.

“Sylvia… no.”

“why.”

“Not now.”

“So why? Because it was a few hours ago that you kissed Alice? Because it was a few minutes ago that you kissed Pia?”

“… Sylvia. Ugh,”

Sylvia didn’t seem to care about my excuses.

Sylvia roughly took off the breastplate on her upper body and threw it to the side, then slowly brought her face between my legs and slowly moved her face forward.

Naturally, her lips were nestled between my legs.

Sylvia soon dug her well-shaped nose under my top and slowly pulled it up.

Her face slowly moves over my stomach.

Phew.

Sylvia let out a sigh she had been holding back.

Hot breath warms my bare abdomen.

Soon Sylvia put her head inside my shirt and rubbed her face against my skin.

Her soft cheek was pressed against my skinny stomach.

“Huh… ha,”

“Sylvia…”

“Be quiet. I’m smelling Ash.”

“Ugh, I haven’t even washed properly yet…”

“I see, the smell is so strong… I’m going crazy.”

Hot breath kept pouring down onto my stomach.

At the same time, her two hands quickly brushed my sides and entered my clothes.

Sylvia’s hands came up to my chest, trembling slightly.

Her rough fingers, soft cheeks, and moist lips were tickling my upper body as they roamed around.

Then, little by little, something hot and squishy started to tap my stomach.

I could tell without even looking that it was Sylvia’s tongue.

“Ugh,”

“… side,”

“Sylvia… no, it’s dirty.”

“Where is Ash’s dirty place?”

“We’ve been sweating for days, and we’ve been wandering around that smelly moat…”

“What are you talking about? The divine power has been purified, so why do you keep draining it like that?”

I didn’t know.

Did the divine power also have such a washing function?

Somehow, my hair didn’t itch even though I didn’t wash it properly during the trip.

“And even if it’s dirty, it doesn’t matter. I’ll lick all of Ash’s dirty places.”

“You’re… crazy.”

“Then let’s see how dirty it is here?”

Sylvia slowly lowered her face down, licking my abdomen with her tongue.

Soon, her chin, which had touched the hem of her pants, twitched slightly.

Sylvia let out a small snort near my pubic bone.

Then he slowly bit the end of the pants with his teeth and started pulling them down.

“Stop it, I said stop it.”

I tried to use both hands to stop her, but my thin arms and fingers were too weak to push or pull her head.

On the other hand, unlike me, Sylvia’s rough and strong fingers dug into my back and pulled down the waistband of my pants that were hanging on my buttocks in one go.

I flailed my feet, my lips quivering, unable to even scream, and Sylvia gently suppressed my trembling and spoke slowly.

“Hmm, Ash… what’s going on?”

“Ugh, I told you not to.”

Despite her stimulating skinship, my body wasn’t ready for s*x.

Sylvia placed one hand between my legs and slowly brought her face up to meet mine.

Her eyes shining in the darkness and her heavy breathing seemed much more ferocious and vicious than the monster bear that had been targeting me in the dark forest before.

I spoke to her pleadingly.

“Not today…”

“Try to convince her.”

“… that is.”

Of course there was a reason.

Today we lost our sister Alice and visited Laila’s grave.

I had to admit that Sister Maria, whom I finally met again, was not completely revived, but was just a separate being with Sister Maria’s memories.

Even though he defeated the Demon King, there were so many losses and separations that he simply did not feel like doing it. This is a psychological reason.

And, even though he had been freed from the magic, the physical reason was that the magic that had already permeated his body and that his body, which had been ruined by that magic, had not yet healed.

But before I could explain this fact, Sylvia opened her mouth as if to strike out at me.

“Alice is okay, Pia is okay, but I’m not okay?”

“I didn’t do anything like this with Alice or Pia.”

“Yeah, you kissed me instead.”

“Sylvia too… you can just kiss her.”

“Ha… Ash.”

Sylvia said, grabbing my limp penis.

“I’m Ash’s lover.”

“Ugh,”

“Are those women and I the same as our lovers?”

In contrast to her sharp words, she stimulated me with her gentle touch.

Although I still wouldn’t stand, I felt my eyes pop open every time I gently stimulated the tip of my v*gina with the inside joint of my finger.

I bit my lip and held back a groan before barely opening my mouth in a crawling voice.

“Sylvia… why are you doing that…”

“what…?”

“Sister Alice… is dead… Pia is also a spirit…”

“…”

Who would have ever imagined that Sister Alice would kiss me in the first place?

At least for me it was completely unexpected.

The fact that Sister Alice liked me was also a huge shock to me, something I had never heard before.

However, Sister Alice was already dead.

The fact that the last words he left before he died were that small confession was so fragile and poignant that I found myself constantly looking back on that moment.

But that was it.

I never fell in love with Sister Alice.

If Sister Alice had not died and had confessed to me, I would have politely declined her confession.

Because I love Sylvia.

In fact, it’s so obvious that it’s ridiculous to even bother explaining it.

My feelings towards Sister Alice were very different from my feelings towards Sylvia.

There was a huge difference in shape, form, and even size and intensity.

I love Sylvia.

It was my first time feeling this way, so I couldn’t help but be confused.

The fact that Sylvia was the only woman I wanted to embrace was an absolute proposition that would not change no matter what happened.

If even Alice was like this, then what about Pia? There was no need to even say anything.

The moment I kissed Pia, the only thought that came to my mind was, ‘I wonder if this is what it’ll feel like if my daughter kisses me later.’

If not my daughter, maybe someone like Leila?

That’s a bit weird.

What could possibly go wrong with Leila kissing me?

Anyway, kissing Pia only brought about that kind of awkward feeling, and it wasn’t as sweet or exciting as kissing Sylvia.

“…Why…I don’t know,”

I also felt a little annoyed.

I wonder if Sylvia is still worried that I will leave.

So many nights spent together, so many hours talking about love.

How much more reassurance do I have to give her before she understands that I love her?

Well, this is my first time in a relationship, so I might have done something wrong.

There may have been something about me that made Sylvia uneasy.

But, since I fell in love with her, I swear I have never wavered even once.

“Sylvia…”

I slowly raised the hand that had been pushing her shoulder to the side of her face.

There’s no way my trembling fingers could push her away just by raising my arm.

However, I was able to caress her cheek.

I placed my hand on her round cheek and slowly stroked her side hair.

Her sleek hair, which had been flowing downwards by gravity, slowly fell over her shoulders.

“Why are you anxious?”

“… what?”

“I love Sylvia. She was the first person I loved, and I will continue to love only Sylvia.”

“…”

I heard Sylvia take a shallow breath.

I slowly put my hand on the back of her head.

Her hair gets caught between my fingers, but it slides smoothly through my hands without the slightest resistance.

After a delightful sensation, like sprinkling sugar on the back of my hand, I stopped my hand and pulled her closer with a little force.

Her head, which had not moved at all until now, collapsed at the weak touch, and she rested her chin on my shoulder and let out a shallow breath.

Her breath tickles my ear.

Even this hot breath that I felt now was so lovely.

Seeing that her jealousy, which had only felt annoying until a moment ago, was suddenly cute, I guess I also had a serious case.

“Sylvia doesn’t trust me.”

“no…”

“You don’t believe me. You still think I’ll leave you. You think I’ll look at another woman.”

“…”

I said with a sigh.

“Sylvia… Did I do something wrong? If so, please tell me. I don’t want Sylvia to feel uneasy either.”

“Oh, no! Ash did nothing wrong!”

“Eww!”

Sylvia suddenly screamed and grabbed the pillar I was kneading at the same time.

I let out a squeak that sounded like a frog being stepped on.

“Ah, sorry.”

Sylvia was startled and took her hand away for a moment, but soon brought it back gently.

Sylvia put her hand under the pillar that was leaning limply to the side, gently stroked the area between her anus and her testicles, then slowly raised her hand and carefully massaged his testicles.

Then he started to press and stimulate the hanging pillar with the lower part of his palm.

The exquisitely pleasant pressure made me feel like the pain was slightly lessening.

“Ugh…”

“I’m sorry for hurting you. I’ll make it easier for you.”

“Sylvia…”

We’re having a serious conversation, but you’re going to keep holding onto my dick?

At least it seemed like he had no intention of letting me go.

A strange sound, a mixture of a sigh and a moan, came out of my mouth.

Judging by the loud sound of Sylvia swallowing, it seemed like she liked the sound of me like this too.

I continued, my voice trailing off at the strange noise.

“I only want to sleep with Sylvia… Don’t you get it?”

“Ash…”

Her eyes, which had been focused between my legs, rose up to my face once again.

I looked quietly into her eyes.

The gaze was still terrifyingly glaring, but it had lost much of its ferocity.

I closed my eyes.

It was a sign that Sylvia also understood.

Soon I could feel her lips covering mine.

I slowly opened my lips.

My lower lip, which had been completely engulfing my lips, moved down, brushing against her lower lip, repeatedly crossing that position and coming back together several times, and in the meantime, two soft tongues were visiting each other without rest.

Their tongues visited each other’s lips and teeth, leaving behind sticky, sweet saliva. Every time they touched each other, they flinched as if they were shocked by electricity, but they were not afraid to embrace each other.

The obscene, slurping sounds of our lips rubbing against each other and the hot breath bursting out between them began to fill the dark cabin.

Even though we’ve kissed each other several times already, it’s still ecstatic, it’s still thrilling.

Every time our breath touched each other’s throat,

Every time I suddenly feel that the sweet saliva that went down my throat is not mine.

I realize once again.

This is only Sylvia.

After all, the person I love, the person I want to kiss, is only her.

“Haa… haa…”

“Huh… um…”

The lips that had been interlocked for a long time finally separated.

Sylvia’s eyes were half-closed and drowsy.

I guess the same goes for me.

Perhaps because all her nerves had been taken away, Sylvia’s hands had suddenly stopped moving.

“Now… do you understand?”

“…”

“Sylvia. I belong to Sylvia. My body and my mind.”

“… flaw,”

“It’s just… I’m having a hard time today. Let’s call it a day. Okay?”

“Ugh, ugh…”

“…Sylvia?”

Suddenly, hot water dripped down my face.

Because of the warmth, I thought it was blood at first.

But there was no pungent smell of blood.

I slowly raised my hand and rubbed the liquid off my face.

The liquid was tears.

“… Sylvia… what’s wrong?”

Did you want to have s*x that much?

How much did you cry?

“I’m sorry… Ash…”

“… what.”

“Ash is right… It’s my fault for being anxious… How much Ash loves me… And that makes me so happy…”

Sylvia said so.

I know that too.

What a passionate person Sylvia is.

What a lonely person you are.

So I knew very well how much he depended on me.

I could not have been unaware that just as I depended on her, who was physically superior to me in every way, she also depended greatly on me emotionally.

Looking back, Sylvia tried to trap me by bending the blade into my wrist and sticking it in, and she also tried to completely kill my older sister Alice who was trying to reveal her identity to me.

No, it was only thanks to Sister Alice’s divine power that she survived, in fact Sylvia had killed Sister Alice several times during that time.

Just the fact that she, who had imprisoned herself in this forest for the sake of her mission to protect humanity as a warrior, so mercilessly murdered an innocent person, makes me unable to know how much she fears losing me.

How much you love me.

Some might say that such obsession and madness is not love.

But, what can I do when I, the one who is the target, find even that appearance of Sylvia so lovable?

I lifted my thumb and gently stroked her eyes, saying:

“… It’s okay if you know.”

“But… I can’t shake off this feeling of anxiety.”

“… what?”

Sylvia said in a trembling voice.

She took off her hand that was rubbing my v*gina and slowly pulled away from me. Not only her voice but her body was trembling.

“Sylvia… why are you like that…”

“…Ash, Ash, why does she love me…?”

“uh…?”

“While we were together, comforting each other… sympathizing with each other’s situations… that’s how you came to like me…”

“yes?”

Sylvia’s head dropped.

Is it the weight of my head, or the weight of the guilt swirling inside it?

Sylvia was lying face down on the floor, unable to raise her head, muttering in a mad, shaking voice.

“… I have to… say… now… the curse is gone… I have to say… I have to say…”

“Sylvia?”

“… Ash, you know…”

“…”

“The truth is… I did something very wrong to Ash…”

“… huh.”

“If I tell you… will you forgive me?”

Sylvia asked me for forgiveness with a pained expression.

I was taken aback by her sudden condition.

Her voice shook so wildly, and her pitch was so unsteady that it was almost unintelligible.

What on earth happened?

What on earth did I do to her that she is so afraid of me?

I slowly sat up and looked at Sylvia.

“Please… Ash… forgive me…”

Sylvia was shivering, her head on the floor, her hands clasped in front of her, like a beggar.

It felt unreal that she, who was probably the most powerful person in the world right now, was naked and miserable, begging for mercy.

I don’t know for sure, but I’m sure I did something terribly wrong.

The problem is that no matter how much I think about it, I can’t figure out what she did wrong to me.

I have always received help from Sylvia.

I have always been saved by her hands and arms.

No matter how hard I try to remember, I can’t think of any other reason besides the fact that you hurt me during training.

It was a training session that I suggested, and I had a vague feeling that it was right to be somewhat strict with training, so I don’t think it would be too much…

“…”

If that’s the case, then it must mean that I was deceived by Sylvia in some way.

A secret that only she knows, without me knowing.

“… haha,”

I found myself laughing in vain.

If that’s the case, there wouldn’t be any problem if I just kept it to myself.

There are no witnesses or friends between us.

Even if she’s cheating on me, I’ll never know if she doesn’t tell me.

Yet Sylvia asked me for forgiveness.

Even though he was trembling with fear like that.

Her heroic honesty and unheroic vulnerability made her seem even more lovable.

“Okay. I forgive you. Whatever it was.”

“… If I say it so easily, you might regret it.”

“I don’t know, I can’t live without Sylvia anyway. Even if Sylvia was actually the Demon King’s subordinate, I’ll forgive you, so tell me.”

“Ash…”

That’s a lie.

No matter what, it would be difficult to forgive the Demon King’s subordinate.

The Demon King is the one who killed my parents, my sister Layla, my sister Maria, and my sister Alice.

But on the other hand, it meant that Sylvia, who defeated the Demon King, could be forgiven no matter how big a mistake one made.

I gently took hold of Sylvia’s trembling hand.

“Why did you hide it like that and suffer alone…”

“…”

“Tell me. It’s okay.”

Sylvia opened her mouth slowly.

“I actually knew…”

“huh…?”

“That day… people were coming.”

“What are you talking about?”

“The day we… went to pick up corpses.”

“On that day…”

I felt my jaw drop.

“… ah,”

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