chapter 295
I am in jail now.
Well, at this point, I’m not used to it anymore, so it’s to the point where it’s more friendly here.
“Olivia Blue. Where is the table that was here?”
“… … This is not your living room. Your Highness the King of Darkness.”
“You’re being strict.”
“You are so comfortable. Could you please make me realize that I have sinned?”
“I am not at fault.”
It was just an unfortunate accident.
Wasn’t it a suspicious enough accident? I’m sorry
“I heard that Marie-sama was able to explain it sufficiently.”
“… … .”
“Don’t believe it, don’t listen to it. Can you really say that it wasn’t your fault that you came to us and messed with us?”
“Be careful when you say that you are evil.”
“Then, His Highness the King of Darkness, please be careful with your words and actions as usual.”
don’t say a word
Furthermore, it is impossible to play games with my position.
If this guy makes a mistake, he’ll tell Arrieta right away… … .
“Well, okay. I’m going to end the joke here. Let’s get to the point.”
“It’s no use trying to pass it off as if it was a joke. I will report this rudeness to the saintess.”
“… … I will slowly reflect on my mistakes later.”
“I want to ask for reflection right now, but since the issue is an issue, I’ll just let it go.”
This naive knight bastard lacks respect for me.
Still, I am the king, but the treatment does not change except for the way I speak.
Of course, in front of external problems, they have their own courtesy.
He also has a feeling that his head is too stiff because he used to be a member of the royal family.
Later on, I will definitely be demoted because I made a mistake in my social life. If you think about it that way, you’re a pitiful guy.
“It is our saintess who is pitiful.”
“… … .”
“Even the sky is indifferent. All of a sudden, I got caught by such a prostitute… … .”
This doesn’t work. You can never beat him on this topic.
I’ll just have to get to the point.
“What do you think of this matter?”
“It is an unprecedented problem. It is a problem that can shake the church if it is wrong.”
It’s about Marie.
It’s because the situation turned out to be funny, but in fact, this issue is not something to be laughed off.
“Rather than that, did His Highness the King of Darkness not know?”
“I couldn’t have imagined it.”
That’s right, as long as Marie showed me how to use her holy power in front of the religious people, it didn’t matter anymore that I acted in small ways.
“It wasn’t trivial. Didn’t you think of bringing it up as an international issue without hesitation?”
“It was just a bluff.”
“Is it really so… … .”
It’s unfortunate.
Because I don’t think there will ever be a relationship of trust with this guy.
If you see me doubting me like that, it’s just that I don’t like it.
“The shamelessness of not thinking it’s a problem of your own behavior is frightening now.”
“You feel bad.”
I didn’t even say it out of my mouth from a while ago, but I understand it well on my own and immediately refute it.
Do you have the ability to read minds?
No, it was time to admit it.
“Am I that easy to read?”
“What… … . than you think.”
There is such a thing.
If you look into the abyss, the abyss also looks into you.
In return for being able to see more than others through [Contemplation], it must have made it easier for others to recognize me.
It’s unfortunate. If it’s a price for strength, what should I accept?
Great power comes at a great price.
I’m just following the price for my power, so there’s no need to blame myself.
“Fortunately, unlike you, Marie-sama is cooperative with the investigation, so we should be able to find out right away.”
“I am also cooperative.”
“Victims and perpetrators have different values of cooperation.”
Olivia grabs her head and sighs.
I guess I’m tired.
It is clear that the working environment of the church is not good.
“Anyway, we also have some expectations… … After all, listening to yourself is the most accurate. I will let you know as soon as the investigation is over, so please reflect here for a day or so.”
“Well, there is nothing difficult. Staying here is convenient.”
The heating and cooling works well too.
Even if he committed a sin, is it because he is at the level of a student? I don’t really know because I haven’t been to a real prison.
“It shouldn’t be comfortable, but… … . Well, that’s it. I’m tired of arguing now.”
Olivia shook her head and left the room as if she couldn’t talk.
He’s still a tough guy.
“Well then… … .”
All that remains is to wait.
* * *
3 hours of lying in bed and staring blankly at the ceiling pattern.
The time has come to the point where twilight sets and darkness descends.
“If you come, why don’t you stay like that and have a conversation? Eleanor.”
I muttered like that.
“… … After all, the master cannot lie. How did you find out I was here?”
“Because I am your teacher.”
Eleanor’s answer came from the air.
Of course, I didn’t really notice it for such absurd reasons.
Not much was taught in the first place. If I were to choose a real teacher, wouldn’t it be Justitia’s sister?
But well, it is clear that they have been together for a long time.
For me, life in this world is the real thing without any fuss.
I’ve been with this guy for more than half of that time.
To be honest, I just thought that Eleanor would come soon.
I thought that Eleanor would definitely want to talk to me.
That’s why I was repeating the same words as before about every 30 minutes.
It’s out of shape, so I won’t explain it.
“Um, that’s right. What should I say? After all, an apology should come first, right?”
“What apple?”
“The one who knocked down the master the other day… … .”
“I saw it.”
“Yeah?”
“I saw you. So there is no need to apologize for that.”
“Yeah, that’s right.”
next time i win
I won’t be as careless as I was then.
For the sake of my face, I will beat you down with all my might.
“There are other things besides that. You should apologize.”
If Eleanor has anything to apologize to me, it’s only one.
“I’m sorry for worrying you.”
“Yeah, that’s fine if you know.”
It’s just an apology for leaving without a word and rotting me inside.
I don’t need anything else.
Eleanor has nothing to apologize for.
So let’s talk now.
“Are you still worried?”
“… … Yeah.”
“I knew it.”
Eleanor smiled bitterly.
A subdued atmosphere that is difficult to imagine in the past.
It’s probably impossible to get that atmosphere back to how it was before.
So, what I can do is not to reverse it, but to turn it in a different direction.
“I don’t know either.”
“What?”
“Is it okay for me to be with the master and others?”
“You still think you don’t deserve it?”
“To tell you the truth… … . Yes. Even after hearing so many things, I still don’t feel confident.”
Unlike usual, Eleanor squatted on the opposite side of the bed, far from the bed I was lying on.
I feel sorry for that distance.
“You know, but… … . I’m all human trash.”
“… … I didn’t want to know.”
“Did I still look like a great person?”
“Well… … Yes. After all, the teacher is a great person for me.”
“Where?”
“Even though it may be called trash, it was the path I chose for everyone.”
The confident eyes that always looked straight ahead now turned to the floor.
I know what she’s thinking. Even though you’re back like this now, you probably feel that you haven’t changed from a while ago.
That’s natural. No wonder.
Because there is something clearly visible.
[KP The one who walks alone]
Eleanor von Chrysos
And there are things you can’t see.
“When I decided to go alone. Ellie is gone.”
Yeah, I knew it.
Didn’t Ellie say that in the first place?
that he will disappear soon You told me so and it just happened.
However, there was a problem in the process, and Eleanor became like this.
“And even after deciding to come back, Ellie hasn’t come back. They tried to stop me, they tried to help me, but I shook off the hand that was reaching out towards me.”
“So, do you think Ellie might have fallen for you?”
“Wouldn’t it be?”
“You could have grown up.”
“No, I’m still very weak. Too weak, unable to do anything on my own, I came back like a lost child.”
“It sounds like if you were strong, you wouldn’t have come back.”
“… … .”
Eleanor did not answer.
It must be a straight line. It is clear that she still finds it difficult to be with us.
At this point, you can guess how Justitia persuaded her. It must have touched Eleanor’s guilt, which was clogged up.
that’s how you cursed
Bring her in first, and then try to take care of her somehow.
“Come to think of it, where is Justitia?”
“I was taken into riots in front of the leading room, saying I would cut off my teacher’s penis. Perhaps he will come out later than his master?”
“… … What is that?”
Unbeknownst to me, my children were in unprecedented danger.
No, more than that, the opportunity that brought about the danger was predictable and gave me goosebumps.
“It’s like a damned beast of prey. You betrayed me again.”
“Lucia will be sad when she hears it. But if you are a lover, you should take care of it.”
“Yes.”
Lucia will be sad when she hears it. And this guy in front of me too.
Unfortunately, I am aiming for the pinnacle of human trash, so I can’t leave Eleanor alone like that.
“Eleanor.”
If Justitia put the curse of guilt on Eleanor, I also put the curse on top of it.
Yes, she needs to know.
“I have amnesia. No, it is precisely a created personality.”
“Yeah… … ?”
Eleanor tilts her head. But it doesn’t matter.
If she is surprisingly bright, she will understand the meaning of what I am saying.
Perhaps it will be her alone with whom I will confide this secret.
It’s a problem that has already been solved, and it’s a problem that will only cause you to worry about it.
Of course, the current Eleanor should be worried. I’ll make you worry so much that I won’t let you leave.
“Do you remember the days in the Federation?”
“Hey, remember… … .”
“At that time I had forgotten what I knew. To be precise, I had forgotten even what I had forgotten. Then, all of a sudden, I noticed it, and it collapsed.”
When I can’t remember the name
In the middle of the day, I thought I had everything taken away. I thought I was fooled.
No, actually, I already guessed at the time. That my existence is a lie.
That’s how I was afraid that I might not be an existence piled up with lies.
The reason I was able to endure was because Eleanor gave me meaning, because she put her symbol on my wrist.
“The current me is the same as if you created it.”
“then… … !”
“So, Eleanor. Be mindful.”
put a curse on
Her life, her love affair, her sins, everything she has done and will do.
“If you disappear, I will die.”
The country is bound by existence.
“It doesn’t matter how you were in the past. At that time, you saved me and I was saved by him.”
wake up in bed
Just like the last time we bumped into each other in an alleyway, I stride closer to Eleanor, who is crouching down.
I didn’t want to see her staring at the floor. So I raised my head.
“Your past no longer matters. What you did is important.”
“… … .”
“Or what? Since you were wrong in the past, is it also wrong for me to establish human beings?”
“Nope.”
“Because you are a sinner, do I, who was able to establish myself as a sinner, become a disgusting and filthy being?”
“It can’t be.”
“then? What kind of person is the current me you created, your ‘teacher’?”
“… … .”
Blue eyes that seem to contain the sea sway like calm waves.
From the sea, salty water begins to drip.
“You may have done something wrong. But there were definitely things you did well and people you saved. Please don’t deny that.”
Jinsun was like that.
The result of denying the good deeds you have done while looking only at your own sins.
He did not correct his mistake until the last moment.
I’m sure Eleanor would be the same. You may not be able to forgive yourself.
If so, you should allow her to look at herself before it is too late.
Because that mistake wouldn’t be enough to deny her everything.
Are you going to pay the penalty?
If you want to do that, then you can. But she must understand.
If there is a price to be paid, there is also a grace she must return.
“I don’t know where you will go, but I will be with you on the road you made. So, Eleanor.”
“Yeah… … .”
“Don’t head too far.”
If you go to hell, I will go there too.
If you love me, respect me, and think I’m great.
I just want you to choose the right path to move on.
That it’s the price you have to pay, that it’s the way of atonement.
“Because there won’t be only one road”
“… … Yes, Master.”
“Then, I’ll take care of you, guide. I will trust you to make the right choice.”
On top of the curse of guilt, the curse of responsibility.
so cover her up
[KP Guide of lonely souls]
Eleanor von Chrysos
“Yeah.”
Eleanor recoils.
And just like that, I pull the hem of my clothes and bend down.
He gave her a reason to live. So, this kind of foolishness can be accepted.
He was comforting Eleanor, who had been shaking and crying for a while.
And.
yes and again
“Master, I love you.”
Eleanor raises her head.
Close your eyes and get closer little by little.
I didn’t avoid or reject it.
“So I will live, even for my master.”
The second kiss that was done like that.
It probably took a little longer than before.