I Became the Dark Wizard Who Rules Over the Heroines

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A flawless female knight, a symbol of justice.

Armidion Eurisia was considered to be such a being. She thought of herself that way too.

He is the embodiment of justice who always acts righteously without any doubt and does not commit even the slightest crime.

But in her heart, a faint doubt was burning.

“I couldn’t help it…!”

Everything is forgotten. The feeling that remained in her heart was that ‘she must justify herself at all costs.’

“For me, I had no choice…!”

Her past haunts her.

It was a common occurrence. It was a situation that every knight on the battlefield experienced at least once.

The village occupied by the enemy was captured. Black magic had spread throughout the village.

Blood overflowed from the altar where the living sacrifice was made, and the rotten odor of the corpse overflowed throughout the village. It was that kind of space.

“Ah…”

Her command was to destroy all evil living there.

Warlocks are good at deceiving the eyes of others. Even small children and seemingly harmless animals must be killed.

Because we didn’t know what kind of disguise the evil, malicious, and huge warlock would disguise himself as to escape the village.

“Why…”

“Stop it!!!”

“Did you kill him?”

The voice of a pure child filled her head.

“It was an order!”

A knight has no choice but to follow his superior’s orders.

Even if she is the princess, Yurishia, that doesn’t change. Once on the battlefield, what was more important than the princess’s status was the soldier’s attitude of obeying his superior’s orders.

She had no choice.

“…That’s not true.”

“…”

Yurishia was speechless. She knew

“You killed yourself, right?”

It was Yurishia who drew the sword.

If she really had the will to save that child, she would have tried to protect it somehow.

Yurishia agreed. She thought it was the right order, a reasonable decision, and an honorable killing.

It was Yurishia herself who moved the sword and struck the boy’s neck.

“Ah…”

I couldn’t control my emotions. Tears flowed from her body.

The person she killed was not just a boy. He killed countless evildoers and killed countless people involved in black magic.

All of those people, Yurishia killed of her own will.

“I won’t make excuses… I won’t.”

But that couldn’t be said to be such a big mistake for the driver.

From ordinary soldiers to knights treated as heroes. There was blood on everyone’s hands.

“But… I have never shed meaningless blood. I have never sacrificed another for my own selfish gain, nor have I harmed another for personal glory.”

If Yurishia had been a bit more martial, she would have laughed off hallucinations like this with a sneer.

It was not her fault alone, nor was it a sin she had to bear alone. Sarah with her purpose

Her life was honorable. Her sword was always swung for others.

“Really?”

“It’s natural!”

Yuri Sia finally came to her senses and held her sword tightly.

It was now during the battle. All of this was a hallucination. The boy died.

It was meaningless for her to talk to him now. The voice whispering and the faint shape before my eyes must have all been hallucinations.

‘Such a number…’

Although he warned me in advance that he would use cowardly tactics, I did not expect that he would be the type of person who would use such a method.

I need to focus my mind again and shake off the hallucinations. If he were to display hallucinations of this magnitude, he wouldn’t be fine, but if the knight who fought with him was pushed back, the saint would also fall.

“How many times do you think you repented?”

It’s already over. In her her, this work is finished work.

Even if her dead teeth return and resent her, the princess will not be shaken. At least that’s what Yurishia believed.

“It was for everyone else.”

Yurishia’s eyes were burning red. Her vision fades, the black smoke blocking her eyes slowly blurs.

I felt like I could break this illusion if I just gave it a little more strength.

“Really?”

But when she heard the boy’s cold voice, she knew she had been mistaken.

Yuri Sia has deceived herself time and time again.

Her actions were disguised as ‘something that could not be helped due to orders.’

The person who prepared this trap couldn’t have been unaware of her weakness.

“Then, what about me?”

The moment she heard the boy’s words, Yurishia’s world collapsed.

To Eurishia, the empire is the world. Those outside the empire are simply those who were ‘sadly born outside the empire’.

The people for whom the princess of the empire was responsible were not just the subjects of the empire.

It is the world. The world, an absolute line, hangs on her shoulders.

“aaa!!!”

So, Yurishia couldn’t bear to say, ‘It wasn’t my responsibility.’ She couldn’t get the words out, ‘That’s your problem.’

It was all her responsibility. Moreover, the village where the boy died was the territory of the empire, having only once been taken over by an enemy country.

Considering the boy’s age, it is difficult to believe that he had a choice.

Just because she was born, she found that the village where she was born and raised was engulfed in evil. It would not have been easy to reject black magic there or to make a different choice.

Maybe she was a child who had nothing to do with black magic.

And Eurishia killed the boy.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry…”

It was all meaningless.

Just as she thought, the boy was already dead.

All that remains here is Wade, who borrowed the voice of a boy. It’s just a hallucination from him.

No matter how desperately Yurishia apologizes, the apology does not reach the boy.

“Ugh, ah, ahhh!!!”

Sadness rushes in.

The princess knew right away. This was the boy’s sadness. It was the boy’s pain.

It was the pain of a child who lost her family in a burning village. In a situation where everything was collapsing, she was the despair of someone who realized that she could not survive.

Confidence is broken.

The confidence that her actions are good and that she can embody ‘goodness’ without a shadow of doubt is shattered.

It hurts. It’s painful.

“Ugh…”

I knew it. How can I be freed from this pain, what method can I use to escape this feeling of guilt?

Just admit it.

You just have to accept the fact that you cannot be good unconditionally. All we have to do is accept the reality that there was ‘some necessary evil’ in her actions.

She said there were countless people worse than her. There were countless people who made greater sacrifices than she did without batting an eyelid.

All you have to do is excuse Yurishia by saying that she is a good person ‘a little more than those people’ and that her actions were right actions ‘a little more than those people’.

But that was an act of giving up on the princess herself.

The moment she admits that there is a flaw in her beliefs, the moment she accepts that there is a loophole in her line, Yurishia must doubt everything she has ever done.

She is not limited to the boy’s death. The number of people she killed was countless.

She has to accept that all that killing may have been wrong.

She must accept the reality that she cannot be the absolute iron man who will take charge of the empire and bring justice to this land.

“Ha…”

My body relaxes. I couldn’t do anything.

The boy trudged forward and held a knife to her neck.

A sword that is too big, noble, and beautiful to belong to a boy.

The sword she used when she killed the boy, which still has the boy’s blood on it.

“…That’s it.”

Yurishia eventually admitted that she had not overcome.

It was her misjudgment to think that Wade was just a ‘strong warlock’.

She knew her sins intimately, and she could not have been just an ordinary student.

For this moment, when she was most off-guard, she would have been preparing to strike with her deadliest blade.

The princess could not resist.

What she believed in was shattered. Yurishia couldn’t even keep in her mind that her life ‘must be maintained.’

It is meaningless. Just as she regarded everything other than ‘good’ as meaningless.

Eurishia could do nothing until the boy’s sword slit her throat.

And then, her black fog cleared.

“The one standing is Wade! It looks like the winner has been decided!”

“Huh?”

The princess opened her eyes.

The illusion, the boy with the sword, and the endless pain had all disappeared.

“I’m sorry. Was it a bit excessive?”

Wade smiled casually and held out his hand to her.

Without saying anything, the princess looked at his hands.

“…”

If we wanted to fight, we could fight. Even though her mind was shattered, her body was still intact.

But Yuri Sia slowly stretched out her hand and took his hand.

The hand of a black magician who knows all about her life and sins, and who doubts whether she is even human.