chapter 221
221 – 222. That Was My ‘Heart’.
Inside the black room.
A space where the concept of front, back, left, right, front and back is completely lost.
An unpleasant feeling of floating, as if you were just floating on the sea.
‘This is…’
Where is it?
The memories that had been cut off were reconnected.
“Obviously… “
A doppelganger who looks like me left the room.
Several hours later, a strange sound was heard outside.
That’s right, at one point, a bright light suddenly came into the room──and this was where I opened my eyes.
‘…Again…?’
Anxiety and fear creeping up.
Could it be that I’ve been kidnapped again, and this time I have to endure this space alone, without Chrono?
As I was conjuring up all kinds of bad scenarios in my head, I saw a white light coming towards me in the distance.
“…”
“…You.”
A young woman with short white hair.
One day, she was kidnapped by gangsters and lost her mind.
The moment she found herself working as a prostitute in the red light district, she helped herself
And
“I don’t understand.”
“…What do you mean?”
Probably the culprit who imprisoned him here.
The girl called Leah comes towards me and asks.
“Why don’t you do it?”
“…”
“I’m asking why we didn’t overlap our bodies.”
“…Is that wrong?”
Did this happen because we simply did not overlap our bodies?
At this question, the young woman folded her arms and looked down at herself.
“It was originally a mistake. Disobeying Yeo’s command is a ‘sin’ that cannot be washed away by anything.”
“However, since her condition is not favorable, we cannot definitively say it is a’sin’… “
“…I just don’t understand.”
Why on earth did you resist so much?
“You owe her something. She can’t deny that.”
“But she doesn’t want much from you.”
“Whether it’s money or fame, what you humans can give me, even if you give it to me, do you have the ability to satisfy her?”
“However, for the sake of Yeo’s owner, Yeo decided to use the debt she had.”
I was destined to end up in the red light district anyway.
If Yeo intervened and brought her life back to its original state, there should be a ‘feeling of gratitude’ for it.
“I have saved a year from being eaten like a dog by unknown males. So, wouldn’t it be possible to provide some entertainment for the female owner?”
“…”
I couldn’t say anything.
It is true that you owe money.
But expressing it this way…
‘…It’s not something a human would want to do.’
Just like that.
The girl in front of me was not human.
Therefore, the perspective also deviates from human common sense.
Words that cannot be said humanly.
That’s why I feel resistance and antipathy, but…
“Tell me. Did she expect that much from you?”
“…”
Breaking away from ‘common sense’
Moving away from ‘morality’
When judged as a ‘give-and-take calculation’.
“At first, she also understood. She would be very embarrassed if she suddenly asked me to become the entertainment of a man I don’t know. She also understands that feeling.”
“A body like this was a body that conceived a child in the past.”
“I know how painful it is to be pregnant with an unwanted child.”
“That’s why I gave you time.”
A long time.
So much time.
I turned it back, turned it, kept turning it and waited.
“I’ve been waiting for you to meet your master and understand, acknowledge, and accept yourself.”
If you count the time alone, it could be almost two months.
For a time that is never short.
“It’s just one time.”
“Did you expect so much from leisure?”
I didn’t do it.
But that…
“There may be a problem with the woman’s owner. He has a strange and stubborn side.”
“That’s why Yeo was also confused. But she understood. Because that’s her owner.”
“But—even if that were the case, you wouldn’t understand.”
The situation is such that we are in debt to no end.
In that state, all I wanted was one entertainment.
“The past does not remain.”
“If you want to erase your memories, you can erase them.”
“Nevertheless, what was the problem?”
Calm tone of voice.
However, what is hidden inside is dizzying confusion and terrible frustration.
“Tell me…What on earth was the problem!”
“…”
I scream.
Theia quietly placed her hand on her chest.
‘…I am.’
Okay. It’s exactly what Leah said.
I am in debt. I owe a debt that cannot be easily repaid.
And it may not be difficult to sacrifice one’s body to repay that debt.
At the very least, spending a night with a nice, younger man could have been a better option than being in a glass room with strangers.
But──that is only the answer that appears through ‘calculation’.
“Wasn’t it hard for you too?”
“I could see your fatigue in a world that keeps repeating itself.”
“Chrono, the woman’s owner tried to soothe this by overlapping with other women, but you couldn’t do that.”
“You must have been exhausted. It must have been difficult.”
“But why did you hold on until the end?”
It was difficult.
Who would welcome a repetitive life?
A regression that will never end.
Would it really be easy to just trust and wait for a boy I happened to meet?
No, that’s not true.
Of course, it may be less than if you try to go out yourself.
But does that mean that the viewer can be infinitely comfortable?
Suppress the anxiety that comes up from time to time
One day, when the only person I returned with did not call, I stayed up all night looking for them for days and days.
The thought of wanting to open it up and end it must have crossed my mind dozens or hundreds of times.
But
“…Because.”
I didn’t do it.
I couldn’t do it.
I tried to hold on somehow.
That’s right
“Because I’m still ‘in love’.”
“…I hope the answer is not ‘heart’.”
“I’m sorry, but I did it because of my ‘heart.'”
“…”
It is unrealistic and logical.
Although he is emotional and impulsive, there are also times when he is honest and upright.
“If you ask me if I wasn’t shaken… I was shaken. I think I was probably shaken a lot.”
Because I’m lonely
Because it’s hard
Because you are the only person I can rely on
And…Just because I want to be loved as a woman
I was shaken.
Very. I have been shaken for many moments.
But what is clearly visible at such moments is.
“Chrono, that kid is really amazing.”
“The answer is right in front of your eyes, but you resist until the end.”
“…So, I guess that’s probably why.”
Theia says.
I was shaken. Even though it was difficult.
I just wanted to approach the ‘correct answer’ that was visible in front of me.
But the reason I was able to endure it nevertheless
“Chrono, if that child can endure. I will try to endure as well.”
“I guess I made that promise.”
I was hoping to attack him instead.
Although it was treacherous, I couldn’t do anything like denying my relationship with my husband and moving on first.
So, she also had the intention of making an excuse that she couldn’t help it if he attacked her.
However, Chrono endured until the end.
She tried to protect herself and not cause harm to herself.
Then I had to endure it too. It was right for me to endure as much as the other person endured.
“…Are you saying that the owner’s frustrating temperament has made you frustrated as well?”
It’s really frustrating.
Even just nonsense nonsense.
“Do you know what the master did while you were so disciplined?”
“Hestia, after violating my daughter’s child, she also embraced her past relationships and once again held a new goddess in her arms.”
“When you were alone with your heart, that bastard did not know me and only followed his own pleasure!”
“Despite that, he is saying things like ‘fidelity’ and ‘chastity’… Is that what he is saying?”
Leah’s cry.
To this, Theia answers.
“Is that…Any problem…?”
“What… ?”
It was an unexpected answer.
“Chrono is not my husband?”
“…”
That. But.
Feels like something is idling.
In the end, Leah felt like she was losing her mind, feeling as if she had missed something greatly.
‘I don’t know.’
What it means to be human.
There is no room for understanding, past or present.
Inefficient and irrational, they are just an arrogant race of beasts who try to pretend to be gods.
Therefore, even though he acts like a ‘god’, he acts further away from a ‘god’ than anyone else.
“…The problem of women is big.”
I finally realized it.
I have some understanding of the existence of humans, no, no.
“It should have been like this from the beginning.”
“Wha… ?!”
‘I knew’ about humans.
So the action to take was also simple.
“If the ‘heart’ is the problem, it would be enough to make it so that we can’t care about the ‘heart’.”
Act based on what you know.
Humans are foolish and ignorant animals.
Therefore, the longer you wait, the more things turn in the opposite direction.
So
“Squitte. Take away that b*tch’s time.”
“Ah…Ahhh…!!!”
I took out the scythe.
The ‘time’ of the ‘livestock’ was cut off right in front of my eyes.
Just as the tip of the scythe was about to touch the livestock.
─Let’s go!
“Hmm… ?”
“Ah…?”
A dagger suddenly protrudes into an empty space.
I quickly twisted the scythe and struck down the dagger, but who…?
─Squeak…Squeak…!
“…What..”
A small gap.
The two hands that came between them gradually began to widen the gap.
Cracked and torn. It breaks and breaks.
At some point, the ‘reality’ beyond is visible before your eyes.
“Theia is out.”
“…Thank you Chrono.”
Chrono enters the gap of time.
Chrono immediately sends Theia ‘outside’ and says.
[Advent]
“[Kronos]”
“…!!!”
That is.
He was no longer an ‘apostle’.