I Became an Extra Who Died Instead of the Main Character

3 – A Small Wish

“The Academy…”

After the uncomfortable meeting with the Count, I returned to my room.

“I’ve never been there before in my last life.”

In my previous life, I had never been to an academy.

It wasn’t that he didn’t have magical talents.

It’s a little hard to say with my own mouth, but I’m the type of person who handles my magic, fire magic, well among kids my age.

Of course, now that I have awakened my inherent magic, I have the inherent magic of ‘absorption’ instead of the fire magic I used to use.

That didn’t mean I didn’t have money.

Although not comparable to dukes or marquesses, the Kindred family was recognized as a prestigious family as it had existed since the beginning of the empire.

The reason I couldn’t even step on the academy gate in my previous life was simple.

Because my father refused to let me into the academy.

Perhaps he had thoughts of not knowing what I was going to do when I went to the academy, but more than that, it was probably because I was worried about the prestige of Count Kindred’s family.

What… Are they both similar?

Anyway.

“That was true… This time the admissions date was set.”

To say it’s a great development, the only thing that’s changed from the past is that my engagement to Adele remains the same.

No, is it because of that?

Because it’s a very big deal for the family that the engagement with the Ristonia family broke off.

I think it’s understandable that the academy didn’t let me go even though the admission notice came in the past.

And now that I’m here, I suddenly have a thought.

“Why didn’t I get a notice of breakup?”

The notice of admission that shouldn’t have come was delivered, so the notice of breakup that should have come didn’t.

With the events starting to turn completely against me, I wondered if I had really been through them.

To be honest, I wonder if it was all a dream.

The count who yelled at me for not being a son.

My mother looked at me coldly by my father’s side.

Her sister, Lee Anna, looked at me like a criminal whenever she ran into me.

The house of Count Kindred, where I always heard gossip whenever I passed by.

And… To Adele, my ex-fiancee, who sent me a notice of breakup the day after I absorbed the bottle with my own magic.

I wonder if all those people and all those events were simply a dream?

“······Even if it’s a dream, nothing will change.”

I thought about it hard, but soon came to the conclusion that it didn’t matter.

If all the things I went through were just dreams, would there be any difference now?

I’ve already absorbed Adele’s illness, and I’m slowly dying from her illness, just like I died in my previous life.

Whether I’ve been through that in the past or not, the way other people look at me won’t change.

What is the point of worrying like this?

“Nothing would change.”

So this time… Wouldn’t it be okay to try this once?

It won’t change much if an extra like me enters the academy.

Isn’t it okay to make ‘real friends’ once in a while, play with ‘real friends’ once in a while, and immerse yourself in something once in a while?

Like that… If you live a normal life like everyone else, wouldn’t you have at least one memory that you can happily relive before you die?

“I hope so.”

For others, a very ordinary daily life was what I desperately wanted more than anything else.

It was my small wish, a simple wish.

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As time passed, the day of the academy entrance ceremony arrived.

Until now, nothing special happened.

“Brother? Are you inside?”

My sister, Rianna, who had never visited her in her previous life, visited a few times, but she pretended she wasn’t inside each time, so nothing special happened.

I wondered if I would have to pretend not to be there, but whenever I met her in the past, I heard her bitter voice as if her heart was being ripped open, so I had no intention of meeting her.

It’s not that she has any ill feelings towards Lee Anna, but it would be better if she didn’t have such an asshole brother.

In the past, he despised me very much and seemed to be appalled by the mere presence in his family.

I thought it would be a good thing for Rianna to leave the house quickly without blocking her bright future.

Aside from Rihanna’s visits, there were several times when the butler came to deliver meals to me.

However, I did not bother to eat and sent it back, as I had already adapted to the food prepared by Stella rather than the food of the chef at the countess’s residence.

“The chef will be sad, youngster.”

“Since when did you take care of me like that? I’m fine, so tell them to take care of other users.”

“······Yes. I understand.”

When I tried to return the food, the butler tried to convince me that the chef would be sad, but he couldn’t help it.

He must have never sent me food in the past because the chef didn’t like the way he prepared for me, so why did the situation change again?

Rather than feeling good about the sudden interest and favor, it was rather uncomfortable.

I don’t know if it’s because I’ve never received such friendly gazes and actions before, but I felt infinitely uncomfortable.

It would be more comfortable to treat them indifferently and laugh at them like they did in the past.

“Brother? Time to go now.”

“Okay, I’ll be leaving soon.”

It seems that the time has come to depart for the academy.

When I opened the door and walked out of the room, Stella was standing there as usual.

“I wanted to go too… But it’s a pity.”

“It can’t be helped. It’s the academy’s policy not to take servants.”

Stella also wanted to follow me to the academy, but it was impossible because the academy is a dormitory system and the rule is not to allow employees in.

Stella knew that fact, and I knew it, so the only thing I could do was to comfort Stella, who felt sorry for not being able to keep up.

“Can’t you just jump around without me?”

“I’m not even a kid, I’m old enough to do everything by myself.”

“Then I’m glad.”

Looking at him talking in a playful way, he seems to have eased his mind to some extent.

When I first heard that I couldn’t take the servants, I got angry and didn’t talk to me all day.

Well, after a day, it returned as usual like a ghost.

“Brother?”

“Meet the lady.”

“Riana?”

Perhaps it’s because we’ve been talking for too long, the second most uncomfortable person in our Count’s residence has come.

By the way, the first person I felt uncomfortable with was the Count.

“You were in the room… I thought you weren’t in the room because you couldn’t find it.”

“······Did you come? I guess I didn’t know because I was sleeping.”

It hurts my conscience a little to lie, but I can’t say that I pretended not to be on purpose because it was uncomfortable to see you.

“Really…? It’s fortunate. I thought you were avoiding me on purpose.”

“···”

My conscience hurt once more.

How many times do you lie, this.

“I’m glad I didn’t deliberately avoid it… I had something I wanted to ask you.”

“Is there something you want to ask?”

“Yes.”

I thought it was fortunate that the reason I found myself was sounder than I thought, but my head ached at the present, which was different from the past.

What do you want to ask?

Since Rianna used to hate being in the same room as me without even talking to me, I couldn’t even guess what question she was going to ask.

And the question that finally came out of Rianna’s mouth was a simpler question than I thought.

“Brother… Are you not feeling well or anything like that?”

“How are you? I’m fine, but…”

“Really? I’m glad…”

When I heard that I was fine, Rianna was very relieved.

After her regression, why did people suddenly ask me about my physical condition?

The other day, the Count suddenly asked me how I was feeling these days, and this time the younger sister I had a conversation with was worried about my condition.

Of course, I didn’t tell the Count or Rianna that I was going to die.

I wouldn’t change anything just by talking about it, and I didn’t really want them to throw unnecessary sympathetic glances at me.

‘I don’t think I’ll sympathize, but…’

Wouldn’t it be fortunate if you didn’t like it because you died well?

“······Brother is going to the academy today?”

“Yes.”

“······Have a good trip.”

“Thanks, Rianna.”

She felt that something was over, but she didn’t care much because she was in a hurry to get on the carriage to her academy.

While she was walking by the count to catch her carriage to the academy, there was something unusual about her, like Rianna, who suddenly became kind to me, and the servants stopped talking about me when they saw me.

It’s been a long time since I’ve seen servants quietly working like robots, as if they were caught talking useless once.

“Why is Diddle doing this all of a sudden?”

“Yes? What did you say, Young master?”

“No, I didn’t mean much.”

“······Anyway, have a good trip. Master.”

“You’re doing well too, Stella.”

“Maybe…?”

I was very concerned about that ‘I wonder if’ at the end with a smile that was unique to Stella, but I left those worries behind and got on the carriage heading to the academy.

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The family of Count Kindred after Lian left for the academy.

In that place, servants who had been working like robots up until now were talking about Lian.

“Why did you send the academy all of a sudden?”

“I don’t know, but there are rumors that Master First himself wanted to go.”

“What kind of accident do you want to go to the academy for?

When one servant wentssip about Lian in a slightly louder voice, the other servant hurriedly silenced him.

“Hey, lower your voice! Don’t you know that the servant who wentssip about the first boy and secretly ostracized him is living in a confined room?”

“It’s nice to know.”

“Hey!”

At the same time, a cold, chilling voice came from behind the maid who had told her to lower her voice.

“Lady…?”

“You wouldn’t dare insult the first son of Count Kindred.”

“Of course…! I will never do that.”

“Okay, go.”

The two servants, who had been talking about this and that, ran away in a hurry, saying that they were barely alive.

“Look, I told you to lower your voice…”

“That’s right, watch your mouth whether you sleep or wake up.”

Riana sighed heavily as she looked at them quietly.

“Whoa…”

I don’t even know what she did today.

She said that until yesterday she hated being in the same room with someone she called her brother, but she changed herself like this in just one day.

The scenes she saw in her dreams were shocking.

She made up her mind to rehabilitate and worked hard, but her brother’s efforts that no one recognized.

In the end, she fell ill and died, but no one paid attention to her brother, who didn’t even know she was dying.

It was very difficult and painful to look at the way her brother has lived from the point of view of such an older brother.

She

She said this was the reason she asked how she was all over the place when she saw her brother.

I couldn’t let her brother die alone and lonely like in her dreams.

You could have thought it was just a dream.

It could be said that I was overreacting with having a dream like that once.

But, is it because the dream was too vivid?

To Rianna, the dream felt like it was real.

She treats her brother coldly, because in her dreams she is herself, she is very similar to her until yesterday.

So I was anxious.

She already thought that it might be too late between herself and her brother.

She felt like she would never be able to go back to being her old sibling.

And… Her brother will die silently like a dream.

Rihanna has had to deal with her insecurities.