Harmonious Love

Where There Is Sunlight, There Are Shadows (6)

As always, Tae Young-won’s atmosphere was very different when he smiled and when he didn’t. When he didn’t have even the slightest smile, it sometimes felt like he was a completely different person.

After a moment of silence, he spoke.

“Why?”

“…”

His muttering voice was lower than usual, making it unclear whether it was a joke or not.

Just until a moment ago, he had seemed like a playful person who would shamelessly spout nonsense whenever he opened his mouth, but now with his expressionless face, he looked like a completely different person.

It was a very different appearance even compared to when he had been expressing emotions and getting angry just a short while ago.

Even though Mo Yeon was the only person who knew Tae Young-won’s bare face, at times like this, it felt unfamiliar. Of course, one can’t see all aspects of another person, but Mo Yeon tended to be interested in Tae Young-won’s hidden sides.

He thought he had figured out most of it, but…

“I’m asking why, Mo Yeon.”

“…Yes?”

Mo Yeon finally came to his senses after blankly staring at his face. He just realized he had been staring for too long.

And while he had been distracted, the face that had looked cold had softened to its usual gentleness. The uneasiness he had felt earlier must have been a misunderstanding after all.

“Did you suddenly want to try living righteously? Something like… you’ll try it when you go back because it’s too late now? Is that why you’re not following me?”

“Haven’t you ever had such thoughts, sunbae?”

“As if fixing that one thing when we go back would get us into heaven. We’re already messed up anyway.”

Mo Yeon subtly rolled his eyes. Is that how it works?

“You know, just the fact that we’re two men pressing our bellies together every night means we’re already messed up.”

See? Tae Young-won’s lips curved more smoothly than ever as he muttered at the end. At the same time, Mo Yeon’s gaze followed Tae Young-won’s slightly lowered eyes. His eyes were now roaming over Mo Yeon’s exposed waist.

Mo Yeon’s sweater, caught on Tae Young-won’s fingers, had been slowly riding up without Mo Yeon noticing, and was now hiked up to his collarbone. The bright sunlight of midday made his exposed white skin even more visible.

There were red marks all over his body, visible at a glance. His nipples were swollen from being teased so much. He definitely couldn’t take off his clothes anywhere. Not that he would have a reason to… Mo Yeon sighed.

“It’s too late for regrets, Mo Yeon.”

It was just a light comment, why was he taking it so seriously…

“That’s not what I meant.”

For some reason, it seemed like he had asked an unnecessary question. Was saying he wouldn’t stalk if he could go back in time something that would offend Tae Young-won?

“Then?”

“I just meant that if I could go back, I’d use a better method.”

After answering briefly, Mo Yeon stared at Tae Young-won, saying that was all.

Saying he wouldn’t stalk wasn’t about being prideful; he had actually thought about it. If he could go back, it would be better not to stalk in the same way as before.

“…A better method?”

“Yes.”

Mo Yeon nodded and looked up at Tae Young-won with his characteristically cold face.

“I’d just pull down my pants in front of sunbae at the right time and show it to you.”

“…”

He added once more.

“Thinking about it now, there was an easy way, I don’t know why I went through all that trouble.”

He shrugged and looked at him, but Tae Young-won remained silent for a long time.

It was after a long silence that the stone-faced Tae Young-won finally spoke.

“Why don’t you pull them down and show me now?”

“…Here?”

Mo Yeon asked with furrowed brows. Tae Young-won’s living room was too bright, enough to dazzle the eyes when looking at the exposed skin. How well the sunlight poured in when the windows were open.

For someone like Mo Yeon who lived with all windows tightly shut, he first learned how well the sun shone into this house thanks to Tae Young-won.

But more than that, it was obvious what would happen if he pulled down his pants now.

“It’s too bright here.”

Even if the time was right, Mo Yeon still didn’t have the confidence to expose his bare privates under such bright sunlight. If only he had some hair to cover it…

However, perhaps stimulated by Mo Yeon’s refusal, Tae Young-won’s breath was already slightly rough. He licked his upper lip.

“At this point? After seducing me to look at your white dick so many times outside?”

“No, that was… I only showed a little bit. It was never this bright.”

“Haa.”

Tae Young-won pressed against him and asked impatiently.

“I’ve probably seen it over a hundred times anyway, just show me.”

“That’s why, if you’ve seen it over a hundred times, why are you like this? Ugh!”

Tae Young-won pulled down Mo Yeon’s pants and underwear in one go. At the same time, Mo Yeon’s lifted body was thrown onto the sofa behind him.

“No!”

This spot was directly in the sunlight. Mo Yeon flailed his arms and legs, uncomfortable with the amount of light on his hairless body.

“Let’s go to the bed instead, the bed!”

“Wow…”

But his body, already firmly pinned by Tae Young-won, couldn’t move. And Tae Young-won’s eyes were already fixed on Mo Yeon’s crotch. He seemed to have fallen into his own world, unable to hear anything else.

Mo Yeon’s resistant movements stopped for a moment, and he found himself staring at that sight.

Then, their eyes met for an instant. As if caught seeing something he shouldn’t have, Mo Yeon unconsciously lowered his gaze.

And at the same time, he couldn’t help but be flustered by another issue.

‘Crazy…!’

It wasn’t because of Tae Young-won’s sly smile, nor was it because of his naked body that he had already shown countless times, as Tae Young-won said. It was because of his own private area.

“What’s this? Just looking at it a bit made it like this.”

He didn’t know when it had become like that. It had happened without him even feeling it.

“It wasn’t this hard even when I touched your nipples earlier…”

He lightly rubbed the shaft sticking to Mo Yeon’s stomach with his fingertips. Hup, Mo Yeon held his breath without realizing.

However, Tae Young-won didn’t grab or rub the genitals with an explicit gesture. He only lightly touched the reddened glans with relaxed fingertips, then moved away to rub around it, repeating this pattern.

It was the first time he realized that the friction of tender flesh could be such a subtle stimulation. Still, it was a stimulation he could endure without making a sound.

Tae Young-won didn’t seem interested in providing stimulation yet. He was only focused on examining every nook and cranny between Mo Yeon’s legs, which were more clearly exposed than usual under the sunlight.

Looking at that irredeemably perverse gay-like appearance, a thought suddenly occurred to Mo Yeon.

“…Sunbae.”

Mo Yeon asked quietly.

“If I had made a different choice, you might not have become gay.”

“…Huh?”

Tae Young-won asked blankly for a moment. His gaze, which had been continuously scanning Mo Yeon’s skin, slowly met Mo Yeon’s eyes. A strange light flashed in his clouded pupils for an instant, but Mo Yeon, lost in thought, didn’t notice.

“I kissed you first out of anger, and I stalked you… If I hadn’t done that, I think you might have been different. Then even if not me, you might have gone to heaven, sunbae.”

Of course, Mo Yeon wasn’t sure if he wouldn’t be attracted to Tae Young-won if he could turn back time. At first, he was drawn to him to survive, and honestly, it was purely selfish. The problem was that he stupidly developed feelings.

So this was all something he had brought upon himself. From beginning to end, all of it…

“No, no.”

Then, belatedly, Tae Young-won’s voice was heard. He frowned as if he didn’t even want to think about such a thing.

“I’m still going to hell anyway.”

“…What? Huh!”

Suddenly, Tae Young-won’s hand caressed Mo Yeon’s crotch again without warning. At the same time, he lowered his head and buried his nose in the crease of Mo Yeon’s inner thigh, inhaling deeply. Naturally, his nose and lips rubbed against the tender flesh. As his breath touched Mo Yeon’s crotch, Mo Yeon unconsciously gasped.

“No matter how I think about it, I’m so fucking glad I got stalked by you, Mo Yeon. Haa, if I had lived without knowing this, I would have been the only one losing out. Rather than living normally and going to heaven, I’d rather just die…”

“Hah, wait…!”

His face was too close to that area. Mo Yeon could no longer look down at Tae Young-won’s face, and every time he spoke, his breath kept scattering between Mo Yeon’s legs, making it increasingly difficult to endure.

“Haa, ugh, huh…”

As Mo Yeon gasped and squirmed his legs, Tae Young-won firmly pressed down on his thighs. At the same time, he lowered his head slightly and whispered subtly.

“Mo Yeon, do you know?”

The hand that had been tickling the glans was now caressing other parts of Mo Yeon’s crotch. His eyes gleamed.

“If I look closely, you have some peach fuzz here.”

“…”

Mo Yeon, momentarily frozen, slowly lowered his gaze.

He had expected it to be nonsense, but Tae Young-won was waiting for his response with such clear eyes.

“I didn’t know…”

“Right?”

As if he had expected this, Tae Young-won spoke with a gentle smile on his face.

Just a moment ago, he had chosen to go to hell. Mo Yeon had thought it was a joke, but perhaps it wasn’t.

“Mo Yeon.”

“…”

“Can I shave this for you?”

Tae Young-won said this, and then grinned.