FATE/Probability

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Shinji raged at Sakura, as it was his go-to nowadays; everything was her fault for him. He was a coward who hid his despair and fear by lashing out at the weak, so at first, he was terrified that Sakura, a competent magus, would become like his grandfather as soon as she became the heir and looked down on him.

He couldn't just understand how to treat the girl whom he treated as his little sister and bonded with her if she suddenly became her superior. At 1st his lashing out was driven by his childishness and the desire to not appear weak before her as he was her older brother in his mind. When he expected her to confront him she didn't but rather took the blame with guilt in her eyes, this made her an easy target in his eyes and subconsciously he began to oppress her to get the feeling of satisfaction that he was better than her and was not discarded for his inferiority.

He deluded himself into thinking that Sakura plotted against him to take his position as the heir of the Matou family and he deserved it all as it was his birthright. People who feel they are inferior overcompensate like how Shinji always brags about everything, for someone who has an attention-seeking personality the worst fear is being replaced the same thing is happening here right now. The real driving factor of all this for now was the thought 

All this could have been avoided if he had shown reality what the true heirs of prestigious magus lines are like, but the modus operandi of magi and their philosophy of isolation is the reason for the existence of this mindset. In his mind, all magus are equal to what he considers himself to be if he had magic circuits. Truly ancient lineages if given time and resources could wipe out cities with large-scale rituals compared to whom the achievements of his lineage are mediocre.

So due to this farce, sakura went home with Shinji and shirou went home alone, a chilling breeze blew into his face as he reached the emiya residence. As he walked into the room he prepared dinner and then went to practise meditation. As time passed and taiga came by he fed her too. Finally, both of them went to sleep, taiga had insisted that they sleep in the same room as shirou was still a child but after an intense negotiation, he finally got to keep his own room under the condition that she would sleep in the room just above his and will come to check up on him if anything happened.

So as soon as shirou hit the bed he fell into a surprisingly deep sleep very quickly, which is rare nowadays due to his mental state. But it was just an omen as his body twisted and turned in his sleep and when he woke up there was a bright orange glow shining into his eyes.

Turning around he took a look around him and saw, a giant black hole in the space of the sun. rather he found out that no it was the sun whose body was inky black like the mud from the grail that began his life or when a solar eclipse occurred. The corona of the sun was reddish-orange and strangely a glowing line of fire connected the object in the sky to the horizon like the sun was bleeding its flame, as he began to take in the twist and turn that was the sun his vision already cracked and began turning but before all of it could go away he spotted a sharp red glint, the familiar shine made him turn and he saw the handle of his blade the phosphoric fang with its body stabbed into somthing he couldn't quite make out in the dizzy condition.

Still, in this land stained with a dull red glow and shadows creeping on the floor, various hilts protruded out from them. They included things like paper cutters, knives and swords. Still, 2 blades stood out among them as other blades were grouped together but they were alone as if they were given their own space. One was a katana with a blood-red body and a simple handle with faded white tsuba. The other sword` hilt was wide enough that it was clearly a two-handed sword, the tip of the hilt was golden while the handle was blue.

The cross guard was glossy gold as if it was made from gold, it looked like a ceremonial sword as compared to a battle sword its hilt was too ornamented like it was to be polished daily. Still, the blade appeared not to possess any other notable quality except its apparent cost and that itself was abnormal. 

(image of clarent and phosphoric fang)

He opens his eyes and no glaring light assaults them rather the dim lighting leaking from houses fills his vision and he checks his surroundings as he determines that he is in some form of a park. Under the shadowy moonlight, a girl with her white hair glistening due to reflection stared at him with concentration, looking at the billowing purple cloak of Illiya Shirou's 1st response was to brace for pain as most of the time him being alone with her didn't end well for him.

Breaking the metaphorical tension in his mind his body said 

"-- I am sorry Iliya I can't follow through with such an obvious thing."

As he said this he felt the taste of bile in his mouth disappear, the weight of tears in his eyes vanish and suddenly he felt little to nothing. The feelings that he was feeling were muted and this allowed him to focus more as he wasn't assaulted by the foreign feeling of his future self. Still, this state of non-feeling was slightly familiar to him. Well, it was similar because of a certain thing he did for his body and here it's done for his mind. In this she replied 

"I see."

"So you are choosing the same thing as kiritsugu. Casting away the one person you love the most for people you don't even know about."

Hearing this Shirou's only reaction was 

The mentality of an aimless human grasping onto an ideal to live and then a child being thrown into hell and grasping on straws to crawl out from it are different. The stimulation of the origin in a human is the most dangerous tightrope with no recovery possible if shirou ever lost his will to live during one of these visions or even considered himself dead, then it will not take long for the body to apply the mind`s perception.

Turning into a pile of blades and molten flesh can happen to him in a heartbeat but he didn't know that except for the beating of his heart echoing wherever he had come close to giving up. regardless of his dilemma, his body said with conviction 

"That's right. Kiritsugu and I are the same. If you want to curse someone, you can curse me."

The silver-haired girl looked at him with a face with a light smile and eyes filled with pity and said 

"I pity you, shirou!"

"You are going to deceive yourself forever with that crying face of yours."

With a fading smile, she bid her goodbye and he looked at the sky. The slight moonlight that was falling had gone by and now the sky was covered in clouds. As he looked around the empty park a drizzle started falling and as his body started moving the drizzle had become rain.

He moved through the road and reached the old church of the city. Looking at the church a chill crept along his spine as he remembered what the priest had shown him on the lawn. He guessed the corpse-like kids were likely hidden somewhere in this building. Regardless of his thoughts his body opened the door and the 1st thing in his eyes was the grown-up Rin, standing in a corner of the chapel with a serious magus face and looked straight at him and then avoided his eyes.

As the sound of rain echoed inside the chapel they stood by in tense silence, till it was broken by the steady and light footsteps of the priest whom shirou dreaded as well as found fascinating in equal parts. He in his trademark no-nonsense tone said 

"The operation is complete. There is nothing more I can do."

" so how is sakura kirei?"

Rin asked with slight hope in her voice but the priest said in the same dead timber 

"I have done my best. That is all I can say." 

Rin`s face fell slightly as Kirei continued 

"Matou Sakura is sleeping. She should wake up tomorrow morning."

"What will you do as the successor of the Tohsaka family, Rin?"

This line was like thunder clapping in Shirou`s ears because the only thing he could think was 

(A/N: and done, can you guys tell me what end this is, I have a surprise planned for the next chapter cuz we will see an EMIYA.

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THANKS FOR READING:)