Became the Hated Illegitimate Son of the Duke in Romance Fantasy

15 – Episode 15

I hate alcohol.

I hate alcohol, whether it be wine, beer, or spirits.

A deceptive drink that seems to dull thinking and warm the body, but actually cools the body.

I couldn’t help but hate alcohol whenever I saw people frozen to death falling asleep outside in the cold winter after drinking a lot of distilled liquor to warm up.

And the thing I hated the most was that it made my head not work as well as it does now.

“I will send you to the academy with Xenia.

I have no right to veto, because if you run away, it won’t be a problem if you let the hounds loose and bite you to death.

No, I’m going to bite you to death.

Isn’t there a single human around you who can help you escape?

Ah, did I say… Hiccup!.. The other day?”

Yes.

Sometimes I thought that maybe I could just run away from here.

But there is no way to escape.

There are no downtown or downtown areas nearby, and even the closest ones are within a 3-hour carriage ride.

It is mostly plains with wheat, fruit trees and plants.

Mr. Louise, who is familiar with you, sticks with you all day, and at night, knights guarding the duchy roam here and there.

Even if I succeed in running away, if I put up a portrait with my face painted on it and hit the wanted person, everything is over.

Because there is no one I know, trust, or even know in this place.

If I run away from the mansion, no matter how duke I am, I won’t leave me alone.

Even if Xenia says that she will repay her kindness as an enemy after saving her life from rotting away in the slums, it is obvious that she will punish her.

I wouldn’t let her die, saying that at least half of her blood was flowing, but I would issue a flogging order.

“Of course, I’d like to leave the Breslau name off.

I’ve done all kinds of dog sh*t over the past few years.

While saying that, the Duchess threw the wine glass on the floor.

A few drops of wine and shards of glass scattered on the floor with a tinkling sound.

The maids looked at the sight while cleaning, sighed, and started working again.

“Sometimes I mixed laxatives with the food you ate, and sometimes I added paralytics as well.

You went around like nothing happened.”

It wasn’t too difficult.

I haven’t gotten sick either because my body has developed immunity, or because my body doesn’t receive poison from the beginning.

Of course, the numbing drug made my whole body tingle whenever I moved.

“Anyway, even if those poisons were poisonous, would they be more poisonous than drinking rotten water?”

“Yes, from a certain point on, I started talking back like this.”

Because you look a little easygoing now.

I haven’t gotten smaller, but I’ve grown up.

And those proud knights are no longer around.

If you put your hand on that slender neck like I did when I was a child and give it a strong force, it will be twisted just like that.

As for the woman, even though she was conscious of my gaze, she touched her neck back and forth.

Unbeknownst to me, my saliva goes down.

Maybe it was because he drank wine.

“If I were you, I would climb up that tall tower, make a fuss, and then jump down.

Because the duke’s dearest daughter could seriously hurt her heart and defile the building.

You never know, did I not blink once?”

The woman comes closer to me.

She then grabbed her chin.

Just like checking my face at an orphanage before.

“You don’t know why you live.”

“Do you need a reason to live?”

At those words, the intoxicated spirit went away, and the ghostly eyes caught the woman’s eyes.

Then he looks into my eyes with blue eyes and starts talking.

“Of course. Knights live for honor, nerdy nobility and idiots like me live for love, and merchants live for money.

Commoners live through small pleasures such as playing money and fighting, the fact that they have something to eat, and the satisfaction of having a family.

But I don’t really know why you’re still alive.”

Pair!

The woman slapped her on the cheek.

She had a sore cheek.

The woman looked down at me and couldn’t even control her expression, so she was crying.

Until she looks in the mirror, she doesn’t even know what face she is making.

“Malignant intention without reason is the law that takes away the meaning of life itself.”

“… ….”

I didn’t answer.

It’s just mindless words that you say just to embarrass me.

“I have nothing to do now.

Because you are aristocrats, and people who brag about you will harass you from now on.

Especially if Xenia treats you like she is now.”

Saying that, she blew the bottle with wine.

She then squirts some wine left in the bottle on my face.

The strong smell of alcohol and grapes is terribly unpleasant.

Because even the slightest movement of the body made it sticky.

“If you just listen to the words of the teacher who was in charge of you, they say that your brain is very extraordinary.

What are you going to do when you graduate from the academy?”

“I will probably leave this mansion and wander from place to place, freeing my mind.”

Though I won’t be able to work comfortably like Mr. Louis.

I wonder if I can earn a living though.

“Xenia will try to catch you.

Of course, as long as her life at her academy is as beautiful as it is now.”

“Don’t you know better that it can’t be?”

At that, the woman frowned.

And once again she blows the bottle.

Her whole face turned pink and red, and it looked like she had been drunk and disfigured.

“That’s right, it can’t be. I’ve been there huh.

If you and Xenia are so close, there’s no way you’ll be able to walk around unscathed, hehehe.”

The woman got up from her seat and came towards me.

And then she gets slapped.

Her head did not turn.

She is a weak woman who is drunk, how strong would she be if she were to beat her.

The woman frowned.

Her muscles loosened, her lips couldn’t move and her eyes wide open.

“Damn it, I had a taste for flying when I was a kid.

It’s no different from my husband now.”

Of course not.

She hadn’t eaten and was so skinny you could see her bones.

She probably could have thrown it straight if she held it with one hand.

“What, what… Daughter…! You were trying to talk?”

“You were talking about the academy.

“Yes, I did. And even if it doesn’t end well, Xenia will try to catch you.

No matter what, the two of them have always been close to each other since they were young, so don’t you think so too?”

I guess so.

She doesn’t act like the villain in the novel, but she cares about me in a strange way.

Eric, that’s why the original Eric probably couldn’t be a substitute for Xenia’s older brother.

And maybe, really maybe, I think I’ve become that substitute.

You really treat me like family.

No one in this mansion treats me like Breslau.

“I still don’t know what I want to do or what I want to achieve.

Ever since I saw your mother and my husband rolling around hard.

It just feels like I’ve lost something.”

“I can’t even remember my mother’s face, but she must have been pretty?”

So what do you mean, what does it have to do with a person you don’t even know who is lying around with your husband?

Why did you bother me so much?

I always pretend to be fine, pretend not to be angry, pretend to give up on myself, but that was only a temporary measure.

Every time I see a woman, I want to strangle her.

Resentful, hateful.

But what about my life? What will my life be like in the future?

Every day, this is a world in a novel, so it’s just a story that I go through such a tragedy.

This was a world inhabited by people.

It was not a world inhabited by humans, but a world inhabited by humans who were attached to lifelines no matter what, even if it was like a demonic world.

“Yeah, even if you’re not being sarcastic, you’re so beautiful, to the extent that I’m just trash. Ughhh.”

The woman takes another drink.

Even so, her eyes staring into space seemed to remind me of my mother.

“I hope you are in pain.

But why am I suffering while being bullied?

Did you look in the mirror at me beating you that day and think it was ugly? Sitting alone and remembering what I look like?

Worrying doesn’t suit me very much. Yeah, that’s a good idea.”

Saying that, I pull out a pouch from her bosom and throw it at me.

As it fell to the floor, it made a rather heavy metal sound.

“Yes, this is enough money to buy two mansions in the ecliptic. Wait, don’t touch it.”

As I tried to pick up her purse, the woman stopped me.

Then she smashes her table with the bottle she was holding, breaking it into pieces.

She picks up a piece of glass that has fallen on the floor.

She was cut by shards of glass, and blood ran down her edges.

“Chew, then I’ll give it to you.

You slum beggars, the lowly people like worms, don’t get a chance even if you live your whole life.”

I accepted the shards of glass.

And when I put it in her mouth, it starts scratching here and there.

And when I chew with force, I start to feel like my gums and tongue are being hacked together with a clicking sound.

I can feel the blood dripping from the corners of my mouth.

The woman watches as I chew on the glass without even closing her eyes.

“Don’t swallow it, if you die it’ll be the end of the story.

Take the pouch. Ha, maybe I’m being too merciful.”

My head starts spinning slightly at the scent of blood and alcohol rising from my mouth.

I grabbed my money bag and trudged to my room without waiting for Xenia.

Now that woman thought she was confident that she wouldn’t listen to anything she said.

Then she changed her mind.

It’s only been a few years, but living on her stomach has instilled inertia into her body.

I really hated that fact.