chapter 10
10 – Episode 10
Follow the butler into the dining room where you first saw Xenia in this house.
Last time, it must have been a simple meal while welcoming me, but this time, colorfully decorated dishes were placed on the table so that the upper leg was bent.
And the maids standing on both sides of the door bowed to me and greeted me.
When I glanced at their faces, they were the people who whispered next to me the other day.
Xenia raised the corners of her mouth as if she liked that I was here.
When our eyes meet, I raise her nose and wave her hand gently as if it were a geobo.
She is still watching the Duchess sitting next to her.
It was burdensome.
It must have been because of Xenia that I was drawn to this dinner.
The duke tapped the chair in her empty seat and pulled the chair behind her.
Then he gestured for her to sit down, pointing to an empty seat.
“Sit down, let’s eat here starting today.”
“Yes, I understand.”
The Duchess glares at me as I sit in the chair the Duke had removed.
It was as if his eyes were shining, as if he had some life in his gaze.
The duke bluntly handed her warning to her wife.
“Madam, in front of Xenia.”
“Oh, excuse me.
Because there’s something cold in front of me.”
“Isn’t it enough to kick out one person already?”
“I kicked them out and one returned.”
“Hmm, there’s no way to lose a word.”
At that, she smiles with her quivering corners of her mouth while maintaining her bloody eyes as if she had never glared at me.
The duke glances at her daughter’s expression with an expressionless face.
Realizing that there was nothing wrong, he raised the corner of her mouth slightly.
I can feel the love she has for her daughter from her eyes.
He talks to me.
“Looks like it wasn’t worth it to bring him here.
It looks like Xenia really likes you.”
“It’s an honor.”
“But don’t treat me without a face.”
“Okay.”
“You, yes… You don’t even have to say it, you understand.”
Then Xenia interrupted the conversation.
“What are you two talking about?”
“We were just talking about how we were going to get along.”
Since you are just an illegitimate child, take care of Xenia and she always told you to live while being aware of your position.
As if he couldn’t say the word
To the young Xenia, the duke made up her words beautifully.
“I’m going to hang out here and there with Eric.”
“Yes, you mean places like caves, gardens, and treehouses.”
“How does Dad know that?”
“I know because I saw you go around.”
Of course I have to know.
There’s no way that a place called a secret base has fancy decorations, neat furniture, and occasional snacks.
Well, Xenia looked pretty naive for her age.
Is the duke’s child not allowed to meet other children, or are her parents not allowing them to meet?
Seeing that she still reacts like she’s shocked, she doesn’t know.
“You look a lot like Elena.
Her wife goes on a rampage and hates it.”
“What was my mother like?”
“She was a beautiful human being both on the outside and inside, and unfortunately, she was a commoner.”
After hearing her words, a common story began to form in my head.
Young aristocrats give heart-pounding romance only to beautiful commoners.
Because you act as if you’re giving your all to the other person, and then throw it away when you get tired of it.
I think it’s really exciting in many ways.
Sometimes there are also commoners or prostitutes who are made into concubines or mistresses.
And half of them go crazy with a funny sound, and half of them return to where they came from.
Whether they were kicked out or fled.
“Ah, by the way, there’s no need to waste your time trying to find your mother.”
“Did he die?”
“Yes.”
On rare occasions, there are many cases of returning with a baby.
Nine out of ten children are dumped on the streets.
I probably lived with my mother in her arms until she was five or six years old.
And the mother who abandoned her child puts an iron plate on her face and loses her mind, and sooner or later she gets a strong rope from her wooden pole and hangs it dangly.
Wasn’t she a whore anyway?
Hey, if that was the case, I wouldn’t have thought that blood was mixed.
The door opened and the maids began to enter the room with food.
Put the dishes on a long table and place the tongs for each person on their bowls.
“Now, eat.
Last time, I didn’t prepare enough and only gave out insufficient food, so I’m quite happy with it today.”
It was warm under the legs, probably because the fire was constantly burning under the table to keep the food from getting cold.
Perhaps someone is lying down underneath and struggling to heat the food.
Meat dishes, seafood dishes, and dishes decorated as colorfully as possible with bread.
I’ve lived here for several years, but I couldn’t help but look forward to it even though I was putting on my plate with a casual expression on such dishes that I could never have imagined.
The best I could do was to keep my mouth shut so that saliva wouldn’t drip from the corners of my mouth.
The meal was enjoyable.
What the atmosphere was like, and even though there was a duchess in front of me, the taste was not great, so it was great.
“Nice to see you, Eric!”
“Mmm, that’s right.”
However, even a pleasant mealtime would come to an end if you ate, and dessert came out after several dishes were exchanged.
It was sweet, but I started to feel anxious because I thought something was going to happen after this.
The Duchess wipes Xenia’s face and her lips with her white handkerchief.
“Xenia, you brought a new teacher, so go back to your room.”
“New teacher?
“If you don’t bully me, I won’t stop.
Come on up.”
“Yes!”
After hearing that, Xenia ran out of her room excitedly.
And only me, the Duke, and the Duchess remain in the room.
“And Eric, follow me to my room after dinner.
I have something to tell you.”
“Don’t scratch your face, your arms, or anything else you can see.
I’m saying this again, because Xenia seems to like it.”
At those words, the woman’s face instantly distorted like a demon, and then she returned to expressionless.
“Oh, there’s no way I’m treating a child like this harshly.
I haven’t even scratched your Elena.”
The Duke, who seemed to remain expressionless forever, frowned.
Even so, she raises one corner of her mouth and asks her wife.
“Oh, damn it. Do you really enjoy provoking me?”
“It can’t be, I’m self-respecting.
Then let’s go out first.”
The meal is over and I follow the Duchess.
The room was spacious, probably sharing a room with the duke, but I felt strongly that it was a room for a woman alone.
The room is neatly organized.
A large bed was placed right in the middle of the room, and various pieces of furniture were neatly arranged.
And on the wall is a portrait of Xenia’s older brother, who was said to have died, and a portrait of the duke when he was young.
The woman puts on an expression that seems displeased with me looking around the room and starts the story.
“How the hell did you bake and boil Xenia so that I had to see your face even at her dinner table?”
“Sorry…”
“No, I’m sorry!
Your Excellency always said that the family should always eat together at the same time.
Your daughter seems to think of you as family.”
Saying that, the woman stroked my cheek.
I get goosebumps at the moment and my expression starts to harden.
I closed my eyes as I raised her hand high into the sky.
“Baby, why does Xenia like you so much?
Maybe it’s because she doesn’t have friends her age around her? “
Thinking that if I didn’t answer, she’d get slapped again, she answered quickly.
“I’m not sure.”
“Yes, I don’t know either. But shouldn’t you know?”
As soon as she finishes talking, the woman clenches her fist and punches me in the pit of my stomach.
Come to think of it, I don’t think she’d ever played Tora in the orphanage.
Even when he was beaten by an adult male orphanage director.
And that was because I didn’t eat anything.
Because I used to spit out nasty gastric juices.
“Eup, woogeeek!”
“It’s dirty. It’s dirty, yes. It’s dirty.
Baby, I’m going to bully you.
I will bully you until Xenia looks down on you and bullies you.”
He started to trample on me as I fell on the floor.
Thanks to that, I threw myself into Toeda’s face.
The Duchess puts her foot on top of my head and gives me strength.
“Even if you try to let go of your anger, nothing will come true except for a bad feeling.
I know that well. But what can I do?”
Then he kicked me in the side.
It was fortunate that she was a weak woman.
Or else, all the ribs called ribs would have been broken.
The woman held her breath for a moment.
Just as I was about to stop hitting her, she screamed and ran at me.
“Your goddamn mother bewitched William!!!!”
Then he starts choking me.
She had scratched my arm with her fingernails, leaving blood stains on my clothes.
As if my sleepy throat was screaming for help, only strange metal noises came out of my mouth.
Then the woman releases the power she had placed on her neck.
She sat down next to her and gasped for breath.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, baby.
I’m sorry. But your mother hates you so much. I hate your mother so much
I hate your mother so much, I hate you so much because it feels like you are the evidence that stole my love.”
My head feels foggy.
Her eyes blurred.
I can’t see very well.
My vision is red because the blood vessels in my eyes have burst.
My nose hurts.
“Get out, go back to your room.”
I crawled as if I were running away and left the room.
Then, when I close the door, I hear a sad cry.
After wiping my face with the messy clothes, I looked ahead and saw Xenia standing in front of me.