Became an Academy Spearman

896. [Western Front] – Continued Will (171)

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A feeling that the training was interrupted half-way.

However, I also know this reality that it has no choice but to be cut off along the way.

‘Because this is my limit.’

The training that Anastasia converted to karate was qualitatively completely different.

My ability to receive her power was nothing compared to my previous training.

ㅡStrength.

In the face of her mighty power, which was like a mountain, I was as weak as a firefly standing in front of the sun.

I cannot assert my strength, nor can I assert myself in the face of her overwhelming force.

So, this is how training was cut off.

Ok.

Suddenly, my eyes fell on the teacup in front of me.

“… … Thank you.”

“no.”

As Assistant Merrill left the room with a smile, I carefully touched the teacup in front of me.

Inside Anastasia’s office, I now have an untimely tea time with her.

In a daze, I felt the warmth reaching my hand. The steaming teacup was warm.

And that… … .

I realized that it wasn’t her consideration, it was consideration.

“Don’t be impatient.”

“yes.”

He answered calmly and looked straight ahead.

She had the same teacup as me, and compared to the first time today, she didn’t look a bit disheveled, and it seemed like she didn’t use any effort at all.

“The power you thought of, as you will understand, is a power far removed from reality.”

“Of course.”

“To that extent, there is a risk. Even if you beat Eustea, whether it is practical or not is a completely different question. “You felt it too, right?”

I found myself nodding my head as I watched Anastasia speaking calmly.

“yes. “Because I understand.”

Truly a straightforward argument.

And again, it was a correct opinion.

Now I think I understand why Anastasia kept hitting me with countless ice shards.

‘She saw right through it from the beginning.’

The biggest weakness of the 5th type, Bicheonsuwol.

No, she immediately saw a vulnerability that even I had not thought of.

My Bicheonsuwol can never be a response to the endlessly pushing force and ‘wide-range attack’ targeting the absolute majority.

Anastasia knew that and took such offensive action against me.

To make myself feel my shortcomings.

And to make you feel how reckless it is… … .

Sreuk.

“… … .”

As I gently tipped my teacup, my eyes turned blankly to Anastasia.

‘Thinking about that… … .’

She pushed endlessly to convince me.

I know I won’t be able to accept it. No matter how hard you try, a miracle of receiving all of her power is an impossible result.

Ok.

As I put down the teacup, I carefully wiped the corner of my mouth.

‘surely.’

Anastasia is different.

The only being who can give me overwhelming help in my training more than any other being I’ve encountered.

“But you still plan to practice?”

Still, she asks me again.

Even though I try to change my mind, I try to find out my opinion first.

“Yes, I don’t think I can give up.”

I was most grateful for that.

‘I also realized my complete weakness.’

Bicheonsuwol is extremely vulnerable to ranged attacks, but I also thought that I couldn’t give up because of that.

The power of the nine apostles that I will encounter again in the future.

And the nine apostles who possess the ultimate power called ‘Eucilia’, as Azazel declared, will pose a danger of a different level.

But if you think about it in reverse.

I also found a way.

“… … .”

As I faced her with her slightly frowning eyes, I was transparent.

There is no delusion in the mind, no doubt.

That’s right, I know the path I have to take.

I didn’t ‘absolutely’ think my path was wrong.

That too can be asserted.

The influence of Bicheonsuwol. If I could unfold it differently through expansion of consciousness, it would be a completely different feeling.

“I am confident.”

So I opened my mouth first.

Today and tomorrow will be different.

The amount of effort I will perform tomorrow will probably exceed even Anastasia’s imagination.

“… … “You are really amazing.”

“Is that so?”

A laugh escaped me without even realizing it. Even I thought it was funny how I am now.

Moreover, in Anastasia’s view, it would seem like she is baseless or extremely overconfident.

“You know the risks. But it’s not enough to take that risk, so I try to take a bigger risk. out of it?”

“no. “What you said is correct.”

It’s definitely dangerous and will push me to the extreme.

So, Anastasia probably stopped the training, and I understand that.

How reckless I am.

however.

I am… … Strangely enough, my mind was filled with confidence.

It came from just one thing.

‘Against Eustea… … .’

I performed the Fifth Style for the first time, and succeeded in Bicheon Suwol, exceeding even his expectations.

The low point of denying a reality that I cannot overcome.

And the ability to reverse the opponent’s strength like a mirror.

The principles of those two things.

I established myself and perfected that power against Eustea.

“My basis is myself. And it is also ‘Eustea.’”

“… … Ha, I guess it’s back to the basics.”

“It doesn’t matter if you think so. “I’m just being me and proving my strength.”

I didn’t think I could completely convince her with words.

That’s right… … .

Unless I have met Eustea in person, there is no one in this world who can understand me as I am now.

‘If there wasn’t even this level of determination in the first place.’

I wouldn’t have even performed the Fifth Type against Eustea.

The strength I developed to overcome the crisis I faced on my own. However, if I give up that power because it is dangerous, it is the same as throwing away myself.

There is no reason to exist in this reality, even killing Eustea, who existed as a will.

I had already decided that way.

“… … .”

“… … .”

As we exchanged glances without saying a word, I remained calm.

My body was exhausted, and the fatigue still hadn’t gone away.

Even though Anastasia’s ice shards are nothing more than stab wounds, they have enough power to have a profound effect on the movement of my body.

however… … .

It was a reality that I could not break to that extent.

“okay.”

“… … thank you.”

“Don’t be grateful. “I’m going to see you again tomorrow and judge again.”

“Thank you for just that.”

When I thanked her again, Anastasia shook her head.

It seemed as if he couldn’t stop me, and he reluctantly went along with my will, but that alone made me feel like I had a chance.

“… … Nevertheless, Han Tiansheng, I have something to tell you properly.”

“Yes, please feel free to speak.”

“I understand that you are not trying to handle that power with a light heart or spirit of challenge. “It’s also what you think you must do.”

“You saw it correctly.”

I didn’t deny it.

No matter what, I will make Bicheonsuwol with my power.

And I will put a twist on her meaning, which I judged to be impractical.

‘So that I can somehow use it in real life.’

“… … “I think strength is not the only thing that Eustea left you.”

“You mean what you left me?”

At that moment, when I spoke about Eustea, question marks filled my mind.

That was a little sudden.

“It seems to me that you are feeling a sense of pressure, or rather a sense of duty.”

“… … “I definitely feel a sense of responsibility because I am inheriting that power.”

“No, not responsibility. “Because it looks to me like you’re already buried.”

“… … .”

I opened my mouth for a moment, but I was speechless when I saw her eyes looking at me.

‘sense of duty… … ?’

buried.

I guessed what he was trying to say.

I’ve already been greatly influenced by Eustea, and that’s why I’m acting so recklessly… … .

“I think it already looks like shackles to you.”

I blinked awkwardly at her cold assertion.

“… No, I feel like I found a way to grow bigger.”

“Ha, you would think so. But from the moment you ignore your life and take risks, you are already buried. “Because even now, despite what I say, you keep insisting only on your own opinion.”

“If that’s how I look to Major Anastasia…” … .”

I tried to refute it, but at that moment, no words came to mind.

Is it really like that?

Am I, as Anastasia said, greatly tied to Eustea?

… … It really might be so.

Because I think I killed him with my own hands. Even if it was his residual will, he tried to free me from erosion through his own death.

That would definitely not be death in the true sense of the word. Because he said he met complete death first.

So, I might not actually need to feel this great weight.

Sreuk.

The moment I thought that, I clenched my hands without realizing it.

“I’m sure that might be the case. But my heart wants it to be like that.”

… … He gazed strongly at Anastasia and admitted.

That I am buried.

Eustea may have really left me with shackles that I cannot break free.

however.

I don’t mind saying that.

Because my heart wants it.

I will inherit that power and prove it proudly.

His power was not properly recognized in the past.

The power that no one could understand during his lifetime… … .

I will prove myself in this world.

“… … “I can’t stop you.”

I had a small smile on my face at her words.

What kind of eyes do I have right now?

I don’t know myself either.

however… … .

I thought that no one would be able to stop this strong will that I had now.

“yes. “It will happen.”

He nodded cheerfully, and a strange smile appeared on his lips.