chapter 12
12. Jang Ha-ra (3)
Jang Ha-ra stared blankly at the window.
window seat at the back.
It is Jang Ha-ra’s favorite seat in all classrooms.
It’s good to be blank during break time, and it’s good to look outside alone during lunch time.
It’s an inconspicuous place, so the teacher doesn’t make presentations.
But today, even though I sat in such a position, I didn’t feel good.
‘Ah… how do I find my wallet?’
It contained 50,000 won.
There is also a card or student ID.
He bangs his head on the desk and sighs.
Then, think about what happened this morning.
—I was ranked first in the physical fitness test…
─You’re busy, but do you want to keep talking nonsense? Why are you so oblivious to the child?
─·······Sorry.
─Okay, take out some trash when you go out. Can’t you do this too?
─Okay.
It wasn’t a very good memory.
Because I brought out the word to be praised, but only received scolding.
‘Because they’re family anyway.’
It’s hard right now, but one day you’ll be recognized as a real family.
Someday.
certainly.
“…”
······Can it really be acknowledged?
no.
Let’s stop thinking like this.
He shook his head vigorously to clear his thoughts.
Once you have negative thoughts, there is no end to them.
“Hey, it’s today.”
Just then, I overheard the conversation of other children.
“The classmates decided to go to the amusement park together. Do you want to go too?”
“What amusement park?”
An amusement park?
Even with all the classmates?
Listening to the story more, it seems that it is the beginning of the semester, so it seems that they are going to strengthen unity.
Is this an opportunity to make friends?
Jang Ha-ra’s thoughts began to spin rapidly.
In the ‘together’ part, there is a high probability that he will make an offer to Jang Ha-ra.
Then I will answer you then.
huh! say.
It’s a simple task that requires only one word to come out of your mouth.
‘There’s no way I couldn’t do it after being ranked first in the entire school.’
And finally.
“I’ll ask Hara and come back.”
He started approaching Janghara.
however.
“Hey, Hara doesn’t like that.”
Someone else intervened.
“Oh really?”
Oh really? what is
what do you know
I’ve never been to an amusement park, but I’m sure you’ll like it.
He chewed on the thoughts he couldn’t get out of his mouth and tore his nails with an uneasy face.
“Let’s see if I can ask.”
Fortunately, as if he had decided to ask, he approaches again.
“Here you go~”
come to come
I will answer honestly.
huh. say.
“Aren’t you going to the amusement park?”
“huh!”
“······okay?”
uh
This isn’t it.
“it’s a shame. Study hard!”
That was it.
Due to her introverted personality, which is difficult to even deny, she had no choice but to stare at the back of Jang Ha-ra leaving.
“ah······.”
okay.
What an amusement park is my subject.
If you happen to be in a position like that and make a mistake, you will be branded as a strange person.
In that case, it is better to maintain this image.
I don’t know what kind of image this is…
anyway.
After arbitrarily rationalizing it, I took out a practice book from my bag.
It was for my hobby of painting.
When you’re depressed, doing a hobby makes you a little better.
Besides painting, he had many hobbies such as musical instruments and cooking, but these were the only things he could do on his own right now.
square square.
I drew anything according to my stream of consciousness, without any particular theme.
It was lunch time, and I wasn’t hungry, so I was able to concentrate for quite a while.
I saw the result of that.
There was a girl who looked lonely, squatting alone in a spacious house.
······This is me.
depressed again
But, the next moment.
“Wow, did you draw it?”
I was startled by the sudden voice.
It was loud enough to shake off the melancholy that had been covering my heart until just now.
“Uh…?”
When I calmed down and looked ahead, there was a boy sitting across from me.
The man asked again.
“Did you draw this?”
I looked at the name tag because I didn’t think I was in my class. My name was Yuhyeon Lee.
“ah······.”
Then I remembered who it was.
The person I used to talk to when I returned from gym the other day.
why are you here
Lee Yoo-hyun was staring at this side.
Come to think of it, what did I ask you earlier?
okay.
this picture.
I asked if I drew it.
“It’s true that I drew it…”
Jang Ha-ra said with a creeping voice, avoiding her gaze.
The kids in the same class can talk at least.
Well, since we lived in the same space all day, it is only natural that the awkwardness disappears a little.
But not this person.
It was difficult to deal with because we only met once.
“Oh oh······.”
Lee Yoo-hyeon admired the painting alone.
It’s embarrassing to show it, but I couldn’t cover the practice field while I was watching, so I left it as it is.
“Oh, actually, I’m here to deliver this…”
Lee Yoo-hyeon handed over her wallet.
Looking closely, it was the wallet I had lost.
I thought it was stolen by the villain, but why is it there?
“I picked it up on the road, but it had my student ID in it.”
“Ah… thank you. thank god.”
If you say you picked it up, that must be it.
The money is still there, so don’t worry about it.
“Then can I take a closer look at this?”
“Ah… yes.”
to be honest.
I wish I could just leave you alone.
He was the one who found my wallet, so I couldn’t bear to refuse.
As Lee Yoo-hyeon started to focus on painting, an awkward air flowed that made me want to die.
Also, in this case, it is best to bruise.
Let’s wait blankly until Lee Yoo-hyeon loses interest.
I’m staring into space with such soulless eyes.
“You draw very well.”
“······uh?”
“huh? You say you are good at drawing.”
“…”
Received a compliment.
Come to think of it, it was the first time I showed a picture to someone.
My heart races when I get too much attention, so I deliberately hid it.
I’m afraid of being cursed at.
But it wasn’t that I didn’t want attention.
Rather, I wanted to be recognized for these hobbies more than my grades.
“really······?”
So, the same situation that others first recognized.
I wanted it in my heart.
“huh.”
“Uh, how do you draw well?”
“Hmm, first of all, the description of this part…”
Listening to Lee Yoo-hyun’s explanation, he nodded his head eagerly.
The part that gave me strength while drawing, the part that was drawn well, the part that I didn’t like a little bit.
Lee Yoo-hyun recognized all of them.
“Hey, would you like to see something else…?”
With a little tension, he asked.
“I’m fine~”
The only thing I didn’t show was at school, and there were times when I showed various drawings at home with relatives.
Back then, I heard all sorts of curse words saying that I was trash.
‘······Recognized.’
As much as I couldn’t be loved at home, I wanted more recognition at school.
however.
Because I couldn’t even make an effort to be recognized ahead of fear.
The recognition I received today was even greater.
Jang Ha-ra burst into tears.
The sadness of the past has exploded.
“Why, why are you crying all of a sudden?!”
“uuu”
I desperately held back my crying.
It didn’t work out.
“Mia, Mia. No, hi. I won’t cry…”
When I cried at home, I was beaten by my aunt.
That’s why I got into the habit of trying to hold back tears when they came out.
Is it because of the loud crying? This time, the only limit was to endure the sound.
I’m shaking my body with my head down like that.
tight.
“…”
Without a word, a large hand wrapped around Jang Hara’s hand.
It was soft and warm.
Strangely enough, his heart calmed down at that touch, which even felt unknown affection.
I didn’t even want to give up.
Should I say I’m comfortable?
Janghara held her hand.
Crying slowly subsides.
Looking at Lee Yoo-hyeon with a blank face, he handed me a handkerchief.
I took a handkerchief and wiped my tears.
“Did you all cry?”
“Yes.”
With slightly swollen eyes, I lowered my gaze.
hands still holding hands.
When I realized that it was skinship belatedly, my face turned a little red.
“Ah, sorry to catch you so suddenly. I felt like I had to do something like this…”
“···are you okay.”
I didn’t say it was okay because of my personality.
It was really good.
Physical contact with someone you are not close to should be unpleasant.
It was strange.
“then······.”
Cease the tears completely.
He turned over the practice sheet and showed me other pictures.
For 10 minutes, Lee Yoo-hyeon’s baptism of compliments poured in.
“hehehehe······.”
The clothes were flowing.
Hearing the compliment made me feel soft.
“Then, let’s go for today.”
Lee Yoo-hyun got up from the chair.
“・・・・・uh.”
no.
don’t go.
Praise me more.
“bye.”
As always, Jang Hara didn’t have the courage to stop it.
at that time.
“Can I come see the painting again next time?”
Janghara’s eyes widened.
***
“huh! okay! Come anytime!”
Janghara said in a lively voice.
I suddenly felt depressed, so I tried to say it just in case, but it seems to have been the correct answer.
“Then go?”
Leave the classroom and walk down the hallway.
Originally, I was going to change my face slightly, but it feels like I’ve narrowed the distance more than I thought.
That’s a good thing.
In this plan, Jang Ha-ra’s mindset is important.
If my existence can replace those relatives, even if they disappear, Janghara will not collapse.
by the way······.
[ Synchronizing to the 6th life. ]
[ Synchronization rate – 15% ]
It is a life that hastily synchronized because Jang Ha-ra suddenly cried.
And my job in this life.
was a psychiatrist.
[ Sanctuary – The target you come into contact with will gain peace of mind and become comfortable. ]
For a moment, the 6th life, which was difficult due to lack of professional knowledge, passed through my head.
At that time, I consulted with Yame…
I didn’t even know how to prescribe medicine, so I thought, ‘I’d rather die quickly’.
that would be so helpful
The past life, which seemed like a beggar when it came to life, was finally seeing the light.
“······ Does this skill apply to me as well?”
As much as I’ve lived many lives, I also have a little trauma.
4th life for example.
It was a life that made me want to commit suicide just thinking about it.
But now, even thinking about it, I didn’t really want to die.
The sanctuary skill felt like a passive, so it seemed to be always applied to me.
It wasn’t like nothing was wrong, so I hurriedly erased the 4th life from my head.
“hmm. will it be?”
The place I arrived at was not the lunchroom, but the teachers’ room.
It’s not different, I’m going to leave early.
Among the relatives, the one who stole Jang Ha-ra’s money yesterday.
I found out his part-time job.
I just went to a convenience store yesterday and it was there.
The plan came to mind there.
Honestly, if you use the chance of the president of the association, you can easily finish it, but you can’t just get help forever.
I also wanted to do this work myself.
“Get some rest.”
I received an early leave from my homeroom teacher and left the school gates.
His name is Park Hyeong-joo, and the convenience store is open from noon to 8:00.
I know by asking the manager of the convenience store in the morning.
I started walking at a brisk pace.
“…”
However, I felt a strange presence.
Footsteps sound unnatural, or it seems like someone is watching from behind.
As if being followed.
“Hmm.”
In fact, following is not as easy as you might think.
Pretending to be popular is a rule that the quieter it is, the better it is felt, so it is easy to get noticed in a time when there are not many people like now.
I took a slight turn and entered the alley.
Then, the popularity that had been felt from before was revealed.
“Finally alone.”
Honestly, I knew it would be like this.
You get expelled, your parents get demoted.
My life was half ruined in one day, and there’s no way I wouldn’t be angry.
I didn’t know that you would come today.
I look back and say to Yoon Ji-woo.
“Did Kim Ji-hoo tell me what I did?”
“f*ck, was it really you?”
Originally, I would have gone straight to the convenience store, but I changed my plan along the way.
I found a good long-term piece on my own, but there is no reason to refuse it.
“I’ll kill you bastard.”
When I lowered my gaze, the kitchen knife in my left hand caught my eye.
Looking at such Yun Ji-woo, I smiled brightly.
This kid is worse than I thought.
But that’s it.
“Come to your work.”
I had a feeling that the plan would be easier.