Chapter 318: My Dear Wife, Please Allow Me to Be a Scumbag Just This Once!_2
Phoenix Eyes at this moment hid their laughter, turning into specks of yearning, just like she always had to get all lovey-dovey with Xu Musen after each business trip.
"Husband, I miss you so much..."
Xu Musen, who originally wanted to push her hand away, held firm and eventually only lightly tapped her forehead.
"It's all things of the past now. You are the eighteen-year-old Yao Mingyue now. When you were eighteen in your last life, you hadn't even dated me."
Xu Musen sighed, reflecting on the four wonderful years of university, years that should have been filled with love to their hearts' content.
Yet, the two of them awkwardly didn't establish their relationship until much later.
Yao Mingyue looked into his eyes filled with regret, feeling a sense of loss herself.
"But at least I was always by your side, while some people... went straight to living together with someone."
Yao Mingyue's voice carried a tone of resentment.
Shaking his head with a laugh, Xu Musen turned to her, "What about after the car accident, last life?"
Xu Musen had always been curious. His last conscious memory was of being rushed to the hospital, then everything went blurry as if he had fallen into an endless abyss.
The next time he was aware, he had been reborn and returned.
Yao Mingyue's hands trembled slightly as she embraced his, biting her lip and slowly saying, "I don't remember much either, but you... seemed to have died."
As she spoke, she looked cautiously at Xu Musen's expression.
Even though it was a past life, they had experienced it themselves—especially since she had been so demanding of him in her previous life...
Even so, Yao Mingyue feared Xu Musen might hold a grudge against her.
But Xu Musen only smiled with a sense of relief, "I could guess that. If I hadn't died, I probably wouldn't have been reborn. What I mean is, how did you fare after that?"
Xu Musen regarded Yao Mingyue with no trace of blame. They were husband and wife who had grown up together from childhood friend.
Blaming each other was pointless. They had set out to share a lifetime, just with the wrong approach, which inevitably led to differences.
But compared to most marriages, they had done very well.
Still, he was worried. Given Yao Mingyue's morbid condition in her previous life, how would she have lived without him?
Yao Mingyue understood the concern in his eyes, her lips quivering slightly.
This fool—after having lost his life to save hers, in the end, he still cared for her from a previous life. The her who was neither gentle nor in control.
"I don't know... but I think, she would've probably been a bit more obedient..."
Yao Mingyue shook her head. She truly didn't know. It felt like there was something in her memory, but the harder she tried to recall it, the louder the buzzing in her head became, leaving her breath short and heart racing as if it was a memory she did not want to revisit.
"It's just as well you don't remember. Let the past be the past. At least we're both all right now, and everything is still within our grasp."
Xu Musen watched as her frown relaxed, gently patting her head.
Leaning on his shoulder, Yao Mingyue calmed her breathing before speaking softly again.
"Aren't you afraid... that I might have found another man later?"
"You wouldn't."
Xu Musen laughed, certain in his response.
Yao Mingyue pouted, "So confident are you? Back then I was a beautiful CEO, and men would've lined up all the way to Paris for me!"
"It's not confidence; it's because I understand you, understand us. Once married, it's for life—nothing could part us unless by death."
"And yet someone still wanted to divorce me..."
"But didn't you drug him with a glass of wine?"
Xu Musen pinched her cheek.
Yao Mingyue's face turned red, not denying the drugging part: "You deserved it for wanting a divorce! Besides, didn't you say we would never part from each other? You scoundrel..."
Xu Musen's expression turned reflective, his tone filled with emotion.
"I wanted to divorce you, not because I stopped loving you, but because I knew that continuing would only cause us more pain. I was afraid that one day, we might wear away the last of our fondness for each other. Rather than that, it might be better to separate and live apart, to cool down and perhaps find a way back that suits us both..."
As Xu Musen spoke, he glanced sideways at Yao Mingyue: "Besides, even if we really had divorced, I wouldn't have gotten together with another woman in that lifetime."
A tremor ran through Yao Mingyue's heart, and Xu Musen's words softened her long-held grievances.
Having grown together since they were kids, they had similar personalities. These thoughts were the same for Yao Mingyue: even if they had gotten divorced, she would have waited for him forever, never allowing a second person into her life.
That was what Yao Mingyue thought. But then a familiar figure flashed through her mind again, stirring a sense of jealousy as she shook Xu Musen's arm: "That's not necessarily true. If I had been the one to die first in our previous life, and An Nuannuan appeared by your side, you would've been with her, right? What if I hadn't come back, or if she had appeared earlier..."
Xu Musen squinted, contemplating. In their previous life, An Nuannuan had indeed waited for him for a very long time.
Especially after Yao Mingyue disappeared for those three years following their graduation.
Actually, if not for Yao Mingyue's sudden return, perhaps according to An Nuannuan's plans, waiting until Xu Musen returned to the company's management...