chapter 29
29 – Senorita Seeing the Abyss
In the heart of every life there is a base desire.
In the corner of the man’s heart, who stares blankly at a beauty passing by, how can he have a wet bed with that beauty? as there is
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Just as a wealthy man with a lot of money looks down at a beggar and feels a sense of psychological superiority. Or, looking up at the rich man, how can I make that money mine? as the beggar thought.
It’s embarrassing to the extent that I can’t proudly reveal it to others, but it’s not wrong. In the first place, whether humans, demons, elves, or monsters, innate desires exist in everyone. Why would our Lord create life and infuse desire? It all has a deep meaning.
However, life forms a society and suppresses desire. Putting sticky desires that cannot be seen by others deep in the heart, they wear a mask derived from their true self.
I take off that mask To be precise, it gently coaxes out the lowly desires that decorate the bottom. Greed for those who desire lust, lust for those who desire lust, pleasure for those who desire pleasure.
Most of my desires are not easy to achieve, but I am a magician. A fantasy villain who creates miracles and turns the impossible into the possible.
Those who are aware of their desires are soaked in them and cannot escape. I like the look. it’s kind of a deal They give me pleasure, and I give them pleasure.
That’s why I want anarchy. A society that obstructs natural savagery may be efficient and moral, but it is very ugly to look at.
I’ve only seen one person, a being with no filthy desires. Even the ‘hero’, who was so good that I could count them among the people I’ve seen, chose corruption at the last moment, but she was an intense woman that I could never forget.
virgin mary.
Among the desires she had in her life, the lowest thing was to kiss me once. It’s not lowly, it’s a cute desire.
Because I am also life, I have desires. it’s fun to play I play by staining the world with evil, I always lack, but a corner of my heart is not satisfied, but I play hide-and-seek in search of something that will make me complete.
“Whew… … It was fun after a long time. I feel relieved.”
I played today. I finished the vengeance I had been hiding. The ‘Waltz with the Cross’ that I realized at the last minute was still thrilling enough to make my heart beat. Is it the feeling of dopamine filling up to the ends of the brain?
After completing the purification, the rosary of the saint returned to its original state. I think I can use it usefully whenever I see evil things in the future.
Letavis’ corpse was completely destroyed. Even the clothes she was wearing were all burned in front of the light burning with sacredness.
“then… Only Leonard remains.”
I dealt with Leonard by pushing him down the cliff in Endros. I really enjoyed this game, so I don’t have any regrets. Instead, I’m just a little worried about how to avoid the eyes of the Pandemonium police. I have no intention of avoiding it anyway.
Actually, I prepared everything. I just finished the show and my body is just tired. The drowsiness that comes over me keeps making me drowsy.
But you shouldn’t lose to mere desire to sleep. A great magician can clean up after work. Shouldn’t I, a veteran among veterans, be unable to clean things up?
Seruk-.
I took off the mask I was wearing. Then, he found the place where Leonard fell and threw it lightly down the cliff.
The concavely curled white and stiff cotton cuts through the darkness and falls. The scream of the mask is the sound of the wind. Instead of desperate emotions, it contains a sense of speed.
Hui-yi- Perseok.
The sound of the mask’s scream ending was heard. I wonder if the mask I threw was well placed next to Leonard, but I’m looking forward to it.
He put the pocket knife in his left pocket and the cross in his right pocket. I got up, straightened my back, and looked around.
The night air is cool and quiet. This precipitous cliff, said to have been created by the huge breath shot by the dragon king Endros, is empty except for a few rocks. There are lush bushes on top of the cliff.
On such a cliff, I painted. Some red paint was sprayed on, and black burn marks were also engraved here and there. Very satisfied. In the past and in the future, probably no one would do anything like this.
Later, while taking a cold shower, I asked, ‘Who am I?’, and an additional item was added to the answer. ‘The demons who marked the territory on the cliff of Dragon King Endros’. nice… this is it
I turned my steps and started heading to where I should be. My haven, the Duke of the North. Adela, you have to sort out your relationship with your aunt.
The bright moon is so bright.
My shadow in the moonlight is also elongated.
I was obviously wearing white clothes, but the shadows were black. The moon reflects the fact that no matter how much I wear a white shell, my ugly essence will not change.
What a cheeky month.
I’m an apostle of God now, but somehow the moon defines me.
*****
Knock-!
The door is open.
you come in
“surprise-! My sister and little mother! How have you been!”
A brother and nephew covered in blood enters.
“… … ! Oops! town!”
Seeing the owner of the room open the door proudly and enter, the aunt was startled. However, I was only surprised and could not scream once. It is because he is still locked in a closet with his mouth sealed with a hard gag.
Adela was in the middle of the room. There, like a hypnotized cat, it was staring blankly into space. She didn’t even look at me.
The phantom magic I laid down worked successfully. It has the effect of replacing almost all of Horus’ eggs.
“Ugh! town… !”
The little mother who makes a fuss and rattles next to her. I approached my mother-in-law first. She was first surprised when she saw the blood on my clothes, and second when she smelled the blood.
“hahahaha, from the looks of it, it seems you haven’t been doing very well. I should have looked more closely, sorry.”
“… .”
“I’ll let you go first, so listen to me. I don’t even want to kill my uncle.”
Even my mother-in-law, she said. The meaning of these words is clear.
“Ugh… .”
The more she stares at me, the more fear creeps into her eyes. I must have guessed what I was doing and the smell was added.
Still, you have to find a way to live. Because the basic instinct of life is ‘survival’. The little mother nodded once. It meant acceptance.
Sreureuk- Tuk.
Gagged and unbound. Of course, no matter how free she is, she can’t do anything as long as I’m in front of her.
She was already subdued by me once. The only thing a psychologically defeated person can do is finish the tail. Besides, since she is now at her age when she wears a magician’s hat and looks relatively tall, her terrified mother didn’t think of coming out of the closet even though she was free.
“Come out at once. I will escort you like a gentleman.”
“… !”
“Why are you so cold? Where is a kind demon like me? Don’t you believe that this precious opportunity will come again?”
Toward her, I put my left hand behind my back and reached out my right hand while lowering the back of my hand. My aunt came out of the wardrobe hesitantly without holding my right hand.
It’s a bit unfortunate that the favor was rejected, but there’s nothing you can do about it. From the moment you force a favor, it becomes a threat. I love intimidation, but for now I’m a gentleman joker.
“It seems our Senorita doesn’t know manners very well. Kick kick.”
“Ah, that, uh… .”
“Then, will you be polite and straightforward? Isn’t it rude to take away your mother’s precious time?”
I am nine years old. A good child should be polite. That’s a social convention.
A little mother holding the elbow of the other hand with one hand. It doesn’t look like the arm is numb because it’s been tied up for so long. Perhaps, it is to calm the turbulent heart. i have to help
“First of all, as you might have guessed, both Leonard and Letavis are dead! I just killed you! My uncle’s dear son!”
“… !”
If you explode your shaking heart, it calms down on its own. why? If you don’t calm down, your heart will break. All living beings have an instinct to long for life, so if you fall in a predicament, it will come up on its own.
She was shocked more than I thought, perhaps because I heard it in person. Her unfocused eyes twitched.
Full-.
Perhaps the strength in her legs gave way, and her mother fell helplessly on the floor. Soon after, tears began to fall like chicken droppings from her lost eyes.
As a half-brother, Dori, you shouldn’t make it difficult for your aunt. I knelt down in front of her. It is the best if you put your elbows on your knees and pose as if you are touching them slightly.
“Are you sad?”
“Huh… black… Less, Leonard… .”
“What are you so sad about?”
“Ooh, my son… Leonard is dead… .”
“Aha, is it painful that your son died? Just, are you sad and can’t calm down? Is your dead son’s face lingering in your blurred vision?”
Nodding endlessly, the mother-in-law cried sadly. I don’t feel any false emotions.
The mother-in-law is heartily grieved. The real reason can only be discovered with careful thought. I knew it as soon as I saw it
“I thought you were sad because your investment was dead, not your son! Wasn’t my aunt a very affectionate person?”
“what… ?”
“what? but is it weird? Since when did you have affection for demons? Isn’t that kind of soft feeling common to humans and elves?”
“… !”
“hahahahaha, you did a good job acting. That was it. You should have paid more attention to motivation than acting. There’s no reason to be sad, so what’s the use of good acting?”
At my words that hit the mark, my aunt raised her head in surprise. Her wet face, covered with tears, faces me.
“Don’t talk like that… ! Our Leonard died… how… .”
Inside her bright red eyes, a boy with the corners of his mouth hanging on both earlobes is contained.
“Oh right. Were you sincere when you sobbed? The excuse that my son died is just a vain lie. I was mistaken.”
“Oh, how could you say that… !”
“Asmodians are evil beings by birth. Maternal love exists for breeding, but it completely disappears as soon as the baby is five years old. Leonard is already 10 years old, and there’s no way his mother’s maternal love will remain.”
Demons are a mixture of the ugliness of humans and the depravity of demons. There is no room for trivial feelings like love.
So what is Adela who loves me and loves her family? Adela is an idiot. Originally, a fool sees everything in the world as beautiful.
“Let go of your heart. Open your real eyes. Then, you will see a new world.”
“What are you talking about… .”
“Face your true heart. Look at the low abyss that lies beneath you. Then the abyss will also look at you.”
“Really… ?”
“Yes, true heart. Your true heart, wrapped up in love and maternal love. Aren’t you curious? Oh, if you get confused, can I give you some hints?”
The reason why the high and low ranks are mixed is because the distinction between the upper and lower ranks is mixed. Let there be light in chaos. In the midst of chaos there will be enlightenment.
“When the body becomes an adult and the successor is decided, the demon who became the successor is wary of the other two demons. It’s natural. There’s no guarantee that if you leave it there, you won’t get hit in the back of the head and break your head. Alright, then I’ll give you a problem here. When the brother demons are purged, what will happen to the demons related to them?”
“that… .”
“The answer is, we all die together! Same reason! Why do you keep the related demons alive, in other words, those who could be a danger!”
“Um… .”
“Because this is the culture of most families in the demon realm, an implicit trend has developed in the demon realm. When family members compete for succession, they choose the most competitive candidate and fully support it! to survive! Neither do you! You said you applied because you loved your son? Don’t f*ck with Cerberus! You helped Leonard because you didn’t want to die! why? If Leonard is pushed out of the succession, you will be dead too!”
There is a ripple. It is a ripple that breaks someone’s heart. It is very difficult to admit one’s filthy inner thoughts.
because of conscience The conscience that Saint Maria pulled out of the Western Duke Lilith Clanain and stimulated in her previous life.
Everyone has a dirty mind. Conscience makes us ashamed and unwilling to admit it. That’s why I break my conscience. Because the true heart and true appearance are covered by conscience.
“You must have been aware of it. Being wrapped in a false name means that you were aware of it originally. You just covered it up and forgot about it. The reason you were sad was that the tower you had invested so much effort into collapsed and your lifeline was cut off. Kick kick.”
“… .”
“Are you sure you know now? the difference between those two? You can’t confuse this. At first glance, it may seem trivial, but that motive makes a clear difference.”
At the direct words that reminded me of my truth, my aunt was silent. It’s a silence that calms my troubled mind and gives me time to mull over the words I whispered.
After a long silence, the mother-in-law opens her mouth.
“how.”
“Hmm?”
“What do you want from me… ?”
A little mother who asks the long-awaited question.
“What do you want?”
“Yeah, what the hell did you want from me, to say such cruel things… .”
“Isn’t there anything like that? I just want you to be aware of your true heart.”
“what… … ?”
“Really! I’m not a demon to make plans like that, right? hahahaha. So now the business is over? Where are you going?”
clap-.
Having said that, I walked over to the door and grabbed the doorknob. To be precise, a trap was set to psychologically pressure the mother-in-law so that she could go well.
“… wait for a sec.”
bingo.
got caught
dump-!
It’s the same as before, but with a different sound. He smiled brightly and turned his head.
“why?”
Then, my mother came into view, kneeling down towards me.
“Sah, save me.”
“yes? do you want to live? Why am I killing my uncle?”
“Everything you said is right. The reason I was sad was because everyone was worried about my safety. It’s not because I’m worried about that guy, Leonard.”
“Is that what you said earlier?”
“I, I don’t want to die like this! don’t help you! It means that I will be your second guardian! Oscar, you know that too! At this rate, even if you don’t kill me, I will eventually die… !”
“Ah, giggle giggle giggle.”
Oops, laughter is not the subject. I have no intention of hiding it.
“You don’t get along well with my mother, will you be okay?”
“of course! Mom, if you give me your life… ! I will show all my allegiance to you!”
“To believe in the loyalty of someone who has already betrayed your child once?”
“That, it is… !”
“Ahahahaha, stop it. Instead of loyalty, I’ll believe in your ugliness. Your clever ugliness, which throws away maternal love and affection and only weighs gains and losses, gives me trust. I’m a gambler who only bets when I’m sure.”
“Ug, ugliness… .”
Leonard and Letavis are both dead anyway. I am the only successor. The only room my mother-in-law can live in is, of course, mine.
I am a ray of wind that blows to a kite that has fallen off the string. The only savior who reaches out to the poor demons. A very exemplary and desirable apostle of the Lord.
He held out his hand once again. A different, meaningful hand looks at the little mother.
“Here, take my hand. To celebrate becoming business partners, you should shake hands.”
After swallowing a single gulp, the mother-in-law reached out and held my hand.
“then. I look forward to seeing you in the future, Senorita.”