Philstar or Gaju’s Regression

191Ch 62. Old (7)

“…… what? ”

He loses what he has to say.

I didn’t think there was such a connection between Lanancy and the Philstein family.

“The city of Lanagnais was created to eliminate the first hybrid transcendental species of your ancestors, and you can ironically define them as hybrids with both blood. ”

And as Fitzgerald said, that blood is flowing all over his body.

“… What do you mean? ”

Looking at Loan, who was so confused by it, Fitzgerald shrugs.

“Your ancestors were human beings of a different dimension, but when they became a hybrid transcendental species, none of them could be easily killed. The abilities they had were weaker than the transcendental species, but they were very diverse and experienced enough to survive longer than the old ones, so they were different in terms of capacity utilization. With that ability, there were a lot of people who kept blaspheming the plans of the Great Old Ones and running away hoping to kill Danny, but there was no way to catch him. ”

I am not your enemy.

“So the Great Old Ones have no evil, no. Rather, it created a city so pure, so close to human standards. It has a deadly charm that captivates all creatures so that they cannot be vigilant, but it is a creature with the nature of a polemic superstition that can kill the dark spirits or other transcendental traits of existence itself. ”

As Fitzgerald explains in detail,

“… is this why Ranjanesi came here to find my ancestor? To get rid of him? ”

Loan asks with a dark face.

“Yes. But if there are variables, this Rananchi is made too naive to be wary of, so he wandered off on his own without finding the target, the hybrid transcendental species. It was too much less. ”

It was understandable to think of Genovese, who had great laxity.

“Ugh, hmm. ”

Let’s empathize with Loan, not empathize.

“In the meantime, a hybrid transcendental species interacts with humans here, resulting in a hybrid family called the Philstein family. ”

Fitzgerald pointed at him with his finger and said,

“…. That’s what it was. ”

At the end of the day, Loan was able to resolve some of the questions about the city of Lane that Genovese had not answered before.

I never thought it would be this intertwined.

“But if so, how? ”

Therefore, a natural question arose.

“How could I have been born? ”

Contrary to its purpose, Lanagnais strayed from the southern aquifer and took root there, and the Philstein family took root in Rosesta, which is quite far from the aquifer.

With the passing of generations, Genovese eventually came to Nero, and somehow Willian and Stella met.

And Loan was born.

“If existence itself is a play, isn’t that impossible? ”

Between them, as Fitzgerald put it, the ultimate drama is fatal enough.

“That’s why it’s interesting. This is possible because the blood has been diluted over generations. ”

“….. I can do that. ”

“But I didn’t think that blend would be born. Especially in this diluted state, I had no idea that someone with a strong genetic trait like you would be born. ”

At that end, Fitzgerald nodded boldly, hoping that he too would be unexpected.

“But as you say, that can’t be possible between the Lannissies and the Philsteins who are close to each other. Especially if I have strong characteristics. ”

Was it hard to believe?

Fitzgerald shrugs in response to Loan’s question, which led to his resumption.

“Probably superhuman patience. ”

And in what he said,

“What?”

Loan stares at him with a flaw.

“According to you, Rananxi and the Mixed Transcendental Species are each other’s plays. So since you were born where you couldn’t survive in the first place, you must have awakened the blood of the Dark Spirit to survive the moment you were fertilized. You must have survived for 10 months in the body of Lane City, which remained diluted, so you must have continuously touched the inherent power of the hybrid transcendental species. Ironically, because it acted as a stimulant, I don’t think I was born with the characteristics of the Dark Spirit that are directly related to my survival instincts. ”

Fitzgerald speaks with a face full of interest in his eyes.

“…… Dark Young. ”

Is that the reason for your other endurance or motor nerves?

And finally, as Ian nodded,

“But that means that Rananxi also died in pain together. ”

Fitzgerald smiles at him as if the story isn’t over yet.

“What?”

As soon as he hears that, Ron’s face hardens terribly.

“Just as you were born in a place of death, Rangoon also had poison in your body for ten months. ”

I thought I could tell what Fitzgerald was going to say now, even if I didn’t listen to him anymore.

The reason his mother Stella died of illness.

“Of course, since you were born, you wouldn’t have died right now, but you wouldn’t have lived long in the aftermath. ”

That’s because of you.

I can’t believe my mother’s illness was conceived because she didn’t know the cause.

I can’t believe the reason she died was because of herself!

“ ……. ”

In the sadness and anguish I felt with those eyes,

“But thanks to you, you became a more evolved transcendental species. The power of Lanyon City is not working, and the power of Lanyon City’s enchantment is still buried. It has become a superior species that is incomparable to humans. ”

As Fitzgerald comforted me.

It seemed like he was trying to comfort you in his own way.

“… shut up. ”

It couldn’t be comforting.

It can’t be easy for anyone to believe that their mother’s death is because of them.

“…… damn it. ”

I didn’t want it, and even if no one knows, it’s even worse if the cause is itself.

I hit my head with a hammer in an unexpected way.

It’s a very young time, but let’s still think of the image of a good mother Stella….

“ ……. ”

I burst into tears.

Following the death of Emilia, whom I saw as a welcome before, to the death of her mother.

The pain of the flesh was not so great, but the pain of the heart was much greater.

Why me? ’

Then I couldn’t help but think like this.

Why it’s so hard to live here.

Why does this only happen to me!

Loan grabbed his head in a stuffy headache,

“You want to get away with everything, right? ”

Soon Fitzgerald spoke again.

It sounds a little sarcastic, but it’s not because it’s malicious.

“…… yes. To be honest.”

Knowing that, Loan sighs without much repulsion.

“I don’t know why it’s all me. If I could get back the time, I’d rather be gone from my mother’s womb. ”

Fitzgerald, who was an enemy, and who may still be quite annoying.

It would be ridiculous to say that to him, but I couldn’t help it.

He was the only one who knew everything.

Fitzgerald looked a little humble in the way of Loan.

“Well……. ”

And he said,

“Basically, this world flows on a prescribed net. So even if you turn back time a few times, the basic flow is the same thing. That can’t be changed even if you go back to the fetus. Your mother’s blood was diluted through the generations. After all, she was part of the world, and she was destined to be. Even if you died, you would have died like that. Nothing more than not going back before I meet your father. ”

Her death was inevitable.

In addition to knowing about time regressions,

“…… did you already know? ”

Loan asks again with a face still wet with grief.

“I don’t know exactly how many times I’ve repeated it. But there’s a sense of overlap. The situation now clearly seems to have gone through somewhere, but I would like to make a point. Humans don’t stop there, but we do. This feeling is never a coincidence, and it also means that these things are not the first. Perhaps the world has already repeated this many times, and all of us in it have been living in the same fate. ”

Then Fitzgerald turned around and said,

“But this is the first time. This is something I’ve never been through before. Even though I was defeated by humans, even though I was a set of armies, I wanted the survival of individuals, and I even got to tell this story. Maybe it had something to do with me before you crossed the line. Previous emotions continue to accumulate and overlap. ”

At the end of the day, Loan thought of Juffy without my knowledge.

Jufi, who became a serial killer and targeted himself, was perhaps awakened to the new Lan Tegos.

That’s why the current Lan Tegos is different.

And Ludwig, who showed great hatred and repulsion toward himself, seemed to understand easily if he thought about it.

In the meantime, Fitzgerald looked at the moon with his back closed.

“Isn’t it fun anyway? This is all about you. ”

Then Loan sighed,

“What do you want to say? ”

I threw a question.

I didn’t know who the Apostle of Chaos was, but I found out about his blood and secrets anyway.

That is also a very difficult level of information to handle.

So there’s nothing strange about Fitzgerald right now.

No, I didn’t really want to hear more.

“You change the flow and the rules. ”

But he didn’t intend to stop with it.

Let’s hear the surprises again.

“What?”

Loan turned to a powerless face.

“The lineages of Lannyashi and Mixed Transcendental species have gradually diluted, eventually becoming perceived as belonging to this world from the outside. But after the blood of both of you, the sleepwalking lineage blinked, you were perceived not to belong to this world. In other words, it should not exist in this world, it should not exist in the future. ”

According to Fitzgerald’s answer, Loan sighed again.

Now, his explanation wasn’t easy to understand.

But roughly in summary, Loan was again perceived as an external being, with the blood of the exterior being neutralized through the generations.

That would have been an unscheduled event in this world.

“Even if we turn back time a few times, the destiny is the same. ”

Soon Fitzgerald continued.

“But you don’t. Of course, other time regressors will have some influence on the prescribed rules, but they are basically not within the prescribed rules and limits. Even if you can use it with future information, you can’t live a completely different life because there’s an ecologically defined category. ”

That means that all beings born in this world have their own destiny rules.

“But you can live as many lives as you want. There is no set rule. Like, you’re like a rock that rises alone on a flowing river. Unlike everything else, it’s not swept away by the flow, it’s what you can live with. ”

And unlike them, Loan, perceived as outside,

“There are no rules……. ”

Defined categories or roles, i.e..

It would mean that fate does not exist at all.

“Yeah, and that doesn’t even affect the surroundings. For example, Duke Pandaghan’s private life somehow had a defined flow of being the heir to the Pandaghan family, but now you don’t know what to expect. How many human beings have experienced this kind of contact? You’re completely out of the rules and roles. ”

And according to Fitzgerald’s description,

“…… is that so. ”

Loan nods, touching the side of his head that began to shrink at an extremely rapid pace.

Certainly the future of Damos and Povos will flow in a completely different direction than the future he knows.

No, that’s not all.

As Fitzgerald said, almost everyone in his relationship flowed to a completely different fate than before.

If the previous life that Loan went through was their destiny.

Not only that, but all the connections that we will meet in the future will also be different.

Just like Jen or Altair did.

“The most interesting thing here is that it would have happened in all the time zones that have been repeated. ”

“…… in every time zone that has been repeated so far? ”

“Yes, even if you weren’t a party to the time regression, you would have needed to change the scheduled flow. In this world where the rise and destruction of the Ariman Church is scheduled, you will be forced to take advantage of a defeat called you who has the power to overturn it. ”

Although not all the time regressions are known, Loan could not add otherwise to Fitzgerald’s words, which predict the overall aspect relatively accurately since the rise of the Ariman Church.

He didn’t even know the truth about the previous time zone.

But there was a time when Emilia was a lover, and there was a time when Angelina was a lover before that, so there was a good chance that Fitzgerald was right.

‘Emilia…. ’

And it was at the end of the day that he might have been the biggest regent to know the identity of Emilia.

“So you would always be forced to be at the center of fate, and in conclusion, the causal rate would collapse. ”

In the words of Fitzgerald,

“What does causality mean? ”

Loan recalls the voice of the Progenitor Jean, whom he met in his dream.

That the causal rate should no longer be blurred.

“It means destiny or rules are broken and shattered. In fact, you’re not part of this world, so you should never be subject to time regression. But you went back in time, didn’t you? ”

At the end of the day, Loan pauses.

“…… yes. ”

In fact, I did.

If Angelina had gone through time before Emilia, the easiest way to deal with a powerful enemy, the Ariman Church, would have been to hand him the Tatag’s necklace.

But she didn’t.

Emilia received the necklace and was handed over to Roan through her.

It also leaves a very meaningful gap in Emilia’s heart.

“…… Do I think that going back in time could have a catastrophic impact on this world? ”

“Of course.”

What if all that was transcendental, like Nialie?

I don’t know how things have been going on that I haven’t imagined in a very long time.

“After……. ”

I think that while Ian was sighing again,

“Anyway, that’s what started to happen. It’s starting to go against the rules. Maybe that’s why Nialatotep came back to Dreamland. The world where things are scheduled to disappear, new things start to happen, and chaos begins to spread, is his favorite place. ”

Loan sighed deeply at Fitzgerald’s simple answer, which quickly followed.

The presence of Nialie was clearly unprecedented.

“Because of me, after all? What’s all this? ”

“Yes, to put it simply. ”

As Fitzgerald put it, that’s why things got more complicated and confusing.

“Damn it……. ”

Loan became a very distressing face.

In the meantime, I didn’t care what the word Dreamland meant by Fitzgerald, but maybe it’s the language of the Lane Tegos that refers to this world.

Right now, more than ever,

“…… I shouldn’t have existed in the first place. ”

The self-esteem was greater.

It was unchanged that Mother Stella’s death was because of herself.

And the cause of all the confusion that was going on was also likely to be himself.

Then it was only my heart that really wanted to disappear from this world.

“What an irony, isn’t it? You don’t belong in this world. You’re holding the key to this world. If you continue to change your destiny, if you are loved by people, the more chaos there will be, and if you disappear, there will be disasters of its own. The other humans won’t be able to stop it. ”

It looks like a mockery, but it might actually be Fitzgerald’s interest.

“I think it would be fun to watch what choices you make in the meantime. What kind of world is this going to change? ”

The unexpected future will stimulate the intellectual curiosity of higher life.

On that face full of joy,

“… after…. ”

Loan sighs again.

I’m shocked now that I don’t even think I want to punish Yale.

But, uh…

“Let me ask you one question. ”

This did not mean that everything could not be avoided.

“Anything.”

“Then Nialie, no. Why is Nialatotep so obsessed with me and my ancestors? What the hell made us do this? ”

The last thing I want to know is what happened between Nialie and their lineage.

Why did you make him this ordinary human being in a different dimension?

Is that just fun, too?

And the question is,

“I don’t know exactly. ”

Fitzgerald shakes his head.

“But there was a rumor a long time ago. ”

“Rumors?”

“Other dimensions of human beings are the incarnations of a sleeping father, and that’s why transcendental species and transcendental rapids are aiming for that star, and your ancestor, among other things, is a little more special. ”

By the way,

“The incarnations of the sleeping father….. ”

Loan unexpectedly reminds me of the presence of fear in the welcome.

Nialie’s weakness, the most sensitive part, is her father.

“That’s why Nialatotep might like you. He has a special affection for the Father. ”

If all the other dimensions of man were its incarnation, inter alia, his special predecessor camp and his bloody Loan deserved Nialie’s triumph.

“Well, it’s a rumor I’ve heard for a long time, but it’s not accurate. ”

Soon Fitzgerald shook his head as if he wasn’t sure.

“Yes.”

In any case, the sauce was what I got.

I think being a father is the key word.

“… but why are you telling me all these stories? ”

Within minutes, Loan calms down his complex head and asks a question.

“Because you know I’m gonna be a pain in the ass if I hear this? ”

Sometimes the truth was difficult to handle, and now it was very difficult.

Suffice it to resent Fitzgerald for coming so far more faithful to the deal than he thought.

“Is that why you’re taking revenge? ”

Looking at Loan with a good heart,

“No, I have no feelings for you. You were superior to me in the first place, so you lost. And I’m loyal to my dealings with you to survive. ”

Fitzgerald surprisingly shakes his head that he has no other feelings.

“Yes.”

He’s an alien creature based on reasonably rational thinking.

So Ron nodded his head and said,

“I’m just one of the followers of Chaos. There are far greater expectations than fears or fears of the obscure or unknown. ”

Fitzgerald said with a glance of gratitude to Loan.

“Maybe the real apostle of chaos is you. ”

* * *

“Loan!”

It was everyone who came to meet Loan who returned to Claudis one day.

“What happened to him? ”

Azrad, who was walking alone without strength,

“Of course you did it nicely, didn’t you? ”

Cedric, of course.

“That’s natural, isn’t it? ”

Even Povos raised his voice.

Seeing them like that,

“… after…. ”

Loan shakes his head with a short sigh.

“No way…? ”

Everyone opens their eyes and looks at him with a face that wants to be one step late.

“Did you miss…? ”

In the eyes of worry and concern for yourself,

“No, thank goodness I got rid of it. It was just not cool. ”

Loan shakes his head with a smile.

“Aw, you surprised me! ”

“That’s it! ”

Everyone raised their voices as if they were relaxed.

“…… it’s not a big deal. ”

And when he saw them, he whispered in a cautious voice.

And then,

“Ahhh……. ”

Everyone stared at Jufi, who was standing speechlessly with Genovese.

They already know that the last Lan Tegos that Roan pursued was Fitzgerald, Jufi’s grandfather.

So he was so cautious that everyone who wanted to scratch his head,

“…… Thank you very much, Master. ”

Jufi spoke to him first with a deliberate face.

“ ……. ”

But in spite of that, Loan had no answer.

I was just staring at him, ignorant.

“Teacher?”

Is it because the delusions have matured in many pure boys?

Is it because you found out that leading him on the right path, which would turn him into a villain in Nero’s history, could lead to another chaos?

Cough.

Loan grips his fist tightly in an uncomplicated mood.

“Are you okay? ”

Is it because he seemed unusual in such a way?

On the question of a worrying juppy,

“Ah, it’s okay. ”

Loan nods late.

“Loan, are you sure you’re okay? ”

Then Genovese, a worried face, asked.

I’m more considerate than usual, but I can’t wait to see her face like I’m going to cry.

“Yeah, it’s really okay. ”

I felt sad and hard, but I couldn’t pay for my tea.

Even though his presence might be ruining everything, at least I didn’t want to make them sad.

“It just happened so much in such a short period of time. ”

And when he smiles again,

“It’s worth it. ”

Baron Evangeline nods because he doesn’t even know how he feels.

The average person is going through a lifetime of hard work.

“Are you sure you’re okay? ”

“That’s it, Broder. I’m worried because I look so tired. ”

Soon, I touched upon Povos and Cedric’s sincere concern.

“… now leave it to us to rest. ”

“I think you’d better. ”

The same goes for Marcus and Azrad.

“Lord Philstein….. ”

They, as well as all those who fought together in Nero, were looking at him with worrying eyes.

“ ……. ”

Loan, who felt the affections he had never experienced before in their eyes, laughed at me without knowing.

I don’t know what will happen in the future, but what is clear is that they feel more rewarding in their eyes.

Because of this, the existing rules were broken, and the process of confusion was clearly better than before.

Obviously, it’s going in a much better direction than it used to be.

I don’t know what the end will be, but if we don’t take a step forward, we won’t be able to move forward.

Even so, I didn’t want to stand still.

“ ……. ”

The absence of a prescribed rule may mean that you can do everything.

Is it doomed or chaos for the better tomorrow?

Wouldn’t it be better to add meaning to the latter?

‘…. Yes, I’ll do anything. Anything.’

Loan, who was so heartbroken, took a deep breath and said,

“I’m going to drink it until it’s sunny. ”

And with all the pain and suffering behind him, he smiled.

“Does anyone want to go with you to the end? ”

Everyone shrugged together looking at him like that.

“Who’s going to the end? ”

“What do you do with that? ”

I think I need to ask.

“Aah.”

And then Loan could really laugh.

Salfin Povos laughed at the atmosphere and said, “It’s all over now.

“Of course, Sir Philstein does the math, right? ”